Gu Nianruochu

At 09:30 in the evening, there was only one bedside lamp turned on in the room, and the light was dim. Yin Xu rolled a few times on his sleeping mat and couldn't help sighing, "I don't know why, I think I'm sleeping on a bedside lamp. kennel."

Wei Siyuan sat on the edge of the bed in pajamas and read WeChat. He didn't know whether he had talked about something funny with others or heard Yin Xu's words. The corners of his lips twitched and he laughed silently.

The feeling of frustration and frustration that Yin Xu felt when he was in the parking lot of the shopping mall in the afternoon disappeared in an instant. He fondly touched Wei Siyuan's white and clean ankle exposed under his pajama pants, feeling inexplicably shy and warmer than a hug A kiss is even more intimate and warm.

Wei Siyuan put down his phone, put his legs back under the quilt, lay down and said to him, "Go to sleep."

"So early?" Yin Xu looked at the time and confirmed that it is 09:30. He sat on the ground with his hands on Wei Siyuan's bed and lay on his stomach. From Wei Siyuan's perspective, he looked a little childish, "You usually sleep well. so early?"

Wei Siyuan didn't answer, but instead asked him, "What time do you usually go to bed?"

"Two o'clock, sometimes three o'clock."

When Wei Siyuan heard this, he immediately felt bad. The little prince who stayed up all night has become a king of staying up all night. It’s no wonder that his body can bear such a day and night upside down. Now he is so close to Yin Xu face to face, so he can see his eyes very carefully. There are thick dark circles under the eyes, "Then you come to my house for breakfast at 07:30 and take me to school."

Yin Xu gave a low "hmm", and was afraid that Wei Siyuan would think too much, so he added an explanation, "But I don't feel sleepy, I'm used to this kind of routine, it's not forced."

"Then change it. Now that you live at my house, what time you go to bed depends on my schedule. It's up to you." Wei Siyuan urged him, "Lie down."

Yin Xu had no choice but to lie down and cover the quilt in embarrassment, and after Wei Siyuan turned off the light, he turned to his direction, "Siyuan."

"what."

"Can you sleep on the side, if I can't sleep and dare not wake you up, I can still hold your hand."

Two big men held hands when they couldn't fall asleep. Wei Siyuan didn't think Yin Xu was cute, but he thought it was silly, so he suppressed a smile and asked him, "You want me to sleep like the one in "The Death of Mara"?" Does it look like?"

Yin Xu laughed, and felt that Wei Siyuan's words were still so...cute, so he followed his words and replied, "It's fine if I sleep like the Statue of Liberty."

Wei Siyuan looked at the ceiling and thought for a while, then pushed away the quilt and got off the bed, squeezed on the cushion with Yin Xu, took away half of his pillow, and stuffed his hands into his, "I can only That way, you can't hug me."

"Siyuan, what are you doing, don't sleep on the floor, the floor is too hard..."

Wei Siyuan interrupted him and continued, "If you want me to go back to bed and sleep, you will fall asleep earlier than me. I know you will fall asleep and I will go back to bed by myself."

He probably didn't realize that this was the first time he took the initiative to hold Yin Xu's hand after they met again this time. The people he pulled were already blushing with fright, and their hearts beat like his own.

"Then I'll try." Yin Xu quickly closed his eyes, Wei Siyuan was close at hand, with his arm still attached to his arm, he didn't feel sleepy at all, and was a little distracted.

After a while, Wei Siyuan spoke, his voice was sleepy and hoarse, like the soft moonlight that was covered by thin clouds but could not be blocked, "Yin Xu."

"Huh?" Yin Xu answered him softly.

"Do you remember that in England at that time, my roommates always looked down on me. One night they had a party in the dormitory and I thought they were arguing for me to go to the library to study. When I went back, they locked the door. Obviously everyone I was inside, but no one opened the door for me as if I didn’t exist. At that time, I didn’t even bring my wallet. I walked several kilometers to your house in the cold weather. I called you downstairs, and you came down. You took me to dinner, a very expensive western restaurant, famous for their brownies and cheesecakes."

Yin Xu smiled, "Well, I have loved cakes since I was a child."

Wei Siyuan also smiled. After being filtered for a long time, the once impetuous and confused feelings became pure and clear, like the night sky when the smog cleared, "I stayed at your house that night, and I told you about my roommate. The thing that kicked me out, the two of us on your single bed, when you held my hand like this, and you said to me, 'I won't leave you alone'. Since then , I like you very, very much. If I just wanted to see you every day before, then since then, I have become wanting to stay with you every day, because I know that wherever you are, I I will definitely not be kicked out by someone." He was silent for a few seconds, and his smile slowly dissipated, "I have always wanted to give you the best things in this world, so you will understand how much I am. I like you, and then you will like me in the same way, but it turns out that it is difficult to be liked. I think the best things are not necessarily important to you. I may not be able to give you what you want. , that's why you tell others that you only treat me as a younger brother, or you shake off my hand in front of the girl you like, or... But even so, I never hated you, because I won't forget, When I was 15 years old, there was a person who held my hand in the quilt and said that I will not be alone, as long as I know you need me, I will not let you be alone..."

Yin Xu's nasal cavity was sour, his throat was choked, and he couldn't say a word. At this moment, he didn't know that there was a sudden throbbing that wanted to cry. He knew that Wei Siyuan felt sorry for him, even if he hadn't been able to He was completely forgiven, and the things that hurt him in the past are still not over, but Wei Siyuan still chose to put these aside for the time being to feel sorry for him.

In fact, Wei Siyuan has always been a bit stupid in front of him, not the kind of idiot and brainless stupid, of course he is actually very smart and excellent, because since he was a child, there was no one he could trust with confidence, so he learned early to solve his own troubles without resorting to help. Others, and the attitude towards strangers is also very cautious. It looks easy to get along with and approachable, but in fact, it has long closed up the real self and it is difficult to understand deeply.

But when he was in front of him, Wei Siyuan didn't know how to guard against him, he couldn't see him suffering, he wanted to give him everything good, he liked him unconditionally and trusted him, treating him as the most important person in his life.

But he used to hold Wei Siyuan's only sincerity, but he took his own heart away as a matter of course, and in order not to be constrained and affected by this feeling and be ambiguous with others, he shattered Wei Siyuan's only little hope, so Even if Wei Siyuan's ignorance and indifference to him are justifiable, Wei Siyuan still chooses to give him good things.

Yin Xu blamed himself in the dark and wanted to beat up his past self, but gradually Wei Siyuan's even breathing sound came from his ears, and Wei Siyuan unconsciously waited for him to fall asleep until he fell asleep.

Yin Xu let go of his hand, carefully hugged his neck with one hand and wrapped his knees with the other, and then hugged him horizontally, put him back on the bed very lightly, pulled the quilt over him, and put his lips against his forehead , rubbing the tip of his nose against his face, and whispered to him, "Good night."

The next day when Wei Siyuan woke up in bed, he was still in a daze for a while, wondering if he had sleepwalked last night before crawling back to bed, then turned around and saw Yin Xu who was still sleeping peacefully on the mat, still nestled under the quilt With an egg roll.

He turned over and looked down, he could touch Yin Xu's face with his arms stretched out from under the quilt, Yin Xu woke up almost immediately, opened his eyes sleepily, took his hand and rubbed against his face ,"what time is it?"

"It's seven o'clock, get up."

Yin Xu hasn't slept for such a long time. Although the floor is a bit hard and his back hurts a little, the fatigue that has accumulated in his body for a long time has disappeared, and his whole body feels indescribably comfortable.

Seven o'clock was still very early, before it was time to get up, he got up from the mat, crawled into Wei Siyuan's bed in a daze, lay it on Wei Siyuan's lap, closed his eyes again, and the egg roll was caught by his movements. After waking up, he jumped onto the bed with him, and nestled head to head against Wei Siyuan's other thigh.

Wei Siyuan only had one composing class this morning, after which he planned to go to the library to continue his score analysis of Beethoven's Eighth Symphony that he was about to complete.

Yin Xu sent him to the school gate before leaving. After he got off the car, he walked towards the teaching building. After walking about half the distance, he turned around. Yin Xu still stopped at the same place and looked at him. When he saw him looking back at himself, he smiled at him. Laugh, although the distance is a bit far, but Wei Siyuan knows that he smiled.

Wei Siyuan turned his head back and walked forward again. After entering the building, the phone vibrated in his trouser pocket. He took it out and took a look. It was a text message from Yin Xu, with only two words, [Miss you. 】The corners of his mouth hooked up imperceptibly, then flattened down again, touched his nose embarrassedly, licked his lips again, typed two words into the phone and returned,【Read it. 】