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I understood that I started to hurt Master again, and stabbed a knife in Master's heart, but I couldn't stop. I thought I was sick, and I was suffering from the same paranoid disease as Master.

I know, I can't change Master at all.

I'm lucky that I'm not crazy.

"You are a devil..." I said to the master, "I saw it. At that time, I hid under the bed and watched you stab the sword into my mother's body..." I knew I was already trembling , but I understand that Master is more afraid than I am, because his face is already pale, even his eyes are full of extreme fear.

"Yue'er..." Master pulled my hand and looked at me with humble eyes, "Don't, don't, don't..."

"Please, do you want to make others feel uncomfortable if you feel uncomfortable?"

This is the first sentence that Caiyu came to see me and Master gave me.

Unknowingly, I have been here with Master for seven days. Even though Master has the best martial arts in the world, he is now extremely emaciated. I know that it is my masterpiece. Anyone who does not eat or drink for seven days will embarrass himself. Most people who go without food or drink for seven days are already starving to death.But am I happy?I'm not happy, I haven't been happy in a long time.

"I...I'm not feeling well." My words were so straightforward that Caiyu's face turned red and white.

It's true that I'm going crazy these days, really going crazy.

Caiyu stopped looking at me, she looked at Master.

"Master, the piece of Zhu Yu has been found, and the young master's illness has been cured."

Master's slack eyes suddenly gathered together: "Where is it?"

More than one doctor who took my pulse said that I would not live to be 20 years old, and then the master said that those people were charlatans and killed them all.I thought one person would be wrong, two people would be wrong, but three?four?In the past, Master was just deceiving himself and others. Master has always liked to deceive himself and others.

"Liuyuan, in Ji's tomb."

The master suddenly stopped all movements and muttered to himself: "Why where..."

"Master or not?" Caiyu asked the master.

"Where is Ji's tomb?" I asked suddenly.

Caiyu glanced at me suddenly, and the meaning in her eyes probably meant—go to the side of the children’s house! (Finger: Yue'er, your guess is really accurate, what Caiyu means is - little brat, go away!)

I closed my mouth, I didn't want to speak and I was afraid to speak, I always felt that something bad was about to happen, every time something bad happened like this, I seemed to be a disaster star...

Master looked at me, then at his hands: "Dig!"

I always thought that the master at this time was not hesitant, but later I realized how the current master is struggling. (Finger: Yueer, you are wrong, in fact you are right now, your master really does not hesitate. If you choose between my mother and baby, Yingruocheng said without hesitation: Yueer!)

"Yes, my subordinates will prepare it right away." Caiyu replied very naturally, as if she had already thought about this result.

It has been three days since Caiyu arrived here. This is the first time that Master disappeared without notice. I still can't help but ask where Master Caiyu has gone.I don't know if it's my illusion, but I think Caiyu's eyes are cold and indifferent: "Do something he thinks he will never regret." Caiyu's tone is mocking, this is the first time I hear Caiyu mocking the master.

I thought, perhaps Caiyu might not be mocking Master but mocking me, but my consciousness tells me that Caiyu doesn't hate me.It wasn't until a long time later that I found out that Caiyu just felt that Master was in pain, that Master was doing things that made her miserable, and that things that made me painful caused Caiyu to suffer too.Caiyu just thinks——Master is just a cocoon.

After a long time, Caiyu looked at me for a long time: "Yueer, do you like your mother?"

Mother?Is the mother in my dream?

"Well, I like it." Even now I still remember my mother smiling and saying to me——Yue'er, run a little slower!Those days were really fun.

"If there is one person who is very important..."

"How important?" I interrupted Caiyu.

Caiyu looked at me: "It's like, the master is as important."

Master is so important?I am puzzled.

"Yue'er, if the master and your mother could only choose one, who would you choose?"

I looked at Caiyu and smiled, and I knew that my smile was very illusory and illusory: "Does it need to be said, of course it is—mother." I will never forget my mother again, and when I was with her The warm feeling together is really good, like a very tired person soaking in a hot spring.

"Please read...you..."

The Caiyu I know also wants to say that I am a white-eyed wolf. After all, there are really many people who say that about me.

I don't speak, just say whatever Caiyu says about me, Caiyu opened her mouth and finally spit out two words: "It's really... good..."

I suddenly opened my eyes wide and looked at Caiyu, Caiyu said, "It's really... good..." Caiyu—— agrees with me?

For so long, I thought I couldn't speak anymore, and I suddenly opened my mouth: "Thank you."

Caiyu was not the only one who was taken aback by this sentence, I really didn't expect that I could speak.

During the few days when Master left, I was relaxed, and Caiyu was also relaxed. I no longer had to think about the relationship between me and Master, whether I was right or wrong, or whether I was wrong or not.Caiyu doesn't have to think about how she should treat her master. Maybe Caiyu herself can't see it, but I can see it. Caiyu admires her master and hates her master at the same time—it's a contradiction.

I asked Caiyu why she would sacrifice her life for Master.

Caiyu said that her family's ancestors worked for the photographer, so she also worked for the master. I asked Caiyu if she wanted to work for the master. Caiyu didn't speak, and she couldn't tell.

I think Caiyu is the same person as me, I am struggling, she is also struggling, we are all the same pathetic...

I went to see Lin Ruoxi and the corpses of those people in the valley.

I said, "I'm sorry."

Lin Ruoxi's grave is very close to the valley, so I brought paper money to burn. I remember that when Lin Ruoxi was alive, I didn't have much money. I always robbed him of his things, and snatched him from a young master to vomit blood. Now... he My life was also taken away by me.

I guess if Lin Ruoxi was still there, he would definitely smile, it doesn't matter.

Well, I think Lin Ruoxi is too kind.

If I were Lin Ruoxi, even if I was dead, I would get up and kill Master and me.

"Lin Ruoxi, how are you?"

"I heard that people who go to hell will be put into a frying pan. Does it hurt you?"

"I'm so afraid of death. If I die, I will definitely go to the eighteenth floor of hell. I'm so afraid, I'm so afraid of pain..."

"Lin Ruoxi, you said, I'm just a child, am I, okay, happy?"

"Lin Ruoxi, why are you dying?"

"Lin Ruoxi... I'm sorry."

Caiyu was standing behind me, and she said, "Wipe your tears, you are crying."

I was stunned, and wiped my eyes carelessly with my sleeve.

Caiyu and I said a lot of things, about me and about Caiyu, I seem to have never said so many things.

I asked Caiyu why she followed Master all the time.

Caiyu laughed and said that she didn't follow Master all the time, her family has always been loyal to Yingjia, and she was classified as Yingjia's servant when she was nine years old.

Caiyu said that she likes the stars in the sky because they are beautiful and never fall.

I laughed too, and I said, "The shooting star will fall."

Caiyu was stunned, and she said: "That's why I never regard shooting stars as stars."

On the day Master left, Caiyu became my true friend, and I began to trust her very much.

I took her to see Xiaohong, Lin Ruoxi's grave, and Uncle Orion's corpse...

She accompanied me to bury the corpse of Uncle Orion, as well as those corpses in the valley that could not be distinguished. When she buried a child's corpse, she was stunned for a while, and then she said: "Please, you can't hate the master." , that is, everyone is entitled to hate the master, everyone is called the master devil, and you cannot hate the master."

I didn't speak, just lowered my head.

I know, I am not qualified, I am the most unqualified person, from the moment Master adopted me, from the moment Master loved me, I am no longer qualified.