goodbye midsummer

There is a delicious small restaurant on Chengnan Road, which is near Shen Yi's university.Because it is delicious, hygienic and cheap, it is very popular among students.

Shen Yi also couldn't think of where he could take Qin Yang to eat, so he simply took him to that small restaurant.Because it was past dinner time, there were not many people in the restaurant when they arrived.

The fan on the top was rattling, and students in twos and threes in the corner of the restaurant chatted while eating.The two of them found a seat and just sat down when they heard a shout from outside: "Hey, Shen Yi! What a coincidence!" Xu Hao and Ye Zi just walked in, and their eyes lit up when they saw them.

Shen Yi also felt that it was a coincidence, so he quickly moved two seats for them, and sat next to Qin Yang himself: "You haven't eaten yet?"

"Yeah, this person is so stupid in the library, he doesn't even know when it's past meal time." Xu Hao pointed to Ye Zi, "If I didn't call, I don't know how long she will stay."

Ye Zi smiled at Shen Yi: "I was writing a thesis, and I was so busy looking up information that I forgot the time. Hey, my brother is here today."

Qin Yang nodded to them both and smiled politely.

Shen Yi took his shoulders and smiled proudly at Xu Hao: "This kid, today's school sports meeting, 100 meters, champion."

"Wow, that's amazing." Ye Zi admired sincerely, but Xu Hao reached out and poked Shen Yi's shoulder: "Cut, why are you so proud? You didn't run away."

Shen Yi snorted: "This is my brother, so what if I get complacent. You are envious and jealous."

"Yes, yes, I am so jealous that I don't have a younger brother." Xu Hao smiled sarcastically, "I dare you to skip class all day today, just to participate in the school sports meeting? It happened to be Professor Zheng's." Class, you really dare."

Qin Yang, who had been silent all this time, looked at Shen Yi in surprise when he heard that he was skipping class.

Sensing Qin Yang's gaze, Shen Yi smiled lightly at him: "It's okay, it's normal to skip classes in college. Today's classes are not important, they are public compulsory courses that you can take or not. "

But after one end finished speaking, the other end lowered his voice and asked Xu Hao: "Professor Zheng didn't call the roll?"

"Lucky for you, there is no roll call today."

After hearing this, he breathed a sigh of relief: "That's good, that's good."

Qin Yang still didn't speak, drinking tea silently.Take that person's reaction into your eyes.

Looking so nervous, it seems that it is not a public compulsory course that can be taken or not.

I ordered a few home-cooked dishes casually, and they were quickly on the table.Everyone drank tea, chatted and ate while taking their time.During the banquet, Shen Yi and Xu Hao were mainly chatting, and Ye Zi occasionally interrupted, Qin Yang was almost silent the whole time, just bowed his head to eat.

After eating, the topic turned to the topic of health for some reason.

Ye Zi said that a cousin of his family was recently diagnosed with advanced lung cancer due to long-term smoking, and the family felt very sorry.Xu Hao made a joke on the side: "But some girls just like men to smoke, and they think that posture is very MAN."

Ye Zi gave him a blank look: "You pick one up and show me it, see if I don't tell Auntie to let her break your dog legs!"

"I just said it, and I didn't say I want to smoke. Besides, I don't know how to." Seeing Ye Zi's serious expression, Xu Hao hurriedly asked Shen Yi for help, "Shen Yi, testify to me that I have never smoked a cigarette. Smoke, you know that, right?"

Shen Yi smiled gently: "It's true that I haven't seen you smoke."

"Look, a good boy like Shen Yi has testified for me, you have to believe me."

Seeing Xu Hao's anxiety, Ye Zi burst out laughing: "That's all I said, I must know whether you smoke or not. Why are you in such a hurry."

"That's right, that's right." Xu Hao laughed.

Amidst the laughter, Qin Yang and Shen Yi's gazes collided for only a few seconds, and then they separated, each looking forward.

That tacit secret, for so many years, no one mentioned it again.

The first time Qin Yang saw Shen Yi smoking was in the winter of the third year of junior high school.

He studied at school until very late that day, and when he went back, it suddenly snowed in the sky, and soft, cotton-like snowflakes fell on his shoulders. The snow wasn't falling heavily, and he didn't bother to brush it off.

As he walked to the park near his home, he caught a glimpse of a flickering fire on the swing set for the children.

I didn't pay attention at first, but after I glanced over again, I realized that the figure sitting on the swing was very familiar.

Shen Yi was wearing a dark coat that day, with a light gray scarf loosely wrapped around his neck.Under the dim streetlights, the squeaky swing was swinging, with two long legs resting on the ground, looking up at the snowflakes falling from the sky.

In his hand, a half-burned cigarette was caught between his fingers.

Tired of tilting his head back, he slowly lowered his head again, put out half of the cigarette in the snow, then hugged his knees, just looking at the white snow on the ground in a daze.

Snowflakes fell on him, on his head.He seemed to be unaware, staring blankly ahead.

At that time, Qin Yang seemed to have lost his mind suddenly, standing so firmly on the road beside the park, looking at Shen Yi's lonely side face under the dim light.

An inexplicable distress welled up in my heart.

For no reason, I wanted to go forward and hug that person.

In the end, Shen Yi noticed his existence, looked at him with a little surprise, and then smiled: "I forgot to bring the key."

The previous look of loneliness was swept away, Shen Yi patted the snow on his shoulder, and walked quickly to Qin Yang, with a relaxed and casual tone: "Take me home."

Shen Yi never smoked in front of him.

Shen also doesn't smoke in front of anyone, he even suspects that even Uncle Shen doesn't know that his son smokes.

But after all, he stumbled upon that person's secret by accident, so it was impossible to turn a blind eye.

After that night, when Shen Yi passed by him, Qin Yang would subconsciously identify whether he smelled of tobacco or not, whether he was smoking again.

Shen Yi doesn't seem to be a big smoker, and he doesn't seem to smoke often.But at certain times, Qin Yang could occasionally smell the faint smell of smoke on his body carefully.

These moments, though rare, are disturbing.

Although he didn't know why Shen Yi, who had always been a good boy in front of others, would smoke, but Qin Yang felt that he couldn't be allowed to continue like this.

It was their first New Year's Eve together.

After nightfall, fireworks are set off everywhere, and there are many children playing with small fireworks in the garden below the community.Qin Yang thought it was noisy and closed the window.

Different from the hustle and bustle of other places, on the first New Year's Eve of the Shen family, there were only him and Shen Yi.

The Spring Festival Gala was broadcast on TV, the festive big red stage, people singing and dancing on the stage, singing, laughing and dancing constantly.Shen Yi sat in front of the sofa, listlessly watching the program on TV, not in high spirits.

Qin Yang sat on the sofa far away from him, watching TV while propping his chin, but his mind was not on the program either.

The two adults in the family—Shen Yi's father and Qin Yang's mother, both work in the same foreign company, both returned to the company to work overtime because of the same urgent matter, and they were the only two left looking at each other boredly.

Shen Yi stared at the two people who were talking cross talk on TV for a long time, then slowly stood up from the sofa, and glanced at Qin Yang: "I'm going out to buy something to drink, what do you want?"

Qin Yang shook his head.

"You look after the house, I'll be back later." He said, picked up his wallet and went out.

Qin Yang didn't expose his lie - there was everything to drink in the refrigerator, there was no need to go out to buy it.

Besides, if you just buy something to drink, there is no need to take the lighter on the shoe cabinet in the entrance when you leave.

Qin Yang knew in his heart what he was going to do.

Ten minutes after Shen Yi left.He turned off the TV, picked up his coat, put on his shoes, and headed out.

There was no wind outside, and the choking smell of fireworks came from time to time. He avoided the excited children, walked out along the familiar road, left the community, and turned right onto a secluded path.

The sky in the distance still blooms one after another fireworks from time to time, the colors are amazingly gorgeous.He came to the empty park amidst the sound of fireworks one after another.

In the corner of the play area, the man was still sitting on the swing, looking forward as if in a fugue, with a cigarette between his fingers.The smoke was slowly exhaled from his lips, and in the misty smoke, his side face was extremely sad.

However, this time, Qin Yang did not stand aside and watch silently.

He took a deep breath, walked up to Shen Yi, and said slowly, "Stop smoking."

As he spoke, he smoked the cigarette between his fingers, his gaze was firm.

Shen Yi looked up at him in surprise, speechless for a while.

"Stop smoking." He repeated, "It's not good for your health."

Shen Yi suddenly laughed: "When did you find out?"

"It's been a while." Qin Yang looked at him indifferently, then extinguished the cigarette on the ground and threw it into the trash can beside him, "Stop smoking. It's not good."

After finishing speaking, he reached out to him again: "Give me the rest."

Shen Yi obediently handed him a pack of cigarettes in his pocket.

"And a lighter."

Shen Yi smiled wryly, and handed over the lighter.

Qin Yang sternly threw the cigarettes and lighters in his hands into the trash can on the side of the road, turned around and looked at Shen Yi seriously: "Smoking is not allowed in the future."

"Understood." Shen Yi nodded, his eyes sparkling.

Qin Yang didn't believe that he would quit so easily, so he continued firmly: "What if you smoke behind my back?"

"No." Shen Yi's smile suddenly became sad, "When I smoked the first cigarette, I made a bet with myself that if someone finds out, I will quit immediately and never smoke again."

Qin Yang stood there in a daze: "Why do you smoke?"

"You are young and ignorant." Shen Yi said it so calmly.

"Don't smoke in the future." Qin Yang emphasized again, still feeling uneasy.

"I know it." Shen Yi got up and touched his head. Under the dark sky, the flowers blooming in the distant sky illuminated his side face. His voice was slow and gentle, but so lonely, "Actually, I don't know." I like to smoke, but no one has ever found out. I have no reason to quit smoking.””

Shen Yi smiled, gently took his shoulders, and hugged him gently.

"Thank you, Qin Yang."

Before Qin Yang could react, Shen Yi quickly let go of his shoulders, turned around and walked towards home: "Let's go home."

Qin Yang stood there in a daze for a few seconds, then stepped forward to follow.

On that New Year's Eve, he remembered that Shen Yi had been walking lightly in front of him, only giving him a seemingly relaxed back.

Fireworks kept blooming above his head, but what he could remember clearly was the movement of Shen Yi in front of him secretly reaching out to wipe his eyes.

It was a long time later that Qin Yang found out.Shen also smoked her first cigarette on the day Shen's mother remarried.

At that time, Shen Yi was 16 years old.

When I smoked my first cigarette, I made a bet with myself.

If someone finds out, they will quit immediately and never smoke again.

I actually don't like smoking.But no one ever found out.

Thank you, Qin Yang.

thank you.