Gu Nianruochu

Yin Xu's concert was held at the end of March. Many well-known musicians at home and abroad were invited to the scene to support the scene. In addition, the symphony orchestra for the symphony is also second to none in China, so this 16-year-old became famous with one song The topic of violinists at the age of 21 is still as hot as before.

As the finale of the whole concert, his Encounter was still as stunning as before, but the 16-year-old boy with a young face has grown into a tall and handsome young man, no matter on stage There is no doubt that Xiadu will become the focus of everyone.

Yin Xu did not leave the stage immediately after the end of the song. He asked the staff to come up from the backstage to take his violin and give him the microphone.

He stood in the center of the huge stage, illuminated by the spotlight above his head, with a thin layer of light covering his side, looked at the crowded auditorium below the stage, and after receiving the applause and cheers from the audience, he felt deeply Bowed, and raised the microphone to his mouth, "I have something to announce."

There was a moment of solemnity off the field, and the people who were about to leave the field were also attracted by him and stayed on the scene. Seeing him in a solemn and gorgeous formal attire, he spoke to the microphone with a solemn expression.

"I decided to start a world tour after this concert."

"For the next paragraph, I hope that everyone can put away their mobile phones, cameras and other equipment, and don't record videos, because I hope that these words will one day be heard by the person I want to convey, not through others."

After he finished speaking, he paused for a moment, heard rustling noises in the field, and then quickly fell silent again.

"The reason why I made the decision to tour the world was because I wanted to find someone in the whole world who is missing now.

This person has been in love with me for five years and treats me as the closest person to me, but I have never treated him well, nor have I taken his feelings for me seriously, always disappointing and saddening him.

I accepted his liking for me indifferently, and let him endure my selfishness and immaturity. I was often distracted by his side to see and treat others well.

Not only did I dare not admit that I also had feelings for him, but I also hoped to divert my attention from him through others, and then time and time again, when he was sad, he said something that would soften his heart to keep him, and selfishly asked him to continue like me.

I take all this for granted, and I always think that he compromises with me unconditionally and forgives my arbitrary actions because he cannot do without me.

In fact, I was wrong. After I did something beyond his tolerance, he was completely disappointed in me, and I realized that it was me who could not accept the loss.

But I couldn't even express my intentions in terms of redemption. I was always too stingy to say that I liked him, so when I said it, he didn't believe me.

By the time I really started to regret it, he had already left my side.

Yes he left me, he said he doesn't like me anymore and doesn't want to see me anymore.

I want to see him every day, but I can't find him anymore.

It is only now that I understand that the feeling of not being taken seriously is so painful, and it is not easy to muster up the courage to confess my feelings for someone.

He did these things to me for five years, and he endured these pains by my side for five years, but the rejection I experienced was only a little bit, and I felt so painful that I couldn't even imagine what he was like all these years Endured by my side.

No matter where he goes or how far away, I want to find him, I want him back to me, I want to admit to everyone that I like this man, and I don't mind what other people think about being gay.

The man I like is Wei Siyuan. "

After Yin Xu finished speaking, he bowed again and officially called the curtain call. The curtain on the stage was slowly closed from both sides amidst the uproar from the audience.

Wei Siyuan knew nothing about Yin Xu's world tour on the other side of the ocean. After he settled down, he worked as a tutor for several months to earn money. He became friends with many children, and some adults wanted to learn musical instruments on a whim. I took the initiative to contact him to take classes, and felt that the content he taught was very professional and not inferior to students who graduated from regular colleges. He was also very patient, and the tuition fee was very cheap. I gave him tips every time.

It took Wei Siyuan several months to figure out the transportation route to go out. He dealt with the bank account network cable sim card by himself, visited several museums by himself, bought vegetables and cooked by himself, replenished daily necessities by himself, and Going to the movies, watching stage plays and listening to symphonies, going to the library alone to borrow books on music theory and translating professional terminology, and occasionally receiving invitations from Nicole and the landlord aunt on weekends to go to their house for dinner.

Before I knew it, the whole summer had passed, and it was time for the school to start at the end of September.

Wei Siyuan successfully passed the professional examination and entered the school's composition department. At the same time, he also studied orchestra conducting, and his leisurely life began to be full and busy.

After all, symphony evolved from the Italian opera overture, formed in the Vienna classical music school, developed in Western Europe, and was introduced to China in modern times. Relatively speaking, the atmosphere of classical music in Europe and the United States is stronger than that in China, and the understanding of music theory and arrangement Even a person like Wei Siyuan with a solid foundation and keen sense of music still needs to work harder to adapt to the environment at the beginning.

Wei Siyuan's daily courses are very intensive, especially when he double-takes two courses, the pressure on the average grade point is even greater. He has basic music theory courses every day, and he has to do fugue exercises for several voices, and analyze the score of the symphony And score adaptation, practice conducting movements, composing professional courses in daily creation, and continue to find time to do part-time tutoring to earn money.

Fortunately, he is very talented. After the difficult adaptation period at the beginning, he gradually improved. Even if he is very busy, he can allocate his time reasonably. Except for the end of the semester and the collapse of the exam at the end of the semester , the rest of the time is very easy.

Time is relative. If you are busy and fulfilling every day, people will perceive the passage of time faster, so Wei Siyuan always feels that he hasn't done much, and more than half a year has passed.

He wrote a complete symphony in the semester before the summer vacation in July. The presentation part was praised by the professor as very beautiful. After revision, it was recommended to the school orchestra as the first performance, and he himself took the stage to conduct. Performed at the New Year's concert.

He bought himself a very expensive baton, very retro ivory color, when he held it in his hand and waved it lightly, it seemed like a magic wand that could bring together the scattered melodies floating in the air.

This is the wonder of conducting. When they waved their batons, they didn’t make any sound, but all the musicians’ eyes were on them. Every free and easy movement of them endowed the music with emotion, bringing all the musicians to the music. Mobilize your emotions and integrate all the melodies in the chapter.

During that summer vacation, he went to some theaters as an intern, doing backstage work. He took advantage of the opportunity to get in touch with professional-level symphony orchestras, familiarized himself with the division of labor in each branch, and corrected himself by closely observing the movements of professional conductors from the backstage. Seeking to achieve the effect of being emotionally invested but not exaggerated, standing in the conductor's position when there is no one around, imagining the scene surrounded by musicians.

After the beginning of his senior year, he continued to create new pieces, and at the same time he began to arrange his own symphony. After Thanksgiving, he entered the final rehearsal stage, and finally made his debut as a conductor at the New Year's Concert at the end of December.

After that performance, he knew almost no one in the academy, especially the Japanese and Korean Asian girls in his school, who felt that Wei Siyuan's appearance fit their aesthetics perfectly, so in order to watch him conduct He went to his conducting professional professor to apply to be a band player, and frantically reposted photos of him on Facebook.

At that time, the weather was already very cold. After a few snowfalls, Wei Siyuan accidentally fell into a snowdrift on the side of the road while walking on the way out of school one day, and almost knocked his head on the roadbed. He was sweating profusely from fright, and before he could calm down, several girls surrounded him and helped him up at the same time, which made him feel a little flattered by the embrace, so he embarrassedly invited those girls to drink milk tea.

The weather during the short holidays in winter was very good. It was no longer the gray and oppressive weather when it snowed. The whole sky was clear and clear, and the stars could be seen twinkling at night.

During the New Year's Eve, Wei Siyuan's friend asked him to go downtown to count down the New Year with him, but he politely declined, because no matter where he was, he didn't like going to crowded places to join in the fun.

After eating dinner alone at home, he took a shower early, turned off the light, rolled into bed wrapped in a quilt, and could see the light from the neighbor's house through the window.

The building density here is lower than that in China, and the residential buildings are not particularly high. It can’t be said that there are thousands of lights outside, but there are a few lights in the quiet and peaceful night, which is very warm.

Wei Siyuan stared at the dark night in a daze for a while, and for some reason a thought popped into his head, to see if anyone on WeChat would still send him New Year greetings after he disappeared for a year.

So he re-downloaded the WeChat software on his phone, almost forgot the password, but fortunately he got it right again and successfully logged in.

The messages that had been piled up for a whole year popped up one after another. The strange thing was that Yin Xu's dialog box was always on the top, and the number of messages had three digits.

It took Wei Siyuan a long time to find his first message, which was sent to him before he left, but he didn't want to read it at that time.

The next few hundred messages are all voice messages. From the perspective of time distribution, there are not every day, but there are short ones and long ones. There are at least two or more in a week.

Yin Xu's news are trivial daily life, most of the time are interesting things that make people smile, but sometimes he will complain about someone impatiently as before.

It took Wei Siyuan almost half an hour to hear from beginning to end, as if he had made a half-hour long-distance phone call with Yin Xu, listening to what he wanted to say to himself for more than a year, as if he had never been far away from his life.

People are actually very forgetful, they will forget many things over time, they will also overthrow their ignorant and fearless selves because of other life experiences, and they will shake hands with their obsessed selves in the past.

Then one day, all the past will pass and the dust will settle.

So when you look back, when you think about it, he seems to be the original appearance in your memory.

The one you loved, but couldn't love.