Bit by bit

I understand how difficult life is, but there are some things I still don't understand.Xiao Min and I send text messages to each other every day, but he still missed the appointment on March [-]nd.I waited for him every day, until ten o'clock, and then chatted with him, but this day, I waited for him for a long time, and he finally missed the appointment.

In reality, it is like this every time, and I insist on it many times, but I am the only one who persists until the end, because they are as normal as eating side dishes for missing appointments.I remember the chef said to me before, Xiaohong, don't help me if you want to come to my shop, and don't help if you don't want to come, just stick to it!So I believed it, and I went to help every day even if I didn't have much money.But one day when his business slowed down, he said to me, Xiaohong, don't come here from tomorrow on, I'm busy.

The same is true for the previous exams. The teacher told us not to give up until the last minute, so I persisted again.

The same is true for working here. When I need you here, I will keep you, and when I don’t need you, I will kick you. Slowly, I hate persistence, but I am still persisting. This is me, a fool me.

This Xiao Min and I have persisted in the habit of chatting every day for so long, and after all, we can't persist.On March [-]nd, I waited like Situ Jue in Xin Yiwu's novel, even longer than her.

But it's nothing, anyway, at least I haven't lost anything and that's good.One of our girls got dumped after she got pregnant and it took her two years to get the guy back.I can clearly see the process from her pregnancy to abortion. It's really pitiful. She's not well, she's lost a lot of weight.So I told myself at the time, no matter how much I like this man, I will never do that kind of thing without getting married, so if it ends now, I have nothing to lose.

Although I am naive in some things, I will not make mistakes in principle.

I don't want to say more, it's useless to say more, I want to tell myself that I have waited a long, long time for March [-]nd.