First love is poisonous

The eldest brother was in a daze again, the fourth time today.

Liu Ke put down his chopsticks and looked at Mu Xiu who was in the main seat.

Mu Xiu received his gaze, thought for a while, looked at Cheng Tian and said, "Tian Tian, ​​are you free on the weekend? I want to visit your mother and show her the family portrait we took."

Cheng Tian came back to his senses, quickly concealed his emotions, and asked apologetically, "Dad, what did you just say?"

Seeing this, Liu Ke was even more worried, and wanted to say something, but was kicked lightly by Mu Xiu under the table.

"I want to take the family photo to your mother to see if you are free on the weekend. Xiao Ke will go out with Xiao Yi on the weekend, so you can't send me to the cemetery." Mu Xiu said again, as if he didn't notice his distraction at all.

Cheng Tian nodded, with a slight smile on his face, "I'll accompany you when I'm free."

As night fell, Cheng Tian finished processing the documents, opened the drawer to get the seal, glanced at the bag of candies in the corner, paused, and took it out.

Crash, clatter.The sound of rolling the fingers and rubbing the candy paper is infinitely amplified in the quiet room, as if it is provoking people's hearts.

In such a heavy rain, the child didn't wear shoes, umbrella, or jacket. I don't know if he was suffering from frostbite...

The door was suddenly pushed open, and Han Bao ran to his feet wagging his tail, raised his upper limbs and grabbed his legs, spit out a round thing, and wagged his tail at him asking for credit, "Wow!"

He regained consciousness, lowered his head, and saw a nut with saliva and mud rolling down his leg, leaving a dirty mark... a bit like the muddy water stain on Kaqi's chest that day.

Han Bao was distracted by the sound of the nuts falling to the ground, he tilted his head to look, wagged his tail, jumped down and wanted to bite the nut again.

Cheng Tian first bent down to pick up the nuts, took out a paper towel to wipe off the dirt and saliva on it, twirled it twice in his hand, looked at Han Bao who had grabbed his leg again, and suddenly smiled, "You miss him, Right? He brings you presents every time he comes."

Han Bao tilted his head to look at him, twitched his ears, wagged his tail, and rubbed his head into his arms.

"You're a boy, you can't act like a baby all the time." Cheng Tian patted it, keeping his eyes on the nut, the smile on his face gradually faded and finally disappeared.

In the early morning, Cheng Tian looked away, jumped out of the bay window, and went back to his room to sleep.

On the weekend, Liu Ke went to Dong Yi with his computer in his arms to fulfill Mu Xiu's words.

After sending Liu Ke away, Mu Xiu packed up another set of family portraits that he washed out, and got into Cheng Tian's car.

Gossiping all the way to the cemetery, the father and son first worshiped Grandpa Liu, and then came to Cheng Yanya's tomb, one wiped the tombstone, and the other sat on the ground and took out the photos and placed them in front of the tombstone.

"Xiaoya, I brought Tiantian to see you. Cheng Cheng has something to do this week, so I won't be able to see you until next week." As Mu Xiu said, he also took out a handkerchief, leaned forward and wiped the photo on the tombstone, his eyes became gentle , "How are you doing over there? It's winter again, you are so afraid of the cold, you should keep warm."

After wiping the tombstone, Cheng Tian also sat down, looked at the photo on the tombstone, and gradually lost his mind.

"This is a family portrait I took with my children a while ago. The dog Chengcheng is holding is called Hanbao. He is very obedient and cute. I will bring him to see you next time." Mu Xiu put the photo upright and wiped it. Wipe off the dust on it, "The children are fine, you don't have to worry."

He was talking to himself, as if there was no such person as Cheng Tian by his side.

He put up the photos one by one and faced the tombstone, chattering about the funny things about the family portrait. After the conversation was over, he took out the lighter from his pocket and put it aside, picked up the last photo, and faced the tombstone, "This The child's name is Kaqi, and he is someone I like every day."

Cheng Tian came back to his senses and turned to look at him abruptly.

"But Tiantian is ignorant, and that child has been wronged." Mu Xiu ignored his gaze, put the photo together in front of the tombstone, and said, "It's a cute child, right? He has a simple temper, and you will like him of."

"Dad." Cheng Tian frowned, reaching for the photo in his hand.

Mu Xiu let him take the photo away, picked up the lighter and lit the biggest family photo, and put it in front of the tombstone, "Tian Tian, ​​Xiao Ke is very worried about you."

Cheng Tian was taken aback.

"Life is long, what should you do when I go down to accompany your mother?" Mu Xiu looked at him sideways, his eyes were calm and tolerant, and his tone was slow and gentle, "Xiao Ke is accompanied by Xiao Yi, what about you, what should you do?" What to do? How worried should your mother be about you. "

Cheng Tian squeezed the photo tightly and didn't know what to say for a moment.

Mu Xiu reached out and touched his hair, and said earnestly, "Family and lover are different, every day, be brave. Loving someone is not terrible, accepting love from others is not terrible, the terrible thing is that you have already moved your heart, But because of the momentary weakness and retreat, I missed it with the other party."

Cheng Tian tightened his face and shook his head, "No, Dad, you misunderstood, I don't like Kaqi, I just regard him as my younger brother."

Mu Xiu didn't refute his words, but asked, "Then do you miss him?"

Cheng Tian was silent.How can you not think about it? If you have a debt, you will naturally miss it all the time.

"I miss your mother too." Mu Xiu answered.

Cheng Tian was taken aback for a moment, then shook his head, "No, that's different."

"Why is it different?" Mu Xiu withdrew the photo in his hand, lit it with a lighter, put it on the ashes of the family portrait, and looked at the tombstone, "The heart of missing someone is the same, no matter what the reason is, To miss is to miss."

Cheng Tian watched the photos being burnt bit by bit, with rare stubbornness, "It's not the same, I just feel that I owe him."

Mu Xiu suddenly smiled, "I remember that after you moved the tea shop here, you were pursued by the newly recruited employees? How did you deal with it then?"

Cheng Tian thought of the pestering employee, and frowned in disgust, "Fired, never hired again."

"Do you feel indebted to him?"

Cheng Tian's expression is the answer.

"Kaqi is the same as that employee, they are all 'stalkers' pursuing you, and Kaqi is even more extreme than that employee, checking your flight information, spying on you, and monitoring—"

"There is no peeping and surveillance, he is not such a despicable person." Cheng Tian interrupted him a little rough, realized his tone was not good after speaking, raised his hand to press his forehead, and lowered his voice, "Dad, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have contradicted you."

Mu Xiu still looked at him gently, and shook his head, "It's just a quarrel between the son and the father, so there's no need to say sorry. Every day, you still can't let go. There is no need for family members to be so polite and overly accommodating."

Cheng Tian was silent.

Obviously didn't listen.Mu Xiu sighed in his heart, and turned the topic back, "You said that Kaqi didn't monitor and peep, so it's okay, but it's true that he checked your flight information. Two people chasing you, you have done too much One person feels guilty, but hates another person who is always looking for a chance to talk to you, why? What would you do if the person checking your flight was not Kutch but someone else?"

Find out, give enough punishment, and then isolate people from the social circle forever, and label them as enemies.

Cheng Tian became more and more silent.

Mu Xiu ended this topic, continued to burn photos, and said, "Every day, the care between family members is mutual, and the same is true between lovers. When you meet someone you like, cherish it. Don't miss your lover like me. That's the way it is all your life. Don't be like Xu Jianguo, who only lives according to your own desires and hurts the people you love again and again."

Cheng Tian's heart trembled violently, and he clenched his fists.

Don't be like Xu Jianguo, who only lives according to his own desires... No, he can't be like Xu Jianguo!impossible!

After sending Mu Xiu home, he left the house in a state of confusion and walked out of the community. No. 69 is in the innermost part, and it takes a long way to go out. After going out, you have to go around the park to reach the main street outside.He stopped where he could get a taxi and raised his hand to look at his watch.Two 10 minutes, it takes two 69 minutes to get here from No. 10.The rain will affect the vision, and the walking speed will be slowed down if you don't wear shoes... about half an hour, will you get sick after half an hour in the rain?

A car passed by, and the unpleasant smell of car exhaust brought him back to his senses, and he realized that he thought of that child again belatedly.

No, it shouldn't be because I like it. People will always be more tolerant to those who have helped them.

——Don't be like Xu Jianguo, who only lives according to his own desires and hurts the people who love him time and time again.

With a tremor in his heart, he picked a random direction and walked again.

No, he is different from Xu Jianguo, he didn't just live according to his own will, but also hurt and loved himself...

——Xiao Ke is very worried about you.

——Life is very long, when I go down to accompany your mother, what should you do.

— How worried your mother should be about you.

——Cheng, don't do this, it shouldn't be like this between us.

Beautiful lake blue, full of sadness.

He stopped abruptly and raised his hand to press his forehead.

What are your own thoughts and desires?I hope that my family can live a peaceful and smooth life, and I can watch them live a peaceful life by watching them.But now, the younger brother is worried, and the father is trying to find a way to relieve himself. The child who came to this foreign country for himself has suffered a lot of grievances.

Is it wrong?Why is it wrong...

The phone vibrated suddenly, he took it out and pressed the screen, and then he was stunned when he saw the familiar profile picture on the WeChat message notification, remained silent for a few seconds, and clicked on the message.

Kaqi: Cheng, I’m sorry to disturb you a few days ago. I made new candies and have sent them to you. I hope you like them. 【Smile】

Cheng Tian's eyes became complicated.

Why...why is the person who was wronged that day apologizing?So the last sentence that day, "Maybe the way I pursued is wrong" is not an expression of giving up, but a self-examination?

Now that you have licked your wounds, are you ready to continue pursuing yourself in the "correct" way...how could you be so stupid.

He clenched the phone tightly, accidentally touched the speak button with his fingers, and sent a one-second empty voice.

He was taken aback, and hurriedly withdrew the message.

Kaqi: ...Cheng?

The "the other party is typing" prompt on the chat box disappeared and reappeared, appeared and disappeared again, he looked down, and his mind clearly made up the appearance of the other party typing carefully.

...Suddenly felt a little stuffy in my heart, what happened to him.

2 minutes later, Kaqi: Am I bothering you again?I'm sorry, don't be angry, I will pay more attention to it in the future, have a nice weekend~【Smile】

Tried to cheer up, and apologized again.He stared at the smiling face at the end of the sentence for a few seconds, and a sudden impulse rose in his heart, so he dialed the voice call directly.

It was quickly connected over there, and then a cautious voice came, "Cheng, I...well, did you have a good weekend?"

"where do you live?"

"what?"

"give me the address."

"Silver, Ginza A1167, building code 2345, gate code XXX39."

"wait for me."

He hung up the voice, and strode towards Ginza.

It was so close, the child actually lived so close to him, only separated by a park and a lake, but he never knew it.So did the other party walk back that rainy night?How long did it take, four 10 minutes?One hour?Will the guy who always smiles cry?

Panting and stepping into the elevator, he stared at the floor number and jumped to the designated one. After the elevator door opened, he strode out and bumped into Kaqi who was waiting outside the elevator.

"Did it hurt you?" Kaqi hurriedly supported him, helpless and nervous, "Cheng, why do you want to come over all of a sudden, I, I... I'm sorry, don't be angry, I'm sorry."

Cheng Tian stood firm, looked at his sickly flushed cheeks, frowned fiercely, raised his hand to touch his forehead, took a deep breath, closed his eyes, held his face with both hands, and kissed him forcefully.

Kaqi's body stiffened, and then he struggled hard, trying to push him away, "No... um... no, I don't want to do this, Cheng, what I like is you, not your face, I won't give up, I won't meeting……"

"Then continue." Cheng Tian let go of him, looked at his flushed eyes, his eyes softened, "Then continue."

"What do you mean?" Kaqi was dumbfounded, hope rose in his heart, but he couldn't believe it in a daze.

"If you won't give up, keep going." Cheng Tian touched his face, gave up competing with himself, stretched out his arms to pull him into his arms, and sighed, "Kaqi, I'm sorry, I shouldn't bully you like this, I'm sorry. "It should have been discovered earlier, it should have been discovered when he was always soft on this person, the fear of hurting this person's heart has another meaning, he is confused.

Traveling together a few times, contacting me from time to time on WeChat, this person is trying to share with himself the things that make me happy every day, just to make myself happy, such a precious heart, properly protected is the correct way to treat it .

"I'm sorry." He patted the other person's back, his tone as gentle as coaxing a wronged child, "Thank you for your liking, Kaqi."

Kaqi's nose was sore, and he could no longer care about other messy thoughts. He hugged him hard, buried his face in his shoulder and neck, and wiped away his tears, "Cheng, you are so kind...so kind."