we are not friends anymore

Qiao Mingxi opened his mouth, he wanted to answer, didn't he?But in the end he didn't speak.

Ji Yan couldn't tell what it was like in his heart. He suddenly remembered the way Qiao Mingxi said to him many years ago, "Let's debut together." At that time, the boy's eyes were a little ignorant. A boy who doesn't know how to gradually become an actor who is serious about filming and become the idol of many people. During this process, what kind of mood does Qiao Mingxi have?

"...Maybe you don't know." Ji Yan whispered, "After I left your house that day, I thought about it for a long time. I didn't feel guilty or sympathetic, I was..."

what is it then?

Qiao Mingxi looked at him quietly, as if asking, what is that?

"Regret." Ji Yan said a word slowly, he looked carefully at Qiao Mingxi's expression, "I regret that I didn't have more patience in the past, maybe I should listen to your thoughts carefully, I... Axi, the moment I found you on the mountain and saw you, actually..."

In fact, I suddenly felt very distressed.

I suddenly regretted that I had decided too arbitrarily at the beginning, regretted that I had hidden my feelings too deeply, and regretted not insisting on having an open and honest talk with him in time.

He thought separation was good for both of them, until that moment when he suddenly had such a strong feeling that there was only one person in this world, which made him feel distressed and made him want to hold his hand tightly and hug him , I want to protect him more gently and meticulously than in the past eight years, like holding a treasure.

In Qiao Mingxi's lonely childhood, he couldn't show up, so he hated himself even more for not doing well in the past.

He desperately wanted him to know, don't cry, I'm here.

However, Qiao Mingxi sighed suddenly after being silent for a long time. The sigh was very light but full of exhaustion.

"Then what do you want?" He asked softly, still as quiet and obedient as before.

Ji Yan opened his mouth to speak, but Qiao Mingxi continued: "Ji Yan, you can't do this."

He said in a low voice: "You can't just leave when you want to, and come back when you feel regretful..."

He was still looking at Ji Yan, but he habitually lowered his head when he said this: "I don't want to wait for you to turn around, I will feel very tired...and I..."

He paused, and spoke with some difficulty: "When I was in love with you...I always expected that you could...also love me like this, but it's too difficult..."

"I love you." Ji Yan said suddenly, "If you don't blame me, if you still...I can..."

Qiao Mingxi was stunned, and suddenly forgot what he wanted to say, and smiled bitterly after a long time: "You don't have to do this...Ji Yan, what I expected in the past was not your sense of responsibility. You always ..."

He wants to say that no matter what kind of existence he is in Ji Yan's heart, it cannot be denied that he will always be behind his ideals, goals and even his friends.Qiao Mingxi has very few things and wants very little, but he loves Ji Yan, and he can't help wishing that Ji Yan can love himself as much as he loves him.

Thinking of this, he slowly changed his words: "Aren't you tired like this?"

"Axi." Ji Yan called out, and was about to speak, but heard a slight "click", and the eyes of the two of them suddenly darkened.

Both of them were taken aback, Qiao Mingxi moved, Ji Yan reached out to press the switch at the head of the bed, but there was no response.

Neither of them moved after that, and in the silence that filled the room, the conversation fell into a stalemate.

After an unknown amount of time, there were faint voices and footsteps outside the door. Qiao Mingxi suddenly felt a little restless, so she got up and wanted to open the door.

The curtains were drawn in the room, and no light from the outside could leak in. He got up too quickly, and just took two steps when his knee hit the edge of the bed.

Ji Yan got up and lightly pressed his shoulder, walked sideways from his side and opened the door.

The whole corridor was equally dark.

The crew members with flashlights were knocking on the door from room to room, and were about to reach Qiao Mingxi's door, when they saw Ji Yan, they were stunned.

"The power went out?" Ji Yan asked.

"Brother Yan." The staff greeted him and walked up to him, "The hotel said that the line was short-circuited and it is being repaired."

Ji Yan nodded, and the staff subconsciously glanced behind him.At this time, people opened the door one after another, and Fang Xixi poked her head out of the next room with her long hair in a mess of sleep.

"What's the matter?" She saw that she was awakened by the movement in the corridor.

Ding Xiangyuan and Xue Qiao also came out of their respective rooms at this time. The former glanced at Fang Xixi's big pajamas that had fallen to his chest, which he didn't notice, and walked over a few steps and stuffed each other back into the room.

"It's just a power outage, go to sleep."

"Why are you sleeping? It's so cold." Fang Xixi muttered, the air conditioner wouldn't work even if the electricity was turned off, she shivered and put on a down jacket that reached to her ankles, and went back to the door.

Ding Xiangyuan took off the scarf around his neck and wrapped her around her. Fang Xixi still felt cold and rubbed against him.

Xue Qiao saw this scene in his eyes and smiled meaningfully.He didn't see Qiao Mingxi, so he asked, "Where is Mingxi? In the room?"

"I'm here." Qiao Mingxi groped out and replied.

Ji Yan silently took a step aside, the staff held up the lamp, and another glimmer of light leaked in from the window at the far end, the corridor was slightly brighter than the room.

I don't know how long the maintenance will take, and everyone doesn't think it's cold in the corridor, so they just stand and chat together when they have nothing to do.

"Have you had dinner?" Xue Qiao asked Qiao Mingxi, "Just now I saw that Director Lu was still pulling you to talk."

Qiao Mingxi hesitated for a moment, subconsciously glanced at the silent Ji Yan, but quickly withdrew his gaze: "I've eaten."

"Brother Xue, why don't you ask me." Fang Xixi interjected, and was slapped on the forehead by Ding Xiangyuan next to him.

"Brother Yuan will definitely not let you go hungry." Xue Qiao simply joked with her, Fang Xixi blushed a little, and turned her head to stare at Ding Xiangyuan.

Ding Xiangyuan rubbed the bridge of his nose innocently.

Xue Qiao gave him a look of "Take care of your girl", and turned to chat with Ji Yan who had been silent all this time: "Is it time for the National Teacher to join the team? When will you go?"

"The day after tomorrow." Ji Yan said, "I'll leave after filming tomorrow."

Qiao Mingxi froze for a moment, lowered her head and said nothing.

"It's so urgent, thank you for your hard work." Xue Qiao patted Ji Yan's shoulder with a smile.

Fang Xixi is not from Huangyao, and said from the side: "Brother Yan, you are so kind, you came to our side to save the day in such a busy schedule."

Ji Yan didn't say much, just smiled.

Qiao Mingxi was a little distracted, listening to them quietly, feeling that the maintenance took a long time.

A few people joked for a while, and the corridor suddenly lit up. It should be that the circuit has been repaired.

"Ah, there's electricity." Fang Xixi cheered, "Sleep, sleep, it's so cold."

After speaking, she walked back to the room, and Ding Xiangyuan was still shouting behind her: "The air conditioner is set for a time before going to bed!"

"Got it!" Fang Xixi replied, and the ending sound disappeared in the sound of closing the door.

As soon as Ding Xiangyuan turned around, he saw that the remaining three people were all looking at him in unison. He rubbed his hair uncomfortably: "Have you gone back?"

Xue Qiao didn't speak, just walked away with a smile.

Ding Xiangyuan also greeted the remaining two and went back to his room.

Qiao Mingxi watched the two go away, bowed his head and went back to the room. He paused when he closed the door, but still whispered: "Good night."

But he didn't intend to continue the conversation just now.Ji Yan remained silent, and did not stop him from closing the door this time.

He stood alone at the door of Qiao Mingxi's room. People on this floor went back to their rooms one after another and closed the door, and the lively corridor became silent again.

Only Ji Yan was still standing here with his back straight. The dim light in the corridor made his face dim, and the Tathagata was silent when he came.

The next day was Ji Yan's last scene in Q City, and he was originally scheduled to go back to D City in the evening after filming.Qiao Mingxi was always a little absent-minded this day, and Ji Yan himself was called out several times, but his own foundation was there, and Director Lu frowned and let it go.

After the afternoon filming, he changed his clothes and went down the mountain. Before he left, he saw Qiao Mingxi crouching in the corner with Fang Xixi holding a hand warmer and baking the heater. He just stood at an angle that he couldn't see, quietly watching After a while, he turned around and left.

After filming for a whole day, Ji Yan didn't feel sleepy during the few hours on the plane.

He closed his eyes and thought about Qiao Mingxi's words yesterday, feeling powerless for the first time.

No matter what he said, Qiao Mingxi would not believe it.Even if he had already spoken out his love, in Qiao Mingxi's view, it was just his sense of responsibility, his guilt, and compensation for Qiao Mingxi.

But who can blame this?In the past, he gave Qiao Mingxi too little sense of security, and the anxiety accumulated over time made it impossible for Qiao Mingxi to believe what he said.

It doesn't matter.Ji Yan thought.

These days, he has gradually discovered that Qiao Mingxi has become more and more cheerful. When talking with Fang Xixi and Xue Qiao, his whole person is always different from before.He is no longer the Qiao Mingxi who was unwilling to go out to film alone and was at a loss under the spotlight.That's fine.

It's a good thing that Qiao Mingxi is getting better.As for his affairs with him, they can take their time.

Ji Yan originally felt a little guilty for delaying his entry into the crew, so he simply got off the plane and went to the crew of "Frosting Sugar" that day.

When he went to the shooting location, he was filming Yin Yi's scene. She was standing alone in front of a dazzling array of dessert cabinets, and there was a 30-second long shot.

Ji Yan didn't disturb others, just stood aside and watched for a while.Xu Xixi, who was reading the script next to her, turned her head and saw her, and was very pleasantly surprised.

"Brother Yan." She smiled and walked in front of him, "You are finally here, I have been waiting for a long time to play with you..."

But Ji Yan just nodded lightly, and pointed at the place where he was shooting, signaling to talk later.

Xu Xixi was taken aback for a moment, but swallowed what she still wanted to say.

Yin Yi has a solid foundation and quickly finished shooting this long shot. The national teacher yelled Ka and discussed with her again.She listened carefully, and inadvertently raised her head to see Ji Yan, and said something to the national teacher with a smile.

The national teacher also turned his head to see Ji Yan, and waved to him.

"Old man." The national teacher is a little old, and the actors who are familiar with him call him that.

"Coming?" The national teacher has an easy-going personality, and watched Ji Yan care about the situation of "Bright Moon and Dark Clouds", "Is everything going well there?"

"No problem." Ji Yan smiled, "Thank you for allowing me to go over."

The national teacher shook his head: "There is nothing wrong with handling special circumstances. But I still want to tell you, don't ask for leave after that."

"Understood, don't worry." Ji Yan said.

"Xiao Ji, you don't know yet." Yin Yi smiled and said, "Except for special circumstances, which time did he fall off the chain, and you praised him for his dedication last year."

"It's Xiao Ji who I agree with at ease." The national teacher glared at her, "Is it for you to try?"

The three were chatting and laughing, Xu Xixi wanted to come forward several times, but couldn't get in the conversation.

The author has something to say: I have to work overtime tonight, so I will change it first, and there may not be a second change at night, because I will get up at [-] o'clock tomorrow [with a bitter smile]

Make up the promise that I remember it, and I will never forget it [a bitter smile x2]