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The sky is low, and the distant stars are sparse.

Probably because of a purpose, the two walked to the track and field without making a sound all the way.

Shen Hao has been distracted on the road, but his mind is empty and has no sense of reality, and his eyes are filled with only the quiet night and the people around him.

"What time is it?" The two walked through the iron gate of the track and field. Tan Yicheng yawned, walked to the sports equipment room, and opened the unlocked window familiarly.

Shen Hao raised his hand to look at his watch: "Three sixteen."

Seeing Tan Yicheng holding the window lattice, he turned over and jumped in, afraid that he would step on something and fall, so he hurriedly followed, only to see the slightly bright eyes of the other party who backed away a little bent towards him in the dark.

Shen Hao regained his composure, turned inside as usual, and took the lead in bypassing the equipment racks that smelled of rubber and mud, and came to a door.

The door was ajar, and Tan Yicheng pushed it open. Behind the door was an upward staircase.

Shen Hao, who came here to borrow the ball several times, never knew that the equipment room was so hidden, and silently followed the opponent up the stairs.Gradually adapted to the darkness, the eyes could only vaguely catch the outline of the stair railing.After going up two floors, an iron door with a bolt appeared in front of him.

Shen Hao knew that there was a rooftop behind it.

Tan Yicheng unlatched the door, pushed the door open and walked out, with the dark blue sky covering his head without any cover.Shen Hao counted - there are five stars.

Tan Yicheng suddenly said: "It's only past three o'clock, and the sunrise is still early...I'll sleep for a while first."

As he spoke, he yawned again, walked straight to the center of the roof, sat down and prepared to lie down, raised his head and waved to Shen Hao: "Come on."

Shen Hao sat down beside him, and Tan Yicheng immediately spread out on the ground, and even tried his best to pull him to lie down——Shen Hao lay down obediently.

The two spread their limbs side by side——

Pillow on the cold, hard and rough ground, covered by the boundless gentle night.

Shen Hao stared at Lan at the extreme end of his field of vision in a daze, and when he came back to his senses, he remembered that Tan Yicheng was still beside him.He turned his head slightly, and saw that the other party was really asleep, breathing evenly and long.

Shen Hao felt that the ground was a bit cold, and had a premonition that the man would have a runny nose when he woke up, so he sat up halfway without thinking, took off his school uniform jacket, and covered him lightly.

He looked down at his senior and thought to himself, what is this?

He felt that he was calm and self-retaining at the moment, and he would not ignore the throbbing for a moment, as if he wanted to bow his head and kiss the moonlit cheek of the other party now, but he didn't move a bit.

Is this like it?

Shen Hao has never liked anyone - when he was in elementary school, he paid special attention to a girl with six braids jumping around, but he knew that was not a favorite.

He has never liked it, so he doesn't know how to tell the difference, although judging from the content of the impulse, he does secrete special hormones when facing the person in front of him, which can be regarded as "like".

Or maybe it was just an illusion created under certain circumstances—maybe it was this special night, not his senior, who gave him a strange feeling.

Shen Hao lay down again, looking sideways at the faces of the people close at hand.

After a few seconds, he simply closed his eyes.

When Tan Yicheng suddenly opened his eyes, the sun had already revealed his full view on the far side of the mountain. He was wearing a coat, and his junior was standing by the railing looking at something.

"Ah! Won't you call me when the sun comes out?"

"..." Shen Hao turned his head and lied against the light, "I fell asleep too, and when I woke up, the time had passed."

He just doesn't want to wake up the other person for some reason.

At this time, he suddenly found that his coat was still hanging on the other party, and a sense of crisis that his mind had been punctured flooded his brain for a while, he turned around abruptly and strode up to Tan Yicheng, barely stopping.

Tan Yicheng sat up, his 1.8m[-] coat slipped onto his lap, he picked it up and shook: "Your?"

Shen Hao managed to maintain a calm expression and took over: "...um."

Tan Yicheng felt strange in his heart, he didn't know whether the other party wore the jacket because he was afraid he would catch a cold, or he threw it on him casually because he was too hot - it seemed that the latter was unlikely, so he said, "Thank you. "

Shen Hao panicked even more, and responded with a suppressed voice: "...No need."

As soon as the sky shone, his thoughts seemed to have nowhere to hide. The terrible thing was that he found that even without the ambiguous environment and atmosphere of last night, he still harbored evil feelings towards this person.

"What time is it now..." Tan Yicheng glanced at Shen Hao's wrist as he spoke, "[-]:[-], let's have dinner together?"

Shen Hao pretended to be calm: "Okay."

Shen Hao felt that the confusion in his heart was much worse than last night, and he walked up and down all the way to the dining hall, and was about to have breakfast together, when Tan Yicheng suddenly patted him on the shoulder: "There is a classmate over there, I'll go find it." Hit him." Then he left him and slipped away.

There were surprisingly few people in the canteen at this point. After Shen Hao finished making rolls, eggs and lean meat porridge and was about to find a seat, Tan Yicheng ran over again and said, "Shen Hao, my classmate wants to take me to eat together..."

"It's okay, then you can go." Shen Hao said quickly.

Tan Yicheng didn't notice his abnormality, smiled apologetically, and turned around to have dinner with that person.

A gloomy mood suddenly surged up, and after Shen Hao suppressed it forcibly, he took a sip of porridge and thought: I understand.

He thought, it is true that he likes Tan Yicheng, but just because of his selfish liking, should he let the other party know and disturb the other party's life?

Shen Hao doesn't know Tan Yicheng's views on homosexuality, but it can be predicted that boys like him don't know much about it. Most of them usually make jokes about homosexuality and have a prejudice against this kind of people.As for himself - when he was in junior high school, a student once secretly confessed to him on QQ, and after being rejected, he only politely apologized and confessed his sexuality.He only met this student a few times, but he knew that the other party was an active member of the school volunteer team, and he had a good impression. With such a living example of a normal person, he no longer regarded homosexuality as a monster—— Coupled with his bad temper of "everyone is drunk and I am sober" in junior high school, he thinks that his knowledge is very outstanding and advanced, and he has specially learned some content. Discrimination is not so much, it can even be said to be understandable.

He has never liked anyone before, and he didn't have any particularly strong sexual fantasies when he secretly watched small movies before. He has always believed that his sexual orientation is still in doubt—to this day, he silently watched the breakfast with someone The senior who walked to his seat thought to himself that he was probably gay.

There's nothing wrong with that, he's fine with it.But what about Tan Yicheng?Saying that it is impossible to accept is a bit too much, but there is still no hope.Even if he can accept him, he can imagine how much pressure homosexuality faces, and he thinks he can bear it, but it shouldn't be at this time, nor should it be with this person.

Shen Hao picked up the flower roll indifferently and took a bite.

That's it, that's it.

He convinced himself.

The senior just made him aware of his sexual orientation.He shouldn't touch his senior, and he can't.That's immoral.

After eating a meal, Shen Hao has calmed down.

He temporarily succeeded in convincing himself: this is the best way to deal with his inappropriate thoughts at present.