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Memories④

"Will you and Zhou Ting be together?"

In the evening when we were walking together with the bicycle that day, Shen Chen asked him this way. Maybe he had fantasies and luck, and he didn't even have the mental preparation for what to do when he got the answer, so he just asked him directly.

"No." Qi Yixuan looked directly at him, and denied it bluntly, but this answer did not make Shen Chen much easier.

"I will be with the person I like, fall in love and marry freely... I will not be like the previous generation, who treat my feelings as commercial chips. I only regard Zhou Ting as a friend. She is two years younger than me, and I only regard her as a younger sister."

Shen Chen had heard him tell the story of his family.This view of emotion is also established because of this.

That's great, Shen Chen thought, such a good man can't be destroyed by him, and even a little bit of deviation can't be affected by himself, so he feels guilty even for such a small temptation.

Qi Yixuan should be shining, but also ordinary, ordinary in the world.And those secret and undeclarable things will be borne by him alone.

"Yixuan, what kind of girl do you like?"

Qi Yixuan smiled lightly, and looked at Shen Chen. "I didn't think about it, I don't know what kind of girl I would like."

Qi Yixuan looked into Shen Chen's eyes, and caught the tiny rays of light shrouded in the afterglow of the setting sun.

Qi Yixuan thought, he should be like Shen Chen, with big eyes, loves to laugh and play, which makes him occasionally...inexplicably feel palpitations.

Shen Chen was stunned. "We will meet."

Shen Chen didn't know that his disguise was so bad, he was already trying very hard to restrain his feelings, and even at the beginning he unilaterally kept a distance from Qi Yixuan.Qi Yixuan's temperament is not an enthusiastic person, once Shen Chen intentionally distanced himself, the relationship between the two of them seemed to become less salty, and after Qi Yixuan found out, he deliberately wanted to get in touch with Shen Chen more, and talk to him if he had something to do. But always can't find the way, it seems a little clumsy.

All along, Shen Chen was the one who took the initiative to approach, just because at that time he was brave enough to do so in the alley.Shen Chen wanted to be nice to this cold tablemate, and wanted to be friends with him.So Shen Chen became distant, and Qi Yixuan was confused, not knowing what he did wrong.But Shen Chen felt distressed, Qi Yixuan did nothing wrong, he was the one who did the wrong.After the unilateral reconciliation, Qi Yixuan seemed to reflect on himself, and he seemed to be a little better towards Shen Chen.Qi Yixuan was kind to him at first, but it became even better after that, Qi Yixuan took the initiative to change to the seat by the window, at first he didn't understand his intention, until one time Shen Chen fell asleep during class, Qi Yixuan helped him close the curtains, Use your body to help him block the scorching light that comes in in the summer afternoon, and when Shen Chen wakes up, he finds that when he fell asleep peacefully, Qi Yixuan's back is covered with a thin layer of sweat.Shen Chen looked up at him and scolded him, "Yixuan, are you stupid? How can you block the sun with yourself?"

Shen Chen only remembered what he said at that time. "I'm afraid you'll think I've treated you badly and be angry with me again."

I'm afraid you will take me for granted, if possible, I also want to treat you well in my own way.

Apart from Zhou's brothers and sisters, Chen Chen was someone Qi Yixuan wanted to cherish, Shen Chen was different from the very beginning, he took the initiative to approach, he liked to laugh and play, he studied but was also serious and obedient.Lively and well-behaved, he is extremely likable, Qi Yixuan always wants to rub his soft hair, want to touch the little baby fat on his cheeks.He quietly penetrated into Qi Yixuan's heart like a star, illuminating the soft place.

Qi Yixuan was so nice that it couldn't be better.Chen Chen looked at him, the sunlight behind him seemed to be able to spread to Shen Chen's heart, and the heat entered the atrium appropriately, causing a certain line of defense of Chen Chen to be melted just like that, and then sinking and sinking, thinking, that's it Keep falling.

"I know...Yit Xuan is not...but I can't change back."

Shen Chen's face was pale.He twisted the edge of the test paper with his fingertips, so hard that his fingertips and joints turned white.

"I struggled too."

The words were bitter.The words he spoke were as lifeless as the color of his face and his fingertips that turned white with force.

"I know Qi Yixuan won't accept me, so I haven't dared to show it. I didn't dare to let him know. I was afraid that if I let him know, he wouldn't want to see me anymore."

The bell for the end of get out of class rang, and the last class was announced to be over, and the students around left one after another, only Shen Chen and Zhou Xingyang were left sitting face to face, motionless.Shen Chen lowered his head, his eyes were hot, and his voice choked up as soon as he opened his mouth.He didn't realize his gaffe until he finished speaking.He held it in for too long.There has been no one to confide in, and Zhou Xingyang poured out his thoughts to Zhou Xingyang, as if he could get temporary relief from it.

"Don't cry." Zhou Xingyang leaned back and stroked his hair with his hands.

"I'm sorry." Shen Chen took a deep breath. "I'm so excited."

Shen Chen felt his fingertips go numb, and when he let go of his fingers, a corner of the test paper was wrinkled and stood up a little.

After that day, no one mentioned this matter again. It was as if a very embarrassing confession had never happened. After the wind blew and the dust settled, everyone acted as if it had never happened.

In the blink of an eye, it was the college entrance examination. On the afternoon after the exam, Shen Chen walked back to the classroom alone.Isolate the relieved smiling faces outside who shouted for liberation and threw books downstairs with joy.

There is no reluctance to part ways, as if this is just an ordinary exam.Tomorrow morning, I wake up listening to the alarm clock, put on my schoolbag, and we can still meet at school.

If you don't see the blackboard on the podium, the number of days is decreasing day by day until it became zero two days ago.Shen Chen occasionally felt that the third year of high school seemed to never come to an end.

Shen Chen opened the backpack and put his own book in, he didn't want to throw the book out like the people outside, it was probably a nostalgic habit, some heavy things, Shen Chen wanted to put them away.

A book slid from a high stack of papers and fell to the floor, along with a small stack of papers.Shen Chen knelt down and picked it up.

It was a note that was occasionally exchanged with Qi Yixuan during class, and most of the content in it was where to go after class?How to solve this problem?What do you want for lunch?

A few bits and pieces of topics.Shen Chen didn't throw it away, but it was like a treasure. He was afraid of being found and still stuck a certain page in the book one by one. When Chen Chen did these things, he was a little childish, and the number of pages he picked was also page 520. Shen Chen Looking back, I laughed at myself, why I started to feel like a girl Huaichun, but sometimes it is really unreasonable to like this kind of emotion.The densely packed small characters slanted east and west seemed to be the embodiment of Shen Chen's little secret.

Shen Chen put the note together in the schoolbag.Hearing the creaking sound of the door opening, Qi Yixuan walked in as soon as he raised his eyes.

"What are you doing all by yourself? Are you going to memorize so many books? Who are you leaving them for?" Qi Yixuan said with a smile on his lips, but his movements were not idle, and he voluntarily knelt down to help Chen Chen tidy.

"I don't want these test papers. I'll take the books with me."

"Put it here for me, it's too heavy." Qi Yixuan put down the schoolbag and opened the mouth for him to put it.

"What about you?" Shen Chen turned to the first page of the language document and saw Qi Yixuan's name. "You have several books with me, and I don't want to take your books back."

After turning over a few more pages in the language document, it was completely blank.

Shen Chen handed over the book, and when Qi Yixuan raised his eyes, he saw Shen Chen handing over a blank stare.

Qi Yixuan smiled.

He raised his hand and stroked Shen Chen's head, wanting that little hair that always stands out from the crowd to show off again.When the wind blows, the poke hair is even more proud.Shen Chen stared blankly at Qi Yixuan's bright smile.Seeing himself reflected in his eyes.

Shen Chen's legs were numb from squatting, he stood up and leaned against the wall without daring to move one foot, his back turned to Qi Yixuan and exhaled hissingly.Only Shen Chen knew that not only his legs were numb, but the moment Qi Yixuan put his hand on his head just now, his scalp was also numb, and his skin went straight to his heart like an electric current, and his heart was also numb. .

Not good, no matter how many times I am immune to it.

Shen Chen faced the wall and thought about it, his ears blushed quietly.

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In high school, Shen Chen was actually a little tsundere, yet soft and cute in his heart.to be repaired