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Shen Chen followed Qi Yixuan, one step after another, he didn't pay attention to the stairs, his mind was all on the keychain, holding one in each hand, feeling a little emotional in his heart.

But he didn't want to, when Qi Yixuan turned around, Shen Chen bumped straight into him, Qi Yixuan saw that this person was walking with his head down looking at things in a serious manner, and originally wanted to take the things in his hand.As soon as he raised his hand, he touched a slightly raised object.

Qi Yixuan didn't have time to react, Shen Chen was afraid of falling and put his hands on Qi Yixuan's shoulders, as long as the distance between the two of them was a little bit closer, it would be nose-to-nose. Follow along with the heat.

Not to mention Shen Chen, the heat that had been suppressed with great difficulty surged up again.

It was Qi Yixuan who came back to his senses first, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and he withdrew his hand stiffly.

"Are you hard?"

Qi Yixuan's face was inexplicably hot, and he retracted the hand that touched it. The fingertips seemed to touch a hot potato, and there was still warmth. Qi Yixuan squeezed his fingers in a strange way, and made a fist.

Said something casually. "I'm not a woman, you can look hard at me."

Qi Yixuan turned around and went down the stairs.Shen Chen didn't dare to speak up when he heard this sentence in the back, and felt that it would be too embarrassing not to say anything, not to make a joke.Shen Chen's legs were limp, his heart was flustered, he could only pretend he couldn't hear and silently followed him.

Suddenly, Qi Yixuan stopped, and Shen Chen almost bumped into him again.Qi Yixuan looked back at him.

Looking at this, Shen Chen saw unbelievable emotions surging in his eyes, at that moment Shen Chen felt that he was finished!

They are finished.

At that time, Shen Chen hadn't experienced the subsequent harm, and the way of expressing his feelings could be regarded as very direct, not as predictive as later.He was able to reveal his mind in front of Zhou Xingyang because of a temptation, not because he couldn't stand the test, but because he didn't have those beating around the bush in his heart.

He was seen through by Zhou Xingyang, and his love for Qi Yixuan was growing stronger and stronger. He never had a chance to express his trust. He trusted Zhou Xingyang, so he was careful and even expressed his grievances that had been suppressed for a long time to express his feelings for Qi Yixuan.

Zhou Xingyang exchanged his thoughts with him, which gave him a little more confidence.

But Qi Yixuan was different.Facing Qi Yixuan's almost certain questioning, he was like a spring shrouded in heavy pressure, he couldn't breathe, and suddenly collapsed and rebounded.

Self-defeating, admitted.

That day Qi Yixuan was stunned for a long time before he understood what he meant.Qi Yixuan seemed to have been hit hard on the back of the head suddenly, and his ears were buzzing.

He never thought that Shen Chen, whom he had always regarded as a good friend, looked at him with such a mood, and when he saw Shen Chen's physical changes to him, he was afraid, even resisted.

Qi Yixuan didn't know how to face Shen Chen after the secret was revealed.

In fact, although Qi Yixuan is 18 years old and an adult, he is just a good boy who has just finished the college entrance examination, and his family education is almost strict.

He is a frog in a well.

He was at a loss for words.

He ran away.

Shen Chen's unrequited love was suddenly broken, and Shen Chen completely lost the courage to take the initiative to find Qi Yixuan.Whenever he thought of what Qi Yixuan said to him that day, he would cry with sadness, he would not go out at home during the summer vacation, and he would not have any appetite to eat, and would sit at the dinner table with tears falling into the rice bowl.No one can stand it anymore.

Shen's mother took him out of the room, nagged the whole time, and then drove him out of the house.

"Go, go, go for a walk, what does it sound like to stay at home all day, and it's not that you can't pass the college entrance examination. What else are you not satisfied with?"

Shen Chen understood the last sentence, Shen's mother was wrong, she thought that he could not get the ideal grade in the exam, that's why she made herself like this.Shen Chen vaguely remembered the day when he got the report card, Shen's father and Shen's mother were happy all night.

Shen Chen did not do badly in the exam, and he himself was very satisfied.

But he messed up his relationship with Qi Yixuan.

This is the worst.

Mingming raised his head and looked up, the sky was clear, but Shen Chen felt that the whole world was gray.Shen Chen sat down at the door of his house and received Zhou Xingyang's WeChat.

"Xiaochen, what's the situation with you? Did you two have a fight? Did you quarrel?"

"No quarrel."

It would be great if we could quarrel, that day Qi Yixuan left a sentence that made Shen Chen feel heartbroken just thinking about it, and then he turned and left.

Walking is not free and easy, more like running away.

What is a disease?Shen Chen understood that he couldn't accept his indiscriminate words for a while, but this sentence was always stuck in his heart, making his heart ache.

It would be a lie to say that I am not disappointed. The expectations and fantasies I had before have all become bubbles in just a few words.

Qi Yixuan is homophobic, he hates what he likes, despises him as a homosexual, and never wants to be friends with him again.

But Shen Chen still wanted to meet him, so he walked to his door, because Zhou Xingyang said that Qi Yixuan was leaving the day after tomorrow.

The plane in the morning of the day after tomorrow, go to the United States to study abroad.

The place where Qi Yixuan lives is not an ordinary house, but Shen Chen still came, instead of ringing the doorbell directly, he stood alone at the door and waited, someone who looked like a housekeeper came to ask him, Shen Chen mustered up the courage to explain to him why he came, He wanted to find Qi Yixuan, but unfortunately, the housekeeper said that the young master had gone out in the morning and hadn't come back yet.

Shen Chen's legs became numb after standing for a long time, the housekeeper shook his head and walked away. Shen Chen simply squatted down and leaned against the wall.

Not long after, I heard a few crisp laughter.Chen Chen felt that it sounded familiar, and when he raised his head, he saw Qi Yixuan and the source of the laughter.

Qi Yixuan followed Zhou Ting and walked back together.

Shen Chen was stunned for a few seconds before standing up while leaning on the corner of the wall, his legs were completely numb.

Shen Chen suddenly realized that he was impulsive and silly to run to his house so silently.

He happily went out to play with others, while he waited at his door all afternoon.

Shen Chen caught a glimpse of the floating dust around the pair of beautiful people under the sun, as if seeing his own reflection, he was so humble from the beginning, wasn't he?

Shen Chen's eyes were sore, he lowered his head, watching a pair of white sneakers appear in his sight.

Some rush.

"How did you come?"

Shen Chen heard the voice, raised his head, and from the corner of his eye saw Zhou Ting walking back and getting into a car.

Qi Yixuan's mouth moved slightly, and he wanted to say something, but when he saw Shen Chen raised his head, with red eyes, his heart was in a ball, and he couldn't say anything.

Just like this face to face, there are a thousand words but relatively silent.

Qi Yixuan wanted to say, you have lost weight, a lot of weight, how can you not gain weight while eating at home during the summer vacation?When the words came to his lips, he turned a corner.

"Why don't you call me and tell me? If you do." Qi Yixuan pursed his lips, "I won't go out."

Shen Chen wiped away his tears, stared at Qi Yixuan with open red eyes. "I thought you ignored me."

Qi Yixuan looked at him like a puppy who was cruelly abandoned by him, aggrieved and accused him of his cruel behavior.

"sorry."

Qi Yixuan felt unspeakable guilt, he knew he was wrong, he couldn't accept it for a while, said something he shouldn't have said, left Shen Chen alone and left.These days he locked himself at home, his attitude towards Shen Chen has always been a needle held by Qi Yixuan himself, stuck in his heart, not going up or down.He didn't dare to contact Shen Chen, fearing that Chen Chen wouldn't want to talk to him anymore.

In fact, the answer was obvious from the very beginning. Qi Yixuan just chose to ignore the frequent staring eyes, the secret note and Zhou Xingyang's casual temptation. He didn't want to face it, but he covered his eyes and pretended to see it. It was too uncomfortable not to see, he was afraid that he had misunderstood Shen Chen, and he was also afraid that what he got was the expected truth, so he seized the opportunity to clarify, but found that the vague disappointment and secret expectation were more than the resistance in his heart, Qi Yixuan He didn't even know where this expectation came from, which made him flustered.

He wasn't disgusted, he didn't feel disgusted, it was just that he became more and more unable to understand himself, which made him even more uneasy.

If Zhou Ting hadn't come to his house today and dragged him out of the house abruptly, he would have been bored at home alone until the day after tomorrow when he boarded the plane directly to the United States.

Shen Chen lowered his head, his eyelashes drooping and covering a small shadow.

"Do not blame you."

"Come in." Qi Yixuan opened the door, and the house was grand.Shen Chen looked down at the rag shoes he was wearing, didn't dare to look up any more, and followed Qi Yixuan directly to his room.

This is the first time for Shen Chen to visit Qi Yixuan's room, and it is much more pleasing to the eye than the outside decoration, perhaps because he entered Qi Yixuan's room, Shen Chen didn't look so cramped.Looking around, as he imagined, the room was clean and tidy, and there was a row of awards on the top of the bookcase, most of which were framed by photo frames.Shen Chen looked speechless, the things on the desk were neatly placed on the table almost like obsessive-compulsive disorder, just like him, he was a little bit obsessed with cleanliness, and he was meticulous in many aspects.Only the somewhat messy quilt on the bed seemed more lifelike.

These few days Qi Yixuan often lay in bed, and the day just passed by.Apart from eating, drinking and messing around, Qi Yixuan spent most of his time in bed, thinking about many things, and in the end he didn't know what he was thinking.Until she was forcibly pulled out by Zhou Ting, the quilt hadn't been tidied up in time.

Qi Yixuan seemed a little embarrassed. "Sit down, sit on the sofa."

Shen Chen didn't know if he had a brain twitch.Sit down on the bed with a thud.

"It's okay, I'll just sit here." Shen Chen finally realized what he had done, and added another sentence to try to remedy it. “The bed is soft…”

Qi Yixuan's face was a little hot, and he felt it was funny when he heard Shen Chen's stuttering explanation. "Then sit down."

No one has ever sat on his bed.

More than half of the summer vacation has passed, and since that time, the two of them have cut off communication, and they were speechless for a while, and the atmosphere became quiet and a little embarrassing.

In fact, Shen Chen has a lot of things he wants to say to Qi Yixuan, but he doesn't know where to start. During the summer vacation when he couldn't see each other all day, Shen Chen's heart and eyes are full of him, but he is afraid that Qi Yixuan will remember that he likes him when he mentions it. , there is really nothing to say.

Just keep silent and pretend nothing happened.It's just that they are relatively speechless, which is too uncomfortable for both of them.

It was Qi Yixuan who spoke first. "I'll go downstairs to pour the juice and bring it up."

It took a long time to go there, until Shen Chen leaned against his bedside and began to feel drowsy.

Shen Chen hasn't slept well all this time, now he smells the clean and pleasant scent of Qi Yixuan's quilt, closes his eyes, as if he is stepping on a cloud.

Familiar and reassuring.

Qi Yixuan did dawdle for a while, and after pouring out the juice, he went to stand on the balcony for a while, and sat face to face with Shen Chen again, a little flustered and inexplicable palpitations.

When he returned to the room, he found that Shen Chen had already fallen asleep on his own bed.

Sleeping peacefully, the sound of steady breathing miraculously soothed Qi Yixuan's anxiety, but it aroused even stronger throbbing.

Qi Yixuan didn't know what was wrong with him, he bent down in a strange way, getting closer and closer to him, Shen Chen was sound asleep, like a defenseless bunny, his rosy lips were slightly parted to breathe with a small slit .Qi Yixuan just stared at it intently.Even wanting to kiss regardless.

This idea is not the first time.Qi Yixuan was also annoyed by this thought.

Probably because he realized where he was in his consciousness and should not go back to sleep.Shen Chen opened his eyes, and met a face that was close to Chi Chi.Shen Chen felt that he must still be dreaming, otherwise why would Qi Yixuan approach him so closely now.

Shen Chen raised his hand to caress the face that he thought about day and night, revealing the greed and longing in his eyes.The owner of that face seemed to be in disbelief, and his body shook violently.

In the next second, Shen Chen was completely awake.Qi Yixuan stood up and turned his back to him.

"Yixuan..." Shen Chen panicked for a while, sat up and called him to stop.

"I'm sorry." He was still delusional.

"It's okay, you can continue to sleep for a while, I'll go out first."

"Yat Xuan!"

Qi Yixuan wanted to escape, but Shen Chen was afraid, afraid that if this continued, they would not even be friends.

"I will try my best not to like you, I will... I won't like you anymore, but there is no way now, I don't want to lose you, are we still friends?"