jealousy is the devil

Title: Jealousy is the Devil

Author: gray goldfish

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I am an awkward, introverted nerd, because I was jealous of Ye Ze, who is excellent in all aspects, and hurt him by a coincidence.However, he was too timid and couldn't bear the torment in his heart, so he went back to save Ye Ze, but was regarded as a benefactor who saved the people and became friends with Ye Ze.Through the process of getting along constantly, he has feelings for Ye Ze that go beyond friendship.

(depressed or cured) (everyone has something in his heart that cannot be brought to the table, and he wants to ignore it but still exists. Am I the most abnormal person in the world? No. There are many people like you Same! Even if it is very hard, I live very hard!)

Content tags: sadomasochistic love

Search keywords: Protagonists: Fu Xing, Ye Ze┃Supporting roles: No. [-] in grade, Jiang Ling, Zhang Lei┃Others: secret love, campus, darkness, growth

☆、My jealous heart

Before getting along with Ye Ze, I was a person whose life was extremely boring. I either studied or slept every day, and I couldn’t do other things.My mother always told me that only by reading good books can you be successful, otherwise, like your father, you still have to do physical work at such an age, and you have to look at people in their twenties.You have to study hard, the book is your own, do you think we can get your light

After my mother's long-term brainwashing, I also regard reading as a top priority. I study alone when others are playing. From junior high school, I will study until twelve o'clock in the evening every day, and then 05: 30 Get up on time to study, never stop.Efforts are rewarded. At that time, my grades were always the first in my grade. Every time I got the report card, I felt that all the hardships were worth it. It doesn’t matter if you don’t sleep, and it’s okay to be alone.I started to be silly, and if this continues, I will definitely be promising.

But this feeling of winning was shattered in high school. I was admitted to a key local high school, where top-notch students from all over the country gathered together.I used to be full of energy the next day as long as I slept, but now when I open my eyes, I feel scared and feel powerless.Does hard work work?No matter how hard I try, I can't beat those people.

And Ye Ze belongs to those people.Not only is his grade stable among the top ten in the grade, but he is also very lively, not as lifeless as me. He and the classmates in the class get along with each other as soon as the school starts.And me, the semester is almost over, some people I haven't said a word.In addition to being good at studying and being popular, Ye Ze is also versatile. He can sing, dance, and play the erhu. When the school is about to hold any event, the teacher will push him to the stage, so that he can win prizes without being wasted by other students. Study time to practice.Of course, his appearance also gave him a lot of points. He has the appearance of a little fresh meat. He is white and tender, and he smiles with a bit of a naughty feeling. He is tall and slender, and he is very popular with girls.

Hey, I really don't want to praise him. At that time, I hated him very much, or just put it straight, I was jealous of him, and I was so jealous.It is said that jealousy is the devil, which is absolutely true.But I don't dislike the student in our class who can take the first grade exam, because like me, he is basically fixed on a stool and immerses himself in his studies without saying a word. He should have such grades.But Ye Ze, who can play and learn, I am not convinced at all, I get angry when I see him.Thinking about it later, it was probably because I knew that the classmate who took the first exam and I would not be able to do what Ye Ze did no matter what.

It is said that puppy love affects learning. Do you know how much I wished that a little girl from the vocational high school next door would abduct Ye Ze?Although there are many girls in our school who like Ye Ze, they are all very reserved and won't show it so bluntly.But the girl from the vocational high school dared to pull a banner at the gate of our school to confess her love. The battle was quite sensational at the time, and the students who came home from school all gathered around there to boo, imitating the TV and saying: "Promise her, promise her..." But without shouting a few times, the girl who confessed was sent away by our school's dedicated security guards.

Later I heard that Ye Ze still rejected that girl, and that girl was also a very happy person, and she didn't stalk her.So I hope that Ye Ze's desire to play with things and not think about making progress will be completely defeated because of falling in love with Xiao Taimei.

I really want to see the feeling of Ye Ze falling from the clouds, I want to see him make a fool of himself in public, I want to see him take off his indifferent and confident look, and show an embarrassed and bewildered expression.These evil flames burned more and more intensely in my heart. At night, my heart ached and I couldn't sleep.If it weren't for me being a person with a wicked heart but no guts, I think Ye Ze would have been killed by me tens of thousands of times.

My parents had a big fight yesterday, probably because my mother wanted to enroll me in a cram school, but my father thought the price of the cram school was too expensive.Mom complained to Dad, saying that Dad was worthless, and then there was a long silence.

I think it's all my fault. If I can get into the top ten, my mother will feel safe, and they don't have to worry about whether to send me to a cram school.

Now I have added two hours back to the study time, which means I go to bed at 05 o'clock in the morning and start at 30:[-] in the morning, but even so, I still feel that the time is not enough, and I am still a thousand miles away from those people .Sometimes I frantically want to sleep, and feel that I can fall asleep standing up, but when I lie on the bed, I am so awake that I can't fall asleep no matter what.I wondered what Ye Ze would be doing. At this point, he must have been lying on his big soft bed and dreaming sweet dreams. Anyway, he has a good brain, and he can work hard until after ten o'clock at most.

When I was going to school in the morning, I saw Ye Ze's mother driving Ye Ze to school in a shiny black car. Ye Ze can wear the big and dirty school uniform with a kind of unintentional handsomeness.

I saw him waving with his mother and was about to come over, so I quickly turned around and left, I was afraid that he would say hello to me.But he still called me, I pretended not to hear, and continued to walk briskly.Usually when I treat others like this, they give up.But Ye Ze didn't know which muscle was wrong, he ran up and patted my shoulder, and said: "Hey, you don't deserve it no matter what."

I was taken aback when he slapped me, "I... I didn't hear it." But his familiarity with me made me a little uncomfortable, why he can show such enthusiasm with people he doesn't know well How about a friendly look?

"Why do you always look like you haven't woken up." He said with a smile.

I don't know what to say, I can only keep a blank face, I feel like an idiot.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he said again: "Have you signed up for the cram school? If you didn't go to the Sunshine cram school with me, the teachers there are very good, the lectures are good, the people are humorous, and their materials are also..."

I was really a very sensitive person at the time, and Ye Ze's words made me feel a pain in my heart. What he said seemed to be a very simple matter. For me, it was something that I had to think over and over again, and I might not be able to make a decision.I said with a dark face: "I don't go to any cram school."

Ye Ze was stunned for a moment, touched his head, and said with a laugh: "Oh, that's right, if you can study by yourself, you don't need to go to cram school."

Apparently he is also aware of my family situation and is trying to recover it now.But it's too late, if you knew it would happen, why didn't you pay attention at the beginning, or ignore me at the beginning.

But I didn't expect the mobile phone I bought to come so soon, as if it was arranged by God.The school organized an autumn outing that day, and our class went climbing.

The mountains in this season are very beautiful. The colors of the leaves are rich and colorful, including golden yellow, dark yellow, warm red, and dark green, layered on top of each other, forming a picture with the clear blue sky above. .The fresh air on the mountain refreshed me, and I felt so peaceful inside for a long time.At the beginning, I didn't want to do anything, I didn't know that things would develop in a direction beyond my control.If I were given another chance, I would obediently follow the team and be a learning machine that only came out occasionally to let the wind go.

At first we all lined up and climbed up the mountain slowly. Later, Ye Ze and a few boys discovered the wild fruit. Unexpectedly, this mountain is not only beautiful, but also has many treasures.We are usually locked up for a long time, but now we can be excited for a long time with just a little thing.They decided to pick more wild fruits and come back, so instead of taking the route we prescribed, they headed for the mountain with no road.They asked us not to tell the teacher, and said that they would definitely gather at the foot of the mountain before three o'clock.

At 03:30, everyone except Ye Ze came back, and as the sky began to darken, everyone began to worry.The teacher asked the girl to go back first, and the boy stayed to find someone.Zhang Lei, the boy who went up together, told everyone not to worry too much, Ye Ze seemed to have told them not to wait.But to be on the safe side, we decided to go to the mountains to see.

I was the first to discover Ye Ze. I found a white skirt, blue and white, on a big rock. It should be our school uniform.But my first reaction was not to rush over to see what happened, but to turn my head and say to the accompanying people: "Ye Ze can't be here, it's so close to the roadside, if there was, we would have discovered it long ago." They also felt that It made sense, so we turned around and climbed up the mountain.

Although I can't make Ye Ze make a fool of himself in public, I have to find a way to let him lie down in the mountains on a cold night in late autumn. He should still be wounded, it won't feel good.

When we found that the sky was completely dark, Zhang Lei said with a heavy breath, "Forget it, let's go back, maybe Ye Ze has already gone back. He has done such things before, and he can say that we help him celebrate his birthday." If you don’t say anything, let us dove.”

"That's right, hey, this kid!"

The teacher put his waist down and said angrily: "If this is the case, I will definitely settle the score with him tomorrow. Really, his parents can't get through on the phone."

Then we went back, and we left Ye Ze alone in the mountains.The cold air of the night slowly penetrated my clothes into my bones, and I shivered from the cold.I thought that everyone loved him, and it turned out that no one could not be thrown away.Should I be happy after discovering this, I finally see Ye Ze's pitiful side.

But I was not so happy, my heart was full of uneasiness, I didn't read any of the topics, I was afraid that he would really die like that.If you want to be a bad person, you must not be as cowardly as I am, looking forward and backward, and fearful.People without any psychological quality are not suitable for doing bad things.

I put on my coat and scarf and ran outside.It's almost ten o'clock now, and there are no buses here, so I had to drag my father's old bicycle out and bring a flashlight.I rode very fast, and I fell twice in the middle, but I got up immediately without feeling the pain. My mind was full of Ye Ze dying, or his beautiful eyes looking at me resentfully.

When I found Ye Ze, he had already climbed onto the road by himself.When I saw him with the flashlight, he instinctively covered his eyes with his hands. There were long scratches on his hands, and his clothes were worn out, dirty and torn.I couldn't believe that he was the much-anticipated Ye Ze.

I moved the light of the flashlight aside, then went to him and squatted down, "Ye Ze, are you okay?"

He looked up, with stars in his eyes, maybe tears, and smiled and said to me, "Thank you for coming back to me."

My heart sank when he saw his eyes, I quickly lowered my head and took off my scarf to help him wrap it around. When my fingertips touched his ice-cold face, I trembled all over.

"Did you fall to your foot? Can you still move?"

Ye Ze shook his head helplessly, and said, "I can't walk anymore."

I sighed and had to pick him up.Although Ye Ze is thin, he is still tall. It is actually a bit difficult for me to carry him. After walking a little, I have to stop to rest.I regret it very much. If I saw him say it directly at that time, I wouldn't be so tired.It's really self-inflicted, and now it's impossible to throw him on the side of the road.

Ye Ze said with some embarrassment: "I'm heavy. Have you brought your mobile phone? I'll call home!"

"I don't have a mobile phone. I will carry you for a while, and my bicycle will be parked at the foot of the mountain."

"Well, that's troublesome for you. You still have a conscience. Zhang Lei and the others are simply inhumane. They really don't want to find me anymore. Let's see if I go back and don't settle accounts with them."

I was really guilty of what he said, every time he cursed, it seemed like he was slapping me in the face.I don't know why he talks so much when he's all injured, just chanting like a Tang monk makes my head hurt, I really want to shut his mouth.But this gave me motivation. I had no strength, so I gritted my teeth and carried him to the foot of the mountain.Then he was taken to the hospital by bicycle, and he called home with the hospital phone, and his parents arrived soon.

Seeing that everything was almost done, I left silently alone. I thought it was a bit ridiculous. I was the one who wanted to punish Ye Ze, but in the end I spent so much effort to save him.Maybe he appreciates me, which is really embarrassing, so how can I hate him with peace of mind.

"classmate!"

I turned my head and saw Ye Ze's mother walking towards me. She was wearing a wine-red suit and a black woolen coat, as if she had just returned from work.But even though things are so busy, there is no look of fatigue on her face, full of elegance and calmness.She stuffed something into my hand, and my vulgar head immediately thought she was stuffing money into me. I picked up my hand and saw that it was a small bunch of red wild fruits, like red agate, very cute.

Ye Ze's mother smiled and said: "This is what Ye Ze insisted I give to you, thank you, this is the only one that hasn't been crushed. Hey, I am so relieved that Ye Ze has such a reliable friend like you gone."

We're not friends, I yelled in my head, but I took it anyway.Ye Ze's mother wanted to take me home, but I refused.I don't know why I feel a faint uneasiness in my heart, I want to keep a distance from Ye Ze and have nothing to do with him.This can only be the first and last time we will be this close.

☆, I was originally a person

I didn't expect Ye Ze to come to school the next day. His foot wasn't broken, it was just swollen.When I first walked into the classroom, I saw him jumping and chasing Zhang Lei and beating him. His whole life was lively.I walked to my seat silently as usual, took out my English book and started reciting words.

"Fu Xing!" Ye Ze greeted me enthusiastically, he patted Zhang Lei on the back of the head again, and walked towards me with one leg crossed.

He managed to gather the eyes of the whole class to me, and I couldn't help but frown.

"Thank you so much yesterday!" He put his hands on my table and looked down at me. The corners of his mouth were raised with a naughty feeling, but his eyes looked at me motionlessly, and he looked very Sincerity makes it easy to soften your heart.

From that day on, Ye Ze always clings to me, he likes to call me for everything, and he also wants to have lunch with me.I originally thought of a way to refuse. I am used to being alone, and playing with him will waste a lot of time studying.But Ye Ze seems to know my worries, he also gave me a copy of the materials of his cram school, the materials are really good, the types of questions are very rich, the analysis is also very clear, and there is also a study schedule for me learn from.I was really moved, so I accepted it.The so-called short-handed and soft-handed, I am embarrassed to refuse every time with a dark face.In this way, a habit is formed after going back and forth, and the power of habit is terrible.

I think these days are pretty good. I don’t know if it’s because of the information Ye Ze gave me, but my ranking in the last monthly exam has improved by ten places.I think being with Ye Ze is also very good.It's just that Zhang Lei is not happy as Ye Ze and I get closer, he doesn't like me very much, and now Ye Ze always takes me with him when he goes out to play, of course he is not happy.Then he tried to find some things for me to do, such as helping them grill skewers during the barbecue, and then let me do all kinds of aftermath.

"Is Fu Xing okay?" He would ask hypocritically.

I would say: "It's okay." It's really nothing for me to do these things. Ye Ze treats us in many activities, otherwise, where would I get the money? I feel more at ease if I do more work.

I was just afraid that Zhang Lei would ask me about that day, he looked at me full of inquiry, "Why are you looking for Ye Ze again so late?"

My heart skipped a beat, and I didn't know how to answer.It's a bit weird when I think about it, I don't know Ye Ze well, but that night I braved the cold wind and rode more than 20 kilometers to find him.

Fortunately, Ye Ze would jump out and hit Zhang Lei on the head, "You think everyone is as heartless as you, Fu Xing is the kind of person who just does things but doesn't talk, don't look at him with a cold look, his heart is hotter than yours too much."

I began to believe that the best thing to maintain the relationship between husband and wife is guilt, because only when there is guilt in the heart can there be greater tolerance and treat each other twice as well.I think it's the same when it comes to friendship. It's because I feel guilty that I can accept what Ye Ze originally couldn't accept, such as his cynicism, his childishness, his young temper, his excellence, and his talent.I think now if something happens to him, I can really go and help him.

That day I waited for Ye Ze to find me for lunch as usual, but Ye Ze just ran over and said to me with an apologetic face: "Fu Xing, I'm sorry, you and Zhang Lei are having dinner together today, I have something to do." He ran away in a hurry.

I looked up at Zhang Lei in confusion, he spread his hands towards me and said, "Then let's go, let's go eat."

"What is he going to do?" I asked Zhang Lei.

"What's the matter with him, it's just that the spring heart has sprouted!"

I looked at Zhang Lei blankly. Rather than saying that I didn't understand what he meant, it would be better to say that I was stunned and couldn't believe what I heard.I'm also very strange, I thought that Ye Ze would not fall in love if he rejected the girl who pulled a banner to confess his love.

"Didn't he want to chase that girl Jiang Ling who is number one in long-distance running? It's her birthday today, so Ye Ze is going out to buy her a gift." Zhang Lei looked at me angrily. "You, you only know how to read every day, you don't know that you have such a good relationship with Ye Ze."

I still said unwillingly: "Probably not, Ye Ze doesn't seem to want to fall in love, besides, doesn't he still want to study? Doesn't he want to break into the top five in the grade during the midterm exam?"

Zhang Lei seemed to be amused by my words. He covered his stomach and laughed for a while, then put his arms around my shoulders, "I thought you were boring, but I didn't expect you to tell good jokes. You know that Ye Ze talked about it before. How many girlfriends? Also, based on what you know about him, will falling in love affect his studies?"

I thought about it, then shook my head.

Sure enough, Ye Ze invited us to his house to celebrate that girl's birthday at night, but I said I had something to do at home and refused to go.I already knew in my heart that their relationship will be formalized tonight.But I just don't want to see this scene with my own eyes, I still have a little luck in my heart if I don't look at me, maybe that girl just doesn't like Ye Ze.

When I looked up the English dictionary, I saw the wild fruit that Ye Ze gave me. I pressed it dry and flattened with a thick book, and then made it into a bookmark.I saw it irritated for a while, and threw it into the drawer.

I can pretend not to see, but what is supposed to happen will still happen.The next day Ye Ze told me that Jiang Ling had finally agreed to be with him, and complained that I didn't go yesterday because I couldn't see Jiang Ling crying with joy under his romantic offensive.

I raised my eyes from the book, then lowered my head again, "Congratulations." I said flatly.

"Hey, this is too much, I want to share the joy with you so much, so that's the end of it?"

I looked up at him, and squeezed out a smile, "Congratulations on getting out of the order, okay?"

Ye Ze scratched his hair, a little puzzled, "It's not a big deal, what happened to your house yesterday?"

"It's all over, it's all over."

"Just tell me if you have anything to do, we are a lifelong friendship."

I smiled and nodded.

Ever since Ye Ze and Jiang Ling got together, I almost returned to my solitary life.Although Ye Ze always pulls me to go, but I really don't want to be a light bulb, and I don't want to see their intimate appearance.I just bought a piece of bread for lunch and settled it casually in the classroom.

In this way, I always meet that first grader. I admire him very much. He concentrates on his own affairs and will not be affected by the outside world at all.Although I can study in a noisy environment, I will also be burdened by interpersonal relationships. Recently, because of Ye Ze's matter, I have been very distracted, and my heart has been unable to calm down.Looking at his vigorous writing, I don't know why my heart is encouraged, and I feel that I have to work harder.

I don't have a good appetite recently. I pick up the bread and put it down again, but I still don't have any desire to eat.I saw that the first grader hadn't gone downstairs to eat, so I walked over and put the bread on his table.He was concentrating on doing the questions, but when I interrupted him, he suddenly raised his head to look at me, his eyes were a little scary.

"This is for you to eat." I said.

Both of us are not very good at talking, so we just stared at each other like this.I felt it was too embarrassing, coughed dryly a few times, then said that I'm leaving, and went back to my seat.

After that, it happened a few times again, maybe because the first grader was a bit like me, so I couldn't hate him at all.My chances of winning the first place in the grade are too slim, so I hope he can keep winning it. This is like a psychological sustenance of mine. People like us who are immersed in learning will be better than talented people.

Ye Ze really couldn't shirk it, unless I wanted to break up with him, so I agreed to go out to dinner with them on Sunday.Unfortunately, I just caught a cold that day, my throat was sore and I was smoky, and my head was a little dizzy.But I knew I couldn't push it any longer, and I told myself that I had to go, and if I suffered today, I wouldn't be afraid in the future.I went with the determination to die and survive.

When I arrived at the restaurant they had arranged for, what was a bit embarrassing was that what I was worried about at first was not how much Ye Ze and Jiang Ling would make me feel uncomfortable, but whether my wallet was big enough.The restaurant was resplendent and resplendent, I reported the table number, and the waiter led me in.

I thought it was just me, Ye Ze and Jiang Ling today, but I didn't expect there was another girl.That girl has short hair, a small round face, red like an apple, very cute.And the one next to her with long straight black hair and big dull eyes is Jiang Ling.The whites of her eyes are very small, and the black pupils almost take up the entire eyes, a bit like a female ghost, looking a bit creepy.Well, it probably has something to do with my mood.

"Oh, Fu Xing is here." Ye Ze greeted me to sit down, and then warmly introduced me: "This is my girlfriend Jiang Ling, and this is her good friend Yang Qian." He turned his head to them again Said: "This is my good brother Fu Xing."

I smiled and greeted them one by one, and then I saw Jiang Ling say something in Yang Qian's ear, Yang Qian looked up at me, and then lowered her head in embarrassment.I felt a little uncomfortable, why whispering in front of someone I just met, my impression of her was even worse.

"Ye Ze, I want to try your steak!" Jiang Ling said coquettishly, tilting her head.

"Okay!" Ye Ze inserted a sliced ​​steak and stuffed it into Jiang Ling's mouth. Jiang Ling's smile trembled, "Your steak is so delicious."

"Then let's eat instead!"

"Ok!"

Although I had prepared for such a long time ago, I still lost my appetite for a while. It turned out that Ye Ze looked like this when he was talking about love.

"Can I taste yours?"

It took me a long time to realize that Yang Qian was talking to me. Birds of a feather flock together and people are divided into groups. How come Jiang Ling’s friends also like to eat from other people’s bowls.

"I'm sorry, I caught a cold today, and I'm afraid I'll infect you." This is the truth, I don't have much appetite anyway, and I can't eat anymore.

"Oh, it's okay, my request is a bit too much." Yang Qian said shyly.

I always feel that I am being regarded as a stingy person, "Well, why don't I order another one for you!"

"No need, you guys only eat one serving, isn't it funny that I eat two servings for a girl?" Yang Qian looked at me with a smirk.

Ah, I really don't know how to answer the following words.At this time, I saw Ye Ze and Jiang Ling look at each other with deep meaning.My face immediately became hot, and I sneered in my heart, Ye Ze could not be introducing someone to me.Thinking of this, I suddenly became furious, and rushed up suddenly, and I coughed violently.

I covered my mouth with my arm, buried my head on the table, and coughed violently, tears came out of my cough.Ye Ze patted my back and worriedly said, Fu Xing, are you okay!

I shook my hand and said, "I'm fine, I'm sorry."

"Hey, I'm sorry for what you said, come on, get up and drink some water." Ye Ze patted my back and handed the water to my hand. His voice was very gentle, as if he was coaxing a wounded child. .I unconsciously thought that Ye Ze would be a good father in the future.Yes, this is the way he should go.

I have no right, no reason, and no position to be angry. I smiled at him and said, "I'm fine."

After returning home, Ye Ze asked me how I thought of Yang Qian, and I told him directly, "Ye Ze, I am different from you, I don't want to fall in love now, I can't be distracted, please don't introduce me to someone in the future." I told myself to calm down, but my tone was still hard and I almost exploded.

Ye Ze was a little aggrieved, "I wish I could stay with you for a while, since I have a girlfriend, how much time have we spent together? You don't like being a light bulb, so you also have a girlfriend and we We can be together again."

"If you really want to come to me, won't you be alone?" I whispered.

"Ah, what did you say?"

"I said it doesn't matter, anyway, I was originally alone."

"Hey!" Ye Ze stared at me, "Why don't you have any feelings at all, don't you think I'm your friend when we've been together for so long?"

I was very sad by what he said. Indeed, I am a cold-blooded person, and I don’t care about the people around me. I only worry about some cold numbers, and I live for them.But I have different concerns about Ye Ze, whether it was jealousy and dislike at the beginning, gradually becoming pleasing to the eye, and now... I like it.I was also amazed by the changes in myself, scared and surprised at the same time, I always thought that I could only be alone, but Ye Ze made me believe that I can be with others.

But, sorry, I crossed the line.Before I knew it, I crossed the line that you will never accept, and I will definitely control myself.I would rather you and I regard me as a heartless person than you find out that I am actually a pervert who covets you.

Ye Ze was stunned when he saw that I didn't respond, and then he showed an angry expression to me for the first time, he thought I would probably explain.His disappointment in me cut my heart like a knife, I lowered my head not to look at him, and after a while I heard the door slamming heavily.

My tears fell on my pants with a patter, and I fainted all of a sudden. The sound scared me a lot.I never want to like someone else, I thought then.

☆, during the cold war

After that, Ye Ze never spoke to me again, and I didn't take the initiative to find him. The two of us were like strangers.The funny thing is that the people who are in a hurry are not me and Ye Ze but Zhang Lei. When he is free, he always runs over to persuade me, "Ye Ze is a good person. He may not be able to talk with his brain. Don't be as knowledgeable as him. I see you You're not a stingy person, are you?"

I accidentally heard him persuade Ye Ze, "Talk to Fu Xing first, he won't bow his head first because of his thin skin, but you have also seen how thin he has become recently, and his clothes are empty when he wears them. It must be very uncomfortable."

But Ye Ze and I are determined, neither of us was persuaded by him, we still go our own way.Zhang Lei was so angry with us, "I didn't want you to hang out together at the beginning, the two of you are sticky like dog skin plaster. Now I'm used to you hanging out together, and you two are acting like elementary school students."

I still had no appetite at noon, so I put the bread on the table of the first grader again. After putting it down, I turned around and left. Now there is no need to explain too much.

"Wait!" The first grader stopped me, "You didn't even have lunch yourself!"

I was surprised, he never talked to me before, I turned around and saw his serious face.He opened the bag, then broke the bread in half, handed me half, and said in an unquestionable tone: "Eat together."

I took the bread and sat down next to him. I took a bite and couldn't help sighing: "Sure enough, the meal needs two people to eat it to be delicious!"

I turned my head and suddenly found that he was looking at me. It was a very serious and focused view. I was a little embarrassed to be looked at by him.Just when I was about to say something, he suddenly reached out and grabbed my head, and then kissed me directly.I have never kissed before, let alone the number one in my grade. He closed his eyes with a cautious and distressed expression, which was not at all different from his usual dull and indifferent appearance.In this dazed effort, he pried open my mouth, his tongue occupied my mouth aggressively, and I couldn't help but make a sound.

My mind is completely messed up, is this really the first grade I respect?Am I really in a classroom where I am now?

With the sound of things falling, I came back to my senses from the unknown space. I pushed the first grader away, took a few deep breaths, and turned to look at the door.I don't think I will ever forget the way Ye Ze looked at me, disgusted in his indifferent expression, he was condescending as if he was looking at some garbage.In the end, the corner of his mouth twitched, showing a knowing smile, and slowly closed the door.

I stood up in a daze and walked to the door, and saw that there were badly smashed meals on the ground, including ribs and broccoli, which I like to eat.Ye Ze may have been moved by Zhang Lei's words, and felt sorry for me for losing weight recently, so he brought me food.I just didn't expect to see this scene.I took a broom to clean up these things, I can't eat these things, I feel a little distressed.

The first grader said coldly behind my back: "Ah, I was discovered." He muttered something again, but I stopped listening.

In the mid-term exam, Ye Ze got the fifth grade in the exam, and I fell back to more than 100.As soon as the grades came out, I was called to the office by the teachers of various subjects to talk. The head teacher looked at my report card and sighed, "This is not going to work. The teacher knows that you have worked hard, but you have to learn to master the method."

I nodded, but I always feel that the teacher's talk is meaningless. If I can find a way, will I still not use it?I stood there with my head bowed like a pillar.In my mother's words, you can't beat a fart with a stick.The teacher probably also felt that talking to me was too boring, so he waved his hand, "Forget it, go, and reflect on it when you go back. By the way, call me Ye Ze."

Hearing this name, I felt as if someone had poured cold water on me, and I suddenly woke up. I raised my head and looked at the class teacher in surprise.

"What's the matter? Is there anything else?"

I shook my head, yes, how can others know my mood.Just hearing this name, my mood is turbulent and I can't calm down.It's really unfair to think about it, he hates me so much now, but I care so much about him.Because of him, my mind is completely confused, and I can't read the book.But he was unaffected