when i'm not young

Li Ling and He Sheng have known each other since the first year of high school, but they have only been classmates for two and a half years. He Sheng suddenly went abroad in the second semester of the third year of high school.It was evening self-study that day, and Li Ling, like everyone else, only found out when he came in to take away his schoolbag.

He Sheng's back was shaking a little. It was not known whether it was because of the tears in Li Ling's eyes or because he was walking unsteadily.

When he walked away, chattering voices suddenly surrounded Li Ling.Several people asked Li Ling, "Where did He Sheng go? What happened?"

Li Ling just lied on the table and replied angrily: "I don't know!" He ignored the voices around him, pressed his forehead on his arm, tears welled up in his eyes, and wet his arm.

At that moment, except for the pain and difficulty in breathing, all other feelings were sealed.He still had to keep silent and keep his back from trembling. He opened his mouth to breathe, and his throat seemed to be choked several times. He thought angrily: Let's go, I'm alone anyway.

Until the school evening self-study to turn off the lights, the students all left, Li Ling sat in He Sheng's seat and cried very ugly-yes, Li Ling now recalls how ugly the crying at that time was. How ugly.When He Sheng heard about it later, he squeezed Li Ling's face and smiled: "Why, why didn't you contact me if you didn't want me?"

Contact your uncle, contact, I hate you to death later.

Li Ling is 35 years old this year. He is a district manager in a pipeline industry. He Sheng has been with Li Ling for half a year. He is the deputy general manager of the company's headquarters. In other words, Li Ling is in charge of him.

Sometimes Li Ling lamented that he lived in dire straits and oppression, being bullied at work and oppressed at home.He Sheng laughed heartlessly, rushed over and suppressed Li Ling: "Who dares to bully me, Lier?" In the sound, his animal nature was aroused, and he carried Li Ling to exercise again. Li Ling lay down on the bed and said, "Old He, I am not young anymore, stop torturing me."

He Sheng saw that he had bullied Li Ling miserably, so he hugged him, as if kissing him was not enough: "Li Er, Li Er, you know when I see you blushing and crying under me, I, I will Can't help..."

"Old rascal!" Li Ling didn't have the strength to push him, so he buried his head and bit his collarbone, sucking a piece of flesh in his mouth.He Sheng raised his neck with a look of fascination.

When he went to work the next day, He Sheng looked very excited, like a primary school student on his first spring outing.He found a white shirt and undid two buttons specially. He didn’t wear a tie and pulled the collar to the sides. .The girls in the office secretly discussed, did He Fu go too far last night?

Even Gu Chengze, the boss of He Sheng's company, who never cared about the style of his subordinates, noticed the dazzling red and reminded embarrassingly: "Pay attention to the influence."

When he came home from get off work, He Sheng was very unhappy, and dragged Li Ling to tell him what they talked about him in the company today, saying that he had a hot-tempered lover.Li Ling doesn't bother to talk about him. His family is like this. He is willing to let Li Ling bully him back. With the eyes around him, he couldn't announce that his was Li Ling.

He Sheng's mother, Lin Zi, is in the UK and visits her son from time to time.Lao He hurriedly went abroad because his parents divorced at that juncture.This was also what Lao He told Li Ling later. Li Ling imagined that he was alone in a foreign country, and he was not fluent in foreign languages. He loved lively people so much, what should he do?

But as soon as he turned his head and saw his smiling eyes, Li Ling knew that this person was taking advantage of his sympathy, trying to make himself forget about asking him to say goodbye and not being able to contact him.

Aunt Lin Zi knew about their relationship, and she neither objected nor accepted it.Knowing the child is better than the mother, Aunt Lin still has the idea that the two of them will not be able to go on one day and separate.She knows her son too well. He Sheng belongs to the kind who doesn't want me to be with Li Ling, but I've been single forever.

But what if the son comes back straight away?

He Sheng said to his mother: "Your son can only live with Li Ling. Don't you know your son? Your son has a bad temper, a bad mouth, and he doesn't wash his socks and underwear. What if he lives alone in China? If it wasn't for Li Ling, your son would either get sick from promiscuity or die of loneliness."

Aunt Lin let go of He Sheng's scare with these few words: "I don't care about you anymore, what do you like?" After finishing speaking, she turned off the video.

He Sheng, who had won the game, immediately ran from the computer to the bedroom, and picked Li Ling up from the bed: "Li Er Li Er! Lafayette doesn't care!"

Li Ling fell asleep in a daze, and didn't know what happened at all. Aunt Lin said she wanted to make a video call with Li Ling later, and Li Ling found out after listening to her retelling her original words. Clothes are expensive, and there are washing machines and dry cleaners for laundry; they don’t like strangers coming to the house, and they don’t hire nannies, so the cooking is basically done by Lao He, and he occasionally washes vegetables and dishes.Even cleaning, once every two days, was done by Lao He rolling up his sleeves, and Li Ling was in charge of wringing out the rag.

He Sheng and Li Ling's work has no time limit, in other words, there is no regularity at all.He Sheng has a special position. He keeps his mobile phone on 24 hours a day, because at any time, the managers of various districts will ask him for quotations or rebates. to his phone.

The clavicle bite marks that day showed off the effect very well, and no girl in the company coveted the title of "Mrs. He" anymore.He Sheng said that he knew that this trick would be useful. A few years ago, he had to let Li Ling eat a few bites, so as to save a group of old women from worrying about his marriage.

As soon as he said "a few years ago", Li Ling suddenly remembered something, pushed him away and said, "We have been together for five years!"

"As for the fuss?" He Sheng held Li Ling in his arms again. The little habits of the past few years can't be changed. He likes to rest his chin on Li Ling's shoulder, rub his nose against Li Ling's ear, and said, "We still have a lot of things to do." We will spend five years together."

Li Ling is a person who doesn't know how to write the word "worry".Li Ling's parents divorced when he was in junior high school, and Li Ling and his brother followed his father, who was a lawyer and hardly had a home. Li Ling didn't worry about what his life would be like in the future.Later in high school, He Sheng, who made Li Ling discover that his sexuality was different from others, left, and he was really sad for a week, and continued to study and live.Although Li Ling was silent for more time.

Later, on the second day of the college entrance examination, Li Ling's mother who hadn't heard from him for several years suddenly contacted Li Ling, but the voice was from another stranger. The other party asked, "Is that Li Ling?" Li Ling said "Yes", and he said: "Nothing else, let me tell you, Xiuxiu passed away last night."

Xiuxiu was Li Ling's mother's name, and the caller probably didn't know that Li Ling was her son.

Li Ling was short of the exam, so he went back and took the money to take a car to the address his mother had left, but there was only an old man in front of the house playing ball with a baby-voiced child.

Li Ling asked, where is this family?The old man thought for a moment and replied slowly: "I don't know, they will move out after selling the house to my son."

Li Ling thought that he would never see his mother again, and he didn't even know where he was buried. He leaned against the door and cried loudly, scaring the children who were playing ball to tears.

Li Ling's father later found out that he hadn't finished the college entrance examination, so he was so angry that he found a stick to beat Li Ling.The father and son seldom talk, they quarrel when they talk, and beat the son after the quarrel, but this time he didn't even bother to quarrel, so he did it directly.

It was Li Ling's brother who was watching and smiling indifferently.

This brother Li Ling is not as good at studying as Li Ling. He repeated his studies for a year, but he is only at the level of the third middle school in the city. His estimated score in the college entrance examination is the second-tier.

Li Ling was beaten badly by his father that day. He asked Li Ling to repeat the study, but Li Ling refused.They were hostile and cursed like enemies. He didn't like Li Ling's face. Li Ling looked too much like his biological mother, with beautiful smiling and affectionate eyes.

He hated those eyes as much as he liked them back then.

During that time, Li Ling missed He Sheng very much.If He Sheng is here...the only thing left in his mind is this sentence, like hypnosis, repeating it to himself, talking too much, it seems that when he opens his eyes the next day, the living He Sheng will really be by his side .

Thinking about myself, when I was only a teenager, when I learned that my mother had passed away, even if I hadn’t lived with him for a few years, it was my real mother. This kind of pain is the only one in the world. Li Ling really wanted to be with He Sheng talked.

So Li Ling let himself think about He Sheng.

He Sheng is such a cheerful person, everyone likes to play around him, what he lacks most is friends, unlike Li Ling, good grades are good, but the classmates don't like him very much, they say he is too cold and arrogant up.

But He Sheng was different from them. He Sheng said, Li Ling probably turned around and left before he thought about how to answer you, right Li Ling?

Li Ling remembered that it was the first time He Sheng talked to him, and the impression was so deep, because Li Ling watched him for five or six seconds, and the boys around him pushed He Sheng away, saying: "Look, he is Don't want to talk to us!"

He Sheng didn't move, and smiled very nicely. Li Ling found two cute little canine teeth.He Sheng said, "Li Ling, tell me, I'll wait here."

Li Ling is nervous. His shadow of quarreling with his father for many years has almost turned into a lump, pressing on his heart. He Sheng is like spring breeze and warm sun. He stands in front of him, facing Li Ling. Ling smiled and easily pushed them away.

Li Ling's heart, which had been living in darkness for many years, seemed to be exposed to the sun, and it shivered and stretched.Finally, Li Ling opened his lips and said softly, "No...it's not that I don't want to talk to you."

Seeing He Sheng smile, Li Ling jumped onto the table opposite Li Ling, dangling his legs, and said to the boy walking away: "Look! He's not cold!" After speaking, he turned to look at Li Ling , "Li Ling, I want you to play with me from now on, you want to play ball!"

Li Ling looked at him for a few seconds, and when he wanted to answer something, He Sheng knocked on his table: "Okay, if you don't know it, I can teach you! I will take it as your promise!"

Li Ling watched him jump down and run for a few steps, and then ran back: "Actually, I saw you on the first day I came to No. [-] Middle School! You are so handsome!"

After he disappeared in no time, Li Ling touched his face, it was probably blushing.

What's the matter with the rapid heartbeat, irregular breathing, and a kind of joy and excitement rampaging in the body?

Just like now, He Sheng supported Li Ling's body with his arms, and Li Ling hugged his neck. Following his movements, he didn't care if the pillow cover under his buttocks was removed.Li Ling clamped his waist with his legs, sucked his earlobe and breathed rapidly.Every time He Sheng drives four rounds on the bed, he is very devoted. He doesn't like to talk, but he likes to hear Li Ling shaking his head and bowing his body when he can't bear it anymore, talking intermittently. if.One time, the phone secretly turned on the recording, and when it was over, Li Ling was as tired as a puddle of humanoid mud, and he insisted on sharing Li Ling's earphones.Li Ling heard his own voice say "slow down", "No need", "It's so comfortable, Lao He, why are you so nice", said "Press harder, go in more", and scolded: "Get out! Don't be too big It's gone! I can't get it in! It hurts me..." His face blushed again, and finally under his pressure, He Sheng reluctantly deleted the recording.

Old He likes to come face to face, he likes to see Li Ling's face, and he can do it while kissing.

They were all men, and no one wanted to be the next one at that time.He Sheng, an old driver, surpassed Li Ling in skill and strength, and Li Ling lay down bewildered and willing.

Thinking of it is regret accompanied by comfort.After all, the skill of a veteran driver can be summed up by more than just a good word.

Summer is the peak season for the company.Shenyang Water has a lot of orders, deducting tens of thousands of yuan in shipping fees, and an order is at least a few million, and the commission is also [-] to [-].But that wasn't Li Ling's area. Because of He Sheng's arrangement, he only dug up a spoonful of cake from the province to eat.

When the company was just established, Li Ling was not among the "fathers of the dynasty". He had his own job and worked two shifts a day.He Sheng, who was far away in the UK, decided to return to China to work. He followed Gu Chengze while looking for Li Ling.

The author has something to say: I am addicted to skam and addicted to the face of e-god, I can't help myself... Write an article to prove that I can still get up and type on the keyboard (///▽///)

Originally, I thought about another text with an ancient background, but found that this illiterate vernacular can’t speak fluently, so let’s start with a modern one.

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