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Shen Hao approached a little closer, and returned to the distance when they chatted together after going to the library: "Senior, why are you here...?"

He thought he was the only student left in the teaching area at this point.

Tan Yicheng turned his face away: "...in a bad mood."

Shen Hao tilted his head slightly to look at Tan Yicheng, who looked down at the railing.He didn't know what to say, so there was silence between the two of them—in such a quiet night, such a silence didn't seem awkward, but rather gentle.

Another gust of wind blew in front of them, brushing between their hair.

"...Actually, I'm not the only one who stays so late." Tan Yicheng probably didn't want the atmosphere to be so strange, so he restrained his emotions and said, "Probably before every exam, a group of people will be left there to study the questions in the laboratory. There is no monitoring here, and the security guards don’t care about us.”

"You also need... like this?" Shen Hao couldn't hold back and asked.

"Ah? If you want to do well in the exam, unless you are very talented, of course..." Tan Yicheng slowly pressed his entire upper body against the railing, "The competition in our place is cruel, and we are busy competing, and usually don't want to If you sacrifice time for playing basketball, you will have to spend more time making up other subjects. Our last grade one also often stayed up late, but he is not studying here."

The night was hazy, but Shen Hao somehow saw the tired look in Tan Yicheng's eyes, and suddenly felt that his efforts were far from enough.

Shen Hao felt that it was not worth it to waste his body in exchange for grades, but he understood them, if they wanted to stay in the top ten in the grade for a long time, it really couldn't be done by a smart person.

"Ah, I still want to ask you, why are you here so late?" Tan Yicheng turned to look at him.

Shen Hao felt that if he wanted to be active, he could tell his novel experience as a joke, but he just said it in a few words in a flat tone.

He didn't want to spoil the atmosphere.

Calm, peaceful, suitable for heart-to-heart talks.

Tan Yicheng said it, and Shen Hao could tell that he was in a bad mood, that's why he came here to blow air.

Silence pervaded again.Shen Hao couldn't hold back his gaze, and kept lingering on Tan Yicheng.He found that the other party was frowning slightly, and his eyes were a little wandering, as if he didn't care about him, and he was thinking about his own affairs again.

Shen Hao thought for a while, pressed his forearm on the railing like Tan Yicheng, and lowered his voice: "If you have anything to say, I'd love to hear it."

He deliberately didn't call out "Senior", probably to eliminate the sense of distance brought by that title.

Tan Yicheng turned his head and found that the other party's eyes were stable and focused.It was a look that seemed to contain everything.

"I……"

Tan Yicheng's heart became hot, and such a word popped out of his throat, and it would be shameful to recall it now.

Tan Yicheng usually looks heartless, "one-hearted in learning", but who doesn't have the sadness and worry of midnight dreams?It's just that he is born with little tendencies in interpersonal communication, and he really doesn't want to leave a bad impression on others. He has never dared to confide in others, for fear that others will think that he spreads negative energy.

This kind of bad mood has become more and more common since he was in the second year of high school. The cool breeze will make him feel better, and playing basketball can also make him temporarily forget some troubles, but the root of the problem is still there and has not been resolved. .Things have been dragging on and the result is that his review efficiency tonight is very low, and his chest is congested up to now, but that knot of stagnation was accidentally poked by Shen Hao just now.

He paused, and then began to say softly: "I... My parents are both university professors."

Tan Yicheng's family is a very harmonious and beautiful academic family.His parents met when they were studying. After graduation, he taught physics and mathematics at the university respectively. He was able to receive very good academic edification since he was a child.When other children were still singing "Little Star", he began to watch the documentary of the Big Bang - but he didn't show how out of the group, and he often "burned, killed and looted" with other children when he was in school "Climbing trees and uncovering tiles.

It's just that after he went to high school, he found that he felt that he could definitely achieve something in the field of physics, just like what he said was an idealist through and through.Hong Tianzhi often joked that he could win a Nobel Prize, and his classmates also said that he would become very powerful, but no one wanted to listen to him seriously about the special thoughts in his heart, and he was often said "Oh, He is a top student and shows off his IQ. Ordinary people like me don’t understand, so don’t tell me if it’s okay,” or be given a look of “you’re really big.”What do the students in the class care about?Girls pay attention to entertainment stars, and when they get together every day, they burst into screams from time to time; boys are keen to discuss sports events, and they can talk about tactics for two self-study sessions;... In fact, it’s nothing, he can understand it, but he thinks no one understand him.He feels that he is different from everyone else, and it scares him.

Parents are not very busy at work, but it may be hereditary. They are not keenly aware of some of the clues shown by their son, and Tan Yicheng can't say these things out—because he thinks it is ridiculous to worry about these things .

Is it normal to like to entertain?

Isn't it normal for students to not like studying so much?

And if he wants to come up with a special idea, he can easily find the hard-pressed brothers and sisters in the physics room, or some astronomy fanatic in the class, or the classmate in the first grade who is close to full marks in the subject.

Why do you have to find Zeng Hua and Xie Minda?

Xie Minda would look at him with a ridiculous look.Zeng Huahui said directly: "You are too idealistic, how many people are still concentrating on scientific research now? You don't read the news..."

Tan Yicheng refuted himself while being distressed, the more he thought about it, the more he felt sick, and he began to feel sad when he felt sick, but when he woke up the next day, he was a happy, heartless hero again.

Tan Yicheng felt that if he endured it again, the night would be over, but Shen Hao missed it when he poked him.

Having Shen Hao by his side made him feel very relaxed. If he wanted to speak his mind, once he started, it seemed that it would not be a difficult task.Shen Hao didn't know how long Tan Yicheng had been talking, he just kept listening, saying "hmm" from time to time to show that he was paying attention, and he didn't interrupt when the other party was silent for a while.After listening to Tan Yicheng finish speaking slowly, he observed that the other party's expression gradually softened as he confided—maybe he didn't need to provide any solution to his worries, and the purpose of relieving his seniors' worries had already been achieved...

But Shen Hao still opened his mouth: "Actually, you can tell me."

He added earnestly: "I am very glad that you are willing to tell me."

After pouring out all his thoughts, Tan Yicheng heaved a sigh of relief and turned his head.In order to lean over to listen to him, Shen Hao lowered his body so low that he almost stuck to the railing. Tan Yicheng raised his hand and touched his head.

Shen Hao's eyelids twitched, but he didn't move away.

"Thank you." Tan Yicheng smiled, showing his white teeth, his eyes were deep and warm, "...I'm much better."

Shen Hao felt that his ears were still a little hot—following the warm touch from the top of his head, the distracting thoughts that had been suppressed just now surged up again, and the image of the senior became charming again, which almost made him lose his self-control.

Shen Hao looked away, waiting for the other party to let go, but his senior seemed to miss the touch of his head very much, and even rubbed it tenderly.

"..."

Tan Yicheng figured it out at that moment—maybe it wasn't that he lacked someone to show his ideals, but that he lacked the courage to face his heart directly.

If it wasn't for self-doubt, how could he be so worried?

What's wrong with idealists?Does he have to be like everyone else?

What's more, not all others are the same.

He is not alone in the cold night, he also has a difficult brother in the material room, the astronomy fanatic in the class, and the first classmate in the grade.

He also has Shen Hao.

"I don't want to go back to review... Do you want to watch the sunrise?" Tan Yicheng finally withdrew his hand, turned around, and leaned against the railing.

"...Sunrise?" Shen Hao finally calmed down, and glanced at the sky - the moon and stars are sparse, and there is still some time.

"Go to the track and field, the view is perfect. Do you want to go?"

Shen Hao nodded.Tan Yicheng jumped up from the railing in a good mood, and patted Shen Hao on the shoulder: "Let's go."

Shen Hao followed him in strides: "Aren't the doors on the first floor locked?"

At eleven o'clock, the school would lock the doors leading to the second floor in all the stairwells in the teaching area. He had heard rumors that two top students were discussing problems and forgot the time, so they couldn't go back to the dormitory.

"How much do you weigh?" Tan Yicheng asked in disbelief.

"... 130 to come."

"That's fine."

Shen Hao vaguely guessed that he was going to jump off the building.

Tan Yicheng led him all the way to the second floor of the senior three teaching building.Downstairs there is a lawn, where flowers and plants grow densely, and several bushes stand in strange shapes in the dark.

"We used momentum to calculate it before—you haven't learned it yet?—a few people from Wujing used a tape measure to measure the height and the cushioning force of the lawn," Tan Yicheng leaned on the railing when he saw it, but he waited. After a meeting, I was about to turn over, "I'm still the first batch of people to experiment, so it's no problem to jump off."

Shen Hao had memorized several formulas of conservation of momentum when flipping through the book before, but it was far from the lesson the other party's great practical spirit taught him.

"Look, I'll jump down first. When I land, I have to squat down and quickly lower my center of gravity." As he said that, Tan Yicheng climbed up the railing neatly, and stepped on the concrete base with his waist hunched.This scene of falling at any time made Shen Hao's heart tighten, but he saw the other party kicking the ground after adjusting his posture in front of him, and then disappeared in front of him suddenly.

Shen Hao hurriedly grabbed the railing and looked down.

"Trust me?" Tan Yicheng landed steadily, and quickly stood up below, raising his eyebrows at him.

"Trust." Shen Hao was convinced.

"Then come down?" Tan Yicheng took two steps back and opened his arms, as if waiting for him to fall into his arms, "Don't hesitate, don't think too much, just find a good position and jump!"

Shen Hao jumped down.

It only takes a moment to fall from a height of more than four meters, but Shen Hao watched Tan Yicheng getting closer and closer to him in this moment, and it magnified in front of his eyes with the feeling of weightlessness.After landing, he squatted in the grass and didn't get up for a moment. When he felt a little numbness on the soles of his feet, he looked up at Tan Yicheng who was still keeping his arms open in the dark, and his eyes looked like morning stars. He even had the illusion that the other party would come forward and hug him. .

But in the end nothing happened, just he stood up, Tan Yicheng put down his hands, and then said with a smile:

"Let's go."