Self-denial System [Rebirth]

On the first night when Xu Mu came back, without any accident, he suffered from insomnia all night.

The next morning, Xu Mu got up and went out. When he walked through the courtyard, he met a group of women passing by in a hurry.

When the woman in green shirt saw him, she was only slightly surprised, but not surprised.Normally, what Su Qiyue told them was that the head of the sect had gone into closed-door training, but now they only said that he had left the closed door early.

"You all got up so early, what are you doing?" Xu Mu stopped them.

"Miss Su said she doesn't want these things, she wants us to move out, and by the way, let those people stop proposing marriage..."

"Hey, wait, what's the marriage proposal? Who wants to get married?" Xu Mu stopped at the step he was going to say hello to, and then backed away.

"Miss Su..."

"Who is she with?"

A woman said: "A cousin of the Su family, they have been stalking all these years, and they have exhausted all means. Miss Su said that you are unwell and need to retreat for a few years, and they said that Qingluan can't be left alone for a day. Miss Su said she made the decision for you, and they said that the girl was weak and needed someone to take care of her. Those people even held more than ten family votes, and several Su family members who claimed to be elders unanimously wanted to arrange this marriage for the girl, why? It's useless to excuse..."

Another continued: "But now that the sect masters are out, they naturally have nothing to say and nothing to do."

The more Xu Mu listened, the angrier he became, his fingers clenched loudly: "It's too much to deceive people."

A woman hurriedly said: "They heard the girl say that the head of the sect will be in seclusion for a few years, and they secretly thought that you must have some serious illness, and they were afraid that you would no longer be able to take charge of Qingluan, so they became arrogant. Now if they hear The head of the sect has already been oiled on the soles of his feet when he leaves the customs, and he doesn't know where he has gone, so the head doesn't need to pay attention to them..."

Xu Mu was silent for a moment, then let go of his hand: "That can't be cheap for them, I'll let them settle down sooner or later..."

Seeing that the words said by the women didn't seem to suit him very well, they hurriedly said: "Miss Su, it's not easy to be alone these past few years. The head of the sect is free, so you must spend more time with the girl."

Xu Mu said: "That's natural, go ahead."

Xu Mu turned around on the mountain a few times, and then turned back to the Liuyun Palace. Guessing that it was not too early, he stepped forward to knock on the door lightly.

"Who is it?" came out a gentle female voice.

"It's me, sister, are you awake?" Xu Mu stopped knocking on the door.

"Wake up early, come in quickly." Su Qiyue came and opened the door for him.

When Xu Mu walked into the room, a familiar scent of flowers and plants came over his face.

"Making tea again? Then bring me some too." Xu Mu smiled and sat across from him, brazenly waiting for the other party to make tea for him.

Su Qiyue poured him tea and said, "Didn't sleep well last night, I specially prepared calming tea today..."

"Why are you so nice, I like you so much." Xu Mu hurriedly hugged the teacup full of petals in front of him, smiling all over his eyes.

Su Qiyue glanced at him: "It's a waste of your sweet talk to him."

"Don't waste it..." Xu Mu felt the temperature of the tea in the cup with his hand, it was neither cold nor hot, it was just right, then picked up the cup and drank two big gulps.

"correct……"

"correct……"

The two put down their teacups, looked at each other, and opened their mouths almost at the same time.

Xu Mu laughed, stopped, and said, "What do you want to say, sister?"

Su Qiyue said: "You go ahead, I'm not in a hurry."

Xu Mu said: "I just want to ask if Xiao Luo is okay now?"

Su Qiyue said: "That's exactly what I want to tell you. I wrote to her all night last night, asking her to come to Cangxue Mountain. It is estimated that she will arrive this afternoon."

Xu Mu lowered his head, looked at the tiny flowers floating up and down in his teacup, and said in a low voice, "Sister is really thoughtful and careful, and everything is arranged in an orderly manner, much better than me..."

Su Qiyue interrupted his guilty words: "Mu Chen..."

Xu Mu paused for a moment, and then continued: "Sometimes, I keep thinking that Brother Su didn't have to entrust you and this great cause to me back then, it was completely superfluous. To be honest, many times, I almost I feel that he just wants to help me, simply wants to give me these...but I can't figure it out..."

Su Qiyue said: "Boring has never misjudged people. He is more careful than I am, and considers things more thoroughly than I am. Since he can give you everything, he must regard you as a friend." I will treat each other like this. Before I met you, I often heard him mention your name. When we meet again, he is really a likable boy. You don’t have to think too much, you can get someone he trusts, It must be someone worthy of his trust."

Before Xu Mu could answer, he heard a woman's voice outside the door: "Miss Su, the letter you sent to Mo Chifeng yesterday got a reply today, but the letter was from Miss Zuo, who said that Miss Li sent it half a month ago. I took Miss Yinghan to Mount Fuyun, but I am not at Mochi Peak at this time."

Su Qiyue thought for a moment when she heard the words, and then replied: "I see."

Xu Mu was very surprised: "She went to Fuyun Mountain? Why did she go there?"

Su Qiyue smiled: "It seems really a coincidence that you didn't see her there yesterday?"

Xu Mu said, "What is she going to do?"

Su Qiyue said: "It's nothing unusual. The child she adopted, Ying Han, seems to be the daughter of Sect Leader Gu's adoptive mother. Sect Leader Gu has often visited Mochi Peak to see her in recent years. Thanks to Sect Leader Gu has taken good care of Mo Chifeng, I don't even care about my own affairs, and I can't do much for Xiao Luo and the others..."

Xu Mu was surprised for a moment, and asked: "Sister, what do you mean, Xiao Luo has become an acquaintance with him now?"

Hearing this, Su Qiyue was stunned for a moment, and then smiled again: "This is actually good, after all, they are all close to you, and it would be troublesome if they were enemies. Fortunately, Sect Leader Gu's temperament is not like yours." He is so ruthless and surly, he is obviously a gentle person, or maybe he has become gentle in the past few years, anyway, he is very kind to them, and he has never made it difficult for me..."

Xu Mu said: "Hey sister, you turned your back so soon? When did I say that he has a bad personality? But to be honest, when he was in front of me, his personality really wasn't good. You haven't tried it. If you try it, it's okay." I know how clingy he is, as for in front of you, you have to pretend like that, right?"

Su Qiyue smiled helplessly: "Think about your affairs yourself."

Xu Mu drank the tea in the cup before slowly saying, "If we..."

But Su Qiyue suddenly remembered something important, stood up hurriedly, and walked out the door: "You fly to Fuyun Mountain and tell Miss Li to delay Yinghan's marriage and come to Cangxue Mountain first .”

A woman stepped forward, responded, and then hesitated: "But what the head of the Gu said, I'm afraid he has already prepared everything..."

"Master Gu knows what to do, of course, go quickly, don't delay." Su Qiyue turned around and walked to the table after giving the order, with a slightly puzzled tone, "Just now I was only talking about gossip, but I forgot one thing , I wondered yesterday, since Head Gu saw you, how could he not keep you?"

Xu Mu paused holding the cup, and said, "Well...he might be a little busy these days... By the way, you just mentioned Yinghan's wedding, who is she marrying?"

Su Qiyue sat down across from him: "I've never seen that person before, anyway, he's someone close to Sect Leader Gu, and Sect Leader Gu has probably been worrying about this a lot these days, maybe he's just busy with these things. It will be fine in a few days."

Xu Mu is very sensitive to the word "wedding" now, and he heard these two words one after another today. Fortunately, hearing this time, his doubts were resolved.

Xu Mu stopped the teacup on the corner of his lips, and smiled: "It's not his fault for not keeping me, it's my fault."

Su Qiyue was a little puzzled: "What?"

Xu Mu put down the teacup in his hand, and said with a smile: "Sister, let me tell you, I seem to be suspicious of him again."

Su Qiyue didn't ask the detailed reason, but just paused for a moment, and said slowly: "It's not suspicion, it's just being too careful. But you have to know, only when you care too much, you will think about the past and the future."

Xu Mu lowered his head: "You really know how to speak for me."

Su Qiyue said: "I haven't finished yet. You, even if you care, you can't think too much. If you think too much, you will pass. If you are too careful, you will be unable to move forward."

Xu Mu raised his head and smiled, "It's really difficult."

Su Qiyue sighed: "Loving someone is probably the hardest thing in the world."

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The next day.

The faint light of the sunrise shone on the side of the bed, ending Xu Mu's sleep that he had never had all night.

Xu Mu got up and put it on, and sat on the side of the bed tidying up the bedding around his legs, when he suddenly heard some noises outside the door, and a few voices came faintly.Immediately afterwards, the door was knocked.

"Muchen, Miss Li and Yinghan are here."

Before Xu Mu had time to stand up and go to the door to meet them, he saw a figure pushing open the door and rushing towards him, and then plunged into his arms without any mistakes.

"Oh, Dawu, I miss you!"

Xu Mu lowered his head to look at the girl in his arms. She was dressed in simple clothes, and she did not look gentle at all. The back of her head looked like a boy's, with her ponytail tied high.

Xu Mu reached out and pulled her ponytail hair, raised her head slightly, glanced behind her, and said with a smile: "A bride who is about to get married, do you know how to avoid suspicion? Do you know whether a man and a woman can kiss each other? Huh? Your fiancé isn't here?"

The girl raised her head, but her arms were still tightly around his waist, "Oh no! Ah, let's talk! Even if he comes, I dare not say anything! If he dares to say a word! I will let my brother beat him ..."

After hearing her words, Xu Mu turned his eyes, rubbed her hair, and asked with a smile, "Which brother is yours? Is it the brother you let him see the wedding dress yesterday?"

At this time, Li Zhiluo slowly walked in from the door, pulled her out of Xu Mu's arms from behind, took her shoulders and slowly walked a few steps aside, and pulled her away casually, "OK Oh, don't forget the etiquette..."

Xu Mu raised his head: "Etiquette is enough for strangers, but for me, forget it."

Li Zhiluo raised his head and looked at him, then hurriedly lowered his head, his voice was very soft, but there was a hint of urgency in his tone: "Father has been fine these few years."

"It doesn't matter if I'm good or not, it's fine if I can still stand here anyway." Xu Mu didn't bother to mention himself, and asked perfunctorily, "It's you, who haven't taken care of you all these years, have you worked hard?"

"It won't be hard." Li Zhiluo replied.

"It's fine if you don't work hard. If you answered hard work just now, I guess I'll feel guilty for a while." After hearing what she said, Xu Mu felt relieved.He knew in his heart that he owed her, but he didn't know how to make it up.

Su Qiyue said: "Yinghan and Zhiluo follow me to the front hall, take a rest, and I will order them to prepare meals. Mu Chen must come over later, let's catch up together."

Xu Mu replied: "Listen to my sister."

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At the end of You Shi, Xu Mu cleaned the house a little bit, organized his things, and was about to go out to see how their conversation was going.

The winter evening is a bit cold, and the clouds and mists are filling the top of the distant mountains in the sky. Behind the distant mountains is the evening sky that is about to turn black and blue.

Xu Mu turned around and locked the door, paused, smiled, and then slowly went down the steps.

Xu Mu didn't hurry towards the front hall, but turned around the house and walked towards the backyard.It is the beginning of winter, the leaves of grass are dry, and the branches are faintly exposed under the thick snow.

Xu Mu stretched out his hand and flicked the snow off a dead leaf, then wiped a row of grass and trees just reaching his waist, and walked all the way to the depths of the courtyard.

He remembered that five years ago, he took care of this yard by himself. At that time, there were not as many flowers and plants as there are now, only here and there.

Xu Mu stopped, squatted down, shook a leaf, and said with a smile, "I didn't care about you, I'm sorry, but I'm relieved to see you are so fat."

Xu Mu let go, and said to himself, "But I guess... I still won't be able to take care of you in the future, so I apologize first."

Xu Mu stood up, turned around, walked a few steps, and stopped again.After pausing on the spot for a moment, Xu Mu turned around again, walked to the stone table beside him, swept the snow and sat down, resting his arms on the table, tapping his fingers lightly on the table.

After a while, the sound of feet stepping on snow came from the courtyard.

"Are you waiting for someone?"

"That's not it." Hearing this, Xu Mu withdrew his arms, straightened up, and turned around, "waiting for you."

Gu Jingyin sat down on the opposite side: "Brother, why don't you go to the front hall and join everyone..."

Xu Mu interrupted him with a smile: "Then why don't you stay in the front hall, chatting and laughing with everyone, what are you doing here, eh?"

Gu Jingyin looked at the smile on his face, then lowered his head again, looked around at the white snow at his feet, changed the topic and said: "Brother just said that he will not take care of these flowers and plants, which is really a pity."

Xu Mu sighed: "It's a pity, but... I have more important things to take care of."

Gu Jingyin raised his head: "What is it?"

Xu Mu looked at him with his chin in his hands, and said with a smile, "It's you."

Gu Jingyin was stunned for a moment: "Brother, what do you mean... you don't plan to stay here any longer?"

Xu Mu's gaze still stuck to his face as if it had taken root, staring at him with interest, stretched out a finger with his chin resting hand, and tapped himself repeatedly. "I mean, I won't be here all the time, what's the point of being here all the time, I plan to wander the world with you..."

Gu Jingyin laughed after listening, and said softly while laughing: "Listening to what you said...it's really like a dream..."

Xu Mu stretched out his hand, grabbed his hand that was casually placed on the table, and asked, "Do you feel it, is it true?"

The moment Gu Jingyin touched his fingertips, he held his hand tightly as if grabbing a life-saving straw, and said in a trembling voice: "Then why didn't you keep yesterday..."

Xu Mu covered the slightly cold hand with his other hand, and wanted to answer him, but couldn't speak.He really wanted to say that it was because he was sick!And tm committed a disease of suspicion of cranky thinking!He thought that he had a new love, thought that he was not that important in his heart, thought that he was happy for nothing... But after thinking about it, he still felt that he couldn't say that, because let alone say these ridiculous thoughts, Just thinking about it now makes me feel sick.So Xu Mu still had a smile on his face, and asked back, "Then why didn't you keep me?"

Gu Jingyin raised his eyelashes and stared at him intently, the bottomless eyes in the two rows of shadows.

"What do you think I am doing? Answer my question first." Xu Mu stretched out his hand and hooked his chin very skillfully, "Did you become so fascinated by my beauty that you even forgot how to say it?" ,Um?"

"Someone told me..." Gu Jingyin put down the two rows of eyelashes again, covering his eyes, and hesitated in a low voice, "Someone told me that for a person, the tighter they are, the more he wants to leave ,so……"

"So, you just let me go?" Xu Mu withdrew his hand, straightened his clothes, and folded his legs, "You don't have to be afraid, what if he goes further and further away if you don't tie him up? "

Gu Jingyin said: "If he feels happier that way, then let him."

Xu Mu put away his smile: "You have changed, you would never have said such things before."

Gu Jingyin said: "I haven't changed, I just don't dare to get too close, I'm afraid that I will..."

"Stop talking." Before he finished speaking, Xu Mu got up and walked behind him, hugged him from behind, and said on his shoulder, "I ask you a question, are you willing to have a good relationship with me from now on?" together?"

"Together?" Gu Jingyin slowly repeated these two words, wanting to turn around.

Xu Mu let go of him, turned to him, knelt down and took his hand, repeating: "Yes, together. As you said back then, we study and practice swords together, enjoy the world together, and do everything together What you want to do, okay?"

Gu Jingyin's hand trembled slightly in his, and his face was completely submerged in the long night.

"it is good……"

Xu Mu raised his head to look at him, pressed his answer back, and continued: "Don't answer me in a hurry, I am actually very bad. I am irresponsible, I am stubborn, and I always like to think wildly. , I always feel that you don't care enough about me. There is nothing in me that is worthy of you, probably only my heart is worth a little, would you like it? "

"Willing... I would like to..."

Xu Mu laughed, but his eyes were wet, "You won't regret it?"

Gu Jingyin replied: "No...I don't regret...I always regret one thing."

Xu Mu asked, "What's the matter?"

Gu Jingyin said: "I didn't learn to love you earlier."

The wind at night was like a veil, gently brushing over the faces of the two of them, and there was only the fragrance of flowers and plants and the chirping of insects and birds.

After hearing this sentence, Xu Mu suddenly remembered that when he was waiting for him yesterday, he saw a piece of paper on the table in his inner room, on which a few sentences were written casually, as if written in random, with the ink still on it. new.

One of which he still remembers:

If the years were gentle in the past, you have to protect and hold your hand.