die by your hands

Bai Wei who hurried back to his room didn't really have any specific things to do urgently, he just sat there sulking after shutting himself in the room - what annoyed him the most was why his tears were not affected at all He fell under control.

From childhood to adulthood, Bai Wei has hardly cried a few times. He has always thought that he is a strong person who does not like to cry, but maybe, he seldom cries because few people make him feel wronged.Before that, the time he cried the saddest was when he saw a player who was about to retire in a game who was accidentally kicked and injured in the last game, but refused to leave the field anyway.Bai Wei could accept the fact that he was looked at by the whole bar because of that player, but he couldn't accept that he was crying because of his mistakes and sadness.He shouldn't be crying, it makes him very weak... It also makes An Tianming very important.

Bai Wei didn't want to admit that he didn't like An Tianming a little bit, but cared and attached more than he could extricate himself...

The door of the room was knocked at this time.

In the past, as long as he was in a bad mood and didn't want to see people, Bai Wei would not respond to someone knocking on the door.Recently, however, he has changed his temper.In order not to make An Tianming hate him, he began to develop all the habits of politeness - the funniest thing right now is that he probably has no way to make An Tianming hate him any more, but he has become unaccustomed to ignoring other people's answers .

"Who?" Bai Wei wiped his cheeks carelessly with the back of his hand, breathing slowly and trying to make his voice natural.

Soon, he heard An Tianming's voice. "it's me."

After finally calming down a little, the emotions surged again.Bai Wei knew it was his own fault, not An Tianming's, but he was just so angry with the other party.Everyone can scold him for looking down on him and hating him, only An Tianming can't.

"We have nothing to talk about. Uncle Fu can represent you in all matters, just ask Uncle Fu."

"Xiao Wei, please, open the door."

Bai Weiyi didn't answer for a while.He could hear that An Tianming's tone was deliberately softened, probably not chasing him to scold him, which made him hesitate whether to open the door.He hoped that An Tianming came here to tell him that he understood him, and also apologized for scolding him so much.

However, after Bai Wei didn't respond for a short time, the sound of leaving footsteps came from outside the door immediately.

Bai Wei was stunned for a while, and when he came to his senses and went to open the door, there was no one in the corridor.

——It turned out that in his opinion, the person who treated him most sincerely treated him so carelessly.

Bai Wei slowly closed the door, the unprecedented emptiness and loneliness made him lean back against the door and close his eyes wearily.After a while, he heard the sound of glass being knocked.

Bai Wei, who opened his eyes in doubt, looked at An Tianming's head popping out of his window in disbelief for a second.His room is on the third floor where every floor is very high. This is not the point. The point is that Bai Wei, who was once locked in his room, tried to climb out of the window, but because of the structure of the building, he couldn't get out of it. There was no way to find a suitable leverage point, and he ended up getting stuck in mid-air and had to call for help, so he knew how dangerous it was to climb to his window.

Seeing that An Tianming was locked out of the window, Bai Wei quickly ran to open the window and pulled him into the room.

"You are crazy! If you fall down, you will be disabled!"

Facing Bai Wei's blurted question, An Tianming quickly nodded in response: "I'm indeed crazy, otherwise I wouldn't have tried to push you away before."

Bai Wei was a little puzzled, An Tianming never pushed him.

An Tianming, who finally stood firm in the room, took a deep breath. "Xiao Wei," he held Bai Wei's shoulders and looked straight into the latter's eyes, "Please give me 2 minutes to listen to my apology."

"You didn't do anything wrong, so you don't need to apologize." Bai Wei really thought so, but he said something insincere. In fact, he hoped to hear the other party's apology, because there were so many grievances in his heart that he couldn't let go no.

"I did it wrong." An Tianming said with certainty, "I was wrong from the very beginning. I always thought you were arrogant and always on top—but I was wrong. At least, I didn't think so because of the facts , I always think that way, but it's all because of low self-esteem. I'm the one who really cares about the difference in level between us, and I'm the one who thinks you're condescending like a handout, but imposing my own ideas on me The one you think is on you."

Bai Wei listened to An Tianming's sudden self-analysis in a daze.

An Tianming continued: "I accused you of looking down on Jian Xiaohan. In fact, I was just worried that you would look down on me. My self-esteem made me prefer to look down on you first than to be looked down upon by you."

"I didn't look down on you, I didn't look down on Xiaohan..."

"I know. That's why I said I was wrong."

Bai Wei felt that sometimes when good things happened, it really lacked a sense of reality, and he took a lot of effort to sort out the situation. "So, you're not angry anymore?" You asked confirming.

"I shouldn't be angry at all." An Tianming replied.

Bai Wei felt that the other party still had reason to be angry, but wisely, he didn't remind the other party about Jian Xiaohan. After thinking for a while, he thought of a more important question: "Are you still looking down on me?"

"Do you think I will risk my life to climb the third floor to apologize to someone who looks down on me?"

Bai Wei felt that this question was difficult to answer. An Tianming was always hot and cold towards him, sometimes gentle and sincere, and sometimes made people feel the indifference of being thousands of miles away.

After a long silence, Bai Wei slightly changed the topic slightly: "Then, will you look down on me because I'm an out-and-out homosexual?"

An Tianming let go of Bai Wei's shoulders, he stretched out his hand to take Bai Wei's right hand, and held it gently.

"We had a bad relationship before, and when we reconciled, I asked you, if it was my turn to be friends with you this time, would you refuse? You accepted a lot at that time. So, this time, can you do the same? A lot?"

Bai Wei didn't really understand what An Tianming was talking about, but his heartbeat instinctively accelerated, and he looked down at the other person holding his hand: "What's your turn this time?"

Looking into Bai Wei's eyes, An Tianming said slowly, "It's my turn to say I like you."

a long time.

Bai Wei recalled in a trance: "But you said you have someone you like?"

"That person is you." An Tianming replied without thinking, "At that time you asked me why I didn't like that girl, but I really wanted to say that what I liked was a boy who might be a little bit cute but willful but kind and the most kind in the world. "

Bai Wei lowered his head to avoid the other party's gaze. He felt that this was unscientific. It was obvious that the other party had said extremely exaggerated words, but why was he the one who blushed. "I've never been a boy." He tried to pretend to be calm.

An Tianming held back a smile and asked him solemnly: "You are not a boy, when did you become a girl?"

"If you are willing to admit that I am a big man, I will," Bai Wei really felt that he was a mature adult, but at this moment, he was like a young man in love, except that he was shy and at a loss, looking for suitable words with a blushing face, "...I'll just 'a lot' again."

An Tianming chuckled and replied in a low voice: "Deal."

Their hands were still held together, Bai Wei was reluctant to let go.An Tianming was so close to him, which made him feel more satisfied than ever before.

From the very beginning, Bai Wei could feel that An Tianming's attitude towards him was different from that of everyone else.He always hoped that one day, An Tianming would treat him differently from everyone else.

Bai Wei, who had recently discovered his sexuality, was actually not yet mentally prepared for the intimate interaction between two men, but at this moment, when he looked up at An Tianming, he wanted to kiss each other very much. An unreserved delivery and acceptance.However, just before Bai Wei wanted to take action, An Tianming stretched out his hand to caress the corner of Bai Wei's eyes and cheeks in a slight surprise.

"Have you ever cried?" he asked in a low voice.

What Bai Wei wanted to deny was too embarrassing, but then he thought again, what does it matter if he is ashamed in front of An Tianming?This man can see the worst of him, and tolerate the worst of him. Why cover up that little weakness in front of the other party?

"I have grown up so much, I have never been scolded so much, I have the right to cry."

An Tianming quietly watched Bai Wei who defended his rights, "I'm sorry, Xiao Wei." He said softly.

"Although you're wrong, I'm also wrong. We're even. You don't need to apologize."

An Tianming shook his head in disapproval: "I should apologize. You didn't make me cry, but I made you cry. It's not fair."

After a little hesitation, Bai Wei observed the other party vigilantly: "Are you laughing at me for crying?"

"Of course not." An Tianming replied solemnly and seriously, "In fact, I would rather you cry a little bit. Many people in this world don't shed tears when they encounter sad things. It's not because they are strong, but because they have I have drained all the tears, and there is no way to squeeze out the remaining tears. Those who can still cry, it shows that they are too happy to use up their tears. Xiaowei," he spoke quietly after a slight pause Wei said, "I hope you will never run out of tears in your life."

At that time, Bai Wei really believed An Tianming's nasty words.It took him four years to figure out that it was a lie.

——How could An Tianming really hope that he would never run out of tears in his life?

It only took An Tianming one day to make Bai Wei use up all his life's share of tears.