If you bend me, you have to be responsible for me

Chatting with Guo Yuan made me feel a lot more comfortable. After all, in the past, although I didn't deliberately hide my sexual orientation, I didn't want to make it known to everyone.But fortunately, Guo Yuan saw it, and he was still the same as me, and he was able to persuade and comfort me, which made me feel uncomfortable.

Two days later, in the evening, I received a message from Liu Yingshan.

【Have you returned to Chengdu?You took something away? 】

【Um. 】

[Why don't you tell me, I can pick you up. 】

[Forget it, it's embarrassing.After all, we are not the same way, I have no way to be friends with you. 】【Si Qi, don't say that, I don't care. 】

[But I care.Liu Yingshan, you may be used to being nice to others, but I'm not used to being nice to me.I'm cold by nature, and I don't even have a good relationship with my own family members.From childhood to Dalian, my mother’s love for me was always forbearing, she just wanted to make money so that I could not be bullied.But you are different, you seem to have woven a net to wrap me up.Accompany me to drink when I am broken in love, buy medicine for me when I have a stomachache, cook porridge for me every day, and buy a car. Although I don’t know if it’s true or not, but that set works well for me, and I’m very touched.And my birthday, I obviously haven't told you, but you know, you are too kind to me, do you know?How can I not like you?But you and I are essentially different, don't you remember your 90.00%?And your girlfriend, I feel sorry for her when I think about it.So, let's just leave it at that, anyway, we haven't known each other for long, and probably won't have any intersections in the future, it's a pleasure to meet you. ] Liu Yingshan hasn't replied to the message for a long time, I think it's probably over with him.However, under Guo Yuan's persuasion, I began to rejoice, fortunately, I discovered it early, fortunately, I was able to control my feelings at the budding stage, otherwise, if I was cheated by a straight man, it would really be worth the candle.

However, in the middle of the night, I received another message from Liu Yingshan.

【What if I say you are [-]% of me? 】

I was shocked at the time, it was totally unexpected, [-]% said about his straight male test, I remembered that he asked me in Chongqing, is there a [-]% chance that he will be Bend away.This news is unacceptable, and it also makes me unable to answer. I really want to discuss it with Guo Yuan, but everyone is asleep, so I can only bear it and be silent.

【Si Qi, I've thought about it a lot. Believe me, I've never been like this to everyone.I just want to be close to you, I don't know why, I just want to stay with you.Buying medicine for you, cooking porridge for you, drinking with you, getting drunk with you, and taking care of you are all things I should do.I know I'm straight, but I just can't help but want to be with you.But you know that Liu Shu is innocent, so now I really don't know what to do.You give me two weeks, okay?Two weeks, let me think about it, I will come to you when I figure it out.Don't ignore me, okay? 】If I was still hesitating about Liu Yingshan’s sincerity when I saw the last one, but I couldn’t help it when I saw this, maybe it means that he also likes me?If so, what does two weeks matter?

【good. ] I will return to him.

After replying to the message, I felt even more disturbed. For two weeks, I didn't intend to be like Schrödinger's cat.Anything can happen in these two weeks.I didn't tell Guo Yuan about this, but I was looking forward to it and fearing it.It was okay at first, although I was nervous, but I could still receive news from Liu Yingshan from time to time, but after a few days, Liu Yingshan's news gradually decreased, and most of the messages I sent to him were never returned. Forget it, I probably have an idea of ​​the outcome of this matter in my heart, I think, this is probably his choice.

So two weeks later, I didn't wait for Liu Yingshan, but I waited for another person, Chen Feng---my crush during middle school.

When it comes to secret lovers, I rank second, probably no one can rank first.After all, after so many years, there is no one who knows that I have a crush on Chen Feng except myself.Why do you like him?Probably because he likes his temperament, which is clean.In the impetuous middle school life, when girls are discussing who likes whom, who is with whom, and boys are discussing where to sneak away to smoke, Chen Feng can be unique and calm down to study.He ignored the girl's confession and the boy's provocation, so he was admitted to a good university as a matter of course.And I, nourished by this kind of small affection, tried my best to make myself worthy of him, so Liu Yingshan said before that I have a bookish look, but I actually learned it from Chen Feng.

I also hesitated once, whether I should confess to Chen Feng when I was drunk and in the mood when I graduated from high school, but in the end I decided to forget it.Because Chen Feng confessed to the person he likes before me, that is the goddess of the liberal arts class next door, and the two of them got together smoothly.

Although he went to school in a city, this was the first time Chen Feng contacted me since graduation, and he had nothing else to say, so he suddenly wanted to come to my school to find me.

It's been less than a year since we separated, but Chen Feng has changed a lot. He lost the strong bookish aura he used to have, and instead has a more concise and mellow feeling, which can't be described.

"Siqi, long time no see." Chen Feng came up and hugged me.

"Long time no see." I answered him.

"If you don't get drunk tonight, you won't go home," he said.

"Don't return when you're drunk." I smiled.

So we ate, went to the bar, and drank until after eleven o'clock. Both of them were too drunk. They supported each other and went to the hotel to open a room. The two big men were both drunk again. bed.

Sleeping until midnight, I felt very hot on my body, vaguely felt that someone was licking me, opened my eyes suddenly, and found that Chen Feng was lying on my bed with his eyes closed, holding my face and chewing on it.As if he noticed that I woke up, Chen Feng also stopped for a while, put his hands on both sides of my head, and looked down at me, I was at a loss for words, and Chen Feng didn't say anything, but leaned forward and kissed, yes it was a kiss.My head buzzed, as if I had lost the ability to function.Chen Feng's lips were tightly attached to mine, entangled in obsession, and the next second, I opened my mouth slightly, and his tongue had already traced the trace of mine.His mouth still smells of alcohol from tonight, which seems to be exactly the same as mine, but it seems completely different, yes, it is indeed different, otherwise how could I distinguish so clearly.

Although I have been secretly in love with Chen Feng for many years, this kind of scene has appeared many times in YY when I was young, but after all, this is the first time, the first time I have tasted the taste of someone I like.My brain can't work anymore, and I can't seem to breathe, so I can only explore under his leadership.Suddenly, I felt the changes in Chen Feng's body, but he didn't stop, just continued to kiss me, his hands wandering around my body.I was suddenly shocked, am I going to lose my virginity tonight?But there is nothing here, it will hurt, it will definitely happen.

While wandering, Chen Feng took my hand and put it on the place where he had a reaction, his lips moved away from mine, and turned to my ear, "Siqi, help me."

When the matter developed to this point, I was also riding a tiger, and finally gave in.

After comforting each other, Chen Feng slept next to me.

When he woke up the next morning, Chen Feng was already dressed.

"Are you leaving?" Seeing him tidy up, I couldn't help but think that if this is the case, what about last night?Is it supposed to be sleepwalking?

"Well, I have a class for the second college in the afternoon, so I'll go back to class and come back next week."

"Come over next week?" I kind of didn't know what the hell was going on.

"Of course come."

"Then Yang Yiyi?" I asked curiously.

"we broke up."

Oh, it turned out to be like this, so he nodded and continued to sleep.

On the Friday night of the second week, Chen Feng came again. We didn't go to the bar after dinner, but went directly to the hotel.

As soon as the room card was swiped to open the door, I couldn't wait to chew together. After helping each other, my brain finally resumed operation.

"Chen Feng, what's the matter with you?" I took a puff of cigarette and asked while exhaling.

"What's going on?" He directly took the cigarette from my hand, put it in his mouth and started smoking.

"When did you learn to smoke? That's what we are doing now. What are you doing?" I asked him, taking another cigarette out of my bag.

"Don't you like me?" He said calmly.

I was so scared that I was choked, "You, how do you know?"

"Why don't I know, it's been four years, hasn't it?"

"You know it since junior high school?"

"No, I only found out later, I just calculated it, probably around that time."

"I thought no one knew."

"Actually, what you did is quite obvious. It's not normal if you don't know."

"Then you, with Yang Yiyi?"

"We broke up. She's in Shanghai. She seems to have found someone else."

"Oh, let's go now."

"Siqi, can you stay with me? I can't find anyone, and I have no choice. I have become less like me because of her, but I still can't keep him. "

I chuckled, "So you came to find me? To accompany you, until when? When she comes back to find you again? Or when you find another one?"

"Si Qi, don't say that, don't you like me? Isn't this bad? I can help you too."

"Fuck you, who the hell gave you such a big face? I still like you. According to what you said, you use me as a tool, and I have to be grateful to Dade? I really thank you, are you going to get out? Solve each other? Are you fucking confused? You can’t go on a date with Momo? Do you have to come to me?” I swear, Chen Feng’s brazenness is really embarrassing.

"Si Qi, that's not the case, Si Qi, do you listen to my explanation?"

"Chen Feng, get out, I don't like you anymore. Are you going to get out?"

Chen Feng came over to pull me, I shook off his hand, "Get lost."

I can't help but suspect that I am the lone star of the devil, and it will not end well if I like anyone.