I really want to die

Su Chen found his father's tomb. On a hillside full of small white flowers, there were two sycamore trees planted beside the tomb.

When Wutong treats each other to grow old, mandarin ducks will die together.

In his father's diary, Su Chen saw these two sentences and knew that those buried in this grave were his biological parents.

After the "Year of the Rose", Su Chen's father cremated his mother, and later came to this planet with her ashes, and he accompanied the ashes of his wife and his sleeping son.Until he dies, ask someone to bury his wife's ashes together with him.

Live in the same bed, die in the same cave.

Apart from being a doctor of science, Su Chen's father is also obsessed with ancient earth culture, especially the oriental civilization among them, so there is a phoenix tree next to the tomb.

All this, Su Chen knew from his father's diary.

There is no tombstone in this tomb, only two iconic plane trees.

Standing in front of his parents' grave, Su Chen felt the bondage of blood for the first time, although he had no memory of what happened before he was six years old—in other words, even though this was a real world, he had no respect for his biological parents. But there is no impression at all, still like a stranger.

But it is still different from when he reincarnated in the virtual world.At that time, he couldn't establish a real emotional connection with those he so-called "parents" no matter what, and he only had a two-point deliberate intimacy.But now, when he saw this grave, he felt a feeling of both happiness and sadness in his heart.

Happiness, because he has a pair of parents who love their children very much, and he is standing in front of them now; sadness, because what he is facing is not their fresh faces, but a grave.

"Xiao Chenchen, the doctor is sleeping here, can we see him?"

Aibel flew out of Su Chen's pocket and flew around the tomb, but didn't see what it wanted to see, so he stopped in front of Su Chen and asked him softly.

"No." Su Chen replied softly.

"Why?" Aibel's voice was full of confusion.

"Because dad is dead, he and mom will sleep here forever, we can't disturb them."

"Dead?" Abel's voice was even more confused. It flew around the tomb a few more times, looked at Su Chen and said inexplicably, "Isn't the doctor sleeping? He also told me not to disturb him. I thought Xiao Chen If Chen wakes up and calls him, he will wake up."

In the interstellar era, the burial culture has disappeared. People believe that spirits can be passed on, but they no longer believe in ghosts and gods.Therefore, after a person dies, his body will be completely destroyed, and he will return to the universe in the form of pure energy.If you want to commemorate the deceased, you can build a monument for them. As long as you provide some items and general life experience of the deceased, many commercial organizations can provide memorial services in different styles.

And those who have made contributions to the empire will get a place in the National Memorial, which will be open at fixed times for people to visit to show their heroes and honor and pay their respects.

Therefore, people in the empire will not be buried after death, and there will be no remains.

Su Chen thought for a while, and tried to explain it in a way that Abel could understand, "Beibei, think about it, under such conditions, without your help, no one can sleep for ten years and still be alive. Dad he , is different from me."

Aibel can calculate the result without a second of calculation.It returned to Su Chen's pocket with a muffled sound.

"The doctor told me this before going to bed: If I fall asleep, don't wake me up. I thought he just didn't want to be woken up by me. Xiao Chenchen, did the doctor lie to me?"

Su Chen touched his pocket, and said softly in a coaxing tone: "Father didn't lie to you, he just talked to you more tactfully, and didn't want you to be sad."

"...Sad, is this state of lack of energy, is it sad?"

Su Chen heard the words, sighed in his heart, and said softly: "Yes."

Aibel is an artificial intelligence with self-awareness. Its consciousness may have been produced a long time ago, but the consciousness of "I" was really formed in the third year before the death of Su Chen's father.

The "mechanical chaos" of 100 years ago has not really subsided. If there is a second time, will the progress of civilization be hindered and bring about social regression.This may be a wrong decision, but it may also become an opportunity for the future civilization process.

I leave it to my children as a gift from my father, and I hope they will have a bright future as I wish them.

This is a piece of content recorded in his father's diary. After discovering that Abel had self-awareness, his father did not destroy it immediately, but kept it for himself after thinking about it.

Su Chen recalled the contents of the diary, feeling sour and swollen in his heart.

On the way back, Su Chen asked Aibel.

"Bebe, do you know how old you are?"

"Of course I know." Abel's tone was a little smug, like a bragging child, and he replied loudly, "I'm already 13 years old and one month and seven days old." Its voice suddenly lowered, with a bit of shyness and embarrassment , "Xiao Chenchen, the doctor said, I am younger than you, so I, I can call you brother."

Su Chen smiled, "Of course you can call me brother, because you are my brother."

Aibel suddenly jumped up and down in Su Chen's pocket.

This is an exiled planet, and those who have committed felony crimes in the empire but have not been executed will be exiled to this planet.

300 years ago, this primitive planet was discovered.Because the resources did not meet the minimum requirements for mining, and the location was remote, although it was suitable for human habitation, it was not designated as a living planet in the end, but was classified as an exile planet.

As a planet in exile, there are no high-tech products, no interstellar networking, and even basic means of transportation and communication. The inhabitants of the planet live a very primitive life.

Except for a spaceship passing by once a year to release new prisoners, no spaceship has ever arrived in this star field.Of course, no one will come to visit.

This method of throwing in prisoners, like throwing out garbage, also gave this planet in exile the name "Garbage Star".

In the past 300 years, apart from the expedition team that discovered this planet, Su Chen's father was the first person to drive a spaceship to land on this planet.

When Su Chen returned from the grave, he saw a man standing at the door of his house, an old man with disheveled hair and a little hunchback.He was squatting on the stone steps at the door, holding a pipe in his hand, puffing on the clouds, taking a few puffs, and knocking the pipe on the stone steps—this image reminded Su Chen of a certain experience he had experienced. People in the world are called "old smokers".

Seeing Su Chen approaching, the old man stood up, looked Su Chen up and down with a pair of cloudy eyes, and then spoke hoarsely.

"Who are you? Why do you live in old man Su's house?" the old man asked very rudely.

Su Chen was also looking at him. After seeing his pipe, he already guessed the identity of the old man in his heart, but he didn't answer, but looked at him quietly.

The old man circled around Su Chen, his voice full of confusion, "The spaceship that dropped the prisoners just arrived seven days ago, are you the latest batch of prisoners? This is the first time I have seen them at such a young age. However, this It's old man Su's house, why do you live here?"

The exile planet has not increased much in the past 300 years, and the entire planet is less than 1 people.These people live very spread out, they don't like to get together.Especially for those with eccentric personalities, they may not have spoken to other people until their death.

When Su Chen saw this old man, he was able to recognize him because his father mentioned in his diary that he made cigarettes for someone. In exchange, he buried him in the place he chose after his death. cemetery.

However, these things cannot be said.It has been 20 years since my father came to the exiled planet, but he is only sixteen or seventeen years old in appearance. People on the exiled planet rarely give birth to offspring, so no one will believe that he is his father's son. would arouse suspicion.

"I found this place by accident, and saw that there was no one in the house, so I lived in it temporarily." Su Chen said after a short thought, and finally asked in a slightly doubtful tone, "Why, it's not allowed here live?"

The reason for asking such a question is because as far as Su Chen knows, here, after the original owner of the house dies, the house becomes unowned, and other people can use it.

As for why this house has not been occupied by anyone ten years after his father's death - Su Chen reached into his pocket and touched a smooth egg. He rubbed it with his palm, and there was a warm feeling in his palm. A faint smile appeared.

Sure enough, the old man didn't ask any more questions after hearing Su Chen's words. He just frowned and muttered puzzledly: "Strange, how did you get in? There were people who wanted to live here before, but they couldn't open the door anyway. They thought it was locked inside." It's blocked." He raised his head and looked at Su Chen again, without saying anything, smoking a cigarette and pulling on his slippers, staggering away.

So, what is this old man here for?

Su Chen stood there for a while, but he didn't think about it anymore, shook his head, and walked into the room.

"Beibei, can you connect to the star network?"

"Of course."

"Then can you check to see if there is anyone like me who fell into a deep sleep for a long time and then woke up suddenly?"

"Okay. Set the search criteria the same as Xiao Chenchen, sleep for 20 years?"

"No, no, no, set a time frame, the longest is 20 years, and the shortest is three months."

After asking Abel in detail about his physical condition over the years, Su Chen made a bold guess about "that person".

The father used electric wave stimulation to keep his brain activity from stopping, and the brain wave was maintained at a relatively safe frequency.

Just like a sleeping person is dreaming, the "dream" keeps the activity of the brain, if there is no "dream", the brain waves may tend to a straight line, then, Su Chen will be truly brain-dead—and also truly death.But at the same time, these "dreams" are like spiritual opium, which can make people addicted, and they may never wake up from the "dreams".

So Su Chen kept "dreaming", that is, reincarnated in different worlds, but couldn't wake up by himself.If this continues, the most likely result is that Su Chen spends his whole life in sleep, never being able to wake up in the real world.

However, according to Aibel, three months ago, it detected a strange wave band, somehow got mixed in, and synchronized with Su Chen's brain waves and its electric waves.Because it was discovered that this radio wave would not threaten Su Chen's life, but would cause Su Chen's brain waves to change. The opportunity Dr. Su mentioned appeared, and Aibel let this wave band enter his virtual world.

Although self-awareness has been produced, Aibel is still unable to understand human emotions. The core order Dr. Su set for it in this program is: let Su Chen live to a natural death in every world.

Dr. Su's original intention is to make his children not suffer from illnesses, and to go through every world in peace—that is, not to have nightmares, but to have good dreams.

Obviously, Aibel didn't understand Dr. Su's meaning well during the implementation process, and Dr. Su couldn't get into Su Chen's mind to monitor—although the current technology makes people think It can be projected, but it may be static, or just a small segment of brain waves.

And like Su Chen, who needs to project all the brain wave activities, and lacks relevant equipment, what is presented on the screen is not smooth pictures and images like movies, but garbled lines or data streams.

Using a simple conversion relationship, one hour in reality may be one year in the virtual world in Su Chen's mind.The computer can handle it, but the displayed image cannot be understood by the human eye, and it ends up being a bunch of garbled characters.

So Aibel knew what Su Chen had experienced in his 20 years of sleep, but his father didn't know.

"The match is successful, and the target is locked."

"Xiao Chenchen, I found it!"