Self-denial System [Rebirth]

Six months later, Yaocheng.

There was a gentle breeze in the evening, and the lake was rippling slightly, and a small boat floated lightly with the water.

Xu Mu stood at the stern of the boat, the cool breeze blowing on his face made him feel refreshed.He flicked his two wide sleeves, watching them flutter in the wind with great interest.

Suddenly a person came out of the canopy behind him. Hearing the sound of footsteps, Xu Mu quickly turned around and greeted with a smile, "Come on, come and stand next to me and blow some air... Is it going to suffocate you inside?"

The visitor walked quietly behind him, and followed his gaze towards the misty lake.

Xu Mu casually moved towards him, rubbed his shoulder against his shoulder, and said softly, "Tell me, how is your chat going?"

Gu Jingyin heard the words, slightly retracted his gaze, and replied: "I haven't talked much."

Xu Mu closed his mouth, thought for a while, and said, "You, tell me, what did you tell her?"

Gu Jingyin said: "She said she was a little thirsty, I asked her to get some fruit to eat."

After hearing this, Xu Mu raised his eyebrows and asked, "And then? Then you let her eat the fruit by herself?"

Gu Jingyin said: "Then I came out..."

When Xu Mu heard this, the corners of his mouth twitched slightly, and he said sadly: "Is this how you treat your sister who just met you?"

Gu Jingyin turned around and asked, "Brother, don't you think it's right?"

Xu Mu sneered, "What do you think?"

Seeing his distorted expression, Gu Jingyin politely asked for advice: "Then senior brother said what to do."

Xu Mu said: "You should have taken a tangerine for her, washed it with your own hands, peeled the skin with your own hands, and then put it in front of her with your own hands. When you watch her eat, you should also get close to her and greet her with care. After a while, ask her where she has been recently, who she has met, and how she feels today..."

Gu Jingyin: "..."

Xu Mu raised his eyes: "What's your expression?"

Gu Jingyin smiled and said: "I didn't expect my brother to be such a meticulous person, it really makes me feel ashamed."

Xu Mu didn't even think about it, and said without shame: "Of course..."

Gu Jingyin looked at him and said, "If you let senior brother coax girls, he must be much more handy than me, right?"

"Of course it won't happen." Xu Mu suddenly felt that he was going in the wrong direction, and hurriedly reined in, "Don't change the subject with me here, let me tell you, if you talk to me again in the future, don't point it out like this ,so I……"

Gu Jingyin smiled and said, "So what?"

Xu Mu turned around to look at the water, sighed, and said slowly, "Don't even try to take advantage of me."

After Xu Mu sighed, he turned his head and said to him: "She probably has finished eating now, go in and be with her, I'll blow the wind by myself."

After hearing this, Gu Jingyin put away her smile, and said seriously: "It's better not to, this kind of thing can't be forced. I just asked her to take a lunch break in the cabin. I don't talk much."

When Xu Mu heard the word "recognize life", he suddenly remembered the scene when he saw the little girl for the first time, and the only thing left in his mind was the picture of her as if seeing a chicken chop that was charred on the outside and tender on the inside. Grinning and pounced on his picture, his arm hurt.

"Uh...then if this is the case, let's take it slowly, don't rush." ​​Xu Mu immediately lost his original position in an instant.

Gu Jingyin: "..."

Seeing that he didn't understand what he said, Xu Mu was just about to speak to him when he was suddenly dragged back by two hands and staggered violently.

"Hey, I've caught you!" The little girl pinched his waist with both hands and dragged him back, saying, "What evil things are you sneaking around here!"

Xu Mu took two steps back with those hands before he stabilized his pace. He pulled off the two claws on his waist, turned around and bent down: "Hey, didn't you take a nap? Why did you suddenly cheat?"

The girl curled her lips, "I don't want to sleep anymore." She blinked again and said, "What are you doing here?"

Xu Mu pursed his lips: "Well...it's nothing, I just plan to have an affair with your brother here, but as soon as you come, let's take it easy."

After listening to the girl, she didn't speak for a while.

Xu Mu lowered his eyes and looked at the villain in front of him: "What are you looking for?"

The girl took a step back: "I...it's fine."

Xu Mu said, "Are you okay?"

The girl paused for quite a while this time, before muttering in a low voice: "It's just..."

Xu Mu said: "What is it?"

The girl whispered, "I just feel a little bored."

Xu Mu sighed, leaned down, stretched out his hand to flick her hair, and said with a smile, "We've both taken you out for a day, so what else do you have to pick and choose? Since you're bored, I'll I'll send you back to your sister..."

When the girl heard the last sentence, she jumped up immediately: "No! I won't answer! I haven't played enough yet!"

Xu Mu said, "Isn't it boring?"

The girl grabbed his sleeve: "that's because you two always ignore me, what's the point of me being alone?"

Xu Mu smiled and said, "Well, then tell me, what should I do?"

The girl said: "Play with me more."

Xu Mu straightened up, glanced at someone who was not taken seriously by the side, and said with a smile: "It's all right, I'll listen to you, from now on I will only be with you, okay?"

The girl immediately smiled and said, "Okay!"

Before the smug smile on the corner of Xu Mu's mouth had time to adjust, he felt his arm being jerked by someone, and before he had time to look back at Gu Jingyin's expression, he was pulled by the girl's sleeve and dragged into the cabin.

"Sit here!" The girl enthusiastically pulled him to sit opposite her, thought for a while, and then pulled him up again, "Hey, this place is not good, it's too far outside, we'd better sit on the inside some!"

Xu Mu was played around by her like a marionette, and said helplessly, "Hey hey... I said, you dragged me around like this, have you considered your brother's feelings? He saw Do you know how sad it would be to see your sister having a hot fight with another person?"

The girl didn't speak, and pulled him around the entire cabin, and finally allowed him to sit down.

Xu Mu sat down, thinking she had something to do, but after sitting quietly for a long time, she didn't make any movement.After waiting for her for a long time, I didn't wait for her to speak again, so I had to speak by myself: "Why did you let me in?"

Then the girl raised her head, pointed to the outside of the cabin, and whispered to him with her lips: "I, afraid, him."

Xu Mu was taken aback, looked at the direction she pointed, and asked, "Afraid of him?"

The girl nodded heavily.

Xu Mu was taken aback, lowered his voice and asked, "Why are you afraid of him?"

The girl fell silent again.

Xu Mu changed his sitting position, casually leaning against the window, trying to make his words seem gentle and amiable, and comforted him softly: "Don't be afraid, he likes you very much."

The girl shook her head vigorously, then shrank back into the cabin.

Seeing the little girl's reaction, Xu Mu felt a "thud" in his heart for no reason.

"Don't be afraid." His tone was still very peaceful, "If you have something on your mind, tell me, okay?"

The girl lowered her head and said, "I..."

"No matter what worries you have, just tell me, I will never let you be wronged." Xu Mu moved closer to her, looked into her eyes, and comforted softly, "Trust me?"

The girl hesitated for a while before slowly answering: "I... my father told me... told me not to meet him, let alone talk to him... because he...he will take revenge on me... "

After hearing this, Xu Mu guessed that the "father" she was talking about was probably Gu Jingyin's adoptive father.He quickly sorted out the relationship between the few of them in his mind, and he probably understood five or six points.

Xu Mu: "Yinghan, don't be nervous, just talk to me. Whatever I ask, you answer, okay?"

The girl looked at him and nodded.

Xu Mu asked, "Did your father treat him very badly when you were young?"

The girl nodded tremblingly, and whispered: "Mm..."

Xu Mu asked, "Why are you treating him badly?"

The girl replied: "Because we were poor at that time, but my mother insisted on adopting him, my father was very angry at first... Later, when my mother passed away, my father treated him even worse, but he wanted him to work for the family, so ...So I keep him, but I often vent my anger on him..."

Xu Mu asked, "How do you vent your anger?"

The girl thought for a while, and said, "I was too young at that time, and I couldn't remember many things."

Xu Mu felt relieved for a moment, although he really wanted to know about that person's past, but when she said that she couldn't remember, he felt very relieved and heaved a long sigh of relief.

Can't remember, it's pretty good.

it's already over.

Unexpectedly, when he breathed a sigh of relief, the girl suddenly made a weak voice: "There is only one thing, and I still have some vague impressions."

Xu Mu collapsed, but he still tried his best to maintain a calm tone: "Which one?"

The girl continued: "One winter, my father asked him to chop firewood, but he was too young to hold the axe, and the wood slag splashed everywhere, and even flew into his eyes, which were bloodshot and frighteningly red. , shed tears when he saw the light. He could only hide in the dark of the house and covered his face. When my father came back and asked me where he was, I told him, and my father rushed in and beat him, saying that he was lazy, and grabbed him by the collar. He dragged him out, and as soon as he arrived in the yard, he burst into tears, saying that his eyes were burning with pain. After hearing this, his father pulled his hair and pushed him into the river that was about to freeze in front of the door. He is sober, he should be begging for mercy, but he was too choked to speak..."

Xu Mu's expression didn't change, he just lost his mind after listening, and turned his head to look out of the window at the water surface.In the early winter evening, the river was about to freeze. It seemed that if a long sword fell at this time, it would freeze and crack in an instant, not to mention a pair of fragile eyes.

Xu Mu slowly looked away, and asked: "So, you are afraid that he will take all his hatred for your father on you, are you?"

The girl looked at him and nodded.

Xu Mu smiled and stroked her hair: "Don't worry, he won't."

The girl still looked at him.

Xu Mu explained to her: "If he wanted to take revenge on you, would you still be able to eat, drink, and have fun so leisurely? Do you know that it was all arranged by him to pick you up to play this time? Make you happy. Just now, he was still telling me how to communicate with you, and he was still worried about whether you would admit your life. Tell me, what are you worried about?"

The girl lowered her head and didn't answer.

Xu Mu said to her: "Okay, don't think about it. Now that we have arrived at Fuyun Mountain, we will stay for a few more months. There are many interesting towns nearby. From now on, we will think about it every day, and go back after we have fun. How about it?"

As soon as the girl heard "play", the light in her eyes returned, she raised her head and replied, "Okay!"

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midnight.

Xu Mu was leaning against the bed, holding an old book that had just been turned over from a certain shelf in his hand, and was about to open it to see if there was someone's essay on it, when he heard the door hinge creak, Coldness immediately flooded into the room.

Xu Mu sat up and asked, "Has Yinghan rested?"

Gu Jingyin closed the door and walked to him: "She is so tired that she is already fast asleep."

Xu Mu threw the book in his hand aside, stretched out his hands to him, bent his eyes and smiled and said, "Come on, since everyone is asleep, let's sleep too."

Gu Jingyin looked down at the two arms stretched out to him, his eyes were much gentler, and he sat down beside him on the bed.

Seeing his movements, Xu Mu withdrew his hand resentfully, and said, "Tsk, why are you so uninterested? I said let's go to sleep, and you should answer right away; I stretched out my hand to you, and you should cooperate with me immediately." Come in my arms instead of sitting on the sidelines without saying a word."

Gu Jingyin: "..."

Xu Mu said: "What? Don't want to?"

Gu Jingyin said: "...If I can do it, I will definitely."

Xu Mu thought about it, and it was indeed a bit awkward to let a man who was a little taller than him nestle in his arms.But he never thought about this problem, he subconsciously felt that he should be the one who could shield him from the wind and rain.

However, even though I thought so in my heart, my mouth still refused to give in a little bit: "So what are you doing seriously? I just want to hug you..."

Xu Mu threw off the shoes on his feet, rolled a few times, and rolled to the innermost side, lay on his back on the bed, stretched out one arm, and patted his arm with the other hand: "Come on! Lie down!" In the warm arms of my brother!"

Gu Jingyin smiled a little helplessly, but that helplessness was immediately submerged in more intense pampering, he stood up from the bed, and said: "I'll go get some hot water first, you've already run away It's been a day..."

"Don't, don't, don't!" Xu Mu got up quickly, reached out and grabbed his sleeve, "No need to go, I've already washed it."

Gu Jingyin held down his restless hand that was rubbing back and forth along his sleeve, and firmly held it in the palm of his hand. He said without any haste: "Then I'll change and wash it, this coat can't be used on the bed. of……"

Xu Mu didn't want to listen to him anymore, stretched out his other hand, pulled him down on the bed with all his strength, and quickly pressed his body with his legs.

"Is it in my hands, huh?" Xu Mu's mouth curled into a distorted smile, he pressed the person under him with both hands, blinked at him, and said with a smile, "I still want to Run away, let's see how I eat and wipe you clean this time."

Gu Jingyin was a little panted by his series of actions, her cheeks were faintly red, only her eyes were still gentle as usual, looking at him quietly.

Seeing him being so docile and silent, Xu Mu lost more than half of his sense of accomplishment, and said dissatisfiedly, "Don't you have anything to say about your current appearance?"

Gu Jingyin adjusted his breathing and asked softly, "What did you say?"

Xu Mu guided patiently: "Won't you beg me for mercy?"

Gu Jingyin said: "What are you begging for mercy?"

Xu Mu didn't give up: "Please let me get off of you, please let you go, please let me go this time and don't let you go."

After listening to it, Gu Jingyin was silent for a while, and then said calmly: "Okay... please don't let me go."

Although Xu Mu was very displeased with his overly bland tone, he was already very satisfied with this sentence, and he smiled even more intensely, and said with an inch: "What are you, you have to make it clear, brother, I can consider asking Don't let you go."

Gu Jingyin: "..."

Xu Mu's eyes were fixed on the face of the person below him without missing a moment, not letting go of even a subtle expression. He watched the face that was originally slightly red gradually turn pale, and then slowly turn redder.

Seeing him being tortured physically and mentally by himself, Xu Mu felt a little distressed, let go of his hand, and said, "Are you so entangled? Can't you tell?"

Gu Jingyin replied honestly: "A little bit."

Xu Mu pretended to let out a long sigh, rolled off him, turned to one side, and sighed: "Oh, I just didn't have the fate to bully others, I'm so miserable."

Gu Jingyin turned her head, watched him sighing and sighing beside her, quietly waited for him to finish his life, then gently hugged him, and kissed him on the forehead: "No."

"No? No what?" Xu Mu pushed him away, but he didn't stop talking, saying whatever he thought of, "Call me brother, and only after calling brother can I let you continue."

Gu Jingyin insisted on not changing his address: "Senior Brother..."

Xu Mu raised his leg to push against him, and said emphatically, "Brother."

"Brother..." Gu Jingyin whispered in his ear, paused, and then said, "I won't bully you in the future, okay?"

Xu Mu was fascinated by his first two words, and hooked his body with his legs to prevent him from getting up, "Not good."

Gu Jingyin couldn't help laughing when he heard the words, brushed the broken hair in front of his face with his hands, and leaned over to give him a kiss.

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Candles crackle in the silent house, and outside the window is the bone-chilling wind that rages across the mountains and rivers.Xu Mu's fingers bent unconsciously, trying to hold the man's clothes tightly in his palm.

He has always only regarded his life as a piece of duckweed, he is content with whatever happens, and he will live wherever he drifts.But one day, he didn't dare to let it drift any longer, and he suddenly cared about his own things, his own thoughts, and his own heart.

Because he was able to glimpse the end of time when his heart was cold and his heart was failing.

Because he has been to the place where he belongs all his life——

There is no evil in that place, no sorrow.No suspicion, no worry about gains and losses.

He saw that person, no matter what kind of wind and rain he had experienced, he was still quietly waiting for him at the other end of time through the thick years.

That person, let him think about, miss, look forward to, and love with all his life.