Gu Nianruochu

After Yin Xu got his wish and occupied the sofa in Wei Siyuan's house, Wei Siyuan almost didn't even have a place to sit at home, because as long as he stood next to the sofa, Yin Xu would lie flat, and then said naively: " Now the sofa is mine, you can't sit here."

Wei Siyuan could only look at him helplessly, "Where should I sit then?"

"Sit on my lap." Yin Xu answered his question sincerely.

"Get off." Wei Siyuan's expression turned cold, and he kicked this shameless man off the sofa, then Yin Xu grabbed his calf and pulled him down, he lost his balance and fell forward, falling on the ground. However, Yin Xu still carefully protected his head and back with his hands when he was arguing with him, lest he accidentally bump into the small coffee table in front of the sofa.

Wei Siyuan raised his face from Yin Xu's chest, and Yin Xu smiled at him, as if the white world outside the window began to melt away the sun's melting snow, "Let's get out together."

Seeing them huddling together on the floor, Egg Roll thought they were playing some kind of game, and crawled over from under the coffee table, meowing impatiently to join.

Wei Siyuan's eyes were wide open and he couldn't speak, and he didn't know what expression he should make. His ears seemed a little hot. He heard the boiling water in the kitchen bubbling against the lid of the pot, so he immediately propped himself up as if nothing had happened. Go to the kitchen and turn down the fire, then pour the wrapped dumplings into it.

"Siyuan." Yin Xu hugged the egg roll to the sofa, then walked over from behind him, stopped beside him, lowered his head to study his expression, if his face is not bad, it means he is in a good mood, he murmured again Whispered his name once, as if the name stuck between his lips and teeth, "Siyuan."

"What." Wei Siyuan responded lightly as he lowered his head and stirred the dumplings in the pot.

Yin Xu spoke nonsense to Wei Siyuan in a love-talking tone, "When will you give me your phone number?"

Wei Siyuan asked him back, "Why do you still need my number when you see me every day?"

"That's not always visible. When I can't see, I can still say I miss you anytime and anywhere." Yin Xu found that as long as he stood at a distance that could touch Wei Siyuan, he couldn't stand honestly by himself, and always wanted to suffer. He leaned against him, his eyes met, his body temperature touched, "Also, if you need to find me for anything in the future, you can tell me, and then no matter where I am, I will find a way to come to you."

Wei Siyuan still lowered his head, the cold and indifferent expression on his face instantly melted, and suddenly appeared a lonely expression that made Yin Xu feel a little distressed, as if through that small expression, he could imagine that he was with others There is always a lonely figure on the corner of the downtown street or in the middle of the quiet and deep boulevard.

He has been alone since he was a child, unable to integrate into his family, and his younger brother is not allowed to play too close to him. Grandparents love him, but after all, they have limited abilities and have their own lives when they are old, and grandparents After all, grandparents are not close relatives, no matter how good they are to him, they cannot become his close relatives.

When he was in junior high school, he had no friends who could talk to him. When he had nothing to do, he often sat in the library reading psychology books to analyze himself and solve problems that he couldn’t understand. He once saw a book It is said that a person's sense of security comes from a stable and continuous relationship with their parents and sufficient care and care in childhood, and then they can have trust and expectations for the world around them and others.

But he is a person who is not loved by his close relatives. He rarely perceives his needs for others, and it is difficult to generate so-called trust and expectations for his surroundings.

Sufficient freedom means a lack of sense of belonging, so even if he knows a lot of people now and can chat, eat and communicate with others in a normal way, he still has little to do with anyone. When he is alone, he is alone, and no one wants to Can't get up.

So Yin Xu's words seemed to gently poke at the softest part of his heart. Whether he needed someone or was needed, he felt cared for, and had a sense of connection that could not be explained clearly.

"Siyuan, what's the matter?" Yin Xu saw Wei Siyuan's thick and long black eyelashes drooping obediently, pinched his slender wrist, hesitating if he was rejected again, "Is it not possible...it's okay, in the future Try harder."

Wei Siyuan bit his lip, as if unable to make a decision, "What if I call you a lot and you don't answer."

Yin Xu heard Wei Siyuan casually mentioning that one thing he had done was a bad thing he had done before, his heart pounded with shame, and he hurriedly put his arms around Wei Siyuan, "No, I will answer any call from you, no It’s convenient to pick up and tell you where I am, even if you call me in the room, I will answer it, and I will answer it in the bathroom.”

"...Why did I call you in the toilet?" Wei Siyuan frowned and stared at him complicatedly.

"Command me to bring you a tissue? Missed me after staying in the toilet for a long time?" Yin Xu couldn't help laughing himself, the smile is contagious, so Wei Siyuan also smiled and turned his face away, half angry Pushing him to wrap his arms around him.

The two smirked face to face for a while, Wei Siyuan snatched his phone and pressed it, "Unlock the password."

"749826."

"What is 749826."

"Siyuan, look at the column of English characters." Yin Xu looked down at Wei Siyuan entering his number in his phone, and said lazily, "I don't use my birthday as a password so old-fashioned."

Wei Siyuan's cell phone rang in the room immediately, he went in, picked it up and saved Yin Xu's number, and replied a few messages from others sending him New Year's greetings on WeChat, "Okay, don't call me when I'm in class , and don’t send too many text messages.”

The cooked dumplings in the pot were squeezed and floated on the water, Wei Siyuan turned off the fire, scooped them up and put them in two bowls, white smoke was billowing from the heat.

When he got up in the morning, the sky was still very gray, with heavy snow falling like goose feathers, and a thick layer of snowflakes had accumulated on the road. Now the temperature rose as soon as the sun came out, and after a while, snow began to accumulate on the branches outside. The ground fell, and the treetops dripped with meltwater.

"Let's go for a walk when we're full." Yin Xu suggested to Wei Siyuan, "Go to the hotel with me to pack your luggage later?"

Wei Siyuan blew on the dumpling on the spoon, put it in his mouth and gave a vague "hmm" as a promise.

Wei Siyuan's eating speed is not fast, compared to Yin Xu's, it is very slow, and it is even slower after he starts to feel full, so Yin Xu has finished eating for a long time, he is still eating slowly, looked up and saw Yin Xu staring at him, so Unbearable, he scooped the last three dumplings into his bowl, "Not full yet?"

Yin Xu smiled, a warm and dazzling light appeared in his eyes instantly, Wei Siyuan treated him a little better, and he felt that the dust in the air was going to turn pink, "I'm full." He said As he spoke, he moved the bowl away slyly to prevent Wei Siyuan from scooping the dumplings back, "But I can still eat what you gave me."

They had a little rest after eating, then changed their clothes and were ready to go out. Yin Xu still had the same clothes from yesterday, Wei Siyuan threw them in the washing machine for him when he got up to do the laundry in the morning and dried them.

Yin Xu wrapped his mid-gray checked scarf around Wei Siyuan's neck, thought for a while and exchanged his woolen coat with his slightly sparse woolen coat, and buttoned it for him in a slightly awkward tone. Dissatisfied, "Why don't you even have a decent coat? Where does the money you earn go?"

"Rent, water, electricity, insurance and living expenses, I need to save some for emergencies." Wei Siyuan said, handing him his hand to put on gloves, and then went out with him, "Last year I saw a long black down jacket , Nicole said it looked like a giant garbage bag, and there was a khaki one, but I wore it like a walking poop, so I didn’t buy it. The school’s heating is quite sufficient, and I don’t stay outside all day. I had one before. The male students grew up here, and they only wear two pieces when it snows."

"It's none of my business if other people don't wear anything. You can't do it if you wear so little." Yin Xu paused, took his arm and carefully stepped on the flattened ice, his tone sour, "Why don't you wear anything?" You still go shopping with Nicole, what is your relationship with her?"

Wei Siyuan deliberately annoyed him, and threw four emotionless words, "You don't care."

Then Yin Xu was enraged, his arrogance lowered, he lost any momentum to question, and replied sullenly, "She is still a high school student."

"I have a student, a girl, a 16-year-old high school student. I went to spend the night at my boyfriend's house on Christmas. My family thought it was nothing." Wei Siyuan thought for a while, and then added, "I went to your house to sleep over when I was 15 years old. nothing."

Yin Xu was choked by him, and frowned dissatisfied, "... I can, but others can't. Wait, she's still staying at your house?"

"I didn't say anything." Wei Siyuan retorted calmly and ambiguously. Seeing Yin Xu's eyes blazing with anger, he couldn't help but smile, and leaned towards him naturally, and his hand was immediately held , "No, what night do you spend, my house only has a single bed, who would rather sleep on the sofa than leave like you."

Hearing Wei Siyuan's tone that seemed to be coaxing him, Yin Xu brought his face closer to touch his forehead aggrievedly, "Siyuan, well, the living room is a bit cold, I woke up in the middle of the night last night."

"Then you go back to the hotel?"

"No, you buy me a small heater, and then I buy you a thicker coat, what do you think, and give each other New Year's gifts."

The author has something to say:

I saw a black down jacket on the road some time ago, it really looked like a garbage bag... decided to use this rhetoric to replace the original one