If you bend me, you have to be responsible for me

The cohabitation life with Liu Yingshan is more comfortable than I imagined, so that I didn't find it after two months.

"Let's go play on May Day." Liu Yingshan invited me.

"Don't we play every weekend? I want to go home on May Day. I haven't seen my mother for a long time."

"Brother, the country gives you a holiday to let you relax, not to visit relatives. Besides, Chengdu and Chongqing are so close, which weekend can't you go home? Does it have to be May Day?" He probably can be crowned the number one throne.

"That's what you said during the Ching Ming Festival, so I couldn't go back and hang papers for my ancestors, desecrating their usual care and shelter for me."

"I was afraid that you would be sad at that time. Didn't you say that you had a bad relationship with your family? Like Qingming, who seems to feel sorry for the dead on the surface, but in fact, you don't need to go back for the day when the living get together, lest you go back and be ridiculed. Besides. , Didn’t I go back too, to accompany you, why are you so heartless?” Liu Yingshan complained as if it really happened.

"Forget about Qingming, you have to let me go back to reunite with my mother on May Day, I'll go back to Chongqing, not my hometown." Facing Liu Yingshan's unreasonable troubles, I could only shake my head.

"If you really want to go back, you can take me with you."

"inconvenient."

"What's inconvenient? How long have you been living with me? Isn't it okay if I go to your house? Besides, I'm so cute, your mother must like me, don't deny it." Liu Yingshan didn't want to pester others Fate, I broke my heart and simply told him the reason.

"I took you back as soon as I came out with my mother, do you find it convenient?"

Sure enough, Liu Yingshan's complexion changed.

"You came out with your mother? I thought only your brother knew about it, so what did she say?"

"How can I say it?" I took out my backpack and started to pack my vacation luggage, "Crying, ask me if it's because she divorced my dad and cared too little about me since she was a child."

"Is that so?" Liu Yingshan asked cautiously, I thought it was very funny.

"Are you stupid? I'm gay. This is determined by genes. From the time I was young and I knew my feelings, I knew that I was not interested in women. Even if they didn't divorce, even if I grew up under their care , this will not change at all." I put the T-shirt in the bag and continued, "It's normal for you not to know, after all, I'm not that naive to ask a straight man to understand the idea of ​​gay. But I just want to tell you , homosexuality is not a big deal. There are two types of homo in this world, one is genetically driven like me, and has never been interested in women. Even the theory of evolution can find support for this point. There are only homosexual animals in the world Thousands of thousands, fundamentally speaking, humans are nothing more than higher-level animals. It has always been social conventions, not human nature, to think that homosexuality is wrong together. But the purpose of social conventions is to separate people from animals. In the final analysis, I just forget my roots. I admit that my orientation is just driven by instinct, and I don’t think there is anything wrong. My mother, who was born in the old era and grew up in the new era, has been influenced by social regulations for a long time and is incapable of accepting it. I can also understand that, after all, she divorced my dad and worked hard alone, just to make my life better. I can't take her money and accept her favor while complaining about her It's not enough to give □□, and the thinking is too rigid. This is too unfilial, my mother can not mention this matter to me now, it is already the greatest gift to me. "

"But you are different. You are a straight man. I don't know if you have friends like me around, so I'm not sure how much you accept this matter. The timing of our acquaintance is special, maybe you I have already regarded me as a friend, and I feel that I was too miserable at the time. I am very grateful for doing these things in order not to hurt me, but also if you feel that I will feel strange when I am by your side, I only have one sentence, it is better to be together Forget each other in the rivers and lakes. No matter what, I recognize you as a friend and appreciate everything you have done for me."

Liu Yingshan's expression was tangled, probably because she was thinking carefully about what I just said, "Then, what about the other kind you mentioned? The one that's different from yours?"

I zipped up my backpack, turned to look at him seriously, and continued: "The other is that it was originally straight, but it was bent because of feelings. In a word, it is because of love."

"Because of love?" Liu Yingshan was obviously not satisfied with this explanation.

"Yes, because of love, you love him more than you care about gender. Emotional matters are just a matter of course."

"Then have you ever encountered such a thing?"

"No, although I woke up early, I came out late, and the circle is really messy, so in order to protect myself, I haven't had much contact with the same kind. But there are really such stories, and I often I was very touched when I saw it, after all, with the same orientation, it’s not easy to be together, not to mention people with different orientations, but in the end they couldn’t escape the hurdle of feelings.”

"Then how do I know if I'm straight or curvy? How can I be sure which one I am? What if I'm a late enlightenment?"

Liu Yingshan's expression became more and more forbearing. I think he was really curious, after all, this is the first time we have discussed this issue together.

"Have you seen the short film?"

"Ah."

"Who do you watch when you're watching a movie?"

"Of course teachers."

"That's right, do you know who I'm looking at?"

"Look at those men? But they are so ugly." Liu Yingshan obviously found it inconceivable.

"Yes, I know they are ugly, and I'm not blind, but it's never the teachers in your eyes that make me react, but those things full of male hormones. This is the difference between the two of us."

"If you really feel that there is a problem, you can take a test online. Now there is a homotest on the Internet. After completing the questions, you will know your orientation."

"Then how do I know if I like the same sex?"

"It's simpler. When you are in a natural situation and see him harden, then it's probably true love."

"In a word, it's really inconvenient for you to go to my house. My mother will use you as a tool for me to openly fight against her, which is not conducive to family unity."

"Then you have to go back?" Liu Yingshan was probably still digesting what I just said.

"Don't we usually play together? What's wrong with me going home for three days after May Day?"

"It's only three days. You have a class in the morning on Wednesday, and you leave in the afternoon. You make up your class on Thursday on Sunday, and you don't have class on Thursday. You go back and forth and give yourself five days and four nights off."

Liu Yingshan calculated very seriously, and I was also surprised that he knew my schedule.

"How do you know I'm going to give myself a vacation like this?"

"You don't care how I know, just say if you can not go back."

"I can't."

"Okay, then I'll go to Chongqing with you."

"Don't worry, I live outside, and I live near your house." I just wanted to say that it was inconvenient, but I was blocked by Liu Yingshan's words. I can go if I want to, anyway, I just don't live in my house.

However, the plan always failed to keep up with the changes. I wanted to go back to accompany my mother, but my mother received a temporary notice to visit Southeast Asia the day after I went back.

So in the end Liu Yingshan checked out and moved into my house, and we slept in the same bed for the first time.

I don't know if it's because I stayed up too late at school, and I wanted to sleep after returning home, and I couldn't hold on after playing games until eleven o'clock.

"I'm going to sleep first, you can play, and sleep when you want to sleep. But it's better to go to bed early, I will take you to Ciqikou tomorrow."

"Don't, let's play together again." Liu Yingshan's skills are becoming more and more sophisticated now, and she has to grind everything.

"I'm too tired, forget it, someone is snoring in the dormitory, I often stay up late, and finally go home, I have to raise myself."

"Then you wait, I'll be with you."

"Don't worry, you can continue to fight if you want, just don't disturb me later."

"Forget it, anyway, it's the first time sharing the same bed, so it's better to be together."

So we both lay on the bed one after the other.

Probably because I was too tired, I almost fell asleep just after I lay down on the bed, and someone hugged me in a daze.

"Siqi, Siqi, let's talk."

"What are you talking about, two men, and there is no such thing as a bosom brother."

"But this is the first time the two of us slept under the same quilt. It's so memorable. If you think about how long it's been since we met, it can be regarded as rapid progress."

"Speedy fart, we obviously cover the quilt separately, this is really not a quilt, okay?"

"That's also a bed. Hey, Yu Siqi, what do you mean? Are you still a man?"

"Why am I not a man?"

"You're gay, shouldn't the effect of lying on the bed with me be the same as that of a lonely man and a widow lying on the same bed? Why do you only want to sleep? Am I not attractive? No, it should be that my brother is so handsome." Men and women take it all. Or is there something wrong with you?"

"Liu Yingshan, can you fucking shut up, I've been walking around Jiefangbei with you all afternoon today, and I've been playing games since I came back. It's not easy for me to sleep until now, okay?" I curled up. The air conditioner on Roll was turned around, facing away from him. "And if you really want to try it, I don't mind if I'm a man or gay."

"Just kidding, so serious. I didn't know you were so fragile. I got tired after shopping for a while. By the way, I took the test you mentioned online."

"What test?"

"It's the homo one. Do you want to know the result?"

I snorted coldly, "Is there any need to think about it? You should be a proper straight man."

"How do you know, it's so obvious. That's what it said above. I finished it and the result was 90%, but I thought there was still 10%, so that [-]% means that I might like a man, right? Say?"

"I think what you said makes sense, can we sleep?"

"Then are you afraid that I will fall in love with you?"

"I'm not afraid, so can I sleep?"

"Why aren't you afraid?"

"I'm gay, and I won't suffer if you like me. So can we sleep?"

"Sleep, sleep."

When I finally adjusted my posture and closed my eyes, "Ding ding ding, ding ding ding", Liu Yingshan's cell phone rang.

"Liu Yingshan, are you fucking going to die if you set the alarm in the middle of the night?"

"Haha, Si Qi, I'm sorry, it's past twelve o'clock, hehehe, I did it on purpose."

"Go and sleep on the sofa."

"Happy birthday." Liu Yingshan and I spoke almost at the same time, and I just remembered that May [-]nd was my birthday. I was at a loss for words, rolled back and rolled up, and fell asleep.

"Thank you."