He always wants to kill this scum

Han Xiaodong didn't speak, just sat there quietly, holding the cup with his slender fingers, his slightly curly hair in a disheveled color against his fair cheeks, giving off a faint melancholy and indifference.

"What happened?" Li Shufan couldn't help asking him: "Actually, there are many things that need to be spoken out to solve them. If you don't speak up, it will only make things worse."

Han Xiaodong looked up at him, opened his mouth and said, "Xie Huan and I may...not be together anymore."

Li Shufan suddenly looked at him, and after a long while he asked, "Why?"

"There is no reason, isn't this the inevitable result?" Han Xiaodong smiled bitterly: "Love is not enough. The most important thing is that you will never be able to change their discriminatory eyes. I also try to think, no To care, but not to care will only make you like an ostrich with your head buried in the sand, nothing will change."

"You are too pessimistic." Li Shufan sighed softly: "There are also gay couples who stay together well. Although there are very few, there are indeed some. Through my own efforts, I will get the understanding and support of my relatives and friends around me. "

"All I know is that even if Xie Huan's parents die, they won't let him have sex with a man." Han Xiaodong's eyes are full of despair: "My parents won't agree either, maybe they will treat me as a psychopath , sent me to the hospital for treatment. But... if homosexuality is really a disease that can be treated, I will definitely accept treatment."

"I never think that homosexuality is a mental illness, just like some people like to eat cabbage, some people like to eat carrots, everyone has potential homosexual tendencies, although we can't change the world, but we can change our own Live, with everyone in your life."

"Brother Li, when you announced your coming out and were kicked out by your family, did you regret it?"

"Well, to be honest, I regretted it." Li Shufan took a deep breath, and it took too much courage to recall the past: "Especially... when you gave everything for him, but found that that person had already betrayed you. I just thought, ah, Li Shufan, what have you done? For this kind of man, you lost your relatives, friends, and career in your life. You have nothing, why don’t you just die? "

"Xiaodong, everyone has a fatal hurdle in their life. If you step over it, you will be reborn. If you can't get over it, even you can only become the past."

"I will choose to break up with Xie Huan."

"Don't you want to fight for something? Just give up like this, will you regret it?"

"I can't imagine that when we held hands and announced that we were going to be together in front of our parents and relatives, it would probably drive my parents crazy. Xie Huan's mother already knew about it. She told me that one should not be so selfish and only care about My own feelings. Maybe it will hurt and feel uncomfortable, but this is only temporary. It will be better in a year or two, and the pain will not be the same again. A person as active as Xie Huan will find it soon The next relationship will definitely be a beautiful girl who is enough to match him, get married and have children, and live this life in a normal way."

"Then what should you do?" Li Shufan shook his hand distressedly: "Xiaodong, you should tell Xie Huan all this. If you bear it alone, you will be very tired and the pressure will be much greater than you imagined."

Li Shufan is someone who has been there, and when he thinks about that period of the past, he is still terrified, unable to recall how he got here.

"I thought about telling Xie Huan all this, but if Xie Huan found out, he would have a falling out with his mother, then his father, and then the family war, which would make everything even more out of hand. It made him feel I don’t love him anymore, it’s indeed the best way, whether you hate me or blame me, when a relationship ends, a new relationship will sprout and grow.”

Li Shufan suddenly discovered that Han Xiaodong, who seemed weak, was admirably strong. Even at this moment, he could analyze rationally and make the most correct judgment.No crying or fussing, his calmness was scary.

"Xiaodong..." Li Shufan quietly wiped away the tears in his eyes: "In the future, if you feel uncomfortable or encounter any difficulties, you can come to me. I will help you."

"Ah."

Li Shufan packed up the cups, and when he came out, Han Xiaodong had already disappeared, looking at the bewildered and deep night, he didn't know where he had gone.

In the days that followed, Han Xiaodong often didn't see anyone, and even when he came to school, he didn't talk to his classmates, and sneaked out of the campus as soon as school was over.

"Han Xiaodong, if you continue like this, you won't have a chance even if you take one exam, let alone one!" At this time, the old class was teaching Han Xiaodong in the office.Han Xiaodong listened silently, expressionless.

"You used to be a very obedient and well-behaved student, but recently I don't know what you're doing! The teacher said that you skipped class, what did you do?" Seeing that he didn't speak, the old class frowned and continued: " Look at Xie Huan, what was he like when he first came here? He can still learn well, and his grades are top-notch. Others have money and power in their families, can you compare with others? He can play well even if he doesn’t study Let’s start, what are you playing with? What qualifications do you have not to work hard or fight for it? Call your parents to come to school tomorrow! Write me a letter of guarantee, if you don’t do it, well, I don’t care about you. After five months, you guys, I can explain it too."

Han Xiaodong walked into the classroom and started packing up the textbooks. Xie Huan gave the notes to Tusiduo in the corridor and then turned and walked into the classroom. He walked up to Han Xiaodong directly and grabbed the textbooks he packed: "Han Xiaodong, If you skip class again, I'll tell your parents, I'll see how long you're going to mess around!!"

"Don't worry about my affairs, take care of yourself." As if thinking of something, Han Xiaodong took the phone out of his bag and returned it to Xie Huan: "I'll return the phone to you, should I keep it as a spare or throw it away?" , you can figure it out yourself."

"Han Xiaodong!!"

Xie Huan's roar stunned all the students in the classroom to stay there. Only Han Xiaodong didn't seem to hear anything. He packed his things. Before leaving, he pushed Xie Huan away: "Don't worry about me anymore. things."

Xie Huan wanted to catch up, but the teacher walked over from outside with a serious face: "Don't you know that class is over? Sit down quickly! What's the fuss?! Do you know that the college entrance examination is approaching? There is no sense of crisis! Tonight I will give You make up for an hour, whoever skips class for me, I will screw whose head tomorrow, class representative, and send out this test paper. What about Han Xiaodong? Han Xiaodong skipped class again, right?! I have taught for so many years, dare He is the only one who taught me the white paper!"

If this path doesn't work, there are other paths to take, so why do you have to choose to fall?Han Xiaodong walked across the overpass with his bag on his back, thinking of Xie Huan's words in his mind, and sighed softly.Is he depraved?It should...not count, but that road is impassable, he wants to try another one, maybe he can see a more beautiful scenery.He could no longer stay in a place with Xie Huan, because that would make him unable to do anything calmly and rationally.Run away, run away from him, and never see him again, so that we can leave more space for each other to meet different people or things.

"Sir, the wine you want. Please use it slowly!" After delivering all the drinks ordered by the guests, Han Xiaodong walked to the bar to take a breath, and the guy at the bar, Sun Zhixiang, smiled at him and asked, "How are you? Are you tired? Take your time, anyway, there are two waiters here, if you can't handle it, you can call them."

The two waiters that brother Zhixiang mentioned had gone somewhere long ago. Han Xiaodong left Li Shufan's shop that day, took out all the money he had, and ordered a glass of wine here. Sun Zhixiang was still cleaning up, and the two chatted a lot without knowing it.It turned out that this store was opened by Sun Zhixiang. He said that he failed the college entrance examination that year and came to this city by himself to work hard. After saving money for several years, he took some money from his family to set up this small bar. The two waiters were also friends he hung out with in high school.Although working for him in the bar is still a mess.

"Are you all about to take the college entrance examination?" Sun Zhixiang asked him concerned.Han Xiaodong smiled, it is a kind of luck when you meet kind-hearted people who treat you well in your life.

"Well, it's almost time."

"Why don't you study hard and come to work with me? Wouldn't this delay your study? Let me tell you, brother, it's better to study! You can make a lot of money after reading the book. Like us... oh, a lifetime Just do a small business, trapped in this small city, want a diploma but no diploma, want influence but no influence, life is like a pool of stagnant water, there is no room for sublimation.”

Han Xiaodong put the wine he prepared on the tray and said, "Actually, I think your life is pretty good now. At least you have your own small shop, you can support yourself, and don't worry about making a living."

"Thank you for your comfort."

"It's not consolation." Han Xiaodong said seriously, and left the bar with the wine.

Without his mobile phone, Xie Huan couldn't find Han Xiaodong, he was like a lost puppet, his life seemed to have lost his focus, and everything he did was meaningless.His shadow was always in his sleep, he felt that he might go crazy because of Han Xiaodong.

"Excuse me, has Han Xiaodong returned to the dormitory?" From the day Han Xiaodong left school, he would come to the dormitory every day to ask, just like a routine.

Lin Lan shook her head with a heavy face, and pulled Xie Huan out of the corridor: "I don't know why Xiaodong suddenly became like this. If he doesn't come to class again, the teacher may really ignore him."

"I can't get in touch with him right now, and it's useless to find his family." Xie Huan pushed back the hair on his forehead in frustration, and said to Lin Lan: "If he returns to the dormitory, please be the first tell me."