He always wants to kill this scum

The snow was so slippery that Xie Huan had to spend a lot of energy to climb up from the bottom of the bridge. By the way, he also pulled up the dog that jumped down desperately for the savior.Looking at the vast expanse of whiteness, Xie Huan sighed. The snow was too deep, covering the road and the bridge, and the country road was narrow. If he searched like this, Han Xiaodong couldn't find it. .He took out his mobile phone and tried to call Han Xiaodong again.

Unexpectedly, it was connected this time. Xie Huan was very excited, and half of his heart was relieved: "Han Xiaodong, where are you? Your mother is going crazy at home, what the hell are you thinking about all day long?" What?!"

Xie Huan got up from the snow and listened nervously to the voice on the other end of the phone, "Hello? Han Xiaodong, talk to me!! Where are you, Han Xiaodong? I'll come to find you! Don't do anything stupid, you have a Three ups and two downs, what should your parents do? What should I do? Han Xiaodong, are you listening? You fucking snort twice! If you fail the exam, it’s a fart! Just take the exam again, is the exam more important than your mother? Lying down, exam Is it more important than your life? Is the exam more important than mine? You fucking talk!!"

"Xie Huan...I'm listening. When you growl, it's so exciting. Heh——"

"Is there someone as cheap as you? I don't just want to shout, I want to beat you! Tell me where are you?"

"By the reservoir in Xiling." Han Xiaodong's voice sounded calm, not too negative.

"What the hell are you doing there?" Xie Huan's heart choked. Could it be that he couldn't think about jumping into the reservoir? !

"I wanted to die at first...but I thought I must see you for the last time."

"You die! I'll make you regret it so much that you have to climb out of the grave. Wait for me, I'll be here soon." Xie Huan patted Chang Le's head: "Chang Le, let's go!"

A man and a dog ran wildly in the snow, heading towards the Xishan Reservoir in the village, until he saw Han Xiaodong sitting by the reservoir tearing up something in his hands. Good notes and books.

"Han Xiaodong!"

Hearing his call, Han Xiaodong turned his head slowly, and smiled at him, but that smile made Xie Huan so bitter that his eyes turned slightly red.

"Han Xiaodong, come here. It's dangerous there!"

"Xie Huan... I'm not worthy of your coming to me." Han Xiaodong took his eyes away from him, took the books in the cardboard box and continued to tear them. The torn pages were blown up by the cold wind and scattered all over the sky.

"Don't tear it up! Han Xiaodong, I know you are under a lot of pressure, and I know what grades mean to you, but you can't give up everything just because you failed a test. Don't you think this is too stupid?"

"Xie Huan, you're not me, you don't understand." Han Xiaodong hugged the box and threw it all into the reservoir mercilessly. gave him a slap in the face.

"You let me down so much! Do you know what those represent?!" Xie Huan yelled, pointing at the textbook floating on the water, his eyes a little red: "I don't understand? Do you think I really don't understand what you are doing?" What are you thinking? From the very beginning, you are mentally unbalanced. I have said it countless times, and you are not happy. Tell me! What do you want me to do? Or do you really want me to disappear in front of your eyes forever? Meet?!"

"Han Xiaodong, you are a fucking coward!! Let me tell you, I will not give up something that I should not give up for you, maybe half a year ago, I would tell you, I will do everything for you, Go and give up everything. We are no longer what we were then. If you are really unwilling and unconvinced, you can cheer up and fight to the end with me! You will finally beat back to your original shape, and I will tell you with a fucking smile, Han Xiaodong I just like you for being kind!"

"This kind of thing is your Xie Huan's patent. Can you leave me alone? I don't want...to be persuaded by you in such a preaching tone. I'm super upset."

"You are upset, so come and teach me? Didn't you like to teach me before? You said that I was a rich second-generation airs, that I was ignorant and prodigal, and that Jingui was squeamish. I am also super upset! But every time you say that to me , I kept it in my heart. At first I tried my best to change for you. In the process of changing, I experienced many things that I could not understand before. It is you who made me grow up, and it is you who made me stronger to face For everything. But just three hours ago, when I saw my name on No.1, I told myself, Xie Huan, you don't live for others, you live for yourself Yes. My constant efforts and struggles have nothing to do with others, just for myself.”

"Han Xiaodong, do you understand what I'm talking about? It's like you recover, you study hard, your current depravity has nothing to do with others, it's your own business! Stop making all kinds of excuses for your incompetence Excuses and running away won't solve anything, you will only sink yourself into a deeper swamp, in that rotten hell, the more you struggle, the more you sink."

Han Xiaodong stared at him blankly, opened his mouth, and said in a hoarse voice, "Xie Huan, let's...break up."

"Why? For what stupid reason are you worth breaking up with me?! Because you failed the exam? Because your ridiculous self-esteem was hurt? Say, why?"

Han Xiaodong took a deep breath, trembling all over his body: "You are right, I like you, I like you very much... But when you are with you, you can't understand my feelings! In fact, I have been You have low self-esteem in front of you. I hid this low self-esteem deeply. In order to get closer to you, I obliterated my own... Yes, what you said is a ridiculous respect. You say I hate the rich, you say I can’t see it Accustomed to your rich second-generation temper, I use everything I can to hit you, hit you, just...just because I am jealous of you! Hahahaha...hahahaha...I am jealous of you!!"

"Xie Huan, it's not that I don't love you. The gap between me and you is too far. Unfortunately, I'm not a girl. I can't be like a woman. I put my self-esteem under your body, you don't know How terrible and frustrating that feeling is.” Han Xiaodong choked with sobs: “I wrote down the things you gave me one by one in a small notebook, I know you don’t need me to pay you back, but I hope one day I can pay you back. Give it to you, double it back to you. You said I have no seed, but I have backbone. I actually wanted to break up with you more than a month ago. I’m sorry, but I can’t love you purely. We live Being so close, at the same age, and having known each other for so many years, people always make comparisons, to be honest, I hate this kind of time, especially when people compare you with you and are belittled as worthless."

Xie Huan smiled, and tears rolled down his cheeks: "Yes! Why not? Especially my mother and my father, who always compare you to me. I remember my father said, you are a human being, and Xiaodong is also a human being. You Why are you so much worse than others. Han Xiaodong, I understand! We are all men, and I have never treated you like a girl. Even if others don’t compare us, we will actually compare ourselves with others in our hearts Make a comparison, because we are human! Humans have temper and self-esteem, which is completely understandable. When you get good grades, in fact... I was also jealous of how you could get such good grades in the exam. Especially when you were scolded by your parents , I work hard to study and improve because of self-esteem, I don't admit defeat, and I don't want to be underestimated by you."

Xie Huan slowly approached him and hugged him tightly: "Han Xiaodong, there are many roads you can choose to walk, why do you have to choose to give up and degenerate? By doing this, you hurt yourself and me, and you What have you got? You can't get anything except destroying yourself. Don't talk about breaking up, I love you so much, and I have already integrated you into my life."

"Xie Huan... Xie Huan, I really don't know what to do!"

"No matter what, we agreed that we will never break up. In the future, we will fight together. What's the point without you? Go home, your mother is waiting for you at home, she regrets beating you, don't you Blame her. She's worried to death at home."

Xie Huan took Han Xiaodong's hand and slowly walked home the way he came. Changle followed them quietly, and plum blossoms were printed behind their footprints.

After sending Han Xiaodong home, their shoes were soaked in snow.Mother Han quickly set up a pot of charcoal fire for them to roast.Seeing that her son came back safely, she silently shed tears while adding firewood: "Xiaodong, don't blame mom, mom beat you at that time too, you are the hope of the family, you said you stopped reading , I feel like I’m being pressed against a big rock. Your father’s hard work is all for you to have a good future. As long as you are doing well, you can have a promising future, no matter how hard or tired your parents are, they will be willing.”

"Mom, I know, I didn't blame you. It was my fault, which caused you to worry." Han Xiaodong lowered his head and raised his hand to wipe away his tears. Xie Huan quickly handed him a tissue.

"Auntie, Xiaodong is fine, you go to work, I will watch him." Xie Huan smiled and comforted, Mother Han looked at Xie Huan gratefully, handed Han Xiaodong to him with confidence, and went to work in the factory up.

The charcoal fire was burning, and Han Xiaodong huddled on the chair with bare feet and did not speak. Xie Huan suddenly patted him on the shoulder: "Xiaodong, look! Changle came out with the puppy."

Han Xiaodong slowly raised his head from his knees, and saw five chubby puppies coming out with their mother crooked, Changle sat down in front of the brazier, and the puppies wagged their tails vigorously around their mother. Xie Huan bent down, grabbed two and held them in his arms: "It's too cute?! Hey, I'll give you one."

Saying that Xie Huan gave a black puppy to Han Xiaodong, Han Xiaodong's face gradually brought a smile, and he stretched out his hand to caress the puppy's head.Xie Huan stretched out his hand and pressed his head on his shoulder: "You can rely on my shoulders. Do you still remember that incident half a year ago? The incident that Lu Zerui forced him to leave Qinghuang. When I was about to despair, You asked for leave and came back to comfort me. If it wasn’t for you, I would fucking want to die too. What a fool! Hehe... Would you like to write a book "The Stupid Things We Did in Those Years"? When we get old, we can slowly recollect it. "