when i'm not young

He Sheng was beaten by his father until he had to rest at home for a day before he could get out of bed. Then he changed his mind and decided to live with his mother, because his mother said at the time, son, mother will accompany you.He Sheng thought that his mother accepted his sexuality, but he didn't expect that the second half of his mother's sentence was actually "accompany you for treatment."

I'm not sick, it's just that the person I like happens to be a boy like me.This is the disease? Is the emotion of "like" a problem?I like him in my heart, he makes me study harder, he makes me want to be better and better, so why can't I like him?

He Sheng rebelled against his mother, not long after he went abroad.

Li Ling thought that after he went abroad, he just had no friends and no playmates. How could he know that there was such a painful and struggling cage waiting for him.

After all, it is the real mother. He Sheng's mother couldn't help watching the child continue the hunger strike. She wiped her tears and said, "I won't force you anymore."

At that time, He Sheng cried for the first time.

He Sheng didn't shed a single tear when he was beaten so viciously by his father, and he didn't shed a single tear when he went on a hunger strike until he was in a coma. He cried happily when he thought that he would be able to find Li Ling in the future.

He had approached Li Ling a few times, but at that time he had no financial means. He exchanged the money he earned from working during the holidays into RMB, which was only enough to live in China for a short time. He refused the living expenses offered by his mother. He wanted to be independent as soon as possible. As soon as possible, rely on yourself and Li Ling to gain a foothold in a society that does not accept them.

This crying, I cried until the time of the video with He Sheng.

Li Linghong stared at the camera and cursed: "Old He! I hate you to death!"

He Sheng was extremely worried, there was a sound of ping-ping-pong-pong in the background, and he didn't know what he bumped into when he was nervous.Li Ling bit his lower lip and stared at him.He Sheng hurriedly filtered in his mind whether he had done anything to be sorry to his family Li Er.

Two goldfish were fed to death by him, didn't he buy the exact same goldfish to make up for it?Could it be that Li Ling's eyes are sharp enough to measure the size?Can't.

Or did Li Ling catch sight of him washing his underwear and socks that day and forgetting to wash them separately?No, Li Ling was reading the contract at home that day.

Or, did you call someone else in your sleep?

I only heard Li Ling's voice taking a deep breath: "Old He, I hate you so much, do you want to confess how many things you have kept from me?"

He Sheng patted his forehead: "Did you know that I bought a huge amount of insurance for myself?"

"What insurance?" Li Ling knew that he bought insurance, but he didn't know that there was a huge amount.

He Sheng said "Oops", showing surprise and remorse very artificially: "So you don't know this!"

"I often take planes, or short-distance car trips, who knows what happens on the road... Well, what should you do if there is an event? You don't work hard, and you don't know the grain. The beneficiary is you."

Li Ling's lips were trembling, his mood fluctuated too much, he wondered if he had arrived earlier than that.He skipped this, and said through gritted teeth, "Not this."

"What's that? Could it be that I greeted other district managers in advance?" He Sheng muttered.

Li Ling reached out and hung up the video.

"Despotism and overbearing!" He glanced at the tissues on the quilt, regretting the tears he shed just now.

After a while, He Sheng called again, but Li Ling didn't answer.Next came text messages.

With He Sheng in such a cold until midnight, Li Ling had already calmed down. He felt more and more bad-tempered and eccentric, and remembered all kinds of good things about He Sheng, so he called He Sheng himself.

Before the "beep" rang for a second, the phone was picked up: "Li Er!"

The sweetness in Li Ling's heart suddenly melted away, and the resentment that had been firm before was washed away, and the tone changed: "Why are you so fast."

"wait for your call."

"You know I can fight?"

"Guess." Can I not know you?

Li Ling didn't speak, lying on He Sheng's pillow and smelling the smell he left behind, he sighed in his heart: "Old He, come back soon."

Having thought so and said so, He Sheng was excited for a long time and said: "I will tell Mr. Gu tomorrow morning!"

"No...don't, the task is still important." Li Ling hurriedly stopped.

"I brought a salesman with me as soon as I came and asked him to develop other salesmen. With him running, we can basically open up the market."

Li Ling couldn't sleep well at night, and for a while it was the sound of his parents arguing when he was a child. In his dream, he covered his ears and looked down at the storybook on his lap. The story on that page was about "Ugly Girl".The heroine in the story experienced a tragic childhood. Li Ling looked at his parents who raised their eyes and looked at each other with harsh words. For the first time, he had a disgusted view of "husband and wife"; He Sheng's father held up the stick and landed on He Sheng's back, with unstoppable anger and reprimands, causing He Sheng to bruise.

Li Ling woke up in shock, hugging He Sheng's pillow.He felt that he was really getting old, and he became more and more afraid that something would happen to He Sheng, and his life could not stand the fluctuations.

Running around in the early years, it doesn't matter what a person is, whether it is physical or emotional.It's different now, he still has He Sheng, and he can imagine that if something happens to He Sheng, he can follow him.

It’s true that the more you live, the more you go back, and you can learn without a teacher.Don't I never worry about it?

That's because no one was worth his troubles before.

Then there was He Sheng.That's because He Sheng settled everything and didn't let him know.

Li Ling learned to worry, breaking a little worry into eight petals and worrying slowly, He Sheng soon found out that something was wrong with him.

Catch up with the company organizing a trip, He Sheng pooled his saved annual leave and found that he could go abroad for a honeymoon trip.

Li Ling quit, what should he do if he said he didn't have full attendance?

"I'll pay you to make up for your lost wages?" He Sheng really didn't understand Li Ling more and more. Why did he suddenly pay so much attention to money?

Li Ling protested in a low voice: "Isn't that my own money?" I went to pack the luggage of the two of them.

The country He Sheng chose was Iceland.Of course, this is outside the scope of travel reimbursed by the company. He paid for it at his own expense, and he is fully capable of that.It's just that Li Ling didn't understand, why not go to South Korea, Hainan, and Yunnan? The company reimburses them all!

"Boycott South Korea, do you understand?" He Sheng replied angrily, and this man became more and more stingy.He watched Li Ling bent over to stuff the suitcase with his butt pouted, and suddenly he became playful, and he bumped Li Ling's butt with his toe, almost causing Li Ling to fall into a shit.

Li Ling's head was buried in a pile of clothes, and he was lost in thought for a few seconds.Before Li Ling got up, He Sheng hopped away.

"He Sheng! I'll fuck you—"

"My uncle has been dead for many years, don't do that kind of thing, Lier!" He Sheng, who was locked in the study, replied loudly.

After a day of jet lag, He Sheng took Li Ling to a very mysterious place the next day. Li Ling will never forget the feeling of stepping there.

That morning, He Sheng got up early, and after brushing his teeth, he carefully wiped off the shaving lotion in front of the mirror, and shaved patiently and meticulously.Li Ling who was still on the bed was in a very good mood when he heard him humming in the shower.

Li Ling grabbed the quilt and turned over, and scolded "Old Sao, Lao Sao", his hair curled up in sleep.

He Sheng went to call Li Ling after he came out of the shower. Li Ling had a bad habit of sleeping under the blanket. This was because when he was a child, he was often woken up by his parents quarreling, and when he opened his eyes, he saw their indifferent faces.This subconscious escape behavior that has lasted for many years will only be better when He Sheng is lying beside him.As soon as He Sheng was gone, he unknowingly trapped himself in the quilt again.

So He Sheng went to pull the quilt on him, and Li Ling, who was still asleep, was tightly gripped and did not let go.God knows how he still has so much strength in his sleep.

He Sheng patted his buttocks with all his force on the quilt: "Li Er, lazy pig Li, do you want to go out?"

Li Ling was quarreled by him for a full 10 minutes, and at the moment when the quilt was torn off, he threw himself on He Sheng and pressed him down: "Old He, why do I think you are as delicate as a flower today?"

Nonsense, I don't even care what I'm going to do today.He Sheng patted his butt, then stopped on it and kneaded it: "I'll take you somewhere, hurry up, brush your teeth." His voice was so gentle that Li Ling couldn't get up.

Sure enough, Li Ling couldn't get up anymore, and lay on top of him: "You wait on me today."

"You're used to it." He Sheng scolded with a smile, but still carried him to the bathroom.

In Iceland in summer, the two of them wore one-piece long-sleeved shirts, and Li Ling was wearing a light blue shirt, which made him several years younger and made him look even more charming.He Sheng whispered in his ear: "Li'er was taken aback today."

Compared to Li Ling who was joking and laughing all the way, He Sheng was calmer. He wore a thin brown knitted sweater. Before going out, Li Ling picked out a pair of black-rimmed prescription glasses for him to put on, looking like a schoolteacher.

It wasn't until Li Ling came to an office, until Li Ling saw the words written on the sign, and until He Sheng translated them in English, that Li Ling understood where this place was.

His mood was like a balloon, which was flying in the air, but was tied with a thread underneath, and the thread was tied to He Sheng's body.This time, his balloon was infused with the gas of surprise and happiness. He felt that he couldn't hold it anymore and was about to explode. He opened his eyes to look at He Sheng, saw He Sheng smiling at him, and made a gesture of "please come in" to him , seemed to be talking, but he couldn't hear it.He heard the balloon pop—

He Sheng pinched his face, and covered his eyes with his sleeve: "Why are you still crying? Is it so sad to ask you to marry me?"

Li Ling hadn't blushed much in front of He Sheng, but this time she blushed too thoroughly, from ears to face to neck, so red that it was dazzling.People walking around outside the office also looked at them several times, and everyone showed a blessing smile.

Li Ling couldn't remember how he got in, and he was a little shy, he was led in by He Sheng.

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Li Ling took a good look at He Sheng, he felt that his old He Sheng was very handsome today.

After going out, Li Ling hadn't slowed down yet, so He Sheng became worried: "Too exciting? Are you stupid? Lier, talk to me." He Sheng touched his face again.

"No, Lao He, I... I'm just, just too happy... Yes, happy. Also, so happy. How did you do it? Aren't we just here for a trip? How can you do this? Lao He, I I didn't even make any preparations, I..." Li Ling spoke incoherently, and He Sheng interrupted by kissing his forehead: "Will I tell you in advance that you will come? You have to worry about my mother, this and that."

Li Ling lowered his voice: "I'm sorry..."

"If you want to say it, I say it. You have been with me for so many years..."

The author has something to say: happy!Today I heard that I have joined the crew, skam has a mother in the fourth season, oh oh oh oh oh la la la la la happy