goodbye midsummer

I really miss the weather in early spring. The air is humid, the sky is cloudy, and occasionally there will be a drizzle that does not bother to hold an umbrella. Walking under such a sky will make you feel more lonely than when the wind is sunny.

But at the same time, it also makes people feel more strongly that they are alive.

Missing the weather in early spring is like missing a frankly revealed secret memory, like secretly tracing the profile of someone you like, with a touch of unspeakable emotion.

However, it is midsummer now, the sound of cicadas is coming like waves, and the sun is so abundant and brilliant that people can't cover it. The secret and ambiguous beauty of early spring cannot be found in the current season.

Midsummer is a wild and noisy season, like a trapped beast, but also like a carnival, making people uneasy, as if the secrets in their hearts will suddenly be exposed to the sun at any time.

Disturbing and heart-wrenching.

Under the bright summer sun, Shen Yi and Xu Hao sat on a bench under the campus boulevard.Near the end of the term, the campus is full of people who are nervous about the final exam, and the seats in the library and study room are very hot. Shen Yi and Xu Hao don't have this sense of urgency at all, and they are still leisurely wandering around the campus and chatting at this time .

It seemed that they were talking about the news of the Academy of Fine Arts, but for some reason, Shen Yi suddenly threw out a question to Xu Hao that it had nothing to do with the previous topic.

"Hey, Xu Hao, under what circumstances would you set someone else's birthday as your mobile phone password?"

Xu Hao squinted her eyes and looked up at the sky and said, "Well... Maybe if you like it, I don't want to set the birthday of the person I hate as a password anyway."

Shen Yi stared at the building in front of him far away, and his expression was elusive for a while: "Then you will set Ye Zi's birthday as a password?"

"Are you kidding! I'm not that stupid!" Unexpectedly, Xu Hao retorted immediately, "If I set her birthday as a password, then I will have no privacy at all, okay, she likes to look through my phone when she is bored. ! I set the password to prevent her, how could I set her birthday!"

"Isn't she someone you like?" Shen Yi asked back.

"I like it, but the distance is too close, and it would be too dangerous to set her birthday as my mobile phone password." Xu Hao shrugged as if afraid, "I did do that in the first period of dating, But then I thought it would be better to keep a little privacy, so I changed it.”

"What is the current password?"

He grinned and gave Shen Yi a push: "It's my goddess' birthday! Don't you know, the movie star I like very much."

Shen also remembered that Xu Hao had indeed told him that there was a very obsessed female star.

Xu Hao continued enthusiastically: "I think, passwords need to be meaningful to be memorized. A random string of numbers may be forgotten when the mind is confused, so it must be meaningful to oneself. But with reality My girlfriend’s birthday is too risky, so why not have someone I love so much but just out of reach? It’s meaningful without the risk of exposure.”

The summer sun cut by the leaves fell on Shen Yi's hair. He sat on the bench on the campus, looked at the trees in front of him and the buildings in the distance, and was speechless for a while.

But inside, there are already mixed feelings.

A person I like very much, but who can't be reached...

Then, what kind of mood did Qin Yang have in setting my birthday as a password?

Or maybe I made a mistake, the meaning of that string of numbers to him is not actually my birthday?

The recess time was extremely long, Qin Yang was bored sitting in the seat by the window staring at the scenery outside to pass the time, most of the students went to the corridor to chat and play, and those who remained in the classroom were either reading or sleeping.

He looked outside at the leaves that grew three stories high, and the midday sun slanted in, a little dazzling.

"Hey, what are you thinking about again?" Wen Yu walked in from the outside, moved a chair with a clear goal and sat down in front of him.

"In a daze." He stated truthfully.

"Don't be so boring, it's good to go out for a walk, a rare break between classes." Wen Yu looked at him and sighed, seeing that he had no intention of getting up and exercising, he sighed again, " I really don't know what the group of girls in our class likes about you, but they think that you are very attractive because you are so preoccupied all day long."

Qin Yang turned a deaf ear to her words of praise or reprimand, and still half-closed his eyes and looked out the window listlessly: "What do you want from me?"

"The girls in the class said that they want to go out together for a class activity on the weekend, and they are counting the number of people. Let me ask if you will go?"

"No." He refused flatly.

Wen Yu glared at him dissatisfied: "Hey, I haven't said what I'm going to do, do you need to refuse so quickly?"

"No matter where you go, don't go."

"Why?"

"Because of trouble."

"What's the trouble? You don't need to organize it. You just have to gather together obediently when the time comes."

"Everywhere is troublesome." Qin Yang finally glanced at her, "Besides, I don't want to participate in activities with so many people."

"But this is a rare group activity. We will be in the third year of high school when we come back from the summer vacation. How can we have time to go out and play. This is our last class group activity in high school. Why don't you give me any face?" ?”

Although it seemed meaningful, it still couldn't touch Qin Yang's heart: "I'm not interested."

"You fickle guy!" Wen Yu looked a little annoyed, "You don't think it's necessary to leave any memories with us because you're going to study abroad anyway?"

"Where did I say I was going to study abroad?" Qin Yang felt puzzled and glanced at her.

"Didn't you go to the United States to study as soon as you graduated? You thought I didn't know?" Wen Yu snorted, "No matter how much you don't like this class, at least you are pretending at this time. Forget it, anyway, I will I know what you're thinking. If you don't go, you don't go, pull down!" Wen Yu seemed really angry, and when he stood up, he deliberately kicked Qin Yang's table, then walked out angrily puffing up his cheeks.

Looking at her back, Qin Yang hesitated whether to chase her.

The attitude I had just now really didn't seem very appropriate.

Although he has always been extremely careless about class activities, it is true that he does not like activities with too many people.But this time, Wen Yu talked about this, and seemed to go no matter how reluctantly.

Forget it, let's compromise.

He sighed, stood up and followed.

Wen Yu walked quickly in front, and at first glance she looked like she was blown up. People on both sides of the corridor saw her distorted face with anger, and they all automatically moved out of the way and did not touch the bomb.

Qin Yang sighed and followed her and said, "Wen Yu, let me go to the head office."

"No need, Young Master Qin, you speak so reluctantly! It's as if I forced you to go." Wen Yu's footsteps did not slow down at all.

"I was wrong just now." This is the truth.

"What's wrong with you Young Master Qin? People who are going to the United States naturally won't play with us country kids." Wen Yu was really angry, and his words were full of gunpowder.

Qin Yang frowned after hearing this, but continued to follow: "Stop talking about America, please, I didn't say I'm going."

"Oh yeah, you don't want to go to America, but you don't want to play with us country kids, do you?"

"Wen Yu!" Qin Yang was also a little angry, his voice was a little louder, and he stopped, "I said I'll go, can you be more mature?"

But Wen Yu, who was angry, couldn't calm down at this time, and became even more angry after hearing his words. She stopped and turned to look at Qin Yang: "Yes! You, Qin Yang, are the most mature in the world, and everyone else is childish. Ghost! Me too! That's why I somehow want to invite you to some kind of class party!"

The sound of the two of them arguing startled the passers-by to look sideways, and more than one person stuck their heads out from the window of the class next to them to see what was going on.

Qin Yang didn't want this situation to continue, so he could only say to Wen Yu in a slightly soft tone: "I said I will go."

"I don't force you to go!" She was still so stubborn.

Qin Yang suddenly felt tired and didn't want to pester him any longer.Under everyone's curious eyes, he responded lightly: "That's fine."

After finishing speaking, he turned and left, ignoring the inquiring eyes of others.

Wen Yu stood alone in the corridor for a while, her eyes sparkling, as if she was about to cry out of anger, but in the end she didn't cry, she turned her head stubbornly and strode towards the opposite direction of the classroom.

I didn't see Wen Yu for the rest of the class that day.

"What's the matter, listless."

Back home after class that day, Shen Yi saw Qin Yang sitting in the room with a silent face, and couldn't help asking.

Although Qin Yang has always been a man of few words, his aura that day was very different.Seems a little depressed.

Shen Yi was mentally prepared for Qin Yang's perfunctory answer, but he didn't want to hear the truth: "I had a fight with my classmates."

Those conversations with Wen Yu can be called quarrels.

Shen Yi was a little surprised, he didn't expect that Qin Yang would have a day of quarreling with others, so he couldn't help but feel a little fresh: "With whom?"

"Wen Yu. You've seen it before."

"Is it the girl who came to our house to borrow an umbrella when it rained that day?" Fumbling along the memory, Shen Yi recalled Wen Yu's appearance: a girl with short hair cut neatly but with big shining eyes.

Shen Yi had a good impression of her.

"Your girlfriend?" He couldn't help asking with a smile.

But Qin Yang quickly rolled his eyes at him: "How many times have I said, she is not my girlfriend."

"Okay, okay, not a girlfriend. Then why are you arguing?"

"I don't know why, but she got angry out of nowhere. Then she didn't listen to what I said." Qin Yang rested his chin and looked at the bookshelf in front of him. His confused look was like a teenager who fell in love and was at a loss.

Shen Yi leaned against the door frame, seeing him like this, couldn't help but feel a little at ease.

This child, after all, is also an ordinary boy, and he will be troubled by love one day.

"Wen Yu likes you?"

Qin Yang was taken aback for a moment, and then quickly glanced at Shen Yi, as if feeling incredible: "What?"

"I think that girl likes you."

"Why do you say that?"

Shen Yi shrugged and smiled: "Intuition. Last time you brought her back, I felt that way when I saw her."

"Don't say such irresponsible words." Qin Yang looked at him sullenly, feeling very uncomfortable.

"When a girl faces someone she likes, her emotions will be a little inexplicable, especially when the person she likes is quite dull." Shen Yi analyzed methodically, "So you have to reflect on whether you said something unintentionally. Hurtful words."

"It sounds like you are very experienced." Qin Yang didn't particularly want to discuss this topic with Shen Yi, but he had to continue, "Do you have someone you like?"

"Why did it suddenly involve me?" Shen Yi didn't notice the deep meaning in Qin Yang's gaze looking at him, and said calmly, "It's not like you don't know, I'm busy taking care of you, where's the time to make a girlfriend?"

Qin Yang's eyes brightened, then darkened in an instant.

But this momentary emotional transformation did not escape Shen Yi's eyes.

Although it was only for a moment, why did this boy have such a sad expression?

Shen Yi suddenly remembered his birthday and his mobile phone password.

"Qin Yang, when is Wen Yu's birthday?" He asked suddenly.

Qin Yang, who was confused by the question, looked up at him and shook his head: "I don't know her birthday."

"Oh." Shen Yi scratched his head, put his hands in his pockets a little guilty, and found an excuse to prevaricate, "I think if we are close, we can give her something on her birthday and make up."

"It doesn't have to be a birthday to give something." Qin Yang said.

Shen Yi nodded, and after a few seconds, he asked again: "Didn't you tell me before that you already have someone you like."

"It's not Wen Yu." Qin Yang subconsciously denied it.

"I see, it's not Wen Yu." He licked his dry lips, his heart was beating wildly, "Is there any progress with the person you like now?"

Qin Yang shook his head.Did not speak.

"Didn't you confess?"

Still shaking his head.

He wanted to ask again, but reason told him not to ask any more.Can't.It would be dangerous to ask any further.

"Reconcile with Wen Yu earlier." He left Qin Yang's room without thinking.

He hurried back to his room and closed the door carefully.When he sat down by the bed, he suddenly felt a panic in his heart. In fact, he really wanted to ask Qin Yang: Why did you set my birthday as a password?

But he dared not.

Because he suddenly thought of an unspeakable possibility.

Qin Yang, do you like me?