Self-denial System [Rebirth]

※※※The story of this chapter happened before the previous chapter

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Everyone in the world says "the lonely smoke in the desert", but the desert in front of us is so desolate that there is not even a wisp of lonely smoke.

Some are just jagged rocks and howling wind.

The sword in Xu Mu's hand dragged a long dent in the sand as he walked away.

—a bloody dent.

Clouds and mist slowly covered the last gleam of the dim setting sun in the sky, and the sound of the wind swirled between the towering stones, making a whine that was almost like a ghost crying.

The wind and sand blinded his eyes, and Xu Mu covered his mouth and nose with his other hand, only then could he hold back a mouthful of blood that was about to spit out.

so tired.

Xu Mu forced himself to walk a few more steps, and finally couldn't walk anymore, and sat down leaning against a rock.

Throwing the sword aside, taking off the gauze hat to cover his face, and laying his whole body flat on the yellow sand, Xu Mu finally felt relieved.

Go to sleep.

"System, do me a favor. I'll sleep for 10 minutes. Remember to wake me up later."

【...Why can't you go back to sleep in the cave? 】

"Isn't the neon grass in the cave unable to see blood? I'll go back when my wound heals on its own..."

【You like that grass so much? 】

"Of course, it's much more likable than you." Xu Mu replied with a smile, taking a breath of the sand-free air under the bamboo hat, feeling a little warmer in his chest.

The system was silent for a while, and then continued: 【Actually, Qixialian is the most useful herb in the empty curtain cave. Some people used this herb to increase their cultivation level by one level... and the seven-star grass is also good, it can be used as a talisman The material...Jin Yangzhi is also good, it can be used to refine the fire attribute panacea...]

"Are you jealous of it?" Xu Mu interrupted the system.

【... What are you jealous of? 】

"I'm jealous that I didn't share my love for that grass with you." The corners of Xu Mu's mouth curled up slightly.

【…】

"Don't be shy, just say it."

【…】

【I just think you dote on that grass too much. You stare at it every day and night, run out to find dew for it every day, and lie beside it and mutter to yourself at night.I'm afraid that if you continue like this, you will become insane. As your system, I think it may be necessary for me to remind you to maintain a clear mind. 】

"Am I insane? I haven't dealt with it yet..."

【You don't have any special abnormal emotions towards it, do you? 】

After hearing this, Xu Mu laughed so hard that he almost choked on his own saliva, "Do you think I fell in love with that grass?"

[It's not impossible. 】

"Hahaha, you..." Xu Mu laughed halfway, then stopped again, "Well...it's not unreasonable, after all, there are not many living things here, let alone beautiful ones. Then The appearance of the grass is quite high, colorful, um, quite beautiful, it can barely meet the standard of being my lover..."

[Please come here immediately! 】The system sternly shouted.

Xu Mu was taken aback by the sudden increase in the volume of the system: "Why are you so nervous? You scared me. Can you believe me when I make a joke? Or is it such a nonsense joke? Where is your IQ? Besides, I love a piece of grass, it has a purpose, can it let me cuddle, or can I touch it, or can it spend the spring night with me?"

【Then why do you get hurt all over because of that grass, it doesn't need you to find dew for it, people have grown here for hundreds of years, and they don't need anyone to take care of them...】

"Oh, with morning and evening dew, wouldn't it shorten the growth period by ten times?"

【What are you doing to make it grow so fast. 】

Xu Mu pursed his lips slightly and smiled, "It's useful."

【…】

Xu Mu explained: "Look, every time I go to collect dew by the Huangchuan stream, I will be beaten to death by that stupid lake monster. Isn't the neon grass a demon-attracting grass, and when I raise it, I can use it to start Lure out that ugly lake monster, and then I will go in to steal the dew, and I don't have to be beaten like this by him..."

[... Put the cart before the horse.If you don't look for Lushui, will you provoke that monster?Your original intention is still for Nishangcao...]

"Oh, are you annoying or not? You don't care what I do. You are so annoying." Seeing that the lie was not true, Xu Mu wanted to fool him. He rubbed the gauze on the bamboo hat back and forth to cover his face, and listened dully to what he said. No sound.

【…】

【Your injury this time is very serious, and you probably won't be able to heal in a while. 】

"Ah?" Xu Mu rolled over and sat up when he heard the words "a while and a half", and said nervously, "How long will it take?"

[About ten days. 】

"Ah? Then my grass... I won't see my grass for ten days... Ah!" Xu Mu lay back on the sand again.

【Now go back to the cave and sit quietly for a while, it won't take a while to...】

"No, no, no, no..." Xu Mu covered his face with a scarf, rolled back and forth on the sand, and hummed softly, "My grass can't see blood..."

【…】

Seeing that the only talking thing around him refused to talk to him anymore, Xu Mu rolled around on the ground and continued to hum: "Don't hide, keep talking with me, it's so boring, I can't see Xiaocao I only have you in my life, and there is no living person in this desolate desert..."

Unexpectedly, as soon as he said this, he was patted on the shoulder.

Xu Mu was taken aback, and immediately stopped rolling on the ground.

Fuck, it couldn't be that ugly monster who chased here from Arakawa!

Didn't I tm just take a drop of morning and evening dew from you!You won't give even a drop!I picked it for you!

Xu Mu didn't dare to continue rolling on the ground, he quickly touched the sword beside him, and got up from the ground.

It's just that when he stood up and saw the person in front of him clearly, his mind was shocked!

I just feel that this person is a hundred times more terrifying than that stupid lake monster!Ten thousand times![-] million times!

Xu Mu drew out his sword: "You...you...how come you are here...you want...what are you going to do?"

Su Boling smiled and said, "I accidentally surprised Mr. Xu, I'm sorry."

"You... You, don't hide the knife in a joke with me... How do you know that I'm here... Just tell me what you want to do."

Su Boling still smiled slightly: "My lord, please be safe and don't be impatient. I see that you are injured, why don't I let me take care of you..."

"No need!" Xu Mu hurriedly took a step back, blocking the sword in front of him, "Hey, let me tell you, I don't know anything about your affairs, I don't care, and I will never interfere in my life. You can make as much fuss as you like! I will never interfere! I will not talk to others! Just treat me as dead, don’t worry..."

Su Boling's smile deepened: "My lord thinks I'm here to ask for your life?"

Xu Mu said, "Isn't it?"

Su Boling lowered his head, still smiling.

The sword in Xu Mu's hand had faintly glowed with silver light, and he said: "If you want to kill, do it, don't moan, haw, dawdle, I hate you the most..."

Su Boling said: "Young Master Xu, don't be so hostile to me..."

But just before he finished speaking, the person in front of him suddenly covered his chest with his hands and spat out a mouthful of blood.

Xu Mu just felt nauseous and wanted to vomit, but he didn't expect that when he used the sword now, he would be so nauseous that he could vomit blood.

After bending over to vomit on the spot for a while, Xu Mu took a deep breath, and stood up again holding the sword, but just when he raised his head, he felt nausea rushing up his throat again.

His eyes darkened, and he knelt down.

Damn, what would happen if you fainted in front of your old enemy? !

——This was Xu Mu's only thought before he passed out.

When he opened his eyes again, Xu Mu found that he had returned to the Konglian Cave.

Xu Mu blinked twice, adjusted to the darkness in the cave, and quickly got up to look at his neon grass.

Still fine.

Xu Mu carefully took out a small leaf from his sleeve, and fed the dew wrapped in it to the grass.After finishing all this work, he breathed a sigh of relief and lay down on the spot to relax for a while.

After lying down for a while, Xu Mu turned around, leaned sideways and put one arm under his body, stared at the grass, stared at it for a while, and fiddled with the leaves of the neon grass with the other hand.

The blades with tiny corrugations swayed back and forth.

"You can grow up quickly..." Xu Mu smiled slightly and said to himself.

"What use does Mr. Xu want this grass?"

Xu Mu jumped up from the ground when he heard these words, "Are you still here?!"

Su Boling walked in slowly from the entrance of the cave: "Young master was sent back from me, so you won't mind if you stay here for a while..."

Xu Mu smiled: "I mind very much, please leave quickly."

But Su Boling still walked towards the cave: "But next time I come here, I have something to discuss with you..."

Xu Mu kept retreating as he advanced: "If you have something to say, just say it, and leave quickly after you finish talking."

"I would like to borrow the son's soul refining orb for use."

"..."

"You think so beautifully! That's my most valuable thing, no, it's my most useful thing, don't borrow it!"

As soon as Xu Mu spoke loudly, his head began to violently dizzy again, and he quickly sat on the stone beside him while leaning on the wall.

Su Boling was not annoyed when he heard the words, but walked over slowly, sat beside him, and said, "Young Master Xu also took great pains to hide from your junior brother, and thanks to your system, I can help you..."

Xu Mu didn't have time to answer him, so he stretched out his hands to rub his temples, and calmed down a little.

After recovering, Xu Mu quickly moved to the side and held the sword in his hand: "Don't talk about it with me, don't you also have the system? Oh, I see, you don't mean to tell him I'm not dead! Or, you were sent by him to kill me!"

Su Boling smiled and said, "Master, you think too much. I didn't move around much when I came in with Master Gu. However, if you are willing to lend me the Soul Refining Orb, I can keep these secrets for you."

"Are you threatening me with these?" Xu Mu raised his eyes and asked.

Su Boling said: "It's not a threat, it's just an invitation to cooperate with you."

Xu Mu didn't answer.Because, he couldn't believe this person.

The two of them sat quietly in the pitch-black cave. In the thick darkness, only one neon grass quietly glowed.From time to time, a few small insects chirped from the depths of the cave.

After a moment of silence, Su Boling spoke slowly:

"Young Master, if you really want to escape, if you want to escape completely, it is useless here. You need to leave this world."

Xu Mu sneered, "You think I want to stay here."

"Would you like to go to Cangxue Mountain with me, young master? Maybe we can try a method..."

"any solution?"

"Since there are countless wandering souls in this world, there will also be countless broken bodies that have lost their souls. Young Master's system can help these broken bodies recover their lives. The points for saving a life are far higher than doing other good deeds More, it is a way to quickly open the world boundary..."

Xu Mu asked: "But they have already lost their souls. If they don't return their souls, what's the use of their bodies? Aren't they still walking dead?"

Su Boling replied: "It's the walking dead, but what does it have to do with you? You just need to get points."

Xu Mu frowned slightly when he heard this, he didn't speak for a while, and after a while of silence, he spoke again: "Su Boling, don't tell me that you summoned so many lonely ghosts on purpose, in order to follow their souls to find To achieve the purpose you just mentioned. Day after day, there are too many souls accumulated, and there is nowhere to put them, so I thought of asking me for another soul refining bead..." Xu Mu said, his mind suddenly twitched. A terrible thought came to mind, "Or, those people died because of you..."

But Su Boling interrupted him before he could speak: "My lord, why would you think so, of course not. The system will go dormant once ten years are up, and I have no chance to go back now, so it's useless to use this method."

Xu Mu said: "Then what are you going to do with the container for storing souls?"

Su Boling smiled, but did not answer.

Xu Mu said: "You taught me how to trust you by hiding it from me."

Su Boling was still speechless. After a while of silence, he suddenly said something irrelevant: "My lord... have you ever had feelings for this world?"

Xu Mu was taken aback when he heard this.

"I know that you and I are both acting in this world, and you will be punished if you make a wrong move. However, after all these years, have you ever been sincere to anyone in this world?"

Xu Mu's eyes were hidden in the darkness, and he couldn't see any fluctuations in them.

Su Boling said to himself: "Young master is so young, it should be incomprehensible. Seeing that young master is still safe and sound, I am afraid that those tasks have been completed very well, and the acting is handy. But Su is different."

Xu Mu thought to himself: How can you tell that I'm so handy, I'm going to be driven crazy, okay?

Su Boling said again: "Young master has never experienced punishment, so I don't know how terrible it is."

Xu Mu said: "Isn't it just death?"

Su Boling said with a smile: "Death is not terrible, because before you die, you still have time to use the points you get to save yourself. I mean the punishment before death is the most terrible nightmare in this world."

Xu Mu asked, "What is it?"

"nothingness."

"What is nothingness?"

"Nothingness is an illusion. Things you haven't finished, or things you feel painful, will keep reappearing, starting again, ending, and starting again. It's like a pile of memory fragments."

Xu Mu asked: "How long will the punishment be?"

Su Boling shook his head.

Xu Mu didn't ask anymore, but felt dizzy more and more, as if he would continue to vomit blood at any time.

Su Boling got up, walked closer to him, and reached out to hold his wrist.

Suddenly, Xu Mu felt a burst of gentle spiritual power slowly ascending along his arms, and slowly melting on his chest.

He wanted to withdraw his hand, but the other party held it tighter.

There was another gleam of light in the darkness—a warm white light where their wrists met.

"When will you use it?" Xu Mu raised his head and said softly.

"Three years later."

Xu Mu frowned even tighter: "What the hell are you doing? Three years later? Do you still know what will happen in three years' time!"

"My son and I can't explain this, and you don't need to know."

Xu Mu wanted to vomit, but after hearing this, he could no longer hold back the blood in his chest, and suddenly spit out a mouthful of turbid blood.

Su Boling got up quickly, wiped the blood in front of him for him, and tightened his grip on his wrist, and his aura became brighter and brighter.

Xu Mu felt as if a wave of warmth flowed into his body, temporarily suppressing the nausea.

"It's okay. Although the demon poison is a bit fierce, this is an empty curtain cave. You can recover from a rest here for a few days." Su Boling said softly, as if to comfort him, "Besides, I saw that you planted neon weeds. The grass can be used to lure the demonic poison out of the body, and the young master only needs to find another living thing as a container to expel the demonic poison from the body."

Xu Mu wiped the remaining blood from his mouth with his sleeve, and was about to say something, but Su Boling continued: "Why don't I just bring that grass, catch a mouse, and draw out the poison of the young master... ..."

"Don't! Don't..." Xu Mu quickly grabbed his hand, not letting him move the grass.

Xu Mu raised his head and said, "Give me two years, two years, two years later, I will naturally lend you the Soul Refining Orb, but you must keep your promise and don't tell others that I am not dead."

Su Boling seemed a little puzzled: "Two years?" Then he regained his composure, "Okay, but what does this have to do with detoxifying the young master?"

Xu Mu didn't answer his question, but just said: "That neon dress grass hasn't fully grown yet, don't touch it yet, I'll keep it still useful."

Su Boling was silent for a while, and said, "You plan to wait for it to fully grow, and spend another two full years here?"

Xu Mu didn't answer.

Su Boling said in a low voice: "When the Nishang grass grows, its efficacy will be doubled. Young master, who are you going to save?"

Xu Mu smiled at him: "If you have something to hide from me, can't I not tell you something?"

Hearing this, Su Boling smiled slightly, and said, "Okay, I won't ask any more questions. I just hope that you can keep the promise."

Xu Mu replied with a smile: "Of course."

The sky outside the cave was still as dark as ink, and the night sky, which was originally covered with mist, became clear now.Amidst the whistling of the wind, several stars loomed above the sky.

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"Didn't the master say he was going to visit Miss Su?"

Two rows of women in blue shirts were standing neatly in the hall, and a woman at the front stepped forward and called softly.

Xu Mu raised his head upon hearing this, and said with a smile, "Oh, I lost my mind for a while, almost forgot."

The woman lowered her head and chuckled: "What are you thinking, sir?"

Xu Mu stood up, took the robe in her hand and put it on, and replied, "I think of the time when I was in Kongliandong with you Brother Su many years ago."

The woman in the green shirt replied: "The master misses the master Su."

Xu Mu smiled, took a sip of tea from the table, moistened his dry throat, withdrew his thoughts, got up and walked out of the hall.

Followed by two women in green shirts, they walked all the way to Liuyun Hall.

Before Xu Mu entered the palace gate, he smelled the scent of aromatherapy—like the fragrance of tea mixed with the fragrance of flowers, it was fresh and pleasant.

"Master Xu." The woman in purple saw the person coming, and slowly stood up from her seat, showing a gentle smile, and saluted.

Xu Mu quickly stepped forward to support her, and said with a smile, "Sister, you can sit down."

Helping her sit down, Xu Mu turned around and smiled at the other women in the hall: "You guys are on vacation, go play, let's talk a few words."

Hearing the words, more than a dozen women in green shirts lowered their heads and pursed their lips slightly, and retreated in a single file.

"How is your body?" Xu Mu swayed back and forth in the hall a few times, and fiddled with the broken flower petals in the basket on the side.

Su Qiyue returned a smile, her tone was still gentle and gentle: "Would you still say these polite words when I'm here?"

"Daily greetings don't work either." Xu Mu said with a smile, then walked back to the table and sat down.

"You haven't visited Xiaoluo for some time." Su Qiyue poured scented tea for the two of them, "The last time that child came was two or three years ago."

"It's been a long time." Xu Mu smiled, picked up the teacup from the table and took a sip, "But I went to Mochi Peak to see her a year ago. Girls are getting taller too."

"I heard that Xiaoluo has adopted many orphans living on the streets in Mochi Peak. She is very kind."

Xu Mu put down the cup in his hand, lowered his eyes and said, "Because no one took care of her when she was a child, so she should be able to understand the feelings of those children."

Su Qiyue sighed slightly: "She is also a poor girl, now only you are left as her half relative, you..." She stopped in the middle of her speech, as if she suddenly remembered something.

Xu Mu raised his eyes: "So, please ask my sister to take care of her for me in the future."

Su Qiyue said: "Are you ready?"

Xu Mu nodded: "The points are enough early, and you can go back at any time."

Su Qiyue sighed slowly again: "Since you have decided to go back now, why didn't you visit her more while you were still there a few years ago, it was not easy for her to be there alone..."

Xu Mu bowed his head and remained silent for a while, before replying in a low voice: "The relationship is deep, and it will be more troublesome when you leave."

Su Qiyue said: "Then you won't have any regrets?"

Xu Mudao: "In these years, I have done my best to do what others entrusted to me, and I feel that I am not ashamed."

Su Qiyue said slowly: "I know, you are the one who manages Qingluan up and down, and the style of the school is not as impetuous as before, it is much more restrained than before, and the disciples are no different from you , and become one. I will write these things in a letter and burn them to Boling..." At the end, his voice dropped.

Xu Mu hurriedly took the handkerchief on the table and handed it over, smiling and comforting: "Don't, sister, why did it start again? How many times have you been crying while talking? Didn't I tell you all about it?" Well, maybe he didn't die, maybe he went back, after all, no one has experienced what happens after death, right, why rush to the conclusion that he must be dead, stop crying... "

Su Qiyue wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, and then replied: "I know, I know, it's just...you did these things for others, but what about your own things, don't you have any regrets?"

After Xu Mu heard this, he sat back in his seat.

After being silent for a while, he suddenly said: "Sister, many years ago, Brother Su said to me, he asked me 'Have you ever been sincere to anyone in this world', I didn't understand what it meant at the time, until many years ago I realized later that he took so much pains and refused to tell me the reason is to save you. It stands to reason that you should be two people who have nothing to do with each other. Even if he treats you well, it should be a show, but he In the end, I fell in love with you."

Xu Mu didn't dare to look up into the eyes of the person opposite, he was afraid that he would see tears again, so he just continued: "If I had understood what he meant back then, I would have told him, of course I moved."

Su Qiyue's voice trembled a little: "Mu Chen, then stay..."

"But although I moved my heart, I didn't get it."

Su Qiyue held back her sobbing, and tried her best to say a complete sentence: "Mu Chen, I know you are arrogant and unwilling to bow your head, but...you can't be wronged a little bit, and take what he did...for the time being... As a way for him to love you, can't you?"

Xu Mu lowered his eyes, and after a long while, he said, "But the two of us can't get along with each other at all. Although he didn't say anything, he was suspicious of me, didn't trust me, and was always worried about my 'thing'. One day it will be out of his control..."

Su Qiyue said: "Mu Chen, don't do things that you regret, you must go and meet him, otherwise...or you will definitely regret it..."

Xu Mu laughed when he heard the words: "Why do I have to regret it? He is the one who tortured me all the time, but why should I be the one who regrets it. Do I deserve to be that lowly person in the dust?"

Su Qiyue persuaded: "Mu Chen, for the sake of love, why not lower your head..."

Xu Mu seemed to want to laugh, but instead of laughing out loud, he spat out a mouthful of blood.

The bright red color made his complexion even paler.

Su Qiyue hurriedly stumbled from the chair and stood up, came to him, held his wrist to send him spiritual power, and said in a peaceful voice, "Mu Chen, Mu Chen, my sister shouldn't mention him." ...Your mood has become more and more unstable over the years...Why don't you listen to me and lure out the evil poison? Why do you have to suffer by yourself..."

Xu Mu pressed his right hand on his chest, finally stopped vomiting blood, took a breath, and said softly, "I just want...to experience how he has survived all these years..."

The tears that Su Qiyue had just withdrawn slipped down again at this moment: "You have done so much for him, but you just can't let him go, so why didn't you tell him earlier, if you tell him earlier, maybe it won't happen These……"

Xu Mu smiled and said, "Earlier? Earlier, I didn't know what these were. I thought I didn't love him, but family affection. How can I tell? When I started to understand, things had already developed to this point."

There is no such thing as "earlier" or "knowing this earlier" in this world... What has been done can never be changed, and what has not been done has become a regret.

"Sister, do you know, I thought he hated me at that time, and I planned to go to Wu Qiling as a stranger and use the neon clothes grass to help him lure out the evil poison, and we will never see each other again..." Xu Mu wiped his blood While smiling at the woman in front of him, "It's all my fault. If I didn't want to admit it and kept avoiding him, how could he do this?"

Su Qiyue shook her head, and held his hand with both hands: "Promise me, you will go and see him. The blame from the outside world, gossip and gossip, these are not important compared to love, don't miss it and regret it , Don't be like me..."

Xu Mu replied with a smile: "Okay, okay, I'll go find him, I'll go see if he will believe me in giving me an equal and free status, or if he will hold me there without hesitation and try his best." imprison me."

Su Qiyue said: "If it's the former, why don't you leave?"

Xu Mu said: "Of course I won't leave, how can I be willing to leave..."

Su Qiyue said: "Then... what if it's the latter."

Xu Mu smiled when he heard this, "Then I will give up completely."

Then he put away his smile and replied softly, "I will take revenge on him."

"Let him think that he has got it, and then leave him and this world completely."

Su Qiyue's eyes widened in surprise.

Xu Mu lowered his eyelashes and clenched his knuckles together: Give him hope and then kill it with his own hands—this is probably the most expensive revenge in the world.

Because that is also my hope.

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