gentle him

"Uh...um. It's me."

Fearing that Cheng Zixie would hear that his voice was the same as that of the person who called himself Qu You he heard a few days ago, Luo Ya lowered his voice.

"I want to talk to you about something, when is it convenient for you?"

Obviously, Luo Ya's worries were unnecessary.

Cheng Zixie didn't recognize the strangeness in Luo Ya's voice at all.

"...What do you have to contact me who hasn't contacted me for a long time? If you have something to say, please tell me on the phone. I'm very busy, so I probably...can't spare time."

"I want to discuss this matter with you face to face. You can decide the time. Let me know when you are free this week. I will find time."

Cheng Zixie's voice was uncommonly strong, not allowing Luo Ya to say no at all.

"..."

Luo Ya was silent.

He didn't know how to answer himself.

Cheng Zixie has already said that they will meet within this week.If he said "no", he would probably say that he would go to the school again.

It’s hard for him to change his face, it’s hard for him to maintain a false image in front of his current friends, he’s finally found an environment where there’s no such topic as “Cheng Zixie”, and it’s hard to maintain everything up to now, Luo Ya I don't want to be destroyed by the word "past", and I don't want to... fall into the abyss because of this cruel man.

"Are you listening?"

It took so long that Cheng Zixie thought there was no one on the other end of the phone.

"...I'm listening, just wondering when I'll be free...this Wednesday, I'll be near your school at three o'clock in the afternoon this Wednesday. I'll call then."

"Yeah. Good. That's it."

Cheng Zixie's voice on the other end of the phone sounded very disturbed, probably because of what Luo Ya said earlier.It was also because of this that he did not notice that Luo Ya's voice sounded unusually heavy.

"...Then I... hang up first."

Luo Ya's voice was weak, and before Cheng Zixie could reply, he ended the call.

When she felt a sharp pain in her head, Luo Ya raised her head and accidentally met her own face in the mirror not far away.

It was a pale and haggard face.

Wednesday...

What should he... how to do?

Luo Ya sighed deeply, and then covered his head under the quilt again.

***

Luo Ya stood in front of the coffee shop, and he took a deep breath.

Probably because Cheng Zixie had already finished class when he arrived, so Cheng Zixie contacted him just now and asked him to come to the coffee shop next to the school.

The tense mood started three days ago and continued until now, and he felt that his nerves had become much weaker in the past few days.

Luo Ya subconsciously reached out and touched his face, and the medical disposable mask touched by his fingertips made him somewhat relieved.

After deciding to meet Cheng Zixie, Luo Ya has been thinking about how she should appear in front of him, and after thinking for a long time, she came to this conclusion.

Luo Ya combed his hair as he did in high school, and his slightly long bangs even covered his eyes.Knowing that this appearance was not enough to deceive Cheng Zixie, who had only met her a few days ago, Luo Ya specially prepared a mask to put on, and even found a good excuse for herself to wear a mask.

It's okay, he won't recognize it.

Luo Ya comforted herself like this in her heart.

The mask on his face gave Luo Ya a little confidence. He mustered up the courage to push open the door of the coffee shop, and then looked for Cheng Zixie. Finally, he saw Cheng Zixie in a corner.

I don't know if it was a psychological effect, but Luo Ya felt that his walking movements were a bit unnatural.

"Sorry to keep you waiting."

Luo Ya carefully lowered her voice, then sat down opposite Cheng Zixie with her head down.

"It's okay, I forced you to come and meet me. Would you like something to drink? I'm treating you."

"No...no need. I'm not thirsty."

It is a lie to say that you are not thirsty.

The current Luo Ya felt extremely parched because of his nervousness.But he also knew that if he ordered something, he would definitely take off his mask.

"Oh...um. Why are you wearing a mask all the time?"

Cheng Zixie noticed the mask on Luo Ya's face.

"Uh, I just... accidentally broke my face, so... I left an ugly scar on the lower part of my face... I didn't want to be seen... So, I covered it with a mask."

As Luo Ya was talking, he reached out and gently pressed his mask.

He was worried that Cheng Zihui would take off his mask.

But what Luo Ya was worried about didn't happen. Cheng Zixie just responded lightly to Luo Ya's reason without saying anything.

Luo Ya felt a little sad.

"...you...it's so rare to find me...it shouldn't be as simple as getting together, right?"

Luo Ya simply cut to the chase and asked directly.

Hearing Luo Ya's words, Cheng Zixie, who seemed to be still considering what to say, didn't seem to intend to beat around the bush.

"... On the day I graduated from high school... you and I... did something that shouldn't be done. I don't know why I was led by your nose at that time, and I don't know what you think, but for me As far as I'm concerned, I... regret it. I don't want to have that kind of relationship with you at all."

"……Ok, I know."

How could he not know?

From the time Luo Ya knew who Cheng Zixie liked and what Cheng Zixie's nature was, he knew it.

But because Luo Ya couldn't give up and forget, that's why he did that.

Unauthorizedly giving himself hope, using the excuse of wanting to forget, he actually held that maybe after Cheng Zixie hugged him, he would give him a little bit of care and attention.

But after doing that, what she felt when she woke up made Luo Ya completely decide to leave Cheng Zixie's side.

He knew that Cheng Zixie regretted it very much.

"The fact that I didn't contact you made you feel relieved a lot, so...you didn't try to come to me at all." Luo Ya felt like crying when she said it by herself. "But you don't need to care about it at all. Because I will do that kind of thing with you... There is no special meaning at all. I just want to try various things. I found that you like Ji Wei, so I thought maybe You can make me feel the feeling of being hugged by a man."

"... Even so, I don't want to have that kind of involvement with you."

Cheng Zixie's voice was very soft, almost inaudible.

However, Luo Ya still heard it.

As if being pushed away by someone himself, no, it should be said that he was thrown from a high place to the ground, Luo Ya felt a burst of pain all over his body.

"...I didn't come to you today to talk about this. What I want to ask is, did you tell everyone about what happened between me and you?"

Luo Ya was speechless.

"...how...may say."

I wanted to continue to be brave, but Luo Ya couldn't do it.

"...At all... there is no normal person who would talk about this kind of thing everywhere! To seduce a man to hug me... No matter how much I take the initiative, it is impossible to be shameless to this extent!"

"But Qu Yu..."

"What are you talking about, Qu Yu... It's because you speculated wildly first, that's why he said that according to your words!...To you..."

Luo Ya didn't finish his sentence, tears rolled down his cheeks.

Surprised by the heat on her face, Luo Ya snapped back to her senses, but realized it was too late and the tears could no longer be stopped.

"I...I...I'll go first..."

Even Luo Ya's voice was trembling, with the sound of crying.

Luo Ya stood up in a panic and wanted to run away, but Cheng Zixie grabbed his hand the next moment.

"Why are you crying?"

She even asked him why he was crying...

Luo Ya could choose to tell him the reason, but he didn't.

It's no longer out of concern, just because I don't want to lose face again.

Luo Ya didn't want Cheng Zixie to know that she liked him.

"...It has nothing to do with you. You have always noticed Ji Wei in your eyes, and you don't know how to pay attention to others... That's why you asked Qu You's words, and you even believed it. I don’t want to think about whether there is any normal person who would publicize the same-sex thing he did, and even asked me to come here and tell me those things..."

The more she said, the more tears Luo Ya shed.

"I……"

Cheng Zixie hesitated to speak.

"It's been like this since before. I didn't think about my feelings at all, and I spoke recklessly. I didn't even think about whether it would hurt me..."

The feelings for many years seemed to explode all at once, and Luo Ya felt the taste of her own tears.

"That's enough... I haven't told anyone about us, I even want to forget... Since you think so too, then... don't contact me again. I won't tell anyone , even the fact that I know you, so it’s okay for the head office!”

It was almost a pleading voice, their voices were so loud that everyone in the store turned their heads to look at them.

Also taking advantage of this opportunity, Luo Ya threw Cheng Zixie's hand away abruptly, and then, as if fleeing, he forgot that his body was not suitable for strenuous exercise and ran out of the store desperately.

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☆、08、Apologize

What Cheng Zixie couldn't understand no matter what was why Luo Ya was angry at him at that time, why Luo Ya was crying.

To be honest, in Cheng Zixie's opinion, Luo Ya is a very strange person.

Luo Ya, who was said to be taking a break from school, had a low sense of presence in the class, and even Cheng Zixie didn't pay much attention to his existence.

Noticing his existence was just a coincidence.

A chance acquaintance in the health room made Cheng Zixie aware of Luo Ya's existence.

When we first met, Cheng Zixie felt that Luo Ya was sick and not very energetic, which made Cheng Zixie feel...

He is like a panda, and he seems to be specially protected.

To Cheng Zixie, this kind of behavior is nothing to Cheng Zixie. It is like walking on the street and a beggar asks for alms and gives the beggar his change. It has no special meaning, just because at that time I had the urge to do it.

But Cheng Zixie never expected that such an unintentional charity would make this insignificant person follow behind him like a loyal dog.

Although Cheng Zixie didn't think it was a big deal, but to be honest, sometimes when he looked at Luo Ya, who was obviously not feeling well, but still bravely followed behind him and Ji Wei, he felt inexplicably agitated.

Cheng Zixie always felt that Luo Ya following them was like a loyal dog meeting a good person who gave food, but to his surprise, this loyal dog saw his feelings for Ji Wei, and even took the initiative to invite him to Ji Wei. over him.

After a moment of hesitation, he was led away by the nose.

To tell the truth, he hated himself.

Why was Luo Ya leading her by the nose?

Why do this kind of thing?

Obviously he was blindfolded and couldn't see Luo Ya's appearance, but he seemed to be able to see Luo Ya's effort to restrain himself from making any sound in his mind.

Humble and pathetic.

Then the remorse in Cheng Zixie's heart began to grow stronger.

Cheng Zixie felt very confused and didn't know what to do.

I don't know how to face Luo Ya, and I don't know how to continue to get along with him in the future, and I don't know how the three of them should get along together so that they can get along as before.

Cheng Zixie agonized over this matter all night, but the matter once again exceeded his imagination.

After that night, Luo Ya seemed to have evaporated from the world, without any news.

Luo Ya's unilateral severance of contact, to Cheng Zixie at that time, seemed to be saved.

The sense of guilt and remorse began to fade away, and just when Cheng Zixie thought he could forget it, Qu You appeared in front of him inexplicably, and then mentioned the thing he wanted to forget the most.

Only he and Luo Ya knew about that matter, and Cheng Zixie was sure that he hadn't mentioned it to anyone. In this case, Qu You would know that it was Luo Ya who said it naturally.

And Qu You also said that at that time, didn't he?

Cheng Zixie just hoped that Luo Ya wouldn't talk about things and ruin each other's peaceful life, Cheng Zixie didn't think there was anything wrong with him at all.

However, such a simple purpose made Luo Ya cry and made him angry.

That was the first time Cheng Zixie had seen Luo Ya cry since he had known Luo Ya for so many years, and it was also the first time he had seen him angry.

"By the way...is his face...disfigured?"

Cheng Zixie remembered Luo Ya's face wearing a mask, and thinking about the reason Luo Ya said, he couldn't help but be concerned about the appearance under the mask.

"...If I tell him that, maybe he'll think I'm trying to laugh at him?"

Although this was groundless, Cheng Zixie felt it strongly.

Anyway, at least... an apology.

Luo Ya's angry appearance, Luo Ya's crying appearance, and what Luo Ya said were all lingering in Cheng Zixie's mind.

I care so much, I care so much, I can't stop thinking about it.

Maybe it's because I've never seen it before, so I care about it?

Cheng Zixie thought to himself, and at the same time decided to go to Luo Ya's university to find him a good apology, a good...speak clearly.

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☆, 09, angry for the first time

"That boy looks good!"

"Ahh! So handsome! I really want to talk to him! He doesn't seem to be from our school, does he?"

I don't know how many times I have heard such words today.

Although Luo Ya didn't want to care about it, but since just now the surrounding topics were constantly surrounding that handsome boy, it was very difficult for Luo Ya not to care about it.

Almost subconsciously, when Luo Ya followed the eyes of the girls who were talking, he saw a figure he was very familiar with.

...Cheng Zi... Xie?

Why is the Chengzi Association here?

Could it be...he came here to find...

Luo Ya panicked and didn't dare to think anymore.

He never expected that Cheng Zixie would come here to find him without saying hello.

Ming Ming made everything clear that day, and after the agreement was made, they would no longer contact each other, and they would forget him forever, but...

Why did Cheng Zixie come here to look for him?

No, that's not the point.

The point is...

If he sees himself like this, then...wouldn't his lies be exposed?

"Mouth... mask..."

Luo Ya hurriedly searched for a disposable mask in her schoolbag, and put it on.Immediately, he messed up all his hair in a panic, and then roughly smoothed the hair, he pulled the clothes of his friend beside him——Ming Yiqing.

"I...well, I'm not feeling well, I'm skipping class today, please help me order it later."

"It's all right, you've been helping us all the time. But...is it alright if you're alone? If you're really uncomfortable, go to the health room to rest for a while before going back. That's a legitimate reason to go home."

"...No, no need. It's not a big problem. Going to the infirmary might not let me rest. Anyway... Please, I'll treat you to dinner another day."

After Luo Ya finished speaking in a panic, he walked towards the emergency exit on the side in a somewhat chaotic manner.

He... doesn't want to have any contact with Cheng Zixie anymore.

It was hard for him to make up his mind to forget him, and it was hard for him to be discouraged by him. He didn't want to let these efforts go to waste because of Cheng Zixie's approach.

Years of love, years of pain, now there is finally a glimmer of hope that he can get rid of completely, he...does not want to lose this opportunity.

I don't want to have anything to do with Cheng Zixie...

I don't want to feel sorry for him anymore...

suffering for him...

obsessed with him...

for him……

"Luo Ya!"

Suddenly, Luo Ya was grabbed by Cheng Zixie.

Luo Ya was startled, he couldn't figure out why the Cheng Zi Association found him.

"where are you going?"

"...Why...you found me..."

Because she didn't want to be found by Cheng Zixie, Luo Ya deliberately took the emergency exit.

But why...?

"I just saw you go through the emergency exit door. Are you trying to avoid me?"

——Now that you know...then don't chase after her.

"...You, you think too much."

"..."

Cheng Zixie didn't speak, but his torch-like eyes fixed on Luo Ya's body.

He made it clear that he didn't believe Luo Ya's nonsense.

"Last time... we should have made our words clear. I don't think there is any need for us to contact again. So..."

let go...

Luo Ya didn't say the last two words, but he was expressing it with his actions.

However, Luo Ya's struggle had no effect.

The more he struggled, the stronger Cheng Zixie's grip on his wrist became.In the end, that strength seemed to be able to crush Luo Ya's bones.

"That's just your unilateral decision, right? I don't have time for anything..."

"But what I said actually suits you, doesn't it?"

Cheng Zixie was at a loss for words.

As Loya said.

If it weren't for Luo Ya's crying and angry appearance lingering in his heart, he would probably really have nothing to do with Luo Ya until his death.

"Look, you have nothing to say, which proves that what I said is right. So... let me go."

"I won't let it go. Because I still have something to say to you."

Cheng Zixie's rare insistence on Luo Ya did not make Luo Ya happy at all.

"...Even if you have something to say, there is no need to grab me, and...you hurt me so much."

"But if I let go, maybe you will run away? Even if you don't run away, maybe you will run away after saying what you want to say like last time?"

As Cheng Zixie said.

That's exactly what Loya planned.

So Luo Ya had no choice but to compromise.

"Is there something you haven't finished... let's finish it all at once."

Luo Ya didn't realize that her expression was very painful now, she obviously hoped that she could be relieved, but the face hidden under the hair and mask was extremely painful.

"That day... maybe I made a slip of the tongue. But because Qu You said that, I suspected that it was you who said it... Sorry, I don't know how he knew it, so I suspected it was you who said it..."

"That kind of thing...you don't have to worry about it."

After all...it was me who started the incident from the beginning to the end.

Because of a momentary impulse, so make things like this.

Luo Ya also thought that if time could be turned back, he would definitely not let the Qu You he pretended to say to Cheng Zixie.

"It's... impossible not to care, right? Because you didn't cry because of those words?"

Cheng Zixie's words were probably unintentional, but Luo Ya's heart skipped a beat.

A heart that should have been desperate, but because of such a sentence, a glimmer of hope emerged.

——So... did he come here to find me because I was crying?

Luo Ya couldn't help thinking about it.

"Like what you said at that time, maybe I really never cared about you, and didn't consider your feelings at all... That's why I said those words to you without thinking at that time, and even hurt you, sorry .”

No.

Cheng Zixie was actually not wrong.

He just didn't like himself, didn't notice himself, so he wasn't wrong.

Even this misunderstanding was actually caused by the long-lasting jealousy in my heart.

Cheng Zixie did nothing wrong from the beginning to the end.

He just honestly put his inner thoughts into action, because he was too willful, so he was so cruel, but in fact he was not wrong at all.

"You...you didn't do anything wrong at all...so...you don't need to apologize to me at all."

Luo Ya's voice couldn't help but choked up again.

"Then...why are you crying again now?"

"I... I just... didn't cry. It's just... just..."

Luo Ya hesitated and mumbled for a long time, but he couldn't give any explanation for his suddenly developed tear gland.

"Don't you say it yourself, you have never cared about me or considered my feelings. I have endured it for so many years, and there is no need for you to change suddenly. If possible, I hope you can continue to maintain it, because I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore, this is not just a moment of anger, this is what I have always hoped for."

"..."

"Besides, for so many years, I have actually followed behind you without authorization. In fact, I have no right to accuse you of not caring about me or considering my feelings, because the two of us are not even friends at all. Neither. So, there is no need for you to change because of the few words I said that day, right?"

I don't know if Luo Ya's plea reached Cheng Zixie's ears, but Cheng Zixie just listened quietly without saying a word.

Cheng Zixie's speechlessness caused Luo Ya to become a little flustered.

Feeling that the atmosphere was starting to turn a little bad, Luo Ya wanted to run away again.He couldn't help but struggled again.

"Let go, let me go. I...I'm leaving, I...I have class later..."

"You're going to skip class to avoid me, aren't you?"

"..."

This time it was Luo Ya who was speechless.

Luo Ya never expected that their conversation would be overheard by Cheng Zixie.

"I don't understand why you want to disown me now."

"Don't you wish?"

Luo Ya suddenly met Cheng Zixie's eyes, and the excessive movement made his eyes hidden behind his bangs exposed.

It was a look of hurt and disappointment.

"... I don't intend to deny it. But... I still hope that if possible, we can return to our previous relationship. You don't need to cooperate with us, just be yourself and get along with us in this way."

Cheng Zixie's sincere voice moved Luo Ya's heart, but she couldn't help but want to stab him.

"...Are you sure it's not because you want me to be your shield? Are you afraid that you will have to encounter the embarrassing situation when you go out with Ji Wei and Ji Wei's girlfriend?"

Obviously he could think about the good side of things, but Luo Ya couldn't help but think about the bad side.

There is a huge difference between such a gloomy self and that Ji Wei who would think about anything.

Cheng Zixie will definitely not give up that Ji Wei and fall in love with this self.

"This has nothing to do with Ji Wei and the others. Yes, as you said, I like Ji Wei very much, but this time it has nothing to do with Ji Wei. I just don't want you to forget me, it really has nothing to do with me .”

Cheng Zixie seemed a little excited, and he couldn't help raising his voice.

Surprised by Cheng Zixie's words, Luo Ya's eyes widened.

"...You are really selfish."

Luo Ya couldn't help talking softly to himself, and the small words floated into Cheng Zixie's ears, but Cheng Zixie didn't understand what Luo Ya was referring to.

"What's the meaning?"

"No....If you wish that much...I...promise you."

Luo Ya took a deep breath and wiped away the wet tears on her face.

Hearing what Luo Ya said, Cheng Zixie finally let go of his grip on Luo Ya's wrist.It was at this time that Luo Ya found a red palm print on his wrist.

"Feel sorry……"

Cheng Zixie noticed the red palm print.

"This is the first time..."

Luo Ya couldn't help laughing.

"What?"

Cheng Zixie felt a little strange about Luo Ya's weird reaction.

"It's nothing... I'm talking to myself."

"Hmm... By the way, didn't you say that you are not feeling well? Go back, I will take you home."

"No need, that... is just an excuse, don't you understand it too?"

Luo Ya pursed her lips lightly.

"...Let me go to your house to see...it's okay..."

For a moment, Luo Ya felt that Cheng Zixie was acting like a baby, with a sense of innocence that made Luo Ya unable to say no.

Luo Ya thought, Cheng Zixie wanted to go to his house, probably... just because he was afraid of avoiding him.

At that time, the university couldn't find anyone else, and I couldn't reach them by phone, so I wanted to know where my family lived.

"...I see."

Inexplicably, Luo Ya was a little happy.

Although, he knew, he shouldn't be happy.

The author has something to say: I went shopping with my mother after work, so this point is updated~~~

☆, 10 invites

"My house is here."

Luo Ya took Cheng Zixie to his small, even small rented house.

Small space with no furniture.

A bed, a desk, and a small wardrobe are his house and room, and the one with a door on one side is the bathroom.

"so small……"

Cheng Zixie looked around the small room and couldn't help expressing his feelings.

"...Because my part-time job plus scholarship deducted living expenses, the house that can afford the utility bills and rent is the only house with this condition."

Luo Ya said lightly, and then put his schoolbag on the chair beside him.

"Your house doesn't give you money?"

"My mother is remarried, so I'm too embarrassed to ask for money."

Luo Ya said simply, it seemed that it was no big deal, but Cheng Zixie could vaguely feel the embarrassment in that.

"But Lei can't cook by himself in this kind of house, right? Don't tell me you eat three meals a day outside?"

"...Breakfast and lunch will be taken care of in the university cafeteria, and for dinner... the part-time job will be taken care of."

Looking at Cheng Zixie sitting at the end of the bed, Luo Ya was a little concerned about where she should sit.

It didn't seem good or natural to deliberately avoid him and sit farther away, but Luo Ya didn't want to just sit beside Cheng Zixie like that.

In the end, Luo Ya chose to sit at the head of the bed with a bed board.

"You eat all of it outside, and it's hard for you to survive. No matter how you think about it, it won't be nutritious, right?"

"But that's all I can do."

It seemed silly to just sit like this, Luo Ya casually grabbed the pillow on one side, and hugged it forcefully in her arms.

"...Do you...would you like to live with me?"

"what?"

Luo Ya was stunned by Cheng Zixie's sudden proposal.

If you want to live with Cheng Zixie, Luo Ya thinks about it.

but……

"Live at your house? No need, your parents are here too, I will feel very uncomfortable staying there."

"I moved out from home."

"Why?"

Cheng Zixie's school is not far from his home, half an hour by bus one way is not too far.

"Well... last semester, the bus route at our house was changed. It was very inconvenient, and I didn't want to live on campus, so I moved out. The bus is also very convenient. It takes less than [-] minutes to get to my school by bus. It’s about this time for your school to take the bus, isn’t it good? It’s not convenient to go to your school from your place, right?”

What Cheng Zixie said was the truth.

It is precisely because of the small size of the house, inconvenient transportation and other reasons that this house is so cheap.

but……

Luo Ya didn't know how to be alone with Cheng Zixie.

Moreover, Luo Ya was also afraid that if the distance between himself and Cheng Zixie narrowed, he would look forward to it again.

"...I, let's stay here. I can do it alone."

Luo Ya ruthlessly decided to answer like this.

For Cheng Zixie, it was probably his unintentional kindness.But for Luo Ya, accepting this kindness is tantamount to stepping into another mistake.

"..."

Cheng Zixie stared at Luo Ya for a long time, then he nodded quietly and compromised.

Cheng Zixie didn't seem very happy, but Luo Ya tried his best not to care about it.

It doesn't matter, when anyone's kindness is rejected, the person concerned will not feel happy after all.

"You asked me before if I had a girlfriend?"

"Huh? Uh...um."

Luo Ya nodded gently, not understanding why Cheng Zixie asked her this question.

"What about you? After that..."

Luo Ya's face turned blue, he didn't know the meaning of Cheng Zixie's question, but he always felt that Cheng Zixie was asking him in disguise if he had any relationship with other men.

"...I haven't dated a girl before...but I've slept with other boys a few times."

Luo Ya's face was not flushed and her heart was not beating. First, it was because of being brave, and second, because...he didn't want Cheng Zixie to sense any clues.

"..."

Cheng Zixie was silent.

He didn't speak, so Luo Ya didn't know what to say.

"……What’s wrong with you."

Feeling that the atmosphere was a bit heavy, Luo Ya tried to speak.

"...It's nothing...I'm going back first. I'll come to you when I have time."

Cheng Zixie spoke in a low voice, then he stood up quickly, walked out with his schoolbag in his hand.

Luo Ya could clearly sense Cheng Zixie's obvious unpleasantness.

- It's over.

This was Luo Ya's first impression.

Originally, he just wanted to lie to help himself, but who knew that the relationship that had improved somewhat... seemed to have become stagnant again.

***

After that, Luo Ya and Cheng Zixie had no contact.

Luo Ya thought about whether to send a text message to Cheng Zixie, but with the mobile phone in her hand, Luo Ya couldn't think of what to send.

Maybe……

There will be no more contact in the future.

"Luo Ya, class is over, why are you still sitting still? Aren't you going to the cafeteria?"

"!"

Luo Ya suddenly came back to his senses, he turned his head and looked at Zhang Bodai, one of his friends who was speaking in his ear.

"What's the matter with you recently, always absent-minded?"

"I... I'm fine, probably... it's because part-time work is a bit hard, so..."

"Who asked you to fight for so many classes... If it is really hard, don't do it. If there is any difficulty, we will help you."

While Zhang Bodai was talking, he quickly helped Luo Ya stuff all Luo Ya's books into Luo Ya's schoolbag and then stuffed them to Luo Ya.

"Let's go quickly, they are all going to occupy seats first."

"Uh...um."

Luo Ya smiled back faintly, and then followed Zhang Bodai quickly towards the cafeteria.

After entering university, Luo Ya met Zhang Bodai and his group.They are also very troublesome people. Although Luo Ya did not blindly act as a bystander like in high school, the degree of participation is really limited.However, they are all very good people, if you want to compare them, they are probably Ji Wei's type.

Although Luo Ya didn't say anything, and they were trying their best to pretend in every way, but they seemed to be more or less aware that Luo Ya was not in good health, so they were very concerned about him.

Of course, they didn't show their concern deliberately, but showed it bit by bit in their actions.

For this, Luo Ya is very grateful, and very glad that he can be friends with such a group of them.

"By the way, Zhu Jing is planning to hold a fellowship, do you want to come?"

Zhu Jing is one of Luo Ya's college friends.

"I... uh... let's go."

Luo Ya hesitated for a moment, then decided to go anyway.

Although Luo Ya felt that he might be gay, it was only because the person he fell in love with was a man.But in fact, no matter before or after he fell in love with Cheng Zixie, he has never liked a man, so maybe he will have a chance to become a normal person...

Although……

This probability is about the same as...it snows in summer...

"...If you don't want to go, you don't have to go."

Zhang Bodai reminded again.

"I didn't force myself. If... if possible, it would be nice to have a girlfriend. But you, you shouldn't go?"

If Luo Ya remembered correctly, Zhang Bodai had a girlfriend last week.

In fact, Zhang Bodai is also very good-looking.