Tower Moon GL

In love, whoever gets emotional first loses the beginning, and is doomed to worry about gains and losses while waiting.

Ji Xunyue had already thought many times that there might be someone more suitable for her in Zhilou's life, if so, how should she choose.

And fate, after all, came to this step.

The guest mentioned by Zhilou's mouth appeared on the day of Xiaonian, without any warning, but it seemed to come by fate.

She went out once in a while, and together with Zhilou and Luo Chen, she bought some things needed for the New Year's Eve. The three of them talked and laughed and walked towards the small courtyard. As soon as they saw the door of the small courtyard, Zhilou's footsteps stopped.Following her amazed and joyful eyes, Ji Xunyue's heart sank.

The green clothes are light, the face is as delicate as a white lotus emerging from water, a pair of sharp and cold eyes express unruly worldly aloofness, and a sword is held in her hand. The woman exudes an aura of repulsion.It's just that when she looked over, the frozen breath shattered in an instant, and there was a bit of imperceptible tenderness in her eyes.

It was this kind of tenderness that made Ji Xunyue's heart sink into the abyss in an instant.Facing this unknown woman, she inexplicably felt a little inferior.

"Yangran!" Zhilou let go of Luo Chen, stepped forward a few steps, and stood in front of the woman, with surprise that could not be concealed in his voice.

The woman nodded slightly, with a smile on her face, her eyes fell on Ji Xunyue behind Zhilou.

Ji Xunyue walked over slowly, feeling that her steps were very heavy, and every time she took a step, her heart sank even further into the abyss.She didn't avoid the woman's gaze, and walked forward to meet the cold gaze. The two looked at each other quietly for a while, and the woman suddenly raised the corners of her mouth, and a look of dismay flashed across her eyes.

"Miss Ji, I am Chu Yangran."

Ji Xunyue was a little uncomfortable with the quack-style greeting, but still nodded.Obviously, this must be the guest that Zhilou said, but... Zhilou never mentioned her name to her, but this woman named Chu Yangran knew herself.

"It's Zhilou's friend, please come in." Ji Xunyue pushed open the courtyard door, Luo Chen seemed a little afraid of this cold uninvited guest, and stepped forward to grab his mother's lapel.Ji Xunyue tilted her head and patted his head, took him by the hand, looked back at the two of them, and took Chu Yangran's thoughtful gaze into her eyes.

"I'm going to tidy things up, Zhilou, you can welcome Miss Chu first." Ji Xunyue took the things in Zhilou's hand, and led Luo Chen into the back room.

Zhilou, who had been in a daze since just now, seemed to have reacted. Seeing that Ji Xunyue had already left, he met Chu Yangran's eyes in a panic. Sure enough, the man was looking at him with a look in his eyes. Unspeakable smile.

"You, come in first..." Zhilou avoided her gaze a little bit at a loss, and entered the yard by himself, but before he walked a few steps, he heard a soft sigh from behind.

"Seeing her, I finally know why you hesitated, but I'm not your guest."

Zhilou's body froze, she closed her eyes behind Chu Yangran's back, then turned around, and the moment she met Chu Yangran's gaze, her pupils shrank a little, but she still didn't escape.

"I let you down. In fact, I never thought that I was such a cowardly person."

"It's not that you're cowardly." Chu Yangran shook his head and walked over, "You have too many things in your heart, and it's not willing to let go."

Zhilou was speechless, it was actually her fault that the person in front of her could say such words, but now, she has no time to distinguish right from wrong.

"Let's go, I really want to get to know her well, someone you can't let go of anyway." Chu Yangran sighed again, and walked straight in.

Zhilou stood there in a daze, and unconsciously caressed his chest with his palm, his heart was too messed up.

Since it was the New Year's Eve and it was a rare reunion, the three of them spent a lot of time planning.Zhilou originally thought that Chu Yangran would come back after the new year at home, but he didn't expect that she would come here at this time, and she would be a little embarrassed when facing Ji Xunyue and Luo Chen.

But both Ji Xunyue and Chu Yangran seemed to be unaware, and the conversation was harmonious and harmonious. Chu Yangran was lonely and cold, but when facing Ji Xunyue, he restrained a lot, even for Luo Chen. Zhilou was a little surprised by showing affinity.

On the 23rd of the twelfth lunar month, Shaoxing people have the custom of giving away the Kitchen God. Zhilou and Chu Yangran are not locals, but Ji Xunyue is a native of Shaoxing, and he has never had a good New Year's Eve since his family broke down, let alone these customs. It's hard to settle down now, and it's not as deserted as last year, so these things are taken seriously.

Zhilou wanted to help her with something, but then looked at Chu Yangran, seeming a little hesitant.Chu Yangran had a natural expression and ignored her, but she helped Ji Xunyue herself, and Ji Xunyue didn't refuse, and it seemed that the building was superfluous for a while, so she had no choice but to go out with Luo Chen in her arms It's breathable.

In the next few days, according to the usual practice, we will bless the Bodhisattva and worship the ancestors, because not everyone, these are kept simple, but in the small courtyard, the taste of the year is getting more and more full.Zhilou saw that Chu Yangran had a half-master attitude, and the entanglement and worry in her heart gradually dissipated. In her heart, she also sincerely hoped that the two women around her could accept each other.Although every time she saw the smiles of the two of them, she still felt guilty, but she couldn't tell who.

Before you know it, it’s New Year’s Eve, and the small yard is filled with the joy and warmth of the New Year’s Eve.The happiest thing is Luo Chen. He was not lucky in his growth, and this New Year's Eve will always be imprinted in his memory.The gentle mother, the kind Zhilou, and that inexplicable but naturally integrated woman.

Tonight is full of people and love, don't expect to be happy again in the future.

Early the next morning, Luo Chen shouted to go to the theater. Zhilou wanted to ask Ji Xunyue and Chu Yangran to go together, but the two tacitly declined. In desperation, she had no choice but to take Zhilou by herself. Went to the theater.

When the yard became quiet, the two of them glanced at each other, Chu Yangran suddenly smiled, "I've always been surprised that Zhilou obviously had some unresolved knots with her sister Zhiyue, and Zhiyue has already left , who else would make her care so much."

"She called me sister, and she really treated me sincerely." Ji Xunyue smiled lightly.

"I have known her for a year. She is not a complicated person. I thought I knew her already, but now it seems that I am too confident."

"People's hearts are always complicated," Ji Xunyue handed her a cup of tea, her eyes were gentle but determined, "Miss Chu, please forgive me, Xun Yue wants to come, Miss Chu is not an ordinary friend of Zhilou."

Chu Yangran paused, and exchanged glances with her, for the first time, there was a trace of submission in those pupils written with indifference, "I never thought that a human heart would be so uncontrollable. Since I was a child, I always looked down on anyone, and I thought that I would be alone in my life, and no one would think that I would be just a common man in the world."

Ji Xunyue nodded clearly, they might not look alike at all, but the way Miss Chu looked at that person was all too familiar to her, how could she not have guessed it.

"Actually, this person is quite worthless, Miss Ji, am I right?" Chu Yangran took a sip of tea, "It's still a daisy in winter, does she know what she's thinking?"

"How could she not know." Ji Xunyue smiled wryly, "Before I realized it, she had already grown up."

"Miss Ji, I envy you very much, and you should also envy me. You have known her for many years, and you have engraved it on her heart, and I have met her now, the best of her." Chu Yangran narrowed his eyes slightly, the chill on his body had faded away.Zhilou once envied her tenderness to Songyun, but never thought that this piece of ice would melt clean because of her.

"Yes, I envy you, but I have nothing to regret. Meeting her is already a blessing in this life. Maybe it's too early, but I can't wait. If there is no her, there will be no future, so what? What is your regret at this time?"

"It sounds like you let go."

"How can I let it go?" Ji Xunyue laughed at herself secretly, "But Miss Chu, I can't argue with you anymore. She will regard me as the closest sister, but she can't be that identity. The distance is too close. I have The most special place in her heart is destined not to be there. The people around her should be ordinary people."

"She likes you, but she is too serious. She is obsessed with Zhiyue, but she is obsessed with you." Chu Yangran sighed, although with her nature, she shouldn't feel sorry for those who compete with her. , but she still admires this woman, knowing it clearly, but still has no complaints.

Wisdom will be hurt, and deep love will not last.

"I don't blame her, besides, she has someone beside her who is truly worthy of her life. Ms. Chu, she has changed a lot this year, probably because of you."

Chu Yangran narrowed his eyes slightly, as if he was recalling something, "Oh, yes, although she is not a worthy person, but I really thought that I also tied her heart. She has revealed her heart to me, after all She's not really a cowardly person, but I didn't expect that when I thought the dust had settled, she suddenly couldn't let go of her obsession."

"But since I've identified her, I can't change it in this life. Love is always indifferent at the beginning, maybe too casual, but after going crazy, no matter what the result is, I will admit it. Only I know, this Once in a lifetime."

The room fell silent, Ji Xunyue looked at the woman in front of her silently, and suddenly envied her, not because she met Zhilou, whom she had never seen before, but because she could still say these words without fear , and I, no matter how unwilling I am, have already been smoothed out by reality.She no longer had the energy to fight.

"I made an agreement with her. I let her come back first. When I go to find her, she will give me the answer. But you really let her fall too fast here. Maybe I made a wrong decision. However, this agreement is also a bet between me and myself, and now, I am willing to admit defeat." Chu Yangran drank the tea in his cup and stood up, "Don't bother me any more, let me leave now."

"Wait!" Seeing that she was really going to leave, Ji Xunyue hurriedly stopped her, "You are already the person in her heart, why bother forcing her, she just can't bear it."

"Miss Ji, you are so smart, don't you know that if you are willing to give up, you must have something to give up. I am not forcing her, but you don't understand me. I am not Zhiyue, nor you."

Saying that, she walked out of the hut, took only the sword she had brought, and left without stopping.

Ji Xunyue stared blankly at the figure coming out of the yard. She really didn't understand, but she knew that Chu Yangran was completely different from her and Zhiyue.

When Zhilou came back, she had a smile on her face, but she froze when she stepped into the courtyard gate. Inexplicably, she felt that something was missing in her heart.

"She's gone, Zhilou, you've kept her waiting too long." Ji Xunyue said flatly as she greeted her out.

"Gone?" Zhilou's face paled instantly, "She... didn't leave anything behind?"

Ji Xunyue shook her head, led Luo Chen into the back room, leaving Zhilou standing stiffly at the door.

She couldn't be as free and easy as Chu Yangran, so the choice should be left to Zhilou.

After coaxing Luo Chen to sleep at night, Ji Xunyue left the house. Chu Yangran lived with Zhilou these days, and the light in that room was still on.

"She is really determined." Seeing Ji Xunyue entering the door, Zhilou who was sitting at the table held a piece of paper in his hand and smiled wryly.

There is only one sentence on the paper: Since you are a guest from the end of the world, it would be better if you didn't know the king at the time.

"Zhilou..." Ji Xunyue finally couldn't bear it, and held her head in her arms.

"Sister..." Zhilou buried her head, her voice choked with sobs.

At this moment, Ji Xunyue seemed to understand something.

"Go to her. You like the outside world. She should accompany you to see it."

"I was wrong, I shouldn't have provoked her, but sister, I can't let you go..."

"Stupid boy, I thought you'd grown up, but you're still so confused." Ji Xunyue lowered her head, her eyes were as gentle as water.

"Sister is your responsibility and your obsession, but I can't accompany you to see the world. The future is still so long, you shouldn't give up for me."

"No, my sister is someone Zhilou likes, Zhilou can't leave her behind!" Zhilou raised his head suddenly, and said eagerly.

"Sister, you can't change it anymore, Zhilou, you only called my name once."

Zhilou froze for a moment, blankness was written in his eyes again.

"You can like many people, like Zhiyue, like Songyun, like me, but Zhilou, you should understand who you love in your heart." Although these words were stabbed in her heart, Ji Xunyue still tried to smile Speak up.

"No, no, I like my sister, it's not like that..." Zhilou shook his head blankly and kept mumbling to himself.

Biting her lips tightly, she could barely hold back her tears. She believed that this sentence was what she had been waiting for for so many years. This was not deceiving herself.However, if this sentence was earlier, when she was tempted, or when they first came to Shaoxing, or even before Chu Yangran came here... But then she would be selfish... But no matter what, She will have the courage to accept this sentence, but now, she must stay awake. Zhilou who said this sentence is very confused, but she can't be.

Some things, if you miss it, you miss it, and no one can make it go back.

"Zhilou, but you've already provoked her... You said you loved her, too." Suddenly thinking of Chu Yangran's words, she blurted out this tentative sentence.

"I..." Zhilou's eyes cleared up, but the words were only half spoken.She lowered her head in annoyance, and let go of Ji Xunyue.

Sure enough... Ji Xunyue understood thoroughly, and suddenly wanted to laugh.

"My sister should think I'm a jerk." Zhilou smiled wryly, and then looked at the piece of paper that Chu Yangran left behind.

"No, Zhilou, it's not your fault. She told me today that when it comes to love, she was willing to gamble and lose."

"I would like to gamble and admit defeat..." Zhilou smiled bitterly, as expected, he was a son and daughter of the world, and he would not make the slightest humble plea.

"Zhilou, you have already seen it clearly, why hide it from yourself. She has another sentence, which is also what my sister wants to say, if you are willing, you will always get something if you are willing."

"Sister..." Zhilou stood up suddenly, and hugged her. The hug was so strong that Ji Xunyue hurt a little, but she didn't say anything, but greedily wanted to make this painful. longer hugs.

Unconsciously, we have known each other for several years.She has gone through the world from a carefree young age, through the power game, and realized the dream of a knight-errant.And she has experienced bitterness from a cardamom girl to a mother, and she has also gained long-lost peace.They became each other's most important people, but they missed another fate.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Zhilou is always breaking his promise to you... But... Zhilou doesn't want Ji Niang anymore... Ji Niang will always be an important person in Zhilou's heart..."

When we first met, she was Zhilou and Ji Niang.

The companionship she said may not be fulfilled, but she needs to know that she is well for the rest of her life.

Ji Xunyue finally let go of her selfishness for a while, stretched out her hand, and hugged the person in front of her with all her strength.

The long night is long, but there is dawn at last.

In the twilight of the morning, the red lotus that was as red as blood lay quietly in the palm of the hand. It was just the temperature on it, but no one knew who it was contaminated with.

There is a saying in the Buddhist school: those who have attained the six senses inside and the six dusts outside, everything they have, there is no one who does not give up.Those who are willing to give up have nothing to give up and nothing to gain.

Human beings are not Buddhas, and they are always unable to escape the eight sufferings.

Birth, old age, sickness, death, parting with love, long-lasting resentment, unable to ask or let go.

What is right or wrong, just can't ask for it, just can't let it go.

The author has something to say:

It's over here, it's not a short story, it will be longer than ten years soon.

Someone asked me before if it was a tragedy or a comedy, and I said it wasn't a comedy, but I didn't think it was a tragedy either.

I said before that this article originated from a dream. The dream was very real. The person in the dream was fleeing with a woman and child. I could feel that she wanted to protect these two people, but she didn’t love that woman. I just regarded her as my sister. After waking up, I couldn't forget this dream for a long time. On that day, I had the name of the character and the poem in the copywriting.The subsequent plots are only gradually formed around that skeleton.

Does Zhilou like Ji Xunyue? I think so, that kind of liking, but they missed it.

The previous reader asked, wouldn't the child become a meme?My answer is, of course, their miss, Luo Chen may be the biggest factor, because of the mother's role and responsibility.

But I don't intend to give too much explanation to this arrangement. After the characters are formed, the author has nothing to do with them.

Perhaps the logic is far-fetched, and some people will complain, but I am still very satisfied. I wrote the story that existed in my heart from the beginning.

There will be episodes later, about Zhiyue, Yangran, and Xunyue.

I will write about why Zhilou fell in love with Yangran that year. Although I haven't figured out this line yet, I will write it carefully.

The next chapter will be Zhiyue's side story. I want to give this woman who has never shown her face a complete story.

When I was outside the code, I realized that the real ending of this story is not over yet, about their destination