Captain Tu and her Doctor Shen

Tu Fei spoke nonsense, she said herself, she said Shen Qingqian, except for Shen Qingqian's gender, she said all the messy memories in her mind.

Qin Wan didn't interrupt her, nor did he try to coax her, but when she drank the milk tremblingly, he poured another glass for her.

Tu Fei was not thirsty, nor did she taste like drinking milk, she just had to do something right now, she swallowed the milk one by one, and tears fell into the cup.

When Tu Fei's ups and downs gradually calmed down, Qin Wan took out a tissue and handed it over, and said softly, "Would you like to hear a story I know?"

Holding the cup, Tu Fei lowered his head not to look at Qin Wan, but nodded stiffly.

"I heard your story just now, and I was thinking, I must tell you the story I know."

Tu Fei sniffed, and looked at Qin Wan tearfully, Qin Wan stood up, "Please allow me to tell you in this way, I want to stand in front of the window, with my back to you, and tell you like a story .”

Tu Fei hummed, raised his hand to wipe away his tears, and slightly raised his head to look at Qin Wan in front of the window.

The afternoon sun came in through the window, covering Qin Wan's body outline with a layer of golden light.

Tu Fei squinted slightly and leaned back on the chair. She was a little tired from crying. She rubbed her eyes and closed them to listen to Qin Wan's story.

One of Qin Wan's friends, let's call her Xiaohong. Xiaohong has a best friend named Xiaocao who grew up together. The two have never been separated from elementary school to university. Xiaohong is three years older than Xiaocao. Xiaohong studied together, Xiaocao worked hard, skipped grades, and went to university together with Xiaohong.

Xiaohong has always taken care of her younger sister as if she were her older sister, but she never thought that this younger sister would like her.

When Tu Fei heard this, he felt a bit of shock in his heart. When Qin Wan was younger, his feelings for the same sex should be even more "disgusting".

Xiaohong has a gentle personality, Xiaocao has a hot temper, and Xiaocao confesses boldly and enthusiastically. It took many years to finally break Xiaohong.

Qin Wan chuckled at this time, as if sighing, "According to the fairy tales, they have gone through untold hardships and will live a happy life from now on."

But the reality is often unsatisfactory. Xiaocao is sick, a serious illness, a disease that cannot be cured, she thought at the time, should she tell Xiaohong, or just leave it?Qin Wan turned around suddenly and met Tu Fei's red and swollen eyes, Qin Wan smiled, "Do you think you should tell Xiao Hong?"

This question is no less than asking Tu Fei: Do you think Shen Qingqian should be told?

Tu Fei didn't make a sound, Qin Wan lowered her head slightly, turned around, seemed to be looking at the window sill again, put her hands on the window, and said softly: "Xiaocao loves Xiaohong very much, she has thought about it, if Xiaohong knows that she is dead No, the rest of Xiaohong's life is ruined."

So Yi, Xiaocao didn't tell Xiaohong, and she didn't propose to break up immediately, she just gradually alienated, and she used cold violence to wear down Xiaohong's love for her.

"Xiaohong is not stupid." Qin Wan said with a smile, "Xiaohong noticed it. She didn't believe that Xiaocao didn't like her. She secretly investigated and found out about Xiaocao's illness. She asked Xiaocao face to face. , Xiaocao finally couldn't help but speak out."

People who already like each other, torture each other in the name of love, can anything be changed?Qin Wan turned around completely this time, looked at Tu Fei, and said seriously: "Whether you tell me or not, it won't change the fact that Xiaocao is sick, but I told Xiaohong, Xiaohong has a limited time to spend time with Xiaocao. After the last happy time, before leaving, Xiaocao asked Xiaohong if she hated her for not being with her forever, if she would obediently fall in love with someone again in the future, and if she would spend the rest of her life well... "

Tu Fei looked straight at Qin Wan, frowning, as if a stone was pressed against her heart, she was sad for the protagonist in the story.

"Later, I asked Xiaohong, and she said that she was very grateful that Xiaocao finally told her that she had no regrets. She spent a short life with Xiaocao. She will go to Xiaocao's grave to tell the interesting things in her life, and she always feels that Xiaocao has never left, but just exists in her life in a different way."

Tu Fei lowered her head slightly, she was thinking to herself, did Qin Wan tell this story that she should tell Shen Qingqian?

Qin Wan walked up to Tu Fei. She leaned against the table, looked down at her trembling eyelashes, and said softly, "If you really love someone, you should give her the right to know and let her make her own choice, instead of using In the name of love to help each other make a decision."

Right, Tu Fei was also thinking, she should tell Shen Qingqian, but what about Shen Qingqian's studies?They are not the same as the protagonist of the story.

"Tu Fei."

"kindness?"

"Each of us has a different view of life, and no one can dictate the right way to live. As far as I am concerned, I choose the life I want, and I am happy. I will not understand righteousness because of Xiaocao. If she really didn't tell me in the end, I would be very sad, and I would not let it go."

Tu Fei raised his head in a daze, "Is that your story?"

"Maybe all of you think that learning is the most important thing for your lover and she should study, but for your lover, you may be the most important thing for her, and her life will not be happy because of learning But she can be happy because of you, what do you say people live for? For what? For career? For everything we pursue?" Qin Wan asked with a smile, "Actually, everything we do is not for the pursuit of a dream. A kind of inner fullness and happiness?"

There is no template for happiness, and a child is not a fish, so how do you know the joy of a fish?

Tu Fei blinked thoughtfully, as if he was still pondering the meaning behind his words. Qin Wan said it more bluntly, "An adult knows where her happiness lies and can achieve it. She can pursue the happiness she wants without It must be flying higher. I believe that the person you like is good enough. She knows what she wants. If you don’t tell her what you want, when you forget her completely, she will always be unwilling. You deprived her of everything. Her right to know, after you forget her, you are relieved, but you left her alone in your memory, she still loves you, before you have time to say goodbye, you are still her knot in her life."

"Knot in the heart..." Tu Fei muttered to himself, and Qin Wan hummed, "A knot that you tie with your own hands and can only be untied with your own hands, but you have completely forgotten about her, she was trapped there alone, Don't you find it cruel?"

At this moment, Tu Fei felt that what Qin Wan said was indeed cruel.

"If you encounter a problem, then solve it. Don't avoid, don't hide, and don't hide it, just take it out and face it." Qin Wan smiled and patted Tu Fei's head, "Just like what you did today Well done, you finally came up to me and told me your heart knot."

Tu Fei's knot was tied by herself, so she can only open it by herself. Qin Wan's words helped her untie the knot.

"Auntie."

"kindness."

"The person I like..." Tu Fei took a deep breath, raised his head and said, "I like my aunt. My aunt is my mother's younger sister. I know that we will have many years of problems together. My mother will not agree. My aunt will also be sad about this, I want to stand up and tell my mother when I am better, but I never thought that I will start to forget the past now, I will forget her, I am not willing to forget her."

Tu Fei frowned, and talked about another knot in his heart, "I'm so heartless, I never thought about what would happen to me if I forget my mother, I'm so unwilling to forget the person I like."

Tu Fei blamed herself, her mother worked so hard for her, she should feel sorry for her mother, "My mother doesn't want me to tell my aunt, she is just as worried as I am that my aunt will return to China because of me."

Qin Wan analyzed for Tu Fei that it was normal for Zhu Xiuyun to think so.

I wish Xiuyun is old, she considers the overall situation from the perspective of the elders, this is one of them;

The second is that Zhu Xiuyun doesn't know how deeply Tu Fei and the person she likes love each other. She thinks that time can dilute everything. This is also an act that seems to be for the good of others, but actually hurts others;

Thirdly, Zhu Xiuyun knew that what she thought might be wrong, but she didn't want to accept her child with the same sex, especially if that person was her junior sister...

Qin Wan listed several reasons, and finally concluded: "No one is right or wrong in this matter, because the starting point is different. If you want to talk to someone you like, then your mother and I will communicate."

Qin Wan took the matter of persuading Zhu Xiuyun to himself, and Tu Fei lost a huge stone in his heart, "I will say today, you wait for my news, I believe that the people you like have already noticed your indifference and alienation , tell her as soon as possible, don't torture each other."

Tu Fei walked aimlessly outside alone at night. She counted the time. Her mother and Qin Wan should have chatted for a long time, but there was no news from Qin Wan.

Her mother is a professor, and her eloquence is beyond ordinary people. I don't know if Qin Wan can persuade her. Tu Fei wanted to tell Shen Qingqian, but she didn't want her to be sad.

Tu Fei was tired from walking and took a taxi home. After taking a shower, she lay on the bed wrapped in a bathrobe, unable to arouse any interest in her.

The phone vibrated, and Tu Fei immediately grabbed it to check it. Qin Wan sent a message saying: I have talked with Xiu Yun, she agreed, you can talk to the person you like.

Tu Fei's heart ached. After thanking Qin Wan, she sent a message to Zhu Xiuyun: Mom, thank you, I love you.

Zhu Xiuyun: Silly boy, mom loves you too.

Tu Fei wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and sent Shen Qingqian a message: Auntie, are you busy?How long will you be busy?Do you have a moment for me?

Shen Qingqian: What do you mean?

Tu Fei: Auntie, I want to video with you, I have something to say.

It took a while for Shen Qingqian's message to come over, which read: Then say it like this.

Tu Fei: No, I want to make a video call with my aunt, look into her eyes and say, it is a very important thing.

After waiting longer than before, Shen Qingqian didn't reply, Tu Fei sent a video, but Shen Qingqian hung up.

Shen Qingqian sent a message, which read: Tu Fei, don't say anything, because the fact that I love you will not change.

Tu Fei realized that Shen Qingqian might have misunderstood something, thinking about her recent alienation, it probably made Shen Qingqian lose confidence.

Tu Fei: Auntie, I love you, this matter will never change.

Tu Fei: I want to tell you a cruel thing. I found myself starting to lose my memory. I am afraid that one day I will forget to love you. I know it is cruel to tell you in advance, but I really don’t want to deceive you.

Tu Fei: I hope you know that if one day I don't love you anymore, it's not that I don't want to, but that I forgot. If I meet you again, I think I will definitely fall in love with you again.

Tu Fei: There is nothing wrong with amnesia, but when I think of forgetting my favorite aunt, I am very sad, but I can't help it.

Tu Fei: I told Auntie that I didn't want Auntie to come back. I was hesitant to tell you before because I was afraid that you would rush back after hearing about my situation. I really don't want to let myself be your bondage, but we are indeed bonded to each other.

Tu Fei: I know that Auntie loves me, and I know that Auntie will be sad for me, but Auntie believes in me. Whether it is me who loves you or me who has amnesia, the greatest comfort that Auntie can give me is that you are getting better and better.

Tu Fei: So don’t come back. Even if you come back, you won’t be able to change the fact that I’ve lost my memory. If possible, Auntie will not dislike her and stay with me all the time. Don't leave me, we can get to know each other again and be friends again.

Tu Fei: No matter how long we have been apart, I will definitely like my aunt when I see her. We can have many first loves, and every time our first love is my aunt, it doesn't seem to be a bad feeling.

Tu Fei: If Auntie has someone else she likes, that's okay, I will bless you now, sincerely.

……

Tu Fei's tears blurred his vision and he was unable to type. When Shen Qingqian called, Tu Fei answered tremblingly. Both of them remained silent.

After a long time, Shen Qingqian's crying came, "Damn child, I thought you were going to break up with me."

Tu Fei sobbed and couldn't speak, Shen Qingqian choked up, each sentence was difficult to say.

"Don't break up with me."

"That will kill me, Tu Fei."

"Just let things take their course, I won't go back to China," Shen Qingqian tremblingly said: "Let me accompany you to the end of your memory, just, just..." Shen Qingqian cried and said with a smile: "Even if it's for me A buffer time, just like you slowly approached me at the beginning, and now you are slowly leaving, don't run away all at once, okay?"

Tu Fei couldn't speak at all, so she hung up and wrote: Okay, we slowly came to love each other, and we gradually walked away and stopped loving each other, which is actually quite good.

Shen Qingqian typed a line, but did not send it out. The sentence reads: It's not that we are gradually moving away and no longer love me, it is that you are gradually moving away and no longer love me. I am still in the same place, but you are getting further and further away. I don't know whether I should chase you, because even if I catch up with you, you don't love me anymore. When I stand in front of you, you have already forgotten who I am.

Shen Qingqian put away her phone, covered her cheeks and shed tears, God is always cruel, when you feel that 10 years ago was already the peak of misfortune, God tells you, no, life can be more cruel.

It would be great if the pain could be transferred, God, give me all the misfortunes.

Shen Qingqian burst into tears, like 10 years ago, yes, she went back to 10 years ago, she was finally alone again.

She is worse now than she was 10 years ago.

The author has something to say: 4000+ updates late at night, can you leave a few more comments?I don’t want to write plot streams in the future, Lily readers still like cookies, don’t they?