I'll forgive you when you're crazy

When I opened my eyes again, I was lying on an untouchable big bed. The size of the bed surprised me, and I woke up suddenly.

I was still wearing the Japanese men's kimono in the Japanese food store, but the belt was loose. I looked up and saw that this was an environment I had never been to. It was not like a hotel or something, but rather like a place A private bedroom for someone with great taste.

The minimalist style of decoration, the layout of large color blocks, the oversized bed and sofa, the size of the room is not small, but there are not many furniture, and the colors are mainly simple and elegant, which makes people calm down quickly from the restless mood. .

I was about to get out of bed, but I heard the sound of the door opening. When I opened the door, it was indeed Wu Tian.

Seeing that I woke up, Wu Tian smiled apologetically: "It's my fault these two days, I've tormented you, you must be exhausted."

I looked at him, and started to rewind the previous memories in my mind, thinking of those irrelevant words in the Japanese restaurant, I don't know how to explain.

Wu Tian came over and sat beside me: "Today I asked for half a day off for you, and I will also ask for leave to accompany you."

I glanced at the wall clock on the wall, and it was already night after I woke up. After passing this afternoon, I unexpectedly fell asleep.

"I..." I didn't know what to say to Wu Tian for a while.

Wu Tian pressed the back of my hand: "You don't need to say anything, you just need to believe that I'm real."

I couldn't help smiling, a bitter smile hung on the corner of my mouth.

Wu Tian seemed to be unable to restrain himself and moved over. I fell backwards when he kissed me.

Wu Tian's lips were soft and warm.I lay flat and looked at his face so close, my heart moved, I got up and turned over.

Now Wu Tianping is lying in front of me, I stare at his face, but I can't help but think of the worthless person who was ridiculed once - no money, no beauty, no figure, but the person in front of me has money, beauty and figure, why do I fall in love with him? And me?

"What are you looking at?" Wu Tian waited for a long time, but he became impatient when he didn't see me move.

I reached out and touched his face, with a calm but serious tone: "Look at you."

Wu Tian was taken aback by what I said, and then turned his head to one side in embarrassment.

"It is said that men are visual animals. I think I am. If it weren't for your face, maybe I wouldn't be bent by you, but I don't understand. What do you like about me? I want to have no face. , If you want to be in shape, but you are leaning on me like chicken blood all day long, are you the legendary 'judgment of ugliness'?"

Wu Tian's cheeks were originally smeared pink, but he was so annoyed by my words that he glared at me angrily: "You think I'm as superficial as you? You only know how to look at your face and figure?"

I raised my eyebrows disapprovingly: "Yeah, I'm just so superficial. Others may be able to do it if they have money, but I can't. These two must be stuck, it's just so superficial."

Wu Tian was annoyed: "I stand on both of these, so I don't care."

I nodded suddenly: "Then what do you like about me? I was very curious before, but at that time there was a sense of self-confidence that didn't come and I didn't think so much. Now I find it really strange. Are you Do you have sympathy for me?"

At the end, I said what I thought was the most likely conjecture. When Wu Tian heard it, the scowl on his face immediately turned into frost. He suddenly grabbed my collar and turned over and pressed me down again. Down.

"Sympathy for you? Have you misunderstood the word sympathy? Sympathy can make people estrous?" Wu Tian looked at me coldly while unbuttoning me.

Seeing this, the ridicule on my face gradually subsided, I stretched out my hand to grab Wu Tian's arm, turned over and turned back.

Fortunately, the bed is surprisingly big, and the two of us who rolled around like this didn't fall out of the bed.

Wu Tian lay on the bed and stared at me, I hunched over slightly and looked at him, then slowly approached him, and said softly: "Pity won't make you estrous, will distress?"

Wu Tian's eyes froze when he heard the words, I kissed her without any hesitation, Wu Tian closed his eyes and tried to respond to me.

Things have changed, and I am no longer what I used to be. I don't want to cater to Wu Tianlai in a humble way in exchange for his happiness, because I find that squeezing him makes me happier.

Seeing the fine sweat oozing from Wu Tian's forehead sticking to his hair, the sharp and three-dimensional facial features, always a proud and outstanding, cold and lonely look in his eyes, never bothering whether he is recognized by the world, and never caring about other people's feelings.

How can I be liked by such a person?

If I hadn't experienced these years, I might not have believed that he would be the one under pressure.

Is he purely for me, or has he been changed by others long ago?

This idea flashed in my head, and it was fleeting, but it was quietly buried in my heart like a seed.

This time I was not as crazy as I was in the Internet cafe last time. At that time, I was more like an instinctive indulgence, attacking the city without any scruples. At that time, I didn't care too much about Wu Tian's feelings. Colliding together is also painful and joyful.

Thinking about it now, I really didn't know tenderness at that time.

This time, I deprived Wu Tian with hatred, nostalgia for Wu Tian, ​​and obsession with Wu Tian.

I want to take away his pain, his pleasure, his sensuality, and his inability to help.

At the end of the ceremony, he propped his head on one hand and looked at me sideways. His hair was almost wet with sweat, and he looked a little more sexy.

"I want to smoke." Wu Tian said to me.

I glanced at him, dragged my exhausted body and found cigarettes and fire on the bedside table, lit one myself and handed it to Wu Tian, ​​and then lit another one myself.

Wu Tian took a deep breath, poured out the smoke and then turned to me and asked, "Want to listen to music?"

I looked at him and nodded slightly.

Wu Tian directly called out the smart housekeeper with voice control, and played the half-heard song he had heard before.

I have never heard this song, but it makes people feel that the soul has been washed. Although I think the sound effect has played a big role, I have to say that Wu Tian and I have different tastes in listening to songs. very different.

He likes to listen to pure music, but I like to listen to music with connotative lyrics. Sometimes it’s just the lyrics that move me, and I can repeat this song for a long time.

I couldn't enjoy Wu Tian's taste before, but now I'm relieved, but I don't have a taste.

This is the difference between a person with a strong character and a common person.

Perhaps the music was too calming. The feeling of cremation that the two had just collided with was almost extinguished by the ethereal music. The two did not speak for a long time, and an indescribable atmosphere of silence spread around.

"What do you like to listen to recently?" Wu Tian broke the calm.

"Nothing, you probably haven't heard of it."

"I just want to listen to it because I haven't heard it before."

I said to the smart butler, "Play "Who is worse than a Whore."

The intelligent voice spoke a gentle female voice: "What is playing?"

I said it again: "Whore is worse than A Whore."

As a result, the intelligent voice said again: "Sorry, your record is lost."

I looked at Wu Tian very speechlessly: "Are you speech retarded?"

Wu Tian handed me the phone: "Come and search."

I felt a little discouraged, and thinking of the lyrics of that song, I thought I'd better forget it.

"What?" Wu Tian looked at me.

I said, "Actually, there's nothing to listen to."

Wu Tian: "You don't want me to listen?"

I pouted, took the phone and found the song.

With the prelude of the guitar, a slightly hoarse male voice sang from the stereo:

"Through the downfall of the green hills yesterday

You help the pavilion to play a youthful song

Thinking of the ups and downs of last night

You said that life is suffering in the world, and life cannot escape torture

The daily loneliness of the bitter life

I said that everything is fate and life is forced

It's better to cut meat and feed the eagle under the Bodhi tree

It's better to shave or become a monk and cut off the seven emotions

It's better not to meet than not to meet

It's better to die forever

It is not as good as the sunshine, the earth has no four seasons

I'd rather be with you..."

I don't know why I named this song out of my mind, maybe I have listened to it too many times, and I substituted it into the lyrics without knowing it.

I glanced at Wu Tian's reaction, his expression was serious, and I didn't know what he was thinking.

Since I didn't know what I was thinking, I simply didn't think about it.

I stopped the music, and it felt good when I listened to it alone, but it felt weird when I listened to it with two people.