[Main Wenye] I met Dazai after jumping off the building

When a person dies, his undead will appear in any corner of the world.From the fact that there is no undead next to the mountains of corpses in the ballroom, it can be seen how little the possibility of the undead appearing in place is.But with such a small probability, Oda Sakunosuke stood in front of Kitano Ryo.

He looked at Bei Naoliang with surprise in his eyes, then turned his head to look at Dazai next to him and the corpse still in Dazai's arms.When he turned his gaze to Bei Nailiang again, there was a trace of understanding in his eyes.

He tentatively asked Bei Nailiang, "Bei Nailiang... Liang?"

"Mr. Oda." Kitano Ryo nodded. She knew that Sakunosuke Oda must remember her face. After all, he was the one who went to the police station to pick Osamu Dazai out.There he got a complete understanding of the case, including the basic information of Bei Nailiang.

"I'm dead, isn't it?" Oda Sakunosuke said with certainty.

"Yes."

you are dead.

Oda Sakunosuke couldn't sit on the hood of the car like when Kitano Ryo came, because before it was transparent, he had weight, which would easily expose the situation.So probably out of the spirit of helping fellow citizens, Kitano Ryo stayed with Oda Sakunosuke, and walked slowly away from the suburbs behind the exhaust of their cars.

During this period, just like the old grandma told Bei Naoliang about the basic situation of the undead, Bei Nailiang told Odasaku all the information, for example, he is now an undead, he will become transparent after a while, and then disappear completely kind of thing.Oda Sakunosuke nodded after understanding the basic situation, and the first question he asked was, "Does everyone become like this after death?"

Kitanoliang knew what Oda Sakunosuke wanted to ask, she said "hmm", "Do you want to find those five children?"

Oda Sakunosuke was stunned for a moment, Kitano Ryo continued, "I was there at the time... I regret that such a thing happened."

The scene became silent, obviously Oda Sakunosuke fell into the memories of that time again.But soon, his eyes regained focus, and he said in a flat but firm tone, "I want to find them and apologize to them."

"En." Kitano Ryo responded, and she was not surprised that Oda Sakunosuke would make such a choice, even though the undead of those children might appear on some uninhabited island in the Atlantic Ocean.

But Bei Nailiang still asked, "How do you plan to find it?"

This question made Oda Sakunosuke turn his gaze back to her.His eyes are still very plain, but it is this plainness that makes people unable to see other emotions contained in it.Except for being in a daze, people will not look at someone with pure and plain eyes, as long as his eyes fall on him, then he must be looking at something.

But Bei Nailiang didn't know what he was looking at.

This is not good for anyone.

"What's wrong?" Bei Nailiang looked directly into his eyes.

Oda Sakunosuke looked away, "I'm sorry, I just thought that Miss Kitano was the one who made an appointment with the Prime Minister to die in love."

"What does it matter?"

Oda Sakunosuke was silent for a while, as if hesitating whether to say or how to say it.Finally he said, "In some ways, you are very similar to Dazai."

Kitano Ryo admitted this conclusion of Oda Sakunosuke, but she didn't know why Oda Sakunosuke suddenly changed the topic to this.She continued to look at Oda Sakunosuke, meaning to let him continue talking.

Oda Sakunosuke also said, "You just asked me how to find them. My plan is very simple. I said I want to find them, but all I have to do is wait for them at their home."

"They will definitely come home."

Oda said firmly.

Later, Kitano Ryo and Oda Sakunosuke parted ways at the gate of the small yard outside the curry shop.She left a certain distance, and when she turned her head to look over again, Oda Sakunosuke was standing at the gate of the yard, leaning against the wall and lowering his head, holding a cigarette in his mouth that became a state of undead with him—it was an unburned cigarette. of.

From a distance, the figure of Oda Sakunosuke feels the same as himself, quiet like a plant, which can perfectly blend with the environment.

In the next few days, Bei Nailiang still went to find Dazai most of the time, she used the reason that Dazai needed company at this time, but Dazai obviously would not know that she was with him.

Kitano Ryo will also visit Oda Sakunosuke and tell him about Dazai Osamu's current situation.Sakunosuke Oda doesn't need to eat, sleep, or walk like other undead.He only stayed at the gate of the yard, or sat on the side steps, or stood against the wall, only these two postures.He still has the cigarette in his mouth, and his eyes are always looking at the end of the street in the distance.

Of course, occasionally the two of them would chat.Oda Sakunosuke told Kitano Ryo that he used to be a killer, and Kitano Ryo wondered why he was so powerful.Oda Sakunosuke told her that he later decided not to kill people anymore, because someone told him that only by not killing people would he be able to write an ending to the novel.Kitanoliang thought again, she guessed right, that person was the one who passed that beam of light to Oda Sakunosuke.

Kitano Ryo asked, is your wish to write novels? Oda Sakunosuke nodded, he wanted to write novels quietly in a house facing the sea.But then you still decided to avenge the children, Bei Nailiang said again.Oda Sakunosuke nodded.

"I have to do that." Oda Sakunosuke said, and then affirmed, "That's what I have to do."

Oda Sakunosuke's tone was very affirmative, and he showed no regrets. It could be seen that even if he was given another [-] chances, he would still choose to do so.Bei Naoliang can understand this, after all, they have a deep bond, but Bei Naoliang thought, if there is no such bond, Oda Sakunosuke might be able to write in the house facing the sea.

Bei Nailiang didn't say this, after all, it was too rude to those children who died.So she remained silent, but Oda Sakunosuke noticed her silence.He looked at Bei Naoliang's silent look, lowered his eyelids a little, thinking about something.

After a while, Oda Sakunosuke said, "Miss Kitano, why do you want to commit suicide?"

"Me?" Bei Nailiang also came out of the silence, "If I have to give a reason, I want to see what death is."

Oda Sakunosuke seemed to be interested in this topic, he said "Oh?" and then asked, "Then what did you see?"

"So far, nothing."

"What do you think there will be?"

"I don't know." Bei Nailiang shook his head, "How can anyone guess what is behind death."

"Yes." Oda Sakunosuke said, "No one will do things aimlessly. You will only do it if you want to get something. People who commit suicide also want to find them in death What they want, some people want to be free, some people want to become a god, everyone has a purpose, even Dazai will have it."

Kitano Ryo was silent for a while, then turned his head to look at Oda Sakunosuke, "Have you talked to Mr. Dazai about these things?"

"……No."

"Then why are you talking to me?"

Oda Sakunosuke did not answer Kitano Ryo, he turned his gaze back to the end of the street.After a while, Oda Sakunosuke said, "Sorry."

I was self-willed, this is the second half of his unspoken sentence.

I just want to say what I can't say, say it.

The topic stopped at the place where Sakunosuke Oda apologized yesterday.That night, Bei Nailiang went back to think about it all night, and decided to continue this topic the next day.She feels that Oda Sakunosuke is a transparent person, maybe he can give her something she doesn't have.

But when Kitanoliang went there today, he found two children standing next to Oda Sakunosuke.

"This is Kosuke, this is Sakura." Oda Sakunosuke introduced them to Kitano Ryo, and then told them Kitano Ryo's name.The two children were timid but obedient and greeted Bei Nailiang. Bei Nailiang was always very gentle with children. She smiled at them and said hello.

After having these two children, there is no need for Oda Sakunosuke to wait alone at the gate of the yard.They work in three shifts, with one at home and two going out to find other children.When it was Oda Sakunosuke's turn to stay alone at the gate of the yard, Kitanoliang chatted with Oda Sakunosuke.Bei Nailiang didn't ask how to apologize, it's nothing to ask, it will only stir up sadness.Kitano Ryo and Oda Sakunosuke only talked about ordinary and light things.

"How did they get back?"

"Just walked back like that." Oda Sakunosuke's expression didn't change much, but his eyes were already a little gentler, "They said, no matter what, they want to go home."

Oda Sakunosuke's choice was not wrong. He waited at the gate of the yard day after day, and let them see him the first moment they returned home.Without the help of Oda Sakuno, they could only see an empty and cold place where they lost everything.

Later, Bei Nailiang also chatted with the children. Bei Nailiang was very good at getting along with the children, and inexplicably, she just attracted the children to like her.During a certain chat, Kitano Ryo heard Saki Le say again: "It was Sakunosuke who gave it to our family. We must come back to see him."

Later, when Oda Sakunosuke and Xingsuke came back, Saku Le jumped into Oda Saku's arms very happily, Oda Sakuno grabbed her into his arms, and then hugged Xingsuke up, of course, his face was still grimacing. He was smoking a cigarette expressionlessly.

Like a father who doesn't know how to express and is not good at words, but loves his children very much.

Later, two children came back from this yard, named Katsumi and Shinji.They also jumped into Oda Sakunosuke's arms like birds returning home, and then chirped together, but in fact they looked no different from when they were alive.Perhaps indeed, for them, there is no difference whether they are dead or alive with their partners and Oda Saku.

Where they are, the world is there.

The four children were still able to entangle Oda Sakunosuke, and Kitano Ryo didn't know how they did it, but they could just climb on Oda Sakunosuke like little monkeys, and then laughed.Of course, the final outcome was that Odasaku packed up and carried it down with no expression on his face.This movement is very skillful, Bei Nailiang guessed that this must be a game they often played before they were alive.

And the topic that time stayed at the place where Oda Sakunosuke apologized. It wasn't until it was Oda Sakunosuke's turn to be "on duty" this time that Kitano Ryo was able to ask about it again.

"Last time, you asked me why I committed suicide," Bei Nailiang said, "You don't have to apologize. You are right, I do have something I want from death."

Oda Sakunosuke felt a little surprised that Kitano Ryo suddenly mentioned this matter, he glanced at Kitano Ryo, and then put the cigarette in his mouth, "What do you want?"

Kitano Ryo calmly looked at the children playing in the distance, and Misaki even waved to Kitano Ryo with a smile.

"Maybe I... want to live."

She heard herself say this.

The author has something to say:

Maybe it's not too far from the end... Let's try to finish it within ten chapters~

Oda can be said to be my favorite character in Fumono apart from Dazai, so even though Dazai didn’t appear when writing this chapter, I’m still super happy.

Regarding the apology part, it was because Oda regretted not touching Dazai's loneliness before he died, so he wanted to say these words when he saw Liangmei who was similar to Dazai.Later he felt that it was his willfulness because he thought that even if he told Bei Nailiang, Bei Nailiang would be dead and nothing could be changed.

In fact, it can be changed, so go ahead.

In the end, I still roll around and ask for collections and comments~~~~~~