give

Master likes me, likes me very much.

There was a bloody smell all over the sky, and Master didn't leave anyone in the beautiful valley before.

They were very kind, treated me very well, never hurt Master, and they lost their lives just because Master lost me, not even the elderly and children.

I don't believe Master said that Master is heartless and ruthless, but now I feel that Master is scary... Master is waiting at the door, and I put my head in my hands.

I remember the old carpenter in the past, he saved the master's life, but the master did not spare his life.

I stood up and ran out quickly, and the master at the door followed immediately. I ran out of breath very quickly and finally knelt down at Taniguchi.

Master is by my side, I know that Master is distressed, but...

There is a gap between Master and me, Master wants to cross it, but I can't, but I don't want to cross it...

"Yue'er." Master's voice seemed bewildered, and I knelt, knelt, and knelt.

I know that I have stabbed Master's heart, I know that Master's heart is bleeding, but I can't stop, I can't stop!

I knelt in Taniguchi all night, but when I woke up, it was in that hut. Master was lying on the side of the bed. I knew that Master was using his internal energy to dissipate heat from Master’s fingertips. The sun is like blood without knowing it.

What does Master want?I have no idea.

"Yue'er." Master was very happy to see me wake up, he stretched out his hand to touch me, I didn't resist and let him touch my forehead.

"Yueer... Yueer." Master called me over and over again, I closed my eyes and ignored it, I thought I was going to drive Master crazy but... I couldn't stop, I couldn't stop no matter what.

With master's martial arts, he can kill anyone he wants to kill in today's martial arts world, and I have grown up and am no longer the kid who bullied the weak at will. Master can't guess me, but I think master is scary.

Master knelt by the bed all the time. I didn't want to eat or drink water. In the past, master would always kneel by the bed and wait for me to eat.

Now Master tapped my acupuncture points and poured water into my mouth because he knew I would not forgive him.Do I hate Master?Hate it, but Master has loved me for so many years, from the age of six to the age of 16 for ten years.

"Hate you... hate you... hate you..." I said over and over again, crying over and over again.

Master hugged me and comforted me over and over again.

But I know, I can't get it!Master will never get it!

If I don't want to give it to Master, Master will never get it!

Master gave me honor and gave me a stable childhood. When I knew that my father was killed by Master, I didn't blame Master but just pretended not to know, but why?Why did you kill the teacher's wife, the teacher's wife is so beautiful...just because she wants to tell me the truth.

Master gave me a lot, but it was voluntary. Why did he ask me to exchange it? I didn't force it!

"Good boy, Master is so happy to have found you!" Master hugged me paranoidly, and told me how happy he was.Too bad I'm not happy at all.

He always told me how happy he was to find me, how scared he was without me, afraid that I would be cheated by others, afraid that I would be gone... and how many people he killed.

I started not to eat or drink, and Master looked at me at a loss.

I think I'm pushing Master, and I'm pushing me too.

Every day, Master happily prepares meals, but I ignore them. Master always touches my acupoints with sighs again and again, and feeds me bite by mouthful. I think that if one day I die Is it possible to take revenge on Master?

It's a pity that I don't have that courage. All I want is freedom. Master doesn't know, but I have never forgotten what I want.

"Yue'er drinks water."

Master handed me a glass of water, but I refused to take it.

Since I was a child, my master has always been used to me. The master is reluctant to let me cry, but the master is even more reluctant to lose me, so the master chose to suffer. I am in pain, and the master is also in pain.

Master tortured me, and I tortured Master.

In the end, it can only be a loss for both sides. I think Master will never understand this truth, because Master's eyes are too narrow, and he will never think about why he and I have come to where we are today.

Master sighed, and I think he probably has nothing to do with me.

"Be good, Yueer, drink water."

I still didn't go to pick up the water in Master's hand.

Finally, the master put the water aside, "Yue'er, what do you want?" The master asked me, I was a little strange, what do I want, what exactly do I want?

free.

"Tell Master, Master will go get it for Yue'er."

My master has given me so much since I was a child, but why do I always feel that those things are dispensable to me.

Every time, no matter what I want, I just have to tell Master and I will get it. I can even say that I have not paid anything at all.

However, I have always had one thing that I haven't got. No matter how much I begged Master, Master couldn't give me something.

Say?

Whether you say it or not, the result is the same.

Master would not give it to me no matter what.

Then, Master always looked at me again and again with a pained and happy expression,

It's really crazy, Master always has a way to make me eat, I know Master likes to be with me, as long as I am alive, as long as I am by his side, not far away, Master will be very happy.

In the past so many years, Master has always been like this. He doted on me, but at the same time tied me with an invisible rope. I was like Master’s pet. I could get a lot, but at the same time I also lost my qualifications to be a human being.

Master didn’t lock me up, but Master never left me, Master didn’t care about his previous property, he didn’t care, Master just stared at me intently, always like this, Master tortured me, I tortured Master, and then Master got used to After my torture, the master always makes me and him suffer in this way. He always finds a way to find happiness in this torture, that is, disregarding my thoughts and self-righteous happiness, and then he becomes a happy lunatic.

Master is reluctant to let me suffer, but he is even more reluctant to lose me. He always wants to change me. He is always afraid that someone will rob me. I am not beautiful, I am not special, how many people would want me?

Except for my brother, except for my master, but my brother is dead, I only have my master, but my master is always suspicious, if this continues, I will go crazy, every time I make friends, I am afraid, I am afraid that my friend will disappear tomorrow, I am afraid that my master will kill me lost my friend.

I also worry about whoever treats me well. I worry that tomorrow this person will be gone. I will be alone again. No one will treat me well again, because as long as the person is kind to me, Master will fall ill, and Master and the others will take it away. Me, so Master will hurt them and even kill them!

I have no freedom, I don't have what a human being should have.

I still remember when my mother died, she said to me: "Run! Run! Yingruocheng is a murderer, he has no feelings at all!"

They are right, Yingruocheng has no feelings, the person who has feelings for me is Master, his name is Yingruocheng, so it is inevitable that he is bloodthirsty, he is ruthless, he will repay his kindness, and I have no way to hate him even though I know he really did I have made many mistakes and I can’t hate him. From the time I can remember, he is the only one in my world. Master has raised me for ten years, and he has loved me for ten years, but the freedom I want is impossible for him, no , he didn't want to give it to me at all.

"Yue'er, shall we go fishing?" Master's words were gentle, and Master was always looking for ways to make me happy.

But I know that I am not happy, and now as long as I am in front of Master, I have no way to be happy at all. Master can't find a way to make me happy, so Master always looks far and near for some useless methods.

I don't like such a master, not at all!

"Then master and Yue'er go catch worms together, okay? I remember that Yue'er likes catching worms the most, especially those colorful worms are so beautiful!"

Hearing this, I took a deep look at Master, and the reason for seeking home was eliminated by Master for some reason, the Sutra of Healing Poisons! "I hate worms!" Suddenly I yelled at Master.

"Okay." Master looked at me tenderly. I looked at Master and found the unstoppable joy in his eyes. Suddenly I remembered that this was the first time I spoke to him in these days other than saying I hated him.

I don't know how I should get along with Master. I know that Master will endure. No matter how I make trouble, he just smiles gently. However, I can't bear Master's vicious methods. unfair.

Master loves me, I don’t love him, Master wants me to love him, but I don’t want Master to love me, it seems that everything between me and Master is in the hands of me, but it’s not. Master decides.

So what if I have my own opinion?As long as Master disagrees with me, I can't do anything, I can't do anything.

I wanted to leave Master, but Master didn't want me to leave, so I couldn't leave—I couldn't leave at all.

These days I have thought a lot about Master's kindness to me, the experience of Master killing my mother, how Master loves me, and how vicious Master is.

I don't know why Master became such a person, I don't know why Master raised me, I don't know why Master loves me, and I don't know how I should treat Master.

I should hate Master because he killed my mother, killed my father, killed Lin Ruoxi and killed everyone I like, but I can't hate Master because he raised me because he gave his all for me.

Lin Ruoxi said that everyone has a specific reason to become a specific person, Master?Why did he become such a person?

I never seem to have thought about why the master became such a person, I always thought that the master is the master, because he is the master, because he is Shadow City, so he is vicious, so he is insidious, I never seem to—— think Get to know the master.

"Master, do you have a mother?" I asked Master.

Master smiled and said, "Yes."

I understand that Master is very happy now, because I have talked to him, because I seem to want to forgive him. Between me and Master, it seems that Master admits mistakes and compromises every time, but in fact it is not.

Between me and the master, it is the master who admits the mistake, but the one who compromises will never be the master.

Master will admit his mistake to me after killing someone important to me. Whether he kneels or kowtows in front of me, Master doesn't care about his dignity at all, but I will always forgive Master.Then next time Master will kill someone and apologize, but he never changed his actions because of my anger.And every time, every time, it's me who regresses, and it's always just me.

So I hate Master, so I don't want to be with Master, because the relationship between me and Master has never been fair.

"what is her name?"

"Ji Xu." Master's voice was very light, and I understood that Master doesn't love his mother.

I'm going to stop talking, to be honest I'm not ready for anything to face Master, I'm really not ready.

Master looked at me silently and he also became silent. Master likes to say nothing to me.

"Master—" I said, "I know, you killed my mother and father...you killed all my relatives." My words were trembling, I never thought that I would Saying this to Master, I made up my mind to bury this matter in my heart and rot in my stomach. Now I realize that I was in a panic, and I even really hurt Master. Uncle Orion once said that my accusation is better than Li Jian It made Master suffer even more.The sharp blade just made Master's body bleed, but my accusation made Master's heart bleed, and the bleeding didn't stop.

Sure enough, Master's face turned ugly, and he hugged me tightly without saying a word.

I understand that Master is afraid, extremely afraid.