Bit by bit

Recently I am still struggling, but considering all kinds of reality, I think it is better for me to live my life honestly. After all, reality is reality, and it is not as beautiful as dreams after all.I think it is better for me to live my own life quietly. It is really too difficult for me to pursue some goals I want to achieve. After all, reality has repeatedly told me that I do not have such abilities.

In fact, when I came to Yiwu, I had already ended my initial thoughts. If you ask me what is the most painful thing in the past [-] years, I will say without hesitation that it was the time when I was studying.I love reading and I hate reading at the same time.I love a life with pursuit, I love the time spent with my classmates, and I enjoy the process even more.But I also hate it, I hate my partial subjects, I am tired of the test rankings again and again, and I hate the waiting before the test results come out.I have been doing one thing all my life, but this thing has been messed up by me.The last day I remember losing all my notebooks and books in that particular desperate mood, I was in really bad pain.

Sometimes in the middle of the night, I look at the photo albums of my classmates and see what they say, I am so envious of them.When I saw the graduation photos of my classmates, their smiling faces, and their college life, I was both yearning and inferior.

After I came to work in Yiwu, I also began to slowly accept these shortcomings that belonged to me, and worked silently. When I first started working, I even thought about whether to continue working while studying. After repeated persuasion, I gave up, maybe they don't want me to suffer anymore!

I decided to give up, maybe what I was looking for wasn't for me.When I was frustrated, the children were always by my side.I lead the third and fifth grades at the tutoring station.Although the children in the third grade are naughty, they are still very innocent and cute. The children in the fifth grade are basically sensible, and I have to ask them for a lot of things.I have been living here peacefully for two years, and my spiritual life in the past two years has been the novels of Runningman and Xinyiwu, Ming Xiaoxi and Guo Jingming.I am just a frog at the bottom of a well, and these spiritual foods have brought me many fantasies and joys.

Now that I have decided to give up, I should live a good life. I shouldn't be unable to get out of the past and be immersed in sadness. After all, there is still a long way to go.