Self-denial System [Rebirth]

It was snowing heavily.

Xu Mu walked on the knee-deep snow-covered mountain road, and every step he took took a lot of effort.

The cold north wind blinded people.

He walked for about two or three hours in the deserted mountain forest, and finally saw a family far away in the mist.

He walked a few steps towards the gate of the family, and suddenly found a small person squatting under the fence on one side.

The man was small and thin, and buried his face in the crook of his knees, revealing only the back of his hairy head.

Xu Mu turned a corner and walked towards the child instead of the gate.

"What's wrong with you?" Xu Mu bent down and asked, stroking his soft hair.

The little boy raised his head and looked at him. His eyes were big and beautiful, but they were red and swollen, as if he had cried hard.

"Are you crying?" Xu Mu asked him.

The little boy shook his head, and his eyes became a little wet again under the sun.

Xu Mu wanted to say something more, when suddenly a middle-aged man walked out from the door, running around in coarse clothes, with a messy beard under his cheeks.

"You think you're fine just because you're hiding here? Get up!" The man grabbed the little boy by the collar and lifted him off the ground.

Only then did Xu Mu see clearly the little boy's clothes. The frayed trousers were sewn with colorful patches, and a pair of straw sandals exposed two rows of frozen blue toes.

Xu Mu subconsciously wanted to hold his exposed cold knee, but the man didn't give him a chance, dragged the little boy in his hand to the ground, and pulled him into the yard.

Xu Mu followed him in by mistake.

I saw the man skillfully picked up a thin bamboo stick from the haystack, raised his hand without hesitation, and tore the little boy's already ragged clothes to pieces.

"Do you still dare not listen to me?" The man's voice sounded amidst the sharp sound of the whip.

"Don't dare." The little boy muttered, put his hands behind his back and moved back a little, trying to hide back, but the man stepped on his right hand hard.

The foot twisted hard on the dirty little hand, nailing the little man to the ground.

"Do you still dare to hide?" The man drew the bamboo pole around the little boy's neck, instantly drawing a line of blood.

"Don't dare." The little boy covered his face with his left hand, not sure if it was to avoid the bamboo pole or the slightly scorching sun.

The middle-aged man raised his foot, let go of the battered hand, turned to aim at the little boy's covered face, and kicked him away from his body.

The little boy rolled on the ground a few times, without wiping the blood on his face, he got up silently.

"Where are you going?" the man shouted behind him.

The little boy lowered his head and walked into the yard without answering.

The middle-aged man dropped the bamboo pole, stepped forward and pulled him back to his hand, and asked, "Do your eyes still hurt?"

The little boy was taken aback for a moment, as if he was a little surprised, then he quickly shook his head and replied hoarsely, "No..."

"If you can't, don't pretend to be sick!" The man put his hands up and down, his left hand supported the boy's chin, and his right hand grabbed the hair on the boy's forehead, forcing him to raise his face very high, with his eyes facing the sunlight. "Let me see if your eyes still cry out."

Two lines of tears welled up in the little boy's eyes in an instant, but he still didn't speak.

The man forced him to look at the sun for a while, then suddenly he pushed his knee against his waist, and the little boy suddenly fell forward and knelt down.

The man said in his mouth: "Since there is nothing wrong with it, let's continue to work."

The little boy wiped the water stains on his face with the back of his hand, and stood up without saying a word.

The man glanced at him, patted his clothes, walked out from the door, turned around and locked the door.When passing by the door, he looked up and down at Xu Mu who was standing at the door before leaving.

Seeing the figure of the man gradually disappearing into the forest, Xu Mu stepped forward and cut the lock with his sword, pushed open the door, and walked into the yard.

The courtyard is empty.

Xu Mu followed the messy footprints on the snow in the courtyard, walked up the steps, and walked into the front hall.

Still empty.

Xu Mu withdrew, and this time he came out, he saw that there was someone in the empty courtyard just now.

The little boy was holding a small wooden stick in his hand, fiddled with the door in front of a hut for a while, and opened the lock on the door.

Xu Mu watched him enter the room, and followed him lightly.

I saw the little boy walking towards the house without saying a word, and then opened a greasy curtain, revealing a dilapidated bed.

"Ah—" the person on the bed let out a small exclamation, and hid deeper.

Xu Mu took advantage of the not-so-strong sunlight to see the figure clearly—it was a little girl about three years old, her cheeks were flushed from the cold, and she was wearing many layers of fabric, but she didn't seem to be very cold, like a girl. Little Yuanqiu hid on the bed and shivered.

The little girl seemed very frightened when she saw the person coming, and stared at the boy with slightly frightened eyes.

The little boy looked at her quietly for a while, then suddenly stepped forward, trying to pull her out.

The little girl yelled again, jumped up from the bed to avoid his hand, and muttered vaguely: "I didn't hit you..."

Seeing that she was hiding farther and farther away, the little boy had no choice but to withdraw his hands, turned to walk behind the bed, stopped under a beam, and looked at a basket hanging high on the roof.

This look lasted for half an hour.

The little boy stared at the basket motionlessly from the beginning to the end, and squeezed his chapped and pale lips while watching.

After standing for a while, the little boy looked away, moved a broken chair from the side, stepped on it, stretched his arms very high, and barely touched the bottom of the basket, but suddenly he slipped his foot and fell down. .

Xu Mu quickly stepped forward, helped him up, and asked, "Which basket do you want?"

The little boy was startled by the sudden appearance of the person, and took a step back. There was a hint of fear in his eyes, and the end point of his eyes fell on the sword at Xu Mu's waist.

Xu Mu lowered his head and took off the sword, threw it aside, spread his hands towards him, and said, "I won't hurt you."

After listening, the little boy licked his chapped lower lip again, ready to climb up that chair again.

Xu Mu reached out and took down the basket, and handed it to him: "No, here you are, no need to climb."

The little boy looked at him, then slowly stretched out his hand, lifted the cloth on the basket, put his hand into the basket, touched it, took out half a steamed bun, thought for a while, and tried to remove the steamed bun with both hands. Break apart.But the steamed bun seemed to be frozen hard, and it still didn't move after breaking it a few times.

Xu Mu was afraid that his hand would be scratched, but he didn't want to snatch the steamed bun from his hand, so he bent down and said to him, "Don't break it..."

The boy shook his head and finally spoke, his voice was very soft and hoarse: "No, if you steal the whole thing, you will be beaten even harder..."

Xu Mu threw the basket aside, picked him up, and held him in his arms: "You won't be beaten, no one will dare to beat you."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and walked out of the house, holding the little boy tightly in his arms, and walked against the wind in the heavy snow.

Just after walking for a while, I heard noises around me.

Xu Mu raised his head, turned around and took a glance in the biting cold wind, and saw many figures appearing from all around, and the quiet mountain forest became noisy in an instant, people holding sickles and axes, shouting and clamoring.

A man shouted: "Don't go! Thief who steals children!"

Xu Mu still walked forward, wrapped the little boy in his arms closer, and whispered in his ear: "Don't be afraid, no one will hurt you anymore."

The footsteps behind were chasing closer and closer, dozens of people soon followed, and the shouting became louder and louder: "Don't run away! You can't take him away!"

Xu Mu looked back at them and replied, "I must take him away."

A man said: "What's the use of taking him away? His life is like this! Everywhere he goes, he suffers!"

Xu Mu gently pressed the little boy's head against his warm chest with his hand, and replied: "From now on, I will never meet again. I will take care of him for the rest of my life."

The people behind him no longer listened to him, they rushed forward and surrounded him.

Xu Mu quickened his steps and walked into the dense fog ahead.

But he didn't help him run a few steps, and suddenly felt that his feet were empty, stepped on a void, and fell straight to the cliff in the thick white mist.

Xu Mu's heart trembled, and before he could think about anything, he hugged the child in front of him tightly with both hands, wishing he could hug him into his body.

The little boy seemed to sense the danger and his nervousness, and stretched out a hand in his arms, letting him grab it.

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Xu Mu clutched that hand tightly, his palm was covered with cold sweat.

The room brightened instantly, and someone lit a lamp.

Xu Mu opened his eyes, breathed a sigh of relief, and slowly turned his head, seeing that he was holding the hand of the person next to him tightly.

"What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?" Someone asked softly above his head.

Immediately afterwards, a cup of hot tea reached his lips, and the fragrant hot air lingered in front of his eyes.

Xu Mu sat up, but refused to move his hand. He lowered his head and took a sip from the man's hand.

The slightly dim candlelight made the room slightly warmer. Gu Jingyin was sitting on the edge of the bed, holding one hand tightly in his palm, and the other hand holding the cup was also holding him in his arms. Actions.

Xu Mu felt cold sweat on his forehead, leaned against him and took a few deep breaths before turning his head to look at him: "Why are you awake?"

Gu Jingyin smiled slightly, walked around his body with his arms around him, and stroked the long hair around his ears, his voice was a little hoarse: "You have been sleeping very badly at night, looking at your body these few nights It's all sweat, is there something on my mind that makes me not sleep well."

It was only then that Xu Mu remembered the scene in the dream just now. In this year, he had dreamed of the past described by Ying Han more than a few times.

Xu Mu turned around in his arms, touched his face, and touched the corners of his eyes—those clear and beautiful eyes were exactly the same as the little boy in his dream many years ago, but they were gone. Inflamed tear stains.

Gu Jingyin took off his hand, stroked it gently with his fingers, and asked gently: "What's wrong?"

Xu Mu looked at him and thought in his heart: In the past so many years, he must have deeply ingrained a belief in his heart - no one in this world will treat him well.

It is not easy for him to believe that a person will treat him sincerely, so how did he accept that person and finally abandon the promise.

Xu Mu felt as if his heart had been squeezed severely by a hand.

Xu Mu raised his head and wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything.I only felt that my eyes were dark, my breathing was not smooth, my head was heavy and my feet were light, and I suddenly spit out a mouthful of blood.

Both of them were stunned.

Xu Mu looked at the eye-catching blood on his white shirt, and his heart tightened, feeling that he might not be able to keep this secret.

Gu Jingyin shook his arm suddenly, and his voice trembled: "...what's going on?"

Naturally, Xu Mu couldn't let him know that he had poisoned him, so he took a breath, wiped the corners of his mouth, and returned to the previous topic: "I'm so scared to have nightmares..."

Gu Jingyin frowned even tighter, as if he felt that this excuse was a bit far-fetched.But before he opened his mouth to question, Xu Mu jumped ahead of him and said, "Do you know what I dreamed just now? I dreamed that I ran to your house when I was a child and snatched you out."

After Gu Jingyin listened, his brows and eyes froze, and the nervousness just now turned into astonishment.

Xu Mu looked into his eyes, sat up straighter with a smile, picked up a piece of clothing from the side with his left hand and put it on his body without anyone noticing, covering the bloodstain very naturally: "I dreamed of you At that time, I was too hungry to eat, so I took you away. Who knew that your father brought the whole village down to chase me, not only chasing me, but also chasing me with a sickle and an ax..."

Gu Jingyin laughed after hearing this: "If you really took me away at that time, not only would the old man not chase you, but he would also be grateful to you, and maybe he would thank you tearfully..."

Xu Mu looked at him and smiled, but there was no smile in his heart: "Thank me?"

"But after thanking you, I still want to ask you for some money." Gu Jingyin used a slightly teasing tone, as if the old things had healed and scabbed in his heart, and the pain was no longer so painful. "After all, you took away the main labor force of their family, how could he be willing to sell it to you without a good price?"

This time, Xu Mu not only didn't want to laugh, but was in pain, but he changed the subject calmly: "Okay, you don't have to sit anymore, I'm fine, you can turn off the light and go to sleep. By the way, Why don't you send Yinghan back tomorrow, she has been here for more than half a year..."

Gu Jingyin said: "But I saw that she didn't seem to want to leave very much. She told me today that she would go out to swim in the lake with a playmate tomorrow."

Xu Mu said: "Playmate? She here has a playmate besides you?" Then he sneered, "Hey, you, an older brother, actually let your sister have other playmates in your territory, don't you think Was it a failure?"

Gu Jingyin smiled and replied: "Leave her alone, I don't want to interfere with others."

After hearing this, Xu Mu rubbed his face with the palm of his hand, and asked with a smile: "Why do I think you are not such a person, don't you like interfering with others the most?"

Gu Jingyin took his hand and kissed it on his lips: "You are not someone else."

Xu Mu's arms trembled, and he felt as if there was a piano in his heart, and someone gently plucked it.

"By the way, who is her playmate?" Xu Mu suddenly remembered something, "Is it a man?"

Gu Jingyin was taken aback by his sudden reaction, and explained: "It's nothing, the person you've seen before is Wen Ziran who stays with me all day, although he likes to make trouble, he is quite reliable... "

After hearing his answer, Xu Mu laughed out loud: "I'm not telling you to guard against him, I'm asking you to pay more attention to him."

Gu Jingyin said: "Why?"

Xu Mu sighed for a long time, pretending to be deep and said: "That can't be said."

Gu Jingyin really didn't ask any more questions, but just straightened the corners of his clothes silently.

"Maybe one day, he will become your brother-in-law?" Xu Mu suddenly said this, and winked at him after speaking.

Gu Jingyin froze for a moment, then smiled: "Go to sleep."

Xu Mu moved his body, feeling as if his whole body was floating on water, limp and unable to use his strength.The scene in front of me became more and more blurred, the orange lights beside me became a hazy mass, and I didn't even have the strength to raise my hand, my body and consciousness seemed to have turned into a cloud, light and floating.

Soon fell asleep.

Gu Jingyin quietly looked at the sleeping face of the person in his arms, and did not change his position for a long time. After the person's breathing calmed down, he carefully put him back on the bed, took the clothes off him, and looked at the There was a faint trace of blood, and his brows furrowed slightly.

He stood by the bed for a while, poured out the cup of calming tea, put on his clothes, opened the door and walked into the night.

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Cangxue Mountain, which is still in the early morning, is chilly, and everything is silent under the vast night.

Only a little light in Liuyun Palace is bright and dazzling, like stars in the dark night, twinkling among the majestic houses and palaces on the top of the mountain.

Gu Jingyin said: "It's impolite to disturb you so early."

Su Qiyue greeted the man who brought a chill all over her body, invited him to sit down, and responded gently and politely: "I always wake up very early, this hour is not unusual for me."

Although Gu Jingyin apologized, he still got to the point: "Is there something he is hiding from me?"

Su Qiyue's hand pouring the tea was steady, but her expression froze for a moment, and she said softly, "But what happened?"

Gu Jingyin replied: "I always feel that there is something wrong with his body..."

Su Qiyue sat down: "Sect Leader Gu thinks what is the problem."

Gu Jingyin was silent for a moment, then asked: "Did he suffer from some kind of poison..."

Su Qiyue said: "That's right, it's the same as the demon poison you were poisoned in the past."

Gu Jingyin's eyes trembled: "Then he..."

Su Qiyue watched him hesitate to speak, put down the teacup and said slowly: "You guessed right, he detoxified you, and the way of detoxification was very self-inflicted. Although Mu Chen didn't let me Tell you, but I don't think it should be kept from you."

Su Qiyue originally wanted to say that it was a completely unnecessary way, because in her opinion, the way to detoxify should be to eliminate it, not to introduce the poison into her body.But she didn't say that, because subconsciously, she seemed to have a little understanding of this incomprehensible way.

— suffer as he has suffered.

Gu Jingyin's face was very pale, and his lips were bloodless.He picked up the teacup on the table, took a few sips like drinking nectar, swallowed it hard, sat quietly for a while, and then asked: "When did it happen..."

Su Qiyue: "I'm not very clear about this, but I heard him say that the Nestle Grass used to detoxify you was found in the Konglian Cave..."

Gu Jingyin was a little surprised when he heard the place name: "Impossible..."

Su Qiyue refilled her cup of tea, looked at him and said, "You don't believe anything. Don't you believe that he could bet his life for you so early?"

Gu Jingyin hurriedly picked up the tea in hand to moisten his hoarse voice, and said in a low voice: "I'm just... Senior brother... He... told me... He never had that kind of thought for me. At that time .”

Su Qiyue smiled and shook her head.

Gu Jingyin continued: "He really said that before, and he also... did it. It's only in recent years that it's gotten better, maybe it's because I got impatient with being pestered by me."

Su Qiyue was silent for a moment, then suddenly said: "But I heard that he has been very kind to you since you were young."

Gu Jingyin listened quietly, but did not answer.

Su Qiyue paused for a moment, and continued to speak: "He is willing to be nice to a person, he doesn't care if this person has hurt him before, and he doesn't care if this person will hurt him again in the future, he has never considered it at all. It shows that he cares, likes, and can't let it go."

Gu Jingyin retracted his hands on his knees into his sleeves, curled them up tightly, and asked, "Is there only one way to detoxify?"

Su Qiyue asked: "What are you going to do?"

Gu Jingyin said: "Detoxify him. I can't see him like this, I can't stand it."

Su Qiyue said: "It took him four years to bring a neon weed from southern Xinjiang to you. How long are you going to use to find another neon weed?"

Gu Jingyin said: "It doesn't matter how long."

Su Qiyue said: "If you don't want to see him suffer, you can use some other mild treatments. There are many herbs in this world that can alleviate the poison of demons."

Gu Jingyin said: "It's not relief, I want him to recover completely."

After hearing this, Su Qiyue kept silent, and after a long while, she finally said: "Neon Clothes Grass is indeed the only cure, but what I want to say is that its effect is: it can attract demon poison, get the poison out of one person's body, and introduce it into another." In a living body."

"So do you understand what I'm saying? Any living thing can be used as a container to get rid of the demon's poison. There's absolutely no need for him to introduce the poison into his body, but he still did it." Su Qiyue lowered her head, Slightly stirring the tea leaves in the cup, he continued to say, "As for why he did this, only he knows the reason. However, he hasn't said to find a detoxification prescription for himself after so long, so it can be seen that he doesn't want to solve this problem." poison."

Su Qiyue raised her head: "He enjoys this suffering as much as he likes. He feels that it is right for him to bear it, and he even enjoys it. Sect Leader Gu, let me ask you, is it related to him that you were poisoned back then?"

Gu Jingyin's heart tightened, and his mind suddenly went blank.

then?

Gu Jingyin tried his best to search for the whole story of that incident in his mind, but that year was already blurred in his memory.

I was poisoned by the demon, it seemed that it was because he was disturbed by the miasma, and he was too careful about his safety, so he lost his mind.

But this crime, no matter how it is counted, cannot be counted on his head.

"I was poisoned when I was with him, but it really had nothing to do with him, it was my own negligence..." Gu Jingyin said.

"You think it has nothing to do with him, but he doesn't necessarily think so. He thinks it's his responsibility to keep you safe, but the fact is that he not only failed to keep you safe, but also distracted you and even got hurt. He will What do you think?" Su Qiyue asked.

Gu Jingyin felt a tightness in his chest and couldn't speak.

Su Qiyue also stopped chattering, and followed him in silence for a while.

The shallow sunlight outside the door moved inch by inch into the house, and the sky was already filled with warm colors, and a few birdsong twittered.

"It's almost dawn." Su Qiyue said to him.

Gu Jingyin knew what he should do, but he still didn't get up.

Su Qiyue stood up: "I'll tell you how to detoxify."

"Treat him as well as you can."

"Master Gu should have a deep understanding. The poison will only attack when you are restless. If you live in peace and harmony, nothing will happen. I think this poison should be the best test between you." Su Qiyue walked to the door and stood up for him. He opened the door, "I don't know what method Master Gu used to leave, but I think you should be by his side instead of me when something happens. What he wants to see when he opens his eyes must be You, not an empty room."

Gu Jingyin got up: "Thank you. Keep it in mind."

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When Xu Mu woke up, the room was pitch black.He subconsciously touched his side, but there was no one there.

Xu Mu got up from the bed and lit the lamp.I was alone in the room.

Xu Mu put on his clothes, picked up the teacup on the table, smelled it lightly, smiled, and whispered, "What the hell is this kid doing?"

He put the teacup back to its original place and planned to go out to have a look, but just after taking a step, he heard someone's footsteps outside the door.

Xu Mu quickly turned around and blew out the lamp, and quickly got into the quilt and pretended to be dead.

The visitor slowly opened the door and entered the room, his footsteps were lighter than those outside the door, and it was almost impossible to tell where he had gone.

Xu Mu held his breath, only to vaguely feel that someone was walking towards the bed.

The room was so dark that there was no light, and all of Xi Wei's morning light was shut out of the door.Xu Mu opened his eyes with trembling eyelashes, and the moment he saw the figure sitting by the bed, he sat up suddenly, covered the man's face with a pillow from behind, and dragged him back into the bed. into his arms.

"Don't move." Xu Mu successfully used the pillow in his hand as a murder weapon, blocking the mouth and nose of the person in his arms, and then he sat down in his ear with satisfaction, "Tell me, your night , where did it all go, baby boy?"

Of course there was no answer.

Xu Mu leaned over to his ear to see his expression - all he saw was a pair of eyes protruding from the pillow.After watching for a while, Xu Mu loosened the pillow that was strangling him, pressed him on the bed, and leaned over to look at him: "I'm asking you something."

Gu Jingyin was dazzled by his covering with a pillow, and was dragged a little short of breath.

Xu Mu touched his face: "It's so hot. Did you do something wrong?"

Before Gu Jingyin could answer, he felt a hand slip into his clothes.

"Be honest and don't move." Xu Mu played with his hair with two fingers and said with a smile, "Let me check."

However, Xu Mu's hand was unscrupulous for a while before it was firmly grasped by the other hand.

Just as he was about to break free, he suddenly felt his world spinning, and when he opened his eyes again, the two had already exchanged positions.

Xu Mu stared at the person above him without any hindrance, and said with a smile, "You're quite capable."

Gu Jingyin didn't move any more, just lowered his eyes silently, looked at his face carefully, and didn't speak for a long time.

Xu Mu asked: "What's wrong with you? Why didn't you come?"

Gu Jingyin stroked his cheek gently with one hand, his eyes were full of pity, and he said slowly: "You don't feel forced."

Xu Mu said: "What's your problem? You've done it so many times, and you're only asking me this now, don't you think it's a bit unnecessary?"

Gu Jingyin said: "I'm afraid that senior brother just can't help me pestering him..."

Xu Mu put his finger on his lips, and stopped what he was about to say: "Stop it, stop it, your pestering? You actually think you're pestering? Can you be a little more confident in yourself? Master Gu, you It’s not like this usually.”

Gu Jingyin held his hand on her chest: "I'm afraid I'll accidentally do something to force you..."

Xu Mu interrupted him impatiently: "Come on, what's wrong with you today? You didn't force me, I took the initiative. It's alright, there is no burden. Don't waste time."

But Xu Mu couldn't continue talking, because he saw a faint guilt in those beautiful eyes. ——His worst guilt.

"It's been so long, don't you still believe me?" Xu Mu sighed, slowed down his tone, and said slowly, "It's not because I'm tired of being pestered, nor because I can't bear to reject you, I I really like you. I have liked you since a long time ago."

"I know, I know..." Gu Jingyin buried his face in his shoulder, and whispered, "I will definitely take good care of you, and I will definitely not hurt you a little bit..."

Xu Mu thought that he was worried about the reason for his change of attitude, but he didn't expect that what he was worried about was whether he would be hurt, and he was a little confused for a while.

He thought to himself: this kid ran away all night, and when he came back, he went crazy and didn't know what to say.

But immediately, he didn't have the slightest thought to think about these words again, he only felt the delicate kiss fall on his neck, making his mind flutter.

Whatever bewilderment he committed.A moment in the Spring Festival is worth a thousand gold, and the Spring Festival is more important.