I was as innocent as you

When Zhai Yanghao was chatting with the master, he couldn't do without Qu Shen in three sentences. In the end, he couldn't control his mouth, and he also said about taking Qu Shen to see a psychiatrist.

"Why does Qu Shen still want to see a psychiatrist?" The master looked surprised.

"I'm just afraid that he will be depressed. Don't say anything, just put it in your heart."

"But he can let it go in his heart." The master has a clear mind and a different way of thinking. "Those who can't let go go to a psychiatrist. I say you, you are still the person next to your pillow. He has to be calm in his heart." You have to save so many things to be the person you are now—you don’t even understand this?”

Zhai Yanghao was tongue-tied for a long time, but in the end he could only admit: "I don't understand."

"Don't be stupid," the master smiled happily. "As long as he is still painting, he is balanced. If he really lived like a colander, he wouldn't be such a painter."

Zhai Yanghao was silent for a while, and finally slowly understood what the master meant.Perhaps the master understands Qu Shen better than him, and also knows how to appreciate Qu Shen better.But the problem is that Zhai Yanghao feels that the master's appreciation of Qu Shen is also abnormal, which makes Zhai Yanghao 1 unhappy.

"I just want him to live a normal life." Zhai Yanghao said with some anger.

Things don't always go as expected, and Qu Shen's life deviates more and more from Zhai Yanghao's expectations.He doesn't accept those normal ways, and still gets along with himself silently.He didn't change because of fear, but he became more and more at ease with being a strange person, he didn't like to talk, he didn't like to socialize, he became more and more withdrawn, and he was more and more likely to be pointed out by others, as if he had made up his mind to give up Everything else in life is just to paint pictures that not everyone can relate to.

Zhai Yanghao had to admit that the distance between him and Qu Shen was getting farther and farther, but to his comfort, a group of people who could truly be called friends began to gather around Qu Shen.Some are his fans, fans like Slowly; some are his creative partners, like the senior who lent him a venue to hold an art exhibition, as well as the master and some musicians in his team; some people are pure I like Qu Shen himself, like Qiu Tiantian.

Qiu Tiantian, who was still rough in his heart at first, heard that Qu Shen was a bit depressed, and immediately exploded with maternal instinct, regardless of whether Qu Shen liked it or not, he chased after Qu Shen for many days, taking him with him like a younger brother, eating, drinking, and having fun Le, and he doesn't care that Qu Shen puts her aside when he is in a bad mood.It was also Qiu Tiantian who somehow remembered it and introduced a group of aunts who believed in Buddhism to Qu Shen.These aunts were even more enthusiastic, and sent many Buddhist classics to Qu Shen, took Qu Shen to participate in religious ceremonies, and took him to many famous Buddhist holy places in China.

Qu Shen has never really believed in Buddhism, but he likes reading Buddhist classics, and occasionally listens to the persuasion of the aunts to try to meditate and listen to scriptures.

Zhai Yanghao himself doesn't approve of him getting in touch with these things, but Qu Shen can't be safer with these aunts. He can go out with them to breathe fresh air, travel around, and his spirit is much better.Zhai Yanghao didn't care anymore.

Fortunately, Qu Shen didn't really pray to gods and Buddhas, but he probably only wanted peace.

Gradually, he became really interested in Buddhist culture, and was fascinated by Buddhist sculptures and murals.

Zhai Yanghao also accompanied him to several places such as Mount Putuo, Kumbum Monastery and Dunhuang.It is said that it is a Buddhist holy place, but it is also a place full of tourists, and it is also full of fireworks.Qu Shen sometimes gets annoyed when he sees too many people, but if he encounters a beautiful scenery, an inscription with elegant calligraphy, or a painting that attracts him enough, he can look at it for a long time without being disturbed.

Zhai Yanghao couldn't love his peaceful look and focused expression.

Qu Shen looked at it for himself, and Zhai Yanghao followed behind to take pictures.

Although neither of them is a devout Buddhist, the aunts taught them well, and wherever Qu Shen went, he would worship carefully according to the rules.The same goes for Zhai Yanghao, no matter what gods and Buddhas it is, he is willing to ask for it, hoping that there will be some hidden power to protect Qu Shen and let him live in peace, happiness, and happiness. Live all the time of your life.

After praying to the Buddha several times, Zhai Yanghao was a little more enthusiastic than Qu Shen. When he met those who said offerings could bring good luck, he was very willing to pay, and sometimes Qu Shen had to stop him.

Apart from buying books and offering incense, Qu Shen rarely asks for Buddhist beads.He also likes butter lamps very much. One time when he participated in a religious ceremony at night, many butter lamps were lit in the Buddhist hall, and Qu Shen was as happy as a child.

The butter lamp seller saw him running over to light it again and again, and also recited the blessing of offering lamps respectfully to him over and over again.

There is a sentence in it, "Lighting up the world like a lamp", Qu Shen was very concerned about it, as if he had listened to it.

Zhai Yanghao, who had money but no place to spend it, finally found his way and bought several boxes of butter lamps.

Qu Shen didn't say anything, just lit a butter lamp at night, and turned off the light to sleep.

Such a small butter lamp, put aside, a very weak beam of light.

Zhai Yanghao felt that he had finally done the right thing.

Every night after lighting the lamp, lying beside Qu Shen, and holding his hand, that kind of happiness can only be felt.

The two of them have been running around a lot with the aunts, and they gradually began to like places with a wide view.

Qu Shen has drawn a lot of sky, and Qinghai and Gansu are his favorites. Even at night, he would dream of Gesang flowers under the blue sky, as well as long stone walls and yellow sand.

He also began to like the state of traveling, simply carrying a bag to run around, and no longer paying attention to the image, and gradually the wardrobe was filled with solid-color loose clothes.He looks much freer.Standing under the blue sky, by the lake, on the grassland, when the wind blows, he will dance with his hands and feet.He laughs especially often.

Once when they went to Dunhuang, they rented a car locally. At night, they were still near Mingsha Mountain, with the car lights turned off, and a brilliant starry sky above their heads.

The aunts are chatting nearby.

Qu Shen lay on the ground, looked up and remained silent.He remembered the starry sky that the master made for him at the concert. At that time, he was already shocked, but under the magnificence of nature, he couldn't even utter a word, and he felt a strong feeling in his heart. .

Zhai Yanghao was by his side, he just saw him lying there alone, he was so moved that he was so cute and funny, he couldn't help but leaned over and kissed him on the forehead.

Qu Shen was a little embarrassed, and pushed him twice to prevent him from getting closer, saying, "Don't hinder me from receiving the power of nature."

"All my strength is for you."

Zhai Yanghao didn't blush at all when he said love words in front of the aunts.

The aunts were all avant-garde, clapping their hands and applauding. Qu Shen became a little annoyed, pushed him away, and ran for a long distance by himself. Zhai Yanghao watched him kick deep and shallow in the sand, but couldn't stop. Laughing.

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I can associate all of Brother Hao's literature and art in the direction of filth...cover my face...