Self-denial System [Rebirth]

Xu Mu's hand, which was still on his shoulder, froze for a moment when he thought of this question, and took it back.

But at the next moment, he still thought about his priorities—untied the hairband in his hand with lightning speed, dressed him indiscriminately, jumped out of the bed with his clothes in his arms, and Rush to the back of the bed at the speed of the wind.

"Where are you going?" Gu Jingyin sat up, untied the clothes he had rubbed on his body indiscriminately, and adjusted them again.

"I'll hide for a while...don't scare others..." Xu Mu replied while turning back, bent down, picked up his boots, and ran away.

After running to the bed, he suddenly realized a problem: Why did he run away in such a panic?And this disheveled and downcast look is simply the mistress who was caught and raped by the original partner, okay?

While scolding himself for being sick, Xu Mu hurriedly put on his clothes, but the more flustered he became, the more he couldn't dress well, and the clothes in his hands scattered all over the floor because he couldn't hold them securely.Xu Mu simply threw all his clothes on the ground, sat down cross-legged, put the headband in his mouth, and stretched out his hands to tie his hair, thinking that he must hold his breath and listen carefully to who his original partner is, ah bah, go tm The original partner, who is outside the door.

"You are indeed here." The female voice gradually became clear from the vagueness just now with the opening of the door, and then a burst of small female footsteps came from far to near to the inner room.

"What's wrong with you? What's wrong with you? Why did you ignore me just now when I knocked on the door when you were clearly in this room?" The woman's voice was very young, and she sounded less than 20 years old.

"Why are you here?" Gu Jingyin didn't answer her question, her voice was calm and peaceful.

This extremely calm tone made Xu Mu feel very familiar, and he was so familiar that he couldn't help but feel annoyed - he could almost imagine without looking, that person's eyes were still sluggish and bewildered at the last moment, but in the next Can switch freely at will, become the style of a gentleman who is not red-faced and heart-beating.

Xu Mu cursed in his heart, "This little bastard", angrily pulled the headband from his mouth, twisted it around the back of his head, and fastened it tightly.Then he rummaged through the pile of clothes in front of him, picked out a coat, folded it twice, put it on the ground, folded his hands behind his neck and lay down.

The noise outside seemed to be reduced a lot, there was no voice of speaking, only the rustling of clothes, it seemed that the woman took a few steps forward and sat down on the bed.

"What else can I do? Hurry up, come and see. I asked Master Qin yesterday, and she said that the phoenix pattern on the wedding dress is still beautiful, and the peony is a bit too ostentatious. I went back and thought about it, so What's the matter, the peony flower plate is too big, although it is beautiful, but it is a bit delicate, I don't like it very much, I thought about it, I'd better ask your opinion..." The woman's voice came through the screen and the curtain. Behind the bed, it looked a little hazy.

Gu Jingyin took a look at the clothes in the woman's hand, and said in a flat tone: "You don't need to pay too much attention to this, it's just a set of clothes, it's not a big deal."

"What are you talking about? This is not an ordinary dress. This is my wedding dress. It is a dress that a woman can only wear once in a lifetime. How can you treat it so casually..." The woman seemed a little dissatisfied , the voice became a little heavier, and the tone seemed to be coquettish.

"Then do as you want..." Gu Jingyin's voice still did not fluctuate, it was as peaceful as a pool of still water.

Xu Mu was still on the back of the bed, looking idle and idle, counting the wood grains on the beams with his arms on his pillow, one leg stacked on top of the other, and his feet were shaking so much that they almost kicked the roof.It wasn't until he heard the word "wedding dress" that he finally calmed down his restless legs, turned over and sat up from the ground.

This woman didn't come here to ask her future husband how to make her wedding dress look better, right? ? !

Xu Mu thought to himself: This, this, this... this brat!How many years has it been?So empty and lonely looking for another woman?

Xu Mu didn't bother to pick up the robe on the ground, he just wanted to rush out and give him two punches.

But the fists are clenched, but the footsteps can't move.

Xu Mu suddenly thought: How old is he?Not to mention that he has already reached the age to talk about marriage. In ancient times, I am afraid that it would not be an exaggeration to say that he has passed this age.

But what about myself?After losing him for so many years, and then running back suddenly, do you still want him to think that nothing happened, abandon the current life and accept himself?

Obviously a boy in his prime, but he wasted more than ten years of youth on himself, and these years can be said to be wasted, and nothing was exchanged at all.

At this time, I don't seem to have the right to go out and teach him a lesson.

In the past, when he cared about himself like a pestering child, liked him, and told his lovesickness by his side every day, he didn't think about anything, only thinking about when he would be able to get rid of him and let him play go.

However, now seeing that he has other people around him to accompany him in the days when he is not with him, I feel a strange feeling in my heart that I have never felt before.He couldn't describe the feeling, but he knew it was uncomfortable, very uncomfortable.

But no matter how strong this feeling was, he still forced it back into his heart.Why should I take him for granted as the one who deserves to wait for me shamelessly in the same place?He is also a man who can grow, can't he have his own ideas and changes?

Or maybe, he doesn't like him to the point where he has to be alone... What?

If that's the case, it's not impossible for me to be a close friend by his side, at least I can see him all the time in the years to come.

Since the former self didn't cherish what should be cherished, don't expect too much now.

Xu Mu stopped listening to what the people outside said, and slowly bent over to pick up the clothes on the ground, rubbed them casually a few times and hugged them in his arms, sat cross-legged on the ground and stared blankly for a while.

Holding his chin with his hands on his knees, he sat for half an hour, until half of his face was pressed into a hole by his hands, and he didn't even think of changing his movements.

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"Why are you sitting on the ground?" Gu Jingyin walked around the bed, walking very lightly, "You don't even put on your clothes, why don't you come out and sit properly..."

Xu Mu was so lost in thought that he was about to fall asleep, but he woke up when he heard his voice. He stood up with his hands propped up, and put the clothes in his arms on his body: "Isn't it inconvenient for me to go out..."

Gu Jingyin stepped forward, helped him tie up his clothes, and asked, "Where have you lived all these years, brother?"

"Me?" Xu Mu thought for a moment, then replied, "Where else could it be, of course it's Cangxue Mountain..."

Gu Jingyin seemed a little surprised when he heard the words: "In my impression, senior brother has never liked to live in one place for a long time. I didn't expect that there is such a place in this world where senior brother can stay for five or six years."

Xu Mu thought that there was no way to explain this matter, and the more he explained, the more chaotic it became, so he changed the topic: "I think you are very busy, why don't you go and do it first, I have nothing to do, I will wait for you here. By the way, You will come back here to rest at night, right?"

Gu Jingyin frowned slightly: "Brother, are you serious?"

Xu Mu had already walked to the bedside, and turned around when he heard his words: "What's true?"

Gu Jingyin said: "Brother, do you really want to stay here at night?"

Just as Xu Mu wanted to answer, he opened his mouth and didn't make a sound. After a pause, he suddenly realized something and said with a smile, "Ah...no...of course not, I was just kidding with you, I have to go back, right... "

Gu Jingyin didn't show any expression after hearing this, but walked forward with his head down, and pulled off Xu Mu's unfinished cuffs, "When senior brother is free, you can come and see me more, don't just disappear for years gone."

Xu Mu said: "Ah...that's for sure...not anymore." Startled for a moment, he withdrew his hand, "I'll do it myself, I...then I'll go first...you...you have Kong can also come to the mountain to accompany me..."

Gu Jingyin smiled at him as a reply.

Seeing his smile, Xu Mu's mood suddenly became brighter, and the smile brightened accordingly, and he blinked at him: "Don't forget, remember to put that box on the shelf, or I will get angry."

The corner of Gu Jingyin's mouth rose a little more: "Don't worry."

Xu Mu turned around to go out, but suddenly turned around again, and said with a smile, "Come here, let me hug you again."

Hearing this, Gu Jingyin smiled softly, lowered his head, and his black hair was scattered in front of him.

Xu Mu didn't wait for his answer, walked over by herself, kissed his cheek, and patted his shoulder: "Okay, I'm really leaving this time."

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When I came, I was full of eagerness, but when I left, my heart seemed to be very relaxed.

It's so light and light, it feels like nothing.

Xu Mu took a deep breath, and felt that "relaxed and happy" could not be an exaggeration to describe his current mood.

——Now I can finally like him openly and aboveboard.

What fills the gap between two people is finally no longer suspicion and misunderstanding, but something very warm and comfortable.

He didn't ask for anything else, he just wanted to be able to smile like a bosom friend when we met again, and that was enough.

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Xu Mu slowly wandered back to Cangxue Mountain. Before he went up the mountain, he saw an oil-paper umbrella on the bluestone path from a distance, shaking gently among the fluttering snowflakes.

A hint of lavender was faintly revealed in the deep winter mist.

Xu Mu quickened his pace and took a few steps forward: "Sister, why are you sitting here? Are you afraid of being frozen into a popsicle?"

Su Qiyue raised her head, her lips turned pale: "You can count yourself back, you came together and rushed out without saying anything, I'm afraid something will happen to you..."

Xu Mu leaned over to help her up, and said, "My fault, I was too impatient at the time, and I didn't have time to tell you clearly, but I'm back now, right? So, let's go back?"

The two walked quietly on the mountain path where the sky was getting dark, and a thin layer of snow had already accumulated on the dry grass and trees under their feet.

"I knew it..." Su Qiyue said softly, "I knew you would come back sooner or later, just like him..."

Xu Mu walked a little behind her and held the umbrella for the two of them. Hearing what she said, he smiled and said, "Yeah, if I knew this earlier, why should I bother?"

Su Qiyue heard the laughter in his words, her voice stopped lamenting, and her tone slightly increased: "It's great if you can think about it now, just treat it as a trip back and forth, so that you can understand clearly what you care about." .”

In the evening, the cold wind slipped through their clothes and blew their hair.Xu Mu's eyes inadvertently fell on the temples of the person in front of him, and he saw that the place that should have been blue hair was faintly covered with a layer of light frost.

Xu Mu felt a little uncomfortable.

In this world, no matter who he is, he is the one who breaks his promise.

"Sorry……"

Su Qiyue paused, and turned around: "Why are you apologizing?"

Xu Mu said: "For so many years, I have clearly promised that I will take good care of you and take care of the whole Qingluan, but besides being willful..."

Su Qiyue smiled: "Okay, in my eyes, you are just a child, there is no reason for you to take care of me. Besides, these things are not your responsibility, so why feel guilty."

Xu Mu didn't know how to answer the conversation for a while, and he couldn't even say a word to ease the atmosphere.No matter how shamelessly he could make jokes in front of others, he couldn't even make an outrageous joke in front of her.It was as if this person had already regarded her as a respected elder sister from the bottom of his heart.

Su Qiyue saw that he looked a little embarrassed, so she stopped looking at him, turned around and walked forward: "You must have gone to see him in such a hurry."

Xu Mu said: "Yes..."

Su Qiyue said: "That's what I'm worried about. I wanted to stop you but I didn't. I know you can't wait to find him, but I'm afraid you didn't understand what the other party's intentions are now, so you went in such a hurry , it will only make both of you unable to cope."

Xu Mu kept silent and silently followed behind her.

Su Qiyue didn't hear his answer, so she slowed down: "Muchen... how are you?"

Xu Mu smiled and said, "Of course we are fine."

Su Qiyue was silent for a while, and then continued: "It's fine if you can be good, just express your heart."

Xu Mu raised his head and looked at the sky that had already been completely dyed by the night. Countless white snows fluttered down from the sky like fluttering catkins.

This is not a long mountain road, but it was extremely long by the two of them.

From twilight to darkness.

"Then what are you going to do from now on." Su Qiyue's voice was still gentle as if treating her own child, "You don't have to worry here, as long as I still have breath, you don't need to worry about it."

Xu Mu said: "Since you are entrusted by someone, you have to keep your word. I won't leave here, or I'll feel bad. Of course, I won't leave him either."

Su Qiyue was a little surprised: "Are you going to stay in Cangxue Mountain? You won't go with him..."

Xu Mu interrupted with a smile: "If we want to be together, we don't have to be tired of being together every day. That way, it's easier to regenerate estrangement. It's best to know each other and live in peace. I'll invite him again when nothing happens. Come to drink tea on the mountain, my sister will welcome you."

Su Qiyue was stunned for a moment, before returning to her senses: "No, of course not."

Xu Mu put away the umbrella with a smile, and the remaining snow scattered all over the ground.