live happily ever after

⑦ memory

Many things came to an abrupt end after Qi Yixuan went abroad.

Two days later, Shen Chen went to see off the plane, followed behind Zhou Xingyang, his eyes were all on him.He and Qi's father nodded and said a few words, then hugged Qi's mother.Then he turned around and saw Zhou Xingyang next to him at first sight.Shen Chen stared straight behind his back, met Qi Yixuan's eyes for a moment, was caught off guard and couldn't take it back in time, and lowered his head abruptly.

Qi Yixuan's eyes also dimmed.

Qi Yixuan walked straight towards him and stood in front of him.Zhou Xingyang saw that the atmosphere between the two was not quite right, and he probably had something to say.Find an excuse to sit with Qi's father and Qi's mother, leaving only Qi Yixuan and Chen Chen standing in place.

"I'm leaving."

Shen Chen smiled. "Bon trip."

"Hmm..." When Qi Yixuan was speaking, he clenched his hands into fists, and his palms were sweating unconsciously.

"When you come back, don't forget about me, brother!" Chen Chen smiled happily, naturally.As usual, he patted Qi Yixuan on the shoulder and joked with him.

Qi Yixuan was also infected by him, it seemed that what happened some time ago was imagined by Qi Yixuan out of thin air, it was fake, it never happened.

He and Shen Chen are still so good, and Shen Chen only likes him among friends.

Qi Yixuan's hand was faster than his brain, and he was the first to touch the tip of Shen Chen's hair.As if bewitched, he wanted to touch Shen Chen's soft hair again, to prove once again that that memory was really his subjective imagination.

But the result was unsatisfactory, he saw that the corners of Shen Chen's eyes were quietly turning red.

Qi Yixuan felt a little embarrassed when he realized it later.Some things just happen.Qi Yixuan covered his eyes and chose not to see.

Qi Yixuan silently put down his hand, closed his fist and twitched the familiar feeling of greed in his palm.

It was not until the boarding time was approaching that the flight was delayed. Shen Chen bought five cups of coffee and gave three cups to Zhou Xingyang, asking him to give them to Qi's father and Qi's mother who was being dragged by Zhou Xingyang to talk.He went to find Qi Yixuan with the remaining two glasses, and when he opened the door and entered the lounge, Qi Yixuan fell asleep leaning on the sofa.

Qi Yixuan hasn't slept well recently.Shen Chen looked distressed, and really wanted to quickly wipe off the two bruises in front of him.

Why not sleep well?

Probably because of him.Shen Chen thought, if he hadn't revealed his feelings, Qi Yixuan wouldn't be bothered.

The lounge was very quiet, Shen Chen knelt down and watched in front of Qi Yixuan, only hearing his slight breathing.I really hope that time can go slowly, and if the delay is longer, this person can be by my side longer.Only in the eyes can there be a strong and passionate infatuation, wanting to engrave every inch of the person in front of him in his heart and melt into his blood.

"I'm sorry." Shen Chen silently apologized in his heart.Saying that I don't like it anymore, but still secretly let out the surging feelings in my heart.

"The last time."

Shen Chen is so greedy, sometimes it feels like there is a bottomless pit in his heart. When he was in school, he hoped that Qi Yixuan would be by his side all the time. When it was time to say goodbye, he only hoped that he could take one more look at him.His greed can be many or very little.As long as there is Qi Yixuan, he can be satisfied.It was probably because he was too greedy that he was so embarrassed that he couldn't hide a secret.

Shen Chen closed his red eyes filled with tears, and pressed a kiss on Qi Yixuan's forehead.

This is the first time and the last time, the end is the end.He can't be too greedy, it's good to be friends.

The door to the living room was pushed open a crack and then closed quietly.

Qi Yixuan left.Zhou Xingyang also went to England, he originally went with Qi Yixuan, but he temporarily changed his school because of that person.

No one knew why Zhou Xingyang insisted on going to a British medical school to study medicine. Only Shen Chen knew that Zhou Xingyang didn't tell others, and Shen Chen also helped to keep the secret.

Zhou Xingyang said, I will go wherever he goes in the future, and stay with him all the time if we can't be together.

When Zhou Xingyang said this, he looked very reckless and unrestrained, but also very firm and uncompromising.It also made Shen Chen longing, he also wanted to go to the place where Qi Yixuan went, live in the same city and see the same scenery as him.

But he couldn't help it, he was different from Qi Yixuan, he packed his luggage and took the high-speed train from home to go to university in Linshi.

Going to another city, only Shen Chen was alone.He had roommates and met new friends.But he still feels alone.Often in a lively crowd, I feel like I am standing outside the crowd.

Shen Chen often looked at the photos Qi Yixuan sent him from the United States.But he felt that he could transcend time, space and distance, travel back into the photos, and truly stand with Qi Yixuan, feeling the same thing.

Qi Yixuan walked ahead with a dazzling light, casting a long shadow behind him, and Shen Chen walked behind him, stepping on his shadow, walking forward step by step.

Shen Chen opened his eyes, there was a vast expanse of sunlight outside the window, it wasn't dazzling, but it felt extremely warm just looking at it.

He dreamed about Qi Yixuan again.

In October, the weather gradually turned cooler.The club's orientation has also begun.

It was there that Shen Chen met Lin Huasen.

Shen Chen reported to the basketball club, looked down at the interview materials in his hand, and accidentally bumped into the person in front of him.

"I'm sorry!" The two hurriedly apologized at the same time.

The thing in his hand was not dropped, but Shen Chen saw the person's name from a piece of paper protruding from the outside.

"Hello, I'm Lin Huasen, are you here for the interview too?"

"Huh? Yeah."

When Shen Chen paid attention to him, he seemed to be also looking at Shen Chen.

"Then let's go in together."

Lin Huasen, whom I met for the first time, is gentle, elegant and personable. He always wears square eyes. His appearance is not particularly outstanding, but he is very attractive.Looks very gentle and polite.

Chen Chen had a great time chatting with him, regardless of his gentle appearance, the chat was humorous and often made Shen Chen laugh.

The days go by.He and Lin Huasen will play together and gradually become tacit partners.

He seems to have replaced the vacant position next to Shen Chen. The former person is far away in the sky, as if he has finally been hidden in a beautiful phantom in high school.

It was like a dream.

The city Shen Chen lives in is close to his home, and he doesn't go back often during holidays, but sometimes he receives messages from Qi Yixuan, saying that he has already returned home.

When I heard him talking, I always felt a deep sense of loss when I couldn't meet each other.

Sure enough, people who have nothing to do with themselves can always easily ignore the feelings of others.

In fact, only one semester has passed.Shen Chen thought, at the beginning he was the one who chose to avoid by being evasive, but now Shen Chen still can't be natural and generous, acting as if nothing happened, so he can't see him, because he is afraid that the things he has been trying to bury all the time When they meet, they will all return to their original shape.

Qi Yixuan always had no resistance to him.

During the winter break at the end of the first semester of freshman year, Shen Chen went hiking with members of the basketball club, and someone else took a photo of him. He and Lin Huasen stood together with their arms around their shoulders, smiling happily.Then he posted on Moments, and Lin Huasen gave him the first like.

Shen Chen looked at that Zan, and didn't know what he was thinking.Maybe he wanted to prove something to others, but such self-deception made him uneasy.

Zhou Xingyang commented on him. "My boy, you had a good life in college, you forgot about us, why don't you come back after Chinese New Year?"

Perhaps, Zhou Xingyang would understand him, and he gave Zhou Xingyang a smile back.

Then, he finally saw the person he wanted to see, and that person also gave him a like.

Shen Chen simply pressed the phone, got up and gathered in the large army.When I came back, my brother proposed to go to KTV to sing, and a group of people carried hiking bags and entered the KTV in a mighty way.Shen Chen played the game and was fined a can of beer.I felt something was wrong when I felt the stomach, Shen Chen didn't eat anything at noon, the alcohol rolled in his stomach, Shen Chen ran to the bathroom and retched twice, but he didn't spit out anything.After washing his face, he wanted to touch the phone, but found that the phone was not on him.

Shen Chen panicked, turned around and ran out, and met Lin Huasen who was rushing towards him.

"Shen Chen! You left your phone behind."

Lin Huasen panted slightly, and handed the phone to Shen Chen.Shen Chen was a little anxious when he took the phone, but suddenly heaved a sigh of relief.

"Thank you."

Shen Chen took a deep breath, looked up to see that Lin Huasen's face was reddish because he walked too quickly, and his breathing was a little short.Hearing Shen Chen's thank you, he grinned with a gentle smile.

"No, I think you don't have your mobile phone with you, so you must be anxious if you can't find it."

Suddenly, some subtle thoughts popped up in Shen Chen's mind, which were a little weird, and they were forcibly suppressed.

Lin Huasen asked him to wait for a while, and poured him a cup of hot water. Chen Chen really felt very uncomfortable, and the room was too noisy, making his head buzzing.

After Lin Huasen walked out, Shen Chen turned on his phone, and on the screen was a profile photo of Qi Yixuan.

It was taken secretly by Shen Chen. In a self-study class one day in the third year of high school, Qi Yixuan looked up out of the window, wondering what he was thinking, Shen Chen guessed, at that time he should be thinking, should we continue to break down that question?

There is an unread message in the message bar. "I'm going back to China in a few days, let's come out and meet."

Shen Chen looked at this paragraph with complicated emotions.I can't figure out why, Qi Yixuan always wanted to meet him recently, but he used distance and various reasons to evade it several times, anyone with a discerning eye could see that Shen Chen was avoiding him, but he seemed heartless Like, can't see it or pretend not to see it.

Shen Chen thought that he could just keep his thoughts in his heart and gradually forget them with the distance, and return to the original friendship with Qi Yixuan, but when the distance was widened, his thoughts were not weakened, but his thoughts became heavier and heavier.

An inadvertent text message, like an invisible tease, made Shen Chen both sweet and tormented, sweeter than Qi Yixuan's usual treatment, and tormented by his unresolved crush.In the eyes of others, university life is rich and colorful. Shen Chen learned new courses, still worked hard, made new friends, and lived a fulfilling life in the circle of friends every day, but only he knew that when the night was quiet, he could choose Happiness is a feeling that has become more and more intense, secretive and obscure.

Tossing and turning, missing the bones.

Everything else is just an illusion.