I'll forgive you when you're crazy

Yes, I am always self-righteous and immersed in my grievances, always feel that I am the one who is ignored, but I forget that when I feel sorry for myself, I often ignore Wu Tian's feelings.

He is always so strong, so strong that it is easy to forget that he is also made of flesh and blood, and he is also vulnerable at times.

I face him again facelessly and silently turned my head to the side.

Wu Tian suddenly grabbed my chin and turned to him: "I'll ask you one last time, if you really want to get it right with me, then you don't want to say anything, and I don't want to know anymore. "

I swallowed, and I didn't know where the evil spirit came from, I grabbed Wu Tian's face and kissed him.

"Why do you force kiss me? I will too!!" As if Wu Tian was determined, Wu Tian was taken aback by my kiss, but then he pressed the back of my head and kissed me back even more domineeringly.

After kissing, I felt a bit hypoxic and separated from each other. Wu Tian touched the corner of his mouth and smiled wickedly.

I also touched my mouth, gasping for breath, embarrassed.

"Let's talk." Wu Tian still hasn't forgotten what happened just now.

I mustered up the courage to take a breath and said, "Actually, it has something to do with giving you a cuckold..."

Hearing what I said, Wu Tian's eyes widened a bit.

I thought about it, and tried to keep my wording simple: "At that time, I took a domestic violence divorce case. I was the lawyer appointed by the court to represent the domestic violence man. The domestic violence man did not want to divorce, but the woman wanted to leave. Not only did the man have a long history of domestic violence, but the last time the woman ran out and went straight to the police station, her head was already bleeding. The man dared to go directly to the police station to commit murder, and was arrested by the police on the spot.

Originally, the process of this case was not complicated. The murder was committed under the watchful eyes of the public, with surveillance and disability identification, which was very unfavorable to the man. If he wanted to avoid a divorce, he could only reconcile in private, otherwise the final verdict of the case would definitely be the woman's victory. I can only Fight for some legal interests for the man to the greatest extent.

But I don’t like this domestic violence man personally. He is still the kind of bullying person. I heard that he has no chance of winning, so he is very against me. He keeps clamoring to replace me, but he still doesn’t want to spend money to hire a lawyer. I am Legal aid is obliged to help him with this lawsuit, so he finds various excuses to delay.

I don't want to spend time on people like him, so I want to close this case as soon as possible, and the woman's lawyer is still my acquaintance and my classmate when I was studying law, so I found a time to think about it. Invite him to meet in private and talk about how to make this case 'graceful' end as soon as possible.

Normally, I can't meet privately with the other party's lawyer before the case is over, but since I'm an acquaintance, I don't think about it that much. As long as both parties keep their mouths tight and don't get accused, it's actually a trivial matter.

In the end, I never expected..."

I couldn't help but smile bitterly when I talked about it: "The guy ordered me some drinks that looked like fruit juice. Although I could feel a sweet taste of wine when I drank it, he told me it was a special product of that store, just like wine. Like sugar, it doesn’t have any strength, and children can drink it. Originally, I wanted to talk to him and didn’t want to drink. He said that the two of us haven’t seen each other for so many years. I drank some, because it was very sweet, so I drank a little too much without knowing it... But I never thought that it was the long-rumored 'fragmented wine'..."

I shook my head and smiled wryly while talking, my nose was a little sore: "So I was like that Ouyang Xin, and was raped by that guy. I was still conscious at the time, but I didn't have the ability to resist at all..."

"Stop talking..." Wu Tian suddenly covered my mouth, stared at me with red eyes and said, "Why didn't you tell me? Even if I said things that shouldn't be said in a fit of anger, you can tell me afterwards me!"

I stared at Wu Tian for a while and slowly took his hand off: "If you really want to know, you can know anyway."

If you don't want to know, what's the point of me going up to the pole to explain?

Wu Tian was choked by my words, and then he couldn't help frowning slightly: "If it's really like what you said, you and him are just acquaintances, why would he do this? Didn't you realize it in advance?"

My heart sank when I heard this, and a chill came from the bottom of my heart.

Then he laughed lightly, and looked at Wu Tian with disdain: "You mean, if I knew he was interested in me and agreed to meet him for a drink, then I deserved to be fucked by him? "

Wu Tian stared angrily: "Of course I didn't mean that!!"

I raised my hand to stop him from continuing: "No need to explain, you think exactly the same as those people. I am not innocent anyway. I deserve it. As a lawyer, I know I broke the law. I shouldn't meet him at all. You shouldn't drink, the most important thing is that I proposed to meet first, and no one believed me when I said it was true."

I smiled and shook my head while talking, I don’t know how many times I have secretly scolded myself over the years, I deserve it, I deserve it, I deserve it!Should! !

I couldn't win other people's sympathy like a girl, instead, I was ridiculed and despised by countless people, as if I was not a victim, but an extremely stupid counselor, all of which resulted in what I deserved.

I looked at Wu Tian indifferently, he just yelled at me how he lived these years and how his heart was bleeding.

But when I was licking my wounds alone in a dark corner, did he ever think about what happened to me?

Maybe it was the look in my eyes that made Wu Tian a little moved and uneasy. He came over and grabbed my hand and said, "Am I wrong? I shouldn't have said that just now."

I pulled my hand out and smiled slightly with my mouth curled up: "Actually, you're right. I thought so too. It's the result of my stupidity. I deserve nothing to complain about."

Wu Tian suddenly hugged me again: "Don't say that, I won't allow you to say that!"

I looked up at the distant sky, and whispered in Wu Tian's ear, "Wu Tian, ​​why did you come to me again after so many years?"

Wu Tian frowned into a knot: "Why do you always struggle with this problem?"

I smiled bitterly: "Because if you don't show up, I just forget about you, but you suddenly appeared in front of me, breaking the peaceful life I worked so hard to maintain, and making me recall the pain of the past over and over again. Now I start to hate you, really, I didn’t hate you even when you were not around in those painful days, now, I really hate you.”

Wu Tian let go of me slowly, his eyes were moist and flickering: "Why?"

I looked at him calmly: "Why should I tell you?"

Wu Tian: "There is always a reason to hate me, right?"

I smiled lightly: "Have you ever heard a saying? When I love you, I just need to follow my feelings and be ignorant of everything; when I hate you, I have thousands of reasons to dismiss you; you say you When you miss me, your heart bleeds, you must also hate me, right?"

Wu Tian shook his head slowly but didn't speak. I knew he wanted to refute but didn't know what to say.

"You don't need to rush to refute. For me, you hate me may be the only memory that makes me feel sweet in these years. At least it proves that you once loved me. Now I just want an answer. If If you can give me a good time, just answer me frankly, why did it suddenly appear in my life? I don’t have a clue about this motive now. If I pretend to be smart and stay with you to the end, I think I’m not smart enough. If you If you are really willing to forgive me after hearing my reasons for cheating in the past, you can give me a good time, okay?"

In the end, I almost said it in a pleading tone, looking at him with extremely humble eyes.

Wu Tian took a few deep breaths, and after a while he said, "I'm really not as evil as you think. The reason why I want to find you is because you've been single, so..."

I sneered disdainfully: "How do you know I've been single? Watch me?"

Wu Tian looked at me without changing his face: "It doesn't take surveillance to investigate that you are single."

I thought so too, it's not too convenient for his profession.

Wu Tian looked at me, his eyes still clear: "I've told you the reason, but whether you believe it or not is up to you."

I gave Wu Tian a noncommittal look, took out the cigarette case from my pocket, lit a cigarette, and gazed into the distance.

Wu Tian came up and lit one: "What's the matter? Still don't believe it?"

I sneered: "It's the same as not saying the reason, I don't believe it or not."

Wu Tian's face suddenly turned cold: "What? You have to listen to me saying that this is a trap that I deliberately play with you to hurt you, so you can feel at ease?"

I shook my head and took a puff of smoke: "I don't think your purpose is so boring and superficial, so I can't see through it now."

Wu Tian looked at me with a gloomy expression: "Actually, it's not as complicated as you think, it's just that you don't want to believe it."

My eyelids sank, I didn't refute him anymore, and I didn't bother to refute him.

The heart is really tired, especially when it comes to feelings, it is exhausting physically and mentally.