If you bend me, you have to be responsible for me

Being too happy will make people ignore how short time is. I have been with Liu Yingshan for five months in a blink of an eye. When I opened my eyes and looked at him sleeping next to him, I couldn’t help but want to reach out and touch him, and then I started all kinds of things. Fantastic imagination.

About the influence of homosexuality on me:

How did I find out that I am gay?In junior high school, when all the girls were discussing who and what constellation, who broke the school rules and fell in love and held hands, when I received a love letter from a petite and cute girl in our class that night, the first time I had a wet dream The subject changed from a hazy shadow to Chen Feng, and since then, I have missed him for five years.At that time, I was distressed and resentful. The traditional concept told me that this is a perverted behavior. That is my deskmate and my friend. The most important thing is that we are both men.I can only bury the thoughts in my heart as deep as possible.I was afraid that my inadvertent disclosure would arouse everyone's disgust, so I forced myself to be as active as possible during physical education class or sports meeting.

At that time, my home was not far from the school. Every day on the way home with my friends, I would meet a pair of lesbians from the school next door. They were slightly older than us, and they should be from the high school.We don’t know exactly whether they are, but because we can see two people holding hands in a fixed place every day, lingering, so one day my friend said: "Look, they are playing T."

My friend belongs to the kind of bad student who is talented and intelligent, and his brain is quite easy to use, but the social relationship at home is complicated, so all he has come into contact with since he was a child is some people from the society, so that he knows a lot about various aspects, which also leads him to He often committed crimes at school, but all these did not affect his ability to be the top three in the class, and the teacher was very helpless about this.

At that time, I didn't know what T was, so I asked him puzzled, "What do you mean?"

He replied: "It's lesbians, do you know what gays are called?"

Almost trembling, I asked him, "What?"

"It's called G, you know?"

I shook my head again and again: "Don't talk nonsense, they may just have a good relationship, and you are pouring dirty water on them."

"What is splashing dirty water? My friend is in their school. They are in the third year of high school, and they are famous in the school next door. They are just playing tricks, and the whole school knows." My friend expressed dissatisfaction with my words, "Besides, what's the point of this Relationship, you don’t know XX Street (our local bar street), you go to see it at night, there are many men and women kissing standing on the bridge, there are so many women and girls, it’s surprising.”

"Is there really? Don't you think it's abnormal?" I was worried.

"What's wrong with this, Zhao Yuan (his sister), you know, didn't she go to Chengdu to go to college? Come back and tell me that she went to a gay bar with her friend, so it's normal." The friend shook his head, "At first glance, you have never seen the world. I went to XX Street to see it. It really exists. Otherwise, I will take you there?"

"No, no." I quickly refused.

But thanks to my friend, who brought the word gay into my life for the first time, let me know how to classify myself.

I always thought that my crush on Chen Feng was deep and forbearing, but now it seems that I am probably too stupid.

Most of the reason why I can continue to be at the same table with Chen Feng for three years in high school is that the teacher arranges positions according to academic performance, and Chen Feng's grades are so good that he has more choices.At that time, every time I was very glad that I could sit with Chen Feng again, silently watching him, looking up to him, now that I think about my poor acting skills, my poor acting skills have probably been seen through by others.

In the summer vacation when the second year of high school was approaching the third year, I was the first to get drunk and talk to Chen Feng.At that time, our parents were divorced, and I became his tree hole, silently listening to his inner distress, and thankful that it was me who could be by his side.Drunk people tend to be impulsive. At that time, he was lying on the sofa. I wanted to kiss him. I thought that I could hardly hold it anymore. In the end, I gave up because of fear. I went to the toilet and slapped myself to warn myself that I can’t be this way. Face.That was the day, I confessed to the only person I thought I could understand me at that time---my cousin.

Thanks to my cousin, as a straight man, he can still tolerate and love me after knowing his brother's orientation.

The feelings for Chen Feng finally faded away with his expression with the classmate next door.When I went to university, where I used to think that people were indifferent, I finally started my first spring and second spring, and failed one after another.I used to think that my sexuality would probably be a secret and that people like me should die alone.

Fortunately, I met Liu Yingshan, that mysterious straight man.Before I was with him, I was annoyed that I was gay, and I couldn’t express my love for him generously; after I was with him, I was glad that I was gay, because I needed to prove Liu Yingshan’s love for me again, and he could tell me straight The bend is the best evidence.

So after Liu Yingshan and I have been together for so long, every time I open my eyes, I am still grateful that it is him who is lying next to me.

"Why are you staring at me so early in the morning?" Liu Yingshan suddenly opened her eyes and interrupted my yy.

"You are handsome, you are handsome." I rubbed against him, and put my frozen hands on his neck to absorb the heat.

"Tsk." He was taken aback by Bing, but he didn't escape, he just hugged me tighter, "How many times have I said, don't put your hands outside, don't you listen?"

"I just want to freeze you, can't I?" When speaking, I changed my hand to let him feel the temperature of my hand again.

"Are you hungry?" Liu Yingshan grabbed my fidgeting hand, "I made an appointment last night..."

"Not hungry, not hungry at all, I can sleep until noon." Damn Liu Yingshan, in the name of nourishing my stomach, has made me eat porridge for five consecutive months, and even went out to have a hotel buffet breakfast When it's time, I also have to set a bowl for me, so that I feel like vomiting when I think of porridge now.

"The porridge is for two people. If you don't eat it, then you can't do it." Liu Yingshan pulled me up by the arm with both hands, completely ignoring my inner resistance, and dragged me to the seat. at the table.

After eating the porridge in a sullen mood, he changed his clothes and embarked on a new journey with Liu Yingshan——their company's annual meeting.

The annual meeting was held in a resort hotel in Wenjiang, and Liu Yingshan chose to drive there by herself on the grounds that she wanted to bring her family.

"Are you sure you want to take me with you?" Thinking that Liu Yingshan might still work there in the future, I was very worried that I would have some bad influence on him.

"I told the people in our department that I want to take my family with me. Do you want to escape temporarily?" Liu Yingshan put my hand on the air outlet of the air conditioner, and a gust of hot wind made me itchy.

"Then what are you going to say? I'm your brother?" I asked cautiously.

"You are my family, you are my family, no brother or no brother."

Hearing Liu Yingshan's words, my heart felt hot, he doesn't care?

"Besides, hot spring hotel, when you take off your clothes when you are in the hot spring, just those things on your body, even if I say you are my younger brother, do you think anyone will believe it?"

Hearing this, I had to take back the emotion I just paid, and once again swore that I would ignore him, not at all.

When we were about to arrive at the hotel, Liu Yingshan had a phone call with the people in their department, got to know everyone's exact location, quickly took me to get the room card, and then went to find the big troops.

His comrades were playing cards in the private room. Before entering the door, I was very apprehensive. Although I had the courage to come out to my mother, friends and even classmates, I never thought of letting a group of strangers know what my orientation was. kind of feeling.I was scared, and even wanted him to go alone, I just waited for him in the room.Probably sensing my unease, before entering the door, Liu Yingshan grabbed my hand without hesitation.

"Xiao Liu is here, oh oh oh, this is your friend." The booing sounded in my ears, and I almost blushed immediately.

"This is Yu Siqi, shy, please don't be like this." Liu Yingshan generously introduced me to everyone, which made me even more uncomfortable.

"Real people look better, Liu Yingshan, we haven't done anything yet, are you in a hurry?" The one who spoke was a young girl. "I look at your photos every day, and I'm really curious about you to a certain extent. You don't know that Liu Yingshan will sacrifice your photos every time she breaks down in accounting. We almost regard you as a god."

My face is getting redder and redder. Although I know everyone's intentions are good, I'm still shy. Due to my personality, I really can't tell the truth when we first meet.

Fortunately, someone later suggested that we could have another mahjong table together, which resolved my bewilderment in time.

"Xiao Liu, let your friends play mahjong with them, you come and fight the landlord with us." When Liu Yingshan arranged for me to be on the mahjong table, the person sitting on the sofa suggested.

"I'm not very good at fighting Landlords. I'll stay with Siqi. I have to be his accountant." Liu Yingshan moved a stool and sat next to me.I knew he was afraid that I wouldn't be good at answering the words of my poker friends, and it was just embarrassing.

"Oh, you don't know Sichuan mahjong, come here quickly, we just need someone here."

Liu Yingshan was in a dilemma, I looked at him and said, "Go, it's okay, I will fight."

Liu Yingshan got my affirmation, so she didn't shirk anymore, and went to fight the landlord with others, and before leaving, she didn't forget to say: "They are all accountants, Siqi, you have to be careful, if you can't beat it, don't worry about it." Don’t worry, if you lose, it’s all yours.”

I nodded, and then quickly threw myself into this war without gunpowder.

My poker skills are bad, I said this before, but I suddenly discovered that the most important thing in poker is luck.I don't know if it was inspired by Liu Yingshan or what, as a person who lost nine times out of ten, I finally ushered in one-tenth of myself that day, and became the biggest winner of the night.

What's even better is that Liu Yingshan also won, so when Liu Yingshan and I did "asset liquidation" at the end of the show and became the big winner, we received malice from all directions.