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"Yue'er, don't be afraid of me, okay?" Master's words were filled with strong prayers.

Seeing Master's worried and humble face, I suddenly felt that Master was pitiful.

This is the first time I sympathized with Master.

No matter how powerful the master's martial arts is, no matter how invincible he is, I only now understand that he is pitiful.Master loves me, but I can't love Master, if I love Master, it will be a mess, and I'm a child of my family, so I can't love Master and I can never love Master.I will not love Master just because I feel sorry for Master, just like I cannot become the person who jumped into the abyss because of sympathy, but I want to jump into the abyss with him.

I - I am selfish.

- Very selfish.

"Master——" I took the initiative to hug Master, and Master's body stiffened for a while. I really rarely take the initiative to hug Master, "You can only be my Master forever." I have grown up and are no longer the same as before. That child who doesn't understand anything, there are some things that must never be touched, just like the feelings in Master's heart.If something is wrong, it must not be allowed to appear.

Master suddenly took a deep breath, I think Master needs to think about it, otherwise Master and I will fall into a predicament, and there is almost no way for us to get out, unless Master and I reach an agreement, but this is very difficult, difficult.I have no way to regress, but Master wants to move forward desperately. I really don't want the final outcome to be that both Master and I suffer losses, even though I know this is the most likely outcome, because Master and I have always been in conflict. We have too much There are too many contradictions, and these contradictions are almost dead knots, and there is no way to resolve them.

"...Why?" This was the first time Master asked me why in a long time.

I looked at Master and didn't want to talk anymore. In fact, Master knew why, how could he not know.He just doesn't want to admit it and won't admit it.

Master, he is not reasoning.

After a while of silence, I finally said: "Master—you are crazy." I used to think that Master is sick, and Master is only sick so he treats me like that to those who play with me. Find a doctor who can cure Master, but now I understand that Master is sick, he is mentally ill, and no one can help him except Master himself, including me.

"Crazy..." Master said after me, I knew that Master was confirming something, something he should have known.

"Yes, this is not normal." I said in Master's ear, I know that my words must be very, very harsh to Master, but I still have to say it, I have to say it.

I've been wrong, and I don't want to be wrong again.

In the next few days, Master acted as if nothing happened, and I acted as if nothing happened. Both Master and I were looking for this kind of balance, a balance that both Master and I could accept.

I know that Master and I will never reach an agreement. What Master wants will drive me crazy, and what I want will make Master collapse.

I don't know why Master became like this, and I don't know how to make Master normal.

I thought, unless I am crazy, unless Master is dead, then Master and I will never be able to achieve real balance.

I don't know how I should face Master. Master has given me everything he can give me, but I can't give him what he wants.

"Please, are you sick? Why haven't I seen you for so long?" A child walked up to me.

I was stunned that it was Yingjie, I thought I would never see Yingjie again.

I shook my head: "I'm not sick, and you have to go, my teacher must be looking for you."

Yingjie frowned: "Please read why I feel that you hate me..."

...I hate Yingjie...

Yes, I thought I didn't hate Yingjie anymore, but now I realize that I have always hated Yingjie.Everything about Yingjie made me jealous. I used to think that after becoming friends with Yingjie, this kind of jealousy would disappear, but it was not. This kind of jealousy never disappeared...

"Actually, I know that you have been looking at me with strange eyes. Please, can you tell me why you hate me?"

... strange eyes ...

Jealous eyes.

Why do I hate Yingjie?

He is a young master.

He has a happy family.

He doesn't have to worry about his friends dying anytime, anywhere.

He... just like me before, I was also a young master at that time, I also had a happy family, I was also happy...

I pushed Yingjie: "Because you are so annoying!"

Yingjie frowned again, I don't think he knew what I said at all, he said: "You are so strange..."

...I'm so weird...

I hooked my lips: "Yeah..." I'm so weird...

"You'd better go!" I said to Yingjie again, I think my teacher cared so much about him and my teacher would be very sad if he died, and I don't like to make important people sad.

Yingjie muttered to himself: "Why, why?"

I know, this kid really doesn't understand.

In fact, this question does not need to be answered at all, because there is no why at all.

I called a servant and asked him to send a message, and sure enough, the teacher's wife appeared after a while.

The teacher's wife is still so beautiful, she came here in a hurry, even with sweat on her face, but she looked at me and smiled softly: "I'm so sorry, Yueer, Jie'er bothered you again..." Teacher's wife said There was a tinge of apology in this sentence, but it was more about wanting to protect Ying Jie.

I also smiled, and suddenly I felt a tingling pain in my heart... Is the disease relapse?

"Let's go." I said.

"Please..." Yingjie frowned.

The teacher's wife pulled Yingjie and frowned: "Be obedient."

I held my hand tightly, and suddenly the tingling in my heart became more and more serious.

Everything happened very suddenly, until I fell down, until the teacher's wife opened her mouth wide, until Yingjie came over and wanted to pull me up, I didn't react.

It turns out that death is so close to me...so close...

When I woke up, the first thing I saw was Master's red eyes.

"What's the matter..." I felt my throat was dry and there was a tingling pain when I spoke.

"Yue'er, did you take the latest medicine on time?"

"Have……"

Master looked at me seriously, and I stared at Master's red eyes: "I... am I going to die..."

"Nonsense!" Master pressed his face to mine, "My Yue'er will live a long life!"

"thirsty……"

The master was stunned and withdrew his crazy expression: "I'm going to pour water."

I touched my heart, there is an unhealthy heart in the beating place, it is very fragile, very weak, it will die if I don't pay attention... It has always tortured me, and it has always tortured Master .

What would happen if it stopped jumping... I can't think or dare to think.

"Yue'er has drunk water." Master put a glass of warm water to my mouth.I opened my mouth and asked Master to lift the cup and feed me water.

After drinking the water I felt my throat hurt even more.

Suddenly, Master's face changed drastically, and he rolled up his sleeves all of a sudden, and used his internal force to shake his arm out of blood, and fed the blood into my mouth.

After a while I felt better.

I found out later that my face was pale at that time, just a dying appearance...

This day I scared Master half to death, and this day I also scared myself half to death.When my body got better, the master's face didn't change. The master said like a demon: "Just find Zhu Yu, and I'll be fine as long as I find Zhu Yu."

Suddenly, I realized that the problem between me and Master had never been a problem. The real problem was that I was sick, very seriously ill.

In the end, Master looked at me seriously: "If Yue'er feels uncomfortable, do you have to tell me?"

I nodded.

From this day onwards, the dosage of my medicine has been increased. I used to take the medicine once a day, but now I take it twice a day. In fact, Master and I both understand that the current medicine is only a temporary solution, but obviously we have no better way. .

But what can I do?