goodbye midsummer

Shen Yi.

Shen Yi, is there such a parallel world, where you are not my brother and I am not your brother, we are two strangers who have nothing to do with each other, living in different corners of the earth.

If there is such a world, can I love you?

Can I love you openly and without fear?

Qin Yang woke up from the dream, and instantly felt the tingling pain from the palm of his left hand.

As if being bitten by thousands of ants at the same time, all the nerves were pulled at the same time in an instant.The pain was so painful that tears welled up involuntarily.

He hugged the quilt tightly and gritted his teeth. After a few seconds, the overwhelming pain gradually subsided.

He sighed like the rest of his life, stretched out his left hand tremblingly, and looked at the swollen palm.

After the fall before, Shen Yijian helped him treat the wound.The scabs had fallen off the slight scratches around the wrist, but the wound on the palm might be deeper than he thought, and it hadn't healed yet.

It's been getting more and more painful lately.

"Let's go to the hospital to have a look." Looking at the red and swollen palm, he couldn't help feeling a little worried.

This weekend, no class.He got up and took a brief wash, only to find that Shen Yi was not at home when he passed the next room.The house was empty, and he was alone.

He sighed.

It doesn't matter if you're not here, anyway, I don't know what to say when we meet.

Last night, they had a fight.

It was ten o'clock last night when they came home from the bistro and their walk.Qin Yang took a shower first, and when he came out of the bathroom 15 minutes later, he saw Shen Yi chatting with someone by the phone in the living room.

The mood is a little low, and the voice is obviously suppressed.Just looking at his back, you can feel that something is wrong with him.

So Qin Yang didn't go back to the room immediately, but stood in the living room for a while.When he finally hung up the phone, he asked, "Who's calling?"

Shen Yi turned around and glanced at him as if he had exhausted his energy, and said lightly: "It's okay. Go to sleep."

Looking at his face, he didn't seem to be all right, how could Qin Yang obediently go back to the room, he stared at Shen Yi with a rare tough attitude: "What's the matter?"

"It's really okay."

Talking like a sigh, obviously there is something to do, but still holding on.

"Is it my mother calling?" He guessed, "What are you talking about?"

Shen Yi smiled wryly and scratched his head: "It's not Aunt Xue. It has nothing to do with you, don't guess."

Qin Yang was still stuck in the living room, not moving a step.

Seeing the child's stubbornness, Shen Yi finally sighed, and gave way: "It's my mother calling. She heard that my father has gone to the United States, so she called to ask me about my situation."

This was beyond Qin Yang's expectations.After all, living here for more than three years, Qin Yang has never seen her call, and Shen Yi mentioned her very rarely.

About Shen's mother, all he knows is some pitiful information: for example, she couldn't stand Uncle Shen's workaholic personality and proposed divorce, and for example, she remarried four years ago, and the partner was an honest and family-friendly man. civil servants.

Also, Shen Yi started smoking because she remarried.

Shen Yi seldom mentioned this mother, but Qin Yang felt that she was not a bad mother, but she was not a good mother either—especially after she remarried, she had very little contact with Shen Yi.

So it makes sense for Qin Yang to be surprised: "What is she calling for?"

With a wry smile, Shen Yi said slowly: "Just asked me about my situation. Then, her son's third birthday is tomorrow, and asked me if I would like to attend his birthday party."

It may also be that she wants to use this to repair the mother-child relationship with Shen Yi, but in this way, it is still too cruel.

Looking at the dim light in Shen Yi's eyes, Qin Yang couldn't help asking: "Then are you going?"

He forced a smile: "Go, tomorrow weekend, there is no reason not to go. Besides, he is also my brother. Go and have a look."

The more he laughed, the more angry Qin Yang felt: "Don't go!"

Shen Yi was surprised that Qin Yang, who was usually expressionless, would have such a reaction: "Qin Yang, what's wrong with you?"

"Don't go," he repeated.

Shen Yi shrugged helplessly, still smiling: "I have already agreed."

"Do you really want to go?" Qin Yang's eyes became sharp, "If you don't want to go, don't go, don't force yourself to be a good old man."

"I don't want to be a good old man, after all, it's my mother—"

"She didn't consider your feelings at all. You don't have to consider her feelings at this time!" Qin Yang suddenly became excited.

He remembered that winter two years ago, Shen Yi sat alone on the swing in the park, holding his knees and looking up at the snowflakes falling.

so alone.Alone to the point of heartache.

After hearing the news of her remarriage, she learned to smoke her first cigarette.He has been waiting for someone to notice him, and two years have passed, but no one has discovered that he has learned to smoke.

—I actually don’t like smoking.But no one ever found out.

Qin Yang still remembers the shock when he first heard this sentence two years ago.

Therefore, Qin Yang felt resentment towards Shen's mother in his heart.He resented that she could give up her son so easily and bring him into this world, but she abandoned him so easily and let him spend such a long time alone.

However, Shen Yi didn't know the complex and tangled emotions in Qin Yang's heart, so he frowned slightly at him: "Qin Yang, this is none of your business, just leave it alone."

Seeing Shen Yi's calm face, Qin Yang became even angrier: "You always don't take your own affairs at ease like this! You care about her feelings, but she doesn't necessarily care about you! Abandoning you for so many years Not even a single phone call, and now she suddenly says she wants to see you, and what kind of birthday party is she going to! Even though she left her son behind for so many years, she still has the cheek to contact her, I really want to know what she is thinking!"

"Qin Yang, have you said enough!" Shen Yi clenched his fists tightly, trying to restrain his anger, "I said it's none of your business! Don't worry about it!"

"Is it because you are too careless about your own affairs that I am so angry? You always cater to others and ignore your own feelings. Do you just like being a good person so much!"

Shen Yi gave Qin Yang a deadly look, then turned back to the room without saying a word.

With a bang, the door slammed shut.

Qin Yang stood alone in the living room, he hadn't recovered from the quarrel just now, but he had already started to regret it.

He knew that Shen Yi was really angry.

"Oh, your hands are so inflamed, why are you here now?"

In the clinic, the bald doctor held his hand, stared at the wound on the palm for a while, and shook his head: "Your injury, if it drags on, you may have to amputate. Crack your wrist, the whole Saw it off."

Seeing that Qin Yang didn't say a word, the doctor thought he was frightened, and laughed again: "Young man, don't be nervous, I lied to you just now. Your injury is not so serious. Let the nurse clean it up for you later. Take out the inflammation, take some plaster and apply it, keep it for seven days and it will be all healed."

After finishing speaking, he called the nurse in, carefully sterilized his wound, applied medicine, and sent him away after a few words of advice.

Qin Yang came out of the clinic and stood under the sun with a small bag of medicine, feeling that the sun was very glaring.

The redness and swelling of the wound on the left palm subsided, and a thin layer of medicine was applied, which felt cool and comfortable.He stared at his palms for a while, then slowly walked back.

Halfway there, someone suddenly shouted at him from across the road:

"Qin Yang, where did you die!"

He raised his head, and Wen Yu was just across the road, wearing a loose T-shirt, holding a basketball and waving to him exaggeratedly.Just as there was no car on the road, she trotted to Qin Yang.

"I called you hundreds of times to ask you to play golf, why didn't you answer any of them?"

"Phone?" Qin Yang reached into his pocket belatedly, only to realize that he didn't bring his mobile phone when he went out, "I forgot to bring it."

Wen Yu rolled his eyes at him, then raised the basketball in his hand: "Fortunately, we met on the road. How about it, do you want to play together?"

He stretched out his bandaged left palm and shook his head: "It's not convenient."

She sighed and withered: "What a disappointment."

Qin Yang continued to walk slowly and nonchalantly: "You can find Dazhi, he must be free, and his limbs are sound."

"Dazhi..." Wen Yu followed behind him, with an awkward tone for some reason.

"You think he's bad at the game?" Qin Yang glanced at her.On weekdays, Wen Yu also plays well with his classmate Dazhi, and they often play together.

"It's not...it's just..." She scratched her hair with a troubled expression on her face, "A few days ago...he confessed to me..."

Qin Yang was quite surprised when he heard the news, but usually he didn't see that Dazhi was interested in Wen Yu.

"and then?"

"I refused on the spot... so it's very embarrassing to see him now..." It's a rare time when Wen Yu, a female man, would be so entangled, she sighed, "Oh, why do you say he is. Everyone It’s good to play together and be good brothers, but why do you want to confess, it’s so embarrassing now that you can’t even be friends.”

Walking in the shade of trees along the road, the breeze blows from the front.Qin Yang said lightly: "Liking is not something that can be controlled."

"But we are really embarrassed now, and we have to take a detour when we meet in school." Wen Yu seemed quite distressed, and his short hair was scratched out of shape.

"Can't we just pretend it never happened and continue to be good friends?" he asked.

"Can you replace me?"

He thought about it, and finally sighed: "Yes."

After finally mustering up the courage to confess, if the other party acted as if nothing had happened, I would feel even more sad.

He admires Dazhi.

After all, I don't have that kind of courage.

Shen Yi returned home and found no one at home.

He put the specially bought breakfast on the dining table, and pushed Qin Yang's bedroom away, only to see that there was no one there, and everything was neatly stacked, clean and tidy.

Originally, I thought about having breakfast together today.

I also spent half an hour going to a famous breakfast shop in the south of the city to buy Cantonese-style rice rolls and boat porridge as an apology for last night.

——Last night, almost the second he closed the door, he felt regretful.

He knew that what Qin Yang said was for his own benefit, and he didn't want him to be wronged.However, he was also in a daze at the time, so he recklessly argued with Qin Yang.

Originally, he wanted to have a smile with him today, have breakfast, and get over the quarrel last night.

Unexpectedly, no one was at home.

He bravely took out his mobile phone and tried to dial Qin Yang's number, and a ring came from the pillow on the bed.

He flipped through and found Qin Yang's cell phone under the pillow.

It's true that a person who is usually so reliable can forget to bring his mobile phone at such a critical time.

He sighed and hung up the phone, Qin Yang's phone screen displayed "5 missed calls".He was curious to click in to see who called him so early in the morning, when a lock screen popped up on the screen, requiring a four-digit password to unlock it.

Although he knew it was not good to do so, he suddenly had the urge to take a peek.

"It should be the birthday." Following the conventional thinking, he entered Qin Yang's birthday: 1106.

wrong.

Could it be Aunt Xue's birthday?

He thought hard, and then entered Aunt Xue's birthday.

The result is still wrong.

Of course, Shen Yi didn't know the birthday of Qin Yang's biological father, so there was no way to find out.

"Could it be my dad's birthday?" He smiled wryly, but still tried.Sure enough, it was still wrong.

In the mood of playing a puzzle game, he tried to input all the numbers he could think of: Qin Yang's lucky number, the birthday of his favorite female celebrity——hey, who is his favorite female celebrity? ...

Just tried a series of random numbers like this, the phone is still locked.

He stared at the four spaces, sighed deeply, and decided to try one last time.Although the chances of success are slim.

He entered his birthday: 0415.

The lock is open.

Looking at the successfully unlocked phone screen, Shen Yi's heart suddenly trembled.