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It has been more than a month since Lin Jianan left Jiahua Apartment, Fang Shaoyun went to Jiahua Apartment every day to wait empty, gradually despairing, more and more anxious... Is he really never coming back?Fang Shaoyun felt a pain in his chest. During this period of time, he felt that his heart was oppressed by something, stuffy, as if it was difficult to breathe.

Every morning I go to the place where that person lived, and I have to come back to the Fang family mansion at night. I am more and more haggard under the exhaustion of body and mind, and every time I come back to Fang's house, I worry about whether I will be here in the place where I am not. How long has he been back?Will I miss him just like that?When staying in Fang Zhai, he seemed even more anxious.But he still insisted on coming back to live at home every day, because he had promised Fang Shaoping.

On this day, Fang Shaoyun was still waiting in Jiahua Apartment for a whole day, and it was almost one o'clock in the morning when he returned to Fang's house. Fang Shaoyun went straight back to his courtyard, but he didn't expect to see Fang Shaoping waiting in his room.

During this period of time, Fang Shaoyun didn't look for Fang Shaoping. Seeing him take the initiative to look for him, Fang Shaoyun felt a little embarrassed, and felt a little sorry for Fang Shaoping. He actually left him alone for so long, but he went to Jiahua Apartment every day. There is really no time to find Fang Shaoping.

Fang Shaoyun saw Fang Shaoping sitting on the sofa in the lobby of his room, and asked awkwardly, "Why haven't you rested here and waited for me so late, what's the matter?"

Fang Shaoping can also see that Fang Shaoyun is uncomfortable with himself. He knows why, but he may not know it himself, alas~~~ "I have something to tell you. I haven't seen you at home recently, so I can only be with you This is waiting for you."

"Shaoping, I'm sorry, I..." Fang Shaoyun didn't know how to explain his behavior to Shaoping during this time. He hadn't stayed at home much recently, and basically stayed in Jiahua Apartment all day long. Shaoping also For sure.

Fang Shaoping saw that Fang Shaoyun wanted to explain something to himself, but he couldn't say anything, so he couldn't help but sigh in his heart, and the last bit of hesitation was gone. He couldn't bear to see Fang Shaoyun so sad and embarrassed.Fang Shaoping smiled slightly at Fang Shaoyun and said, "Brother, don't say anything, I know everything."

"Shao Ping, I'm sorry, if you're unhappy, then I... won't go anymore!" Fang Shaoyun paused for a long time, as if he didn't want to say the following words, and finally said them with a frown.

Fang Shaoping heard what he said, saw him frowning and speaking, walked in front of him, and smoothed his frowning with his hands, "Brother, you don't have to be like this, don't force yourself."

Fang Shaoyun firmly grasped Fang Shaoping's hand between his eyebrows, as if to let him see his determination, "I really won't go, don't force it, as long as Shaoping is unhappy, I won't do it."

Fang Shaoping took his hand out of Fang Shaoyun's hand, sighed and said, "Brother, don't you still not understand your own heart? How long do you want to deceive yourself? You should understand, right? Since that person left, you haven't had a day If you are happy, you will go to him every day and wait for him to come back. You will be anxious because you can’t wait for him, and you will be worried when you come home. It’s because you like him, you have fallen in love with him a long time ago. , It’s just that I have never dared to admit it. You have concerns, you are worrying about me. For so long, in fact, your feelings for me are no longer love. When you are a good brother, you are still my favorite brother, and I am still your favorite brother. Just be an ordinary brother who loves each other. So brother, don’t dare to admit your feelings because you worry about me! Don’t Stop deceiving yourself and others! You love him, you have fallen in love with him a long time ago, just admit it and go bravely to pursue your love!!" Fang Shaoping finally spit out the words that were suppressed in his heart, and immediately felt a burst of relief in his heart , Yes, as I said, it would be good to be brothers, or good brothers who love each other.This is long overdue!Let your brother be free, and let yourself be free.

Fang Shaoyun was stunned when he heard Fang Shaoping's words, and muttered to himself: "So I am like this because I like him? So I have fallen in love with him a long time ago? Can I love him? I can really love him Shaoping, Shaoping, can I really love him, Shaoping?" The last sentence was addressed to Fang Shaoping.

"Of course, brother, you have the right to pursue your own happiness. If you want to love him, you can love him. My brother supports you!" Fang Shaoping really felt relieved. He really felt that this was very good, and smiled encouragingly at his brother. speak.

Hearing Fang Shaoping's confirmation, Fang Shaoyun felt suddenly enlightened, as if a mountain that was pressing on his heart had been removed.Yes, I like him, I have fallen in love with him a long time ago, but I never dared to think about it before, because I felt that if I fell in love with others, I would betray my younger brother.

After listening to Fang Shaoping's words, Fang Shaoyun finally relaxed. For the first time in more than a month, he finally smiled easily. By the way, I love him, I can love him...he...where did he go?Damn it, I decided to love you, where did you go?Where is it?Immediately, I thought that he was gone, everyone was gone, how could I love?I can't laugh again--

Fang Shaoping finally heaved a sigh of relief seeing his brother finally smile again after more than a month... Emma, ​​it's not easy to finally smile!As long as my brother can feel better, it's not in vain for me to quit voluntarily!

But I saw my brother's smiling face lasted for less than a minute, and then returned to a gloomy face—what's the matter? "Brother, what's the matter?"

Fang Shaoyun looked at his younger brother looking at him with concern, frowned and gave him a bitter smile, "He's gone, I don't know where he went, I waited for him in his apartment every day, but he didn't come back. He disappeared, I can't find him, I don't know his name, I don't know his family background, I don't know what friends he has, I don't know any information about him, I can't find him, I can only passively wait in the apartment every day, hoping that he will return I can take the initiative to come back."

Fang Shaoping looked at his brother's pitiful appearance, although it was very unreasonable, he couldn't help complaining in his heart-what have you been doing together for three years?Don't even know their name?This is too scumbag, right?No wonder people are leaving! !Then he thought that his brother's scum might have his own reasons, so he could only touch his nose silently.

"Brother, don't be discouraged. Maybe he might come back. Don't worry, we will see you again one day." Fang Shaoping comforted dryly. I have to be my confidant brother to comfort my injured brother, but I still can't get used to it all at once... Fang Shaoyun hugged Fang Shaoping and said softly, "Thank you, Shaoping." It's pure brother! ! !

Fang Shaoping smiled sweetly at Fang Shaoyun, "Brother, are we brothers? You don't need to say thank you to brothers....It's late, so I won't disturb your rest. Go to bed early." After speaking, he turned and left.

******

The next day, Fang Shaoyun moved to Jiahua Apartment, and told his brother that it was okay. After he had no worries, he could wait for him in his apartment openly, and he could watch him [-] hours a day if he lived here. Worried about what to do if people come back and miss when they are not there.

But it doesn't mean that he won't be anxious when he lives here, it just means that the anxiety situation will be better, but he still often thinks that he won't come back! , What if he really doesn't come back?Will he come back?Will he be back today?Does he really not want to come back?The more I think about it, the more anxious and irritable I become.

The parents of Fang's family over there knew that the younger son went to talk and the result was that the second son moved out, so they were speechless for a while... and heard from Lao Li's report that "the second young master is not willing to leave the apartment for a moment, and the official business is handled at home. The person who went in to deliver the documents came out and said that the second young master's mood has not improved at all, he is still so anxious!"

The three of Fang's parents made a careful calculation and decided to let him see a psychiatrist!

Although I have already accepted it, I don't mind if he likes a man, but his current state is obviously abnormal!It's better to take him to see a psychiatrist.This matter was handed over to the boss to deal with.

Fang Shaowu took on a hard job, but there was nothing he could do about it. No matter who told him that he was his own brother, he could only come to the door as a lobbyist and persuade Fang Shaoyun to see a psychiatrist.

He contacted Jack, a psychological therapist who is more authoritative in the world, for Shaoyun. Jack was willing to return to China to treat him immediately, but Jack said that seeing a psychologist is voluntary, so it is not recommended to have a doctor come to treat him. , As long as he agrees to see a doctor, that is the first step to open his heart. Let him go to a psychiatrist for treatment. This is the first step in treatment, so this heavy responsibility falls on Fang Shaowu.

Fang Shaowu came to Jiahua Apartment, came to Fang Shaoyun's door and knocked on the door, and then saw Fang Shaoyun opened the door with excitement, Fang Shaowu was shocked, would it make him so happy to come to him by himself?He was so happy and excited to open the door to welcome himself!But in the next second, Fang Shaowu admired the great face change of the century... He watched Fang Shaoyun's excited face change from extremely excited for one second to extremely disappointed, and then staring at him in the next second was full of hatred and resentment Then in the next second, the resentful face turned into an indifferent face--is this welcoming me or not welcoming me?It seems really necessary to see a psychiatrist.

"Brother? Why are you here?" Fang Shaoyun thought that the person had come back when he heard the knock on the door, because he remembered that there was no work today, so there should be no one coming, so he ran to open the door excitedly, but was disappointed when he opened the door!It turned out that it was his elder brother Fang Shaowu who knocked on the door. Fang Shaoyun looked at him bitterly, as if Fang Shaowu had made that person disappear.In the next second, he returned to his usual indifference.

"You brat, can't my elder brother come to see my younger brother? You moved out of the house without making a sound. Do you know how worried your parents are?" Fang Shaowu laughed and scolded his younger brother, then walked in.

Fang Shaowu looked around Fang Shaoyun's living environment after entering the door. The layout was not bad. Although it was not big, it was simple and tidy. The large floor-to-ceiling windows on one side let sunlight shine in, making it more spacious and bright.

Fang Shaoyun also knew that it was wrong for him to move out of the house without saying a word, so he kept silent without saying a word.

Seeing his brother like this, Fang Shaowu didn't have the heart to criticize him anymore. He walked to the sofa and sat down, looked at Fang Shaoyun and said, "I came to see you this time because of my parents. They asked me to find you a psychiatrist for consultation." Just a minute, I've already made arrangements, look...how about coming with me now? I asked your secretary, and he told me you have no schedule for today.

When Fang Shaoyun heard that he was going to see a psychiatrist, he didn't have any repulsion. He knew his condition, he became more and more anxious, and he liked to think wildly. Gradually, he couldn't control his temper, but he had no choice but to wait If he didn't reach that person, he couldn't control the anxiety, as if there was a fire burning in his heart, he knew that he was not normal.

It’s okay to let him see a psychologist, but he doesn’t want to let him leave the apartment. He always feels that as soon as he leaves, that person will come back. He doesn’t want to miss any chance that that person may come back, and he doesn’t want any Miss his happenings.So Fang Shaoyun couldn't say anything to Fang Shaowu.

"Don't go? Why? You don't look like someone who would shy away from medical treatment." Fang Shaowu was a little surprised. With his brother's strong personality, it is impossible not to go to the doctor because of cowardice and fear, and he is an extremely smart person, it is impossible not to Know why your parents and yourself want him to see a psychiatrist.

"It's not that reason. It's okay to see a psychiatrist, but I don't want to leave the apartment. What if I just leave that person and come back? So I won't leave!"

"So it's the reason, it's simple, I'm here to watch for you, once someone comes, I'll call you immediately and help you keep them, right? You can go at ease, I'll give you the address, And this phone call, you go and find him yourself, don't worry, I will never let anyone who knocks on the door go." Fang Shaowu looked at Fang Shaoyun with a hesitant look, and assured again and again that in order to complete his parents' explanation, He is also very hardworking.

Hearing what his brother had said, Fang Shaoyun had no choice but to agree. Although he was still a little worried, he endured it.

Fang Shaoyun left his brother to look after the house, and went out alone with the address given by his brother.When I went downstairs, the driver, Lao Li, was already waiting at the door. Before I went downstairs, I called him and asked him to pick me up to go out.

Fang Shaoyun handed over the address to Lao Li, and closed his eyes in the back seat to meditate. In fact, he was still anxious. Although he knew that his brother was at home to help him watch, he still thought of countless possibilities that made him anxious.

******

When I arrived at the place written on the address, it was a quiet teahouse, and the psychological counselor and my brother made an appointment in a small box in the teahouse.Fang Shaoyun knocked on the door of the box, and after hearing a voice to come in, he opened the door of the box and walked in.

"Please sit down." The psychological counselor Jack saw Fang Shaoyun coming in, looked at him, pointed to the opposite seat and asked Fang Shaoyun to sit down.

Jack is observing Fang Shaoyun, and Fang Shaoyun is also observing him... This is a blond foreigner, but he speaks a pure country Z accent.

Although Jack is from country M, he likes country Z since he was a child. He has learned the language and culture of country Z since he was a child. He has also lived in country Z for a long time after he grew up, so he speaks Mandarin fluently, and there is nothing strange about it. accent.

"Hello, I'm Jack, your counselor." Jack said and stretched out his right hand to Fang Shaoyun. He knew that there was a handshake ceremony in country Z.

"Hello, my name is Fang Shaoyun." Fang Shaoyun also reached out and shook his hand.

In this way, they are not like a patient and a doctor at all, just like two friends who meet for the first time.

"Mr. Fang, let's chat casually. Can you tell me what troubles you have?" Jack saw that Fang Shaoyun felt quite normal, and asked tentatively.

"He left a note and left." Fang Shaoyun slowly explained the reasons for his troubles to Jack, "At first I thought he just lost his temper, and he came back in a few days and didn't pay much attention, and then went to M I went on a business trip across the country for ten days. When I came back from the business trip, I thought he should be back after so many days, but when I went back, I saw that he still hadn’t come back. I started to get angry, but then I found the key he left on the table, because it was blocked by something. Covering it up, I didn’t find it in the past few times. He actually left all the keys, and I became anxious. I checked the room carefully and found that he took away all his own things.”

"I don't have any contact information about him, I don't even know his name, and I can't find out where he is. I regret that I didn't even ask his name. I don't even know his name, which makes me even more annoyed. I I started to get restless, I was afraid that he would never come back. I have been waiting for him at the place where he lives, but he has not come back. As long as I leave there, I will be very restless, for fear that the next second I will leave him He would come back and leave without a key to open the door, I was afraid of missing him, so I started moving there for work, and now I'm moving in."

"I don't want to leave for a second, although I think he may not come back, every time I think about this situation, I get more irritable. I'm scared, really scared, I'm afraid he won't come back, I'm afraid Lost him forever, I don't know where to find him, just stay where he used to live, as long as there is a glimmer of hope that he might come back, just keep waiting for him, every time I hear a knock on the door I would be very excited, thinking it was him who came back, but every time I opened the door and found that it was not him, I would feel even more disappointed. At this time, I would be in a bad mood, restless, irritable, and resent the person who knocked on the door. I There is a fire burning in my heart, which makes me unable to control my emotions. I know that I am not normal, but when I think that he may never come back, I can't help becoming anxious when I think of all kinds of possibilities." Fang Shaoyun told the psychological counselor Jack in detail about his situation.Fang Shaoyun knew that in order to get a good treatment, he needed his own cooperation, otherwise it would be useless to have the best psychiatrist. Fang Shaoyun is a smart person and knows what he should do.

After listening to Fang Shaoyun's description, Jack can basically confirm his symptoms, "Well, I'm basically sure, you are suffering from anxiety disorder... Anxiety neurosis, referred to as anxiety disorder, is a neurosis characterized by anxiety. Because of the fear and anxiety that have no factual basis and no clear objective object and specific concept content, as well as autonomic symptoms and muscle tension. Here your fear and anxiety come from your performance of his departure. Can you explain in detail Is there a story between you? Then I can better judge what kind of treatment you need."

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