If you bend me, you have to be responsible for me

Liu Yingshan finally followed his mother away, leaving me in the room wondering wildly in fear whether it was possible for me to meet him.I don't know how long after Liu Yingshan left, the doorbell rang. Although I knew it was impossible, I desperately hoped that it was Liu Yingshan standing outside.

Standing outside the door was Jiang Xue, in the same clothes she wore when we returned to Chengdu with us, dragging her suitcase into the door.

"Well, Liu Yingshan called me, are you okay?" I took Jiang Xue to the guest room and put her suitcase away, Jiang Xue asked.

I shook my head, but couldn't say a word.

"Liu Yingshan asked me to come and accompany you. Is there any place you want to go these few days? Or do you want to eat? I saw a restaurant recommended by someone on Weibo two days ago. Let's go eat?" Jiang Xue continued to ask road.

I shook my head, as soon as Liu Yingshan left, I wouldn't be in the mood to eat any recommended delicious food.

"Liu Yingshan will be worried if you are like this. He told me to take good care of you. Don't be like this, okay?"

"Did he tell you how long he will let you come here?" I looked down at Jiang Xue and asked her seriously.

Jiang Xue was forced by me to lower her head, and said softly: "Anyway, he said he would definitely come back, you have to believe him, okay?"

"I, I don't know, when he left, it was as if he was making arrangements for his funeral. I was afraid, I was really afraid, I was afraid that I would never have a chance to see him again." I sat on the ground slumped.

Jiang Xue also knelt down, looked at me, and said, "You have to trust him, Yu Siqi. He never lied to you, did he? I trust him, and you can trust him too. Anyway, I will accompany him until he comes back. You."

"I want to find him, I want to go to Shanghai." Suddenly raised his head, looked at Jiang Xue, and expressed his inner desire very firmly.

"But you are like this now, you may not be able to see him when you go to Shanghai, besides, I think you should give him some time, and give yourself some time. Even if you really want to find him, you must be fully prepared. Prepare." Jiang Xue comforted: "In this way, let's set a time for a week, okay? If there is no news from Liu Yingshan for a week, I will go with you to find him, okay?"

For a week, I felt that I couldn't bear it for even a second, but Jiang Xue was right, even if I had to go there, I had to be fully prepared.I nodded and secretly wrote down the time.

The first day passed, and I failed to receive any news from Liu Yingshan. Under Jiang Xue's supervision, I swallowed a few mouthfuls of food.

The next day there was still no news of Liu Yingshan.My heart is urgent and helpless, even if I just listen to his voice.At this moment, I wish I could appear in Shanghai in the next second.

There was still no news on the third day, and I felt that a week was really difficult.In the evening, I started packing my luggage for Shanghai.

On the fourth day, I let Jiang Xue go home and bought a ticket to go back to Chongqing to find my mother.

On the fifth day, there was still no news from Liu Yingshan. At this time, I couldn't care less and bought a plane ticket to Shanghai in two days.

On the sixth day, I confessed to my mother, I told him that Liu Yingshan was taken away by his mother, and I can't find him now; I told her that I was going crazy, every second I didn't see Liu Yingshan, I felt like It seemed like I was going through a catastrophe; I told her that I had to go to Shanghai to find Liu Yingshan, even if I lived in Shanghai for a long time, I had to see him, and I had to wait for him; I don't want to let her worry, but this time, even if she disagrees, I have to do my best to bring Liu Yingshan back.

My mother forced me to be more calm in my imagination, she said: "When you just told me that you like men, I couldn't accept it, because I thought it was a psychopath, and I thought it was because I divorced your dad. But your attitude is so firm that I had to understand the homosexual group. At that time, I realized that this has nothing to do with mental illness, and no matter how good a psychiatrist is, a homosexual cannot change himself. Accept your sexual orientation, As your mother, my only wish is that you can find someone who treats you well. I hope someone can compensate you for all the care your father and I failed to show you. Then you fell in love and brought Xiao Liu home , I am very glad that he is sincere to you, and I am also happy. He really loves you wholeheartedly as I expected, so I accept you, and I can also bless you. When you came back the day before yesterday, I knew something was wrong with you. I thought it was you who broke up with Xiao Liu, but now I know that you have not broken up. I support your choice. I also support you to go to Shanghai. So don’t be burdened, go openly, and call if you have any questions , I'll go talk to his parents."

I haven't cried for two days since I went home, but at this moment I couldn't help it, and started crying while hugging my mother.

On the seventh day, my mother sent me to the airport. On the way, I finally mustered up the courage to contact Liu Shu, and asked her to help me go to Liu Yingshan's house to find out first.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, I arrived in Shanghai with my suitcase. Liu Shu came to pick me up and checked into the hotel closest to Liu Yingshan's home.

"Have you seen him?" I asked Liu Shu.

"I saw it. I lost a lot of weight. He and his aunt were both on a hunger strike. Auntie asked him to come back, but he refused. He asked his aunt to let him go, but the aunt refused. The two of them dragged on like this, and the auntie was almost 24 years old. During this time, they didn’t have a good rest.” Liu Shu’s voice was quiet, “Liu Yingshan missed you too, I didn’t tell him you were here. Take a good rest tonight, I’ll go there tomorrow , Persuade him and auntie."

"Thank you." I have nothing to say to Liu Shu except thank you.

"Don't say thank you to me." Liu Shu glanced at me, "Liu Yingshan is like a family member to me. When he chose to be with you, I told him that this day would come, but he still chose to be with you." You are together. In the beginning, I really didn't like you, thinking he was trying to make something new, but I didn't expect the two of you to get to this point."

"Actually, I really don't understand. Can I ask? When you two are together, the family cannot accept it, the world cannot accept it, you cannot get a certificate, and you cannot have a child to maintain the relationship between the two of you. Is an uncertain future worth it?"

These questions buried deep in my heart were uncovered for the first time. I thought I was afraid to face them, but now I am calmer than ever. "There are hundreds of homosexual species in this world, male dolphins comfort each other, female albatrosses raise their offspring together, but only human beings are homophobic. I have also been afraid and panic all day long. I despise myself, feel dirty, dirty, I feel that my liking for others is defiled by others.”

"But you know? Fear stems from ignorance. When I got to know the homosexual group, I realized that my feelings for others are not inferior to those of heterosexuals. You are right, we may not be recognized by the world , but I have been approved by my mother. She is the most important person in this world besides Liu Yingshan. Her blessing is more important to me than the approval of the whole world. We cannot obtain a certificate, there is no legal protection, and we cannot Having a child, there is a blood relationship, but it is because of this that we cherish each other more. I clearly remember the feeling when I was sure that I liked Liu Yingshan, uneasy and helpless, because he was still a straight man at that time. Being in love is probably the most helpless thing in this world. But I still chose to like him. By the grace of God, he actually has the same thoughts for me. Just because of this luck, I already feel that I have overdrawn my own luck."

"So, when I was with him at the beginning of the year, I only had one thought in my heart: no regrets. Even if he doesn't love me, even if we separate, I have to do everything I want to do in this relationship But he is really too good, too good, all the kindness he has given me makes me unable to stick to my original intention. He said that he seemed to find me before he became complete, so why didn’t I become a perfect person because of him , a person with flesh and blood who will accept love from others and care for others. I am reluctant to let go of such a person, and I will not let go."

"You asked me if it was worth it. I want to tell you that I have never done anything more worthwhile in my life. Even if we do separate in the future, I will not regret it, because Liu Yingshan is this The most worthy person in the world that I would love desperately. I love him as much as he loves me."

"Thinking about myself, I'm really not a thing. After being together for so long, I seldom tell him that I like him, and even less when I say love. I just accept his all-round love. But Liu Shu, do you know? Before I went to him, my biggest hobby was eating. The skin of the stuffed buns, the fat intestines in the sausage powder, the last bite of spring rolls, the reddest heart of watermelon, and the freshly ripened cherries in summer, these are my favorites food. But now, if I still have this chance, I would like to bring all of these to Liu Yingshan, and I want to tell him: Liu Yingshan, these are my favorite things, and I will give them all to you now , so as the person I love the most, can you stay with me forever."

I said this very calmly, as if I had typed the manuscript in advance. When I recovered myself, I looked at Liu Shu, and she was already in tears.

"Yu Siqi, if Liu Yingshan dares to let you down in the future, I will beat him to death."

The author has something to say:

I was about to cry when I wrote this chapter, it felt quite abusive.

Kneel again and beg for an advance payment, how to attack the queen.Chapter 1 of the new article should be released in advance