If you bend me, you have to be responsible for me

It was already two o'clock in the morning when I walked out of Yang Jin's residential area. I didn't come out for the previous two hours, but directly took the elevator to the first floor, because I knew that my almost collapsed emotions were not enough to support me to go out.I have been timid since I was a child. My gender does not make me not afraid of ghosts and gods from the bottom of my heart. It just allows me to learn to pretend through continuous experience accumulation.In the past 18 years, I dare not stay alone in the underground parking lot, and every time I run to the elevator.And that night, I had nowhere to go, and the moment I got out of the elevator, tears gushed out.I don't know what I did wrong, in fact I don't think I did anything wrong.

I have always listened to what my family said. For so many years, my father has never complained about me and my mother. I have been more well-behaved than other children since I was a child.When I knew my sexual orientation when I was in junior high school, I have always been secretly in love with others, not letting anyone find out, and not wanting to cause trouble to others.Throughout middle school, there were quite a few little girls who sent me love letters because of my looks and personality, and I explicitly rejected them because I knew my situation clearly.People who meet difficulties on the road will also buy food and borrow money.I even dared to help my grandma cross the road, because my heart is like a heart, and I hope my grandma will get help from others when she is in trouble on the road.So I can't figure it out, I have never hurt anyone, and I never want to hurt others, why should I suffer such a thing?

Obviously he, Yang Jin, bought me breakfast again and again, he was the one who tried to coax me with Larousse after making me angry, it was he who took the initiative to hold me back, kissed me, and made me treat it as my first kiss, it was he who said that I If he is afraid of pain, he can wait.

Obviously he was the one who said that I was worthy of his cherishment, and he was the one who let me know how happy it is to be liked by the person I like.

Obviously he pulled me out of the once gloomy life and let me find my purpose in this university, but in the blink of an eye he pushed me into the abyss again.

I think I was wrong, I did not know why I suddenly mentioned Yangshuo, which gave them a chance to start again; I was too weak to slap the door when I saw that scene; it was my heart that was too big, Yang Jin and Lu Feng was so obvious when they choked each other that night, but I was blinded by the lard, thinking it was because of me because I was jealous, and didn't recognize the truth.Thinking about it now, it wasn't enough that the young couple had a quarrel, and I was being used as a robber.

After crying and howling in the cold basement for two hours, I finally dragged my suitcase out of their community.

In Chengdu in December, whether it is the underground garage or the street, it is freezing cold. I have been in the basement for too long just now, and I have already lost consciousness.A few years ago, before taxi-hailing software became popular at that time, it was not easy to get a taxi at two o'clock in the middle of the night, and I had no direction to go, so I bet myself that if I could wait for the taxi within 1 minute, I would go to the airport , Otherwise, go to my mother and cry and tell her that I was wrong.

So I think it was God's will. Before I had finished the bet with myself, a taxi stopped in front of me. After getting off the passengers, it became empty.So I put aside the hesitation in my heart and went to the back row with my luggage.

"Master is going to the airport." I said with a sniff.

"You don't need to use the meter to go to the airport right now, 100 yuan can't go." The driver said with his own specific emphasis, with a serious face.

"I know, let's go." I don't think I have any hesitation, at the moment I just want to escape from this place.

"Yeah, brother, I went out to play ropes when I got a cold. Is it too early to catch an early flight? It's too early now, what about a red-eyed flight? Going abroad?" The driver began to babble when he received the passenger.

"No, I just want to wait at the airport early, go to T2, and not go abroad, I will sleep, master, and call me when you arrive." I was really unable to talk to the driver, so I could only pretend to sleep, but probably because I was too tired, I actually fell asleep.

Half an hour later, the driver woke me up. After I paid the money, I dragged my luggage into the airport. There were still 5 hours to wait.

The airport was a little deserted at this time, but the heating was sufficient and it was very warm. I found a seat and prepared to sleep. Before going to bed, I took out the mobile phone that I had turned off in the garage.It would be a lie to say that he didn't look forward to it. Although his heart was hurt, even though he didn't chase him out, he still held a trace of luck in his heart.

There is only one unread WeChat message: "Siqi, I'm sorry, Lu Feng was not very sensible just now, I apologize to you on his behalf. And I am sorry for you myself, you cherish it."

Hehe, take care, how the hell did you teach me to take care of it?He started to protect the calf so soon, and apologized on his behalf.

Anger and ridicule occupied my mind. I regretted not rushing to fight with them when I saw those two two hours ago. Although Lu Feng is from the Physical Education Institute, although I may be scarred in the end, what happened? Also stronger than it is now.

Extremely resentful, I turned on the airplane mode, adjusted the alarm clock, and decided to take a nap.

It was already 9 o'clock in the morning when the machine was turned on again, and the plane was on time.I thought I would suffer from insomnia, but I slept soundly last night, whether it was in the chair in the lobby or on the plane.After getting off the plane, take the 20 yuan airport bus to the city, and then take a taxi to the reserved Taoyuan Hotel.There are mountains on both sides of the road, and they are not high. I wonder if I can really call these mountains, or it would be more accurate to describe them with piles of stones. However, they exist there, regardless of my will , just like the fact that Yang Jin reunited with his ex-boyfriend.

Guilin is not big, and the taxi driver didn't take me around. I arrived at Taoyuan Hotel soon. When I passed Elephant Trunk Hill Park and Seven Star Park, the driver said that I would choose a hotel. Taoyuan is close to the scenic spots and the city.I sneered in my heart and said that this is where I would choose a hotel. The hotel was chosen by Yang Jin. For him, it should be someone who has experienced it. At that time, I asked him why he didn’t live in a homestay with a theme, and he said he wanted me to live. Get comfortable, it's disgusting to think about now.

This time, as I wished, the news about Yang Jin and Lu Feng has not been broken. Yang Jin is to apologize to me, and Lu Feng is more to show off in the name of apologizing, showing off for several years, they Still together in the end.Along the way, I deliberately ignored the ringtone of my mobile phone, and I didn't start to turn it on slowly until I fell on the bed after checking in, savoring it carefully.I suspected that I was a masochist, because not only did I not block Yang Jin, I even accepted Lu Feng's continuous text message harassment.Or I'm also curious, what kind of person is Lu Feng, so that Yang Jin was discussing travel arrangements with me the day before, and when we met, he was already a stranger, and he had nothing else to say except sorry.

I was probably physically and mentally exhausted, my eyes hurt badly, and the text messages in front of me gradually blurred, and finally I fell into a deep sleep, sleeping in the dark room of the hotel without knowing what day or night it was.

In the end, I was woken up by my mother's phone call.

"Are you sleeping?"

"Well, what happened?"

"No, you went to bed so early? I didn't know to call back to report my safety when I went out to play. I haven't heard from you for more than a day. Let me ask you." Mom's voice sounded very kind at the moment.

"I forgot, I'm a little tired today. It's too bad to have an early flight." I replied submissively.

"Well, that's fine, you sleep, call if you have something to do, pay attention to your own safety, and speak up if you don't have money."

My mother's tone has never been very gentle, but these words once again made my eyes wet, making me feel like I'm really doing it.

After hanging up the phone, a carp stood up and got up, and decided to visit Guilin at night.

After all, it is a winter night. Even though Guilin is located in the south, I was still shocked by the cold wind when I walked out of the hotel.After leaving the hotel, go straight for 200 meters and turn right for 500 meters to the famous Xiangshan scenic spot. Before I reached the door, I was surrounded by ticket dealers.

"Brother, do you want a ferry ticket for the Two Rivers and Four Lakes?"

"Brother, the famous scenic spots are sold at a low price. You can buy the last boat in the scenic spot for 170. You can pay 100. I will take you on the last boat."

"Brother, let me tell you, you will really regret it after passing. I can take you into Xiangshan for free. Now this is really the last bus. If you don't sit, you will have to wait until tomorrow night. Really, it only costs 100 yuan .”

Under the continuous sales promotion, I finally gave the scalper 100 yuan, and I also successfully boarded the cruise ship to visit the two rivers and four lakes.Winter is probably the off-season at this time. There are really not many people on the last boat. I try to focus on the scenery. The two rivers and four lakes are not rivers and lakes, but more artificial light, which is presented after the local construction. The last shimmering and colorful scene, especially the buildings on the banks of the Taohua River, is my favorite of the entire trip. Taohua River.It was probably Taurus hysteria. After the whole itinerary, the first thing I thought of was that I found a scalper, because although the scenery is beautiful, the ticket price of 170 is really not worth it. At that moment, I felt that I made a profit. , then the haze was swept away, and then I went to taste the local snack street after listening to Aunt Huang Niu’s words. I insisted on eating a seafood pot alone, and my stomach was filled with hot things, which made me rekindle my enthusiasm for life. I don't think the matter of Yang Jin and Lu Feng, these two idiots, is worth bothering me.

So what about bamboo horses and bamboo horses?It's not that there are two people doing various things, one is passionate, the other is promiscuous, and it's perfect for two people to love and kill each other together.

Thinking of this, I felt much better unconsciously, and happily walked back to the hotel to relax.