goodbye midsummer

Shen Yi was taken aback when he met Wen Yu at a convenience store near the station.

This city is neither big nor small, and the chances of encounters are not high, but it won't make people think that once it happens, it will be a miracle.

Wen Yu also seemed to be taken aback - when she was about to pay the bill with a load of snacks in her hands, she looked up and saw Shen Yi who was choosing a drink in front of the cabinet in front of her.

Both of them recognized each other immediately, and after a moment of surprise, they smiled and nodded to each other at the same time.

"Wen... Yu?" Shen Yi looked at her neat short hair, which was different from ordinary girls, which was easy to recognize.After all, there are not many girls who are heroic.

"Yes." She nodded, "Are you Qin Yang's brother?"

He also nodded: "My school is nearby." He pointed to the university opposite the convenience store.

"My house is nearby." She smiled and raised the snacks in her hand. "There will be group activities in the class in a few days. I'll buy something to eat in the car."

"There are activities in the class? I haven't heard much from Qin Yang."

Wen Yu's expression darkened slightly: "Well...Qin Yang said he would not participate."

"Not participating? Isn't it a group activity?"

She forced a smile: "It's not mandatory. He said he didn't want to go, so he didn't force him. He didn't like to participate in group activities."

Briefly explaining the reason, she didn't mention the previous dispute with Qin Yang because of this matter.In fact, from that day's quarrel to today, she never said a word to Qin Yang.Usually in the class, I try to avoid meeting him as much as possible.

Wen Yu took the things to the cash register to check out, and the full basket of snacks was packed in a huge shopping bag, which looked very heavy.Shen Yi couldn't help but said: "Where is your home? May I bring it back for you?"

"No need." She lifted the bag deftly, without seeming to be struggling, "I have a lot of strength, and this thing won't trouble me."

It seems that not only the appearance, but also the strength is at the level of a man.

Seeing that she really wasn't trying to be brave, Shen also nodded silently. When they walked out of the convenience store, the two said goodbye briefly, and then separated from one left to the other.

Before walking away a few steps, he heard Wen Yu's voice coming from behind him again: "That, brother!"

He stopped and turned around, Wen Yu smiled shyly at him with a complicated expression, clenched his hands tightly, and squeezed the bag tightly: "Sorry, I want to ask you something."

"what's up?"

She bit her lower lip: "That...is about Qin Yang. Is he...going to study in America?"

Shen Yi was taken aback: "Why do you ask that?"

She quickly explained: "Actually, I heard it from the girls in the class. Some time ago, I heard that my uncle and aunt went to work in the United States, and they probably settled there, so everyone in the class was rumoring that Qin Yang was also very I am going to study in the United States soon. Even if I don’t leave now, it will be almost the same until the third year of high school.”

She spoke very anxiously, speaking a little fast, and the more she spoke, the less she dared to look into Shen Yi's eyes: "He has never liked to talk about himself, so I didn't ask about it. The activities in the class are not too enthusiastic, although he doesn't pay much attention to people... But I always feel that there is a strange feeling. So I want to ask you, brother, is he going to the United States?"

Seeing that her face was blushing, Shen Yi couldn't help laughing: "Why don't you ask him this question yourself?"

"No, no, no, no!" If it weren't for the fact that she was carrying a big bag of snacks in her hands, she would definitely shake her hands like a fan, "I, I recently... had a fight with him..."

After speaking, he lowered his head guiltily and stared at his shoes.

Shen Yi remembered the conversation with Qin Yang a few days ago, and realized that they hadn't reconciled yet: "Are you planning to reconcile with Qin Yang?"

"No, it's not... I just don't know what to do."

"I think he must also want to make up with you, but he doesn't know what to do. It's not that difficult, and you don't need to say 'sorry' or 'it's okay'. If you want to make up with him, just walk up to him , say good morning to him. I promise he will respond to you."

Wen Yu looked up at him suspiciously: "It's that simple?"

Shen Yi nodded: "Well, it's as simple as that. As for whether he is going to the United States, you can ask him after you have reconciled. I won't answer for him, is that okay?"

She nodded vigorously and smiled: "Thank you brother."

He scratched his head embarrassingly: "I didn't help much either."

Suddenly, he had a flash of inspiration and thought of something, so he asked, "By the way, Wen Yu, is your birthday in April?"

Wen Yu shook his head in confusion: "No, my birthday is in July, what's wrong?"

"Ah, it's nothing." He gave a wry smile, but still bit the bullet and continued to ask, "Do you know anyone in your class whose birthday is on April [-]th?"

Wen Yu was even more puzzled: "I... can't remember clearly, what happened to April [-]th?"

Shen Yi waved his hand embarrassingly: "It's nothing, I'm sorry to ask you such a strange question."

On the contrary, Wen Yu had the spirit to break the casserole and ask the end: "Does that day have anything to do with Qin Yang?"

"I'm just a little curious what the number four one five means to him. Sorry, I'm so weird—"

"I seem to know!" Wen Yu suddenly said, looking at Shen Yi with glowing eyes, "April [-]th!"

"What's wrong?" Shen Yi looked at her anxiously.

"April [-]th is the title of a song composed by an unknown band. I liked it very much and recommended it to Qin Yang. After listening to it, he also liked it very much. He even used it as a ringtone for his mobile phone."

Ringtones?Shen Yi recalled the ringtone of Qin Yang's cell phone, it seemed to be an unfamiliar piano prelude, he had never noticed what song it was before.

Wen Yu excitedly took out his mobile phone and pressed the play button, and a piano prelude was played softly.Shen Yi remembered that it was indeed Qin Yang's phone ringtone.

"This song is called "April [-]th". It is said that the lead singer wrote it suddenly on April [-]th, so he named it after the date. When I recommended it to Qin Yang, he liked it very much."

I see.Shen Yi's heart was like a boulder falling, and he settled down amidst the quiet sound of the piano.

So it turns out that for Qin Yang, the fifteenth day of April does not mean anyone's birthday, but just a song that he likes very much.

Fortunately, Shen Yi also felt a little ashamed——for his inexplicable associative ability.

When he found out that Qin Yang's password setting was 0415, he thought he had extraordinary feelings for him.This association is too shameful.

Fortunately, the mystery is now revealed.

"Thank you so much, Wen Yu." Shen Yi sincerely thanked her with a smile on his face.

Although Wen Yu still couldn't figure out why Shen Yi was entangled in the connection with Qin Yang on April [-]th, he still smiled: "It's no big deal. Then I'll go first, bye!"

Because she was holding food in her hands, she swung her elbows in place of waving her hands, and Shen Yi also said goodbye to her.

This time, the two really parted ways.

Realizing that you don't matter at all—not even in the hearts of your own family.

Shen Yi clearly realized this when he was just entering high school.My parents were going through divorce procedures at the time.

In fact, they have no relationship for a long time, and the reason why they still barely maintain their status as husband and wife is because of Shen Yi.Without Shen Yi, they would have divorced long ago.

My father is a typical workaholic. He has more enthusiasm and interest in work than his wife and children. I heard that on the day Shen Yi was born, he did not accompany him in the delivery room, but worked overtime in the company.His mother has always been dissatisfied with him, and her married life is far from what she had imagined, but she has no choice but to become pregnant, so she can only continue to maintain this marriage reluctantly.But after enduring it year after year, her husband is still not considerate enough, and he travels more and more often, sometimes for a whole month, and the burden of raising children and household chores falls on her, and she is confined to a narrow circle. Feel more and more depressed.

When Shen Yi was in the senior grade of elementary school, she also started to go out often, or go shopping with friends, or watch movies and have dinner together. She began to balance her already unbalanced heart in that way, and tried her best to delay going home time.

For her, home is like a cage, and she enjoys the freedom of occasional indulgence very much, and she does not want to go back to that narrow cage.

At that time, Shen Yi, who was still in elementary school, returned home by himself, and when he opened the door, he was often greeted by the silence of the room.

The dinner has been prepared and placed in the refrigerator, and he can eat it after heating it up slightly.

Over time, he gradually got used to eating alone.

Over time, he began to have an illusion, as if he had always been the only one in that family.

When he was sitting alone at the dining table by the window, eating his hot meals alone, a sense of loneliness that did not match his age surged and overwhelmed him.

In such a huge home, he could only hear his own heart beating lonely.

After a few years of transition, he was not surprised when his parents formally filed for divorce, but felt that the day had finally come.

It's not a sigh of relief, it's just that what I have been worrying about and fearing in the past, and which is becoming more and more clear day by day will finally happen in the future, and there is a sense of solidity that the dust has settled.

Half a year after the divorce, my mother remarried. The other party was a stable civil servant with no big ambitions. I heard that she cared about her family and should be able to give her the life she wanted.

The news of the remarriage was told by his mother over the phone.She felt that her son was already a high school student, so he should be able to understand herself.

Shen Yi blessed her on the phone, very generous and decent, and even some words were a bit too formal.

Hearing his blessing, my mother cried on the other end of the phone.

After hanging up the phone, he walked downstairs and walked aimlessly on the street at night.It should be winter at that time, he was wearing very thin clothes, he didn't bring a coat when he went downstairs, he felt a bit cold after walking for a while.

When he turned around and was about to turn back, he saw a man leaning against the bus stop sign quietly waiting for the bus across the deserted road.The man lowered his head, as if thinking about something, with a cigarette between his right fingers.

The flame at the other end of the cigarette flickers on and off, and the white smoke curls upwards, against the dark background, it looks very leisurely.

In the cold night, Shen Yi stopped and stared fixedly at the cigarette between the stranger's fingers and the circle of rising smoke, and suddenly felt very warm.

Why do you feel warm?Just a cigarette, just a gleam of fire, just a wisp of white mist.

Probably because, at that time, he was really too cold.

Both physically and mentally.

Realize that you don't really matter at all.

Even in the hearts of his own family, he couldn't occupy an important position.

Even in the hearts of parents, they are dispensable people.The father only values ​​work in the workplace. For him, the son is just a toy-like existence at home that he occasionally returns to; Where the rest of her vigor and life were, she avoided them.

So why did Shen Yi, the son of this family, exist?

Who does he exist for?

If it is not for anyone, if his existence can only bring burden and pain to others, then is it necessary for him to continue to exist?

Shen Yi at that time could not find the answer to this question.Can only continue to be confused.

Until the age of 18, I met Qin Yang.

If he hadn't met Qin Yang, he would have continued to exist in this world, but he wouldn't be as gentle as he is now.

He will become depressed, gloomy, and gradually lose interest in the world.

Therefore, Qin Yang is a very important existence to him.Rather than saying that he is his beloved younger brother, it is better to say that it is Qin Yang who supports himself to live while holding kindness to the world.

So sometimes it is inevitable to be afraid, afraid that one day, the bond between them will gradually weaken.

After all, they're not really brothers.

He was also afraid that this bond would deteriorate one day.

After all, he didn't have the confidence to respond to that emotion.

So fortunately, April [-]th was just a song to Qin Yang.