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Memories③

Like a simple secret love, it is sweet because it is close, and bitter because it is doomed to be fruitless and has a long way to go.Like most people, Shen Chen is also tasting this kind of secret love, but it's more difficult to express this thought than others.

He fell in love with his good friend who gets along with him every day, he is a man.

Sometimes Shen Chen even felt that he was still in that charming dream.Otherwise, how could the direction of the story be so absurd? Fate made a joke for him, leaving him at a loss as to what to do.

But he quickly accepted the fact that he and Qi Yixuan had such a good relationship, it seemed that this liking was a matter of course, he should have liked him that much.But after soaking in the hot spring together after that day, Shen Chen faced up to the desire he shouldn't have had on Qi Yixuan.Only then did Shen Chen realize that this liking was abnormal in the eyes of others.

One should not have sexual desire for a good brother, and should not have sex with a good brother in a dream, and it should not be joyful.

In the hot spring water, Shen Chen saw Qi Yixuan's upper body was naked, his exposed skin was covered with a layer of powder, and his hard and shaped abdominal muscles were hazy in the lingering mist.It reminded Shen Chen of the scene in the dream again, Shen Chen's throat was astringent, and the little brother stood up untimely.

At that moment, Shen Chen cried secretly.Fortunately, Shen Chen was held back by Zhou Xingyang to speak, and no one noticed him.He stepped back step by step until he ran out from the corner.

Shen Chen was wrapped in a bathrobe and squatting in the corner of the hotel entrance leading to the hot spring.Until a tall figure enveloped him, he knew who it was without looking up.

"What are you doing here alone?"

"Yixuan..." Shen Chen looked up at him, his eyes were red, he suddenly wanted to ask him, what should he do?But seeing Qi Yixuan's anxious look because he couldn't find him just now, he couldn't say anything.

"I am fine."

"Leave if you have nothing to do, meet everyone, don't you always clamor for a hot spring..."

Shen Chen let him grab his wrist, walked behind him, and looked at the back of his head.

Shen Chen thought, so be it, at least he can still be by his side like before, if one day Qi Yixuan discovers his ulterior secret, Qi Yixuan should ignore him, I'm afraid he will never come in a hurry If you look for him, you won't lead him along like this.

As time passed, the secret thoughts hidden in his heart became more and more heavy, and Shen Chen also became a little more sentimental and occasionally revealed it to the outside. He was happy and satisfied staying in Qi Yixuan, but he also felt lost because of this happiness.The smile that used to hang on his lips from time to time is also a little less, and the stars in his eyes seem to be covered with a layer of light fog, blocking the light.

Sometimes Shen Chen would think about being cruel, and pull away before everything was discovered.Keeping a distance from Qi Yixuan, even if he will be misunderstood by Qi Yixuan because of this, is better than waiting until Qi Yixuan finds out that he is alienated and disgusted, to the point where everything is irreversible.It's just that every time Shen Chen made up his mind, Qi Yixuan would pat his head and put his shoulders on his shoulders, and easily bring him back to his original shape.He couldn't resist Qi Yixuan's approach at all.

Just like that, while spurning herself, she yearned for Qi Yixuan's company by her side, and went on day by day.

Shen Chen was reluctant.Qi Yixuan was like a delicious pine cone dropped on a tree fork in a forbidden area, with unpredictable thorns along the way, while Shen Chen was like a greedy squirrel, secretly moving forward one step back half a step.

Just like now, Shen Chen was sitting in the back seat of Qi Yixuan's car, holding the corner of his school uniform with his hands.Once grasped, Shen Chen didn't want to let go.It seems that the road ahead is long, but Qi Yixuan can carry him along like this without end.

Such a seemingly peaceful life, flashed to the third year of high school.If he hadn't met Zhou Ting that day, Shen Chen would probably continue to hide himself in the illusion of self-deception.He almost forgot that Qi Yixuan has always had a childhood sweetheart named Zhou Ting by his side.Recently, there are often some gossips in school, boys and girls talk about after class, Shen Chen sometimes hears Qi Yixuan's name when he passes by, and Zhou Ting, who is only known by his name but not his name, is tied to him.He was just promoted to the first year of high school, and he never came to see Qi Yixuan when he had classes, but even so, there was still a sweet childhood love.Regardless of whether it is true or not, in the future they will also be a beautiful couple that everyone expects. They may really fall in love or get married in the future, and they will become a couple blessed by relatives and friends.

Qi Yixuan does not belong to him, Shen Chen, no matter how good the relationship is now, it is useless.

After the college entrance examination, Shen Chen couldn't see Qi Yixuan every day.Instead, there is a beautiful, cheerful girl who loves to laugh.

Shen Chen just watched Zhou Ting trot towards Qi Yixuan, and threw herself into her arms.

The basketball in Shen Chen's hand fell out of strength, bounced twice on the ground, and stopped wobbly at his feet.

"Hey! Chen Chen, do you still want to fight?"

"Don't fight anymore, you guys can fight." Shen Chen didn't turn his head, his eyes were fixed on the people on the edge of the basketball court.

Qi Yixuan pulled the little girl out of his arms. "Zhou Ting, let go, I'm not ashamed to see so many people!"

Zhou Ting pouted, expressing her dissatisfaction. "We haven't seen each other for a long time, and there has been no news since the last school started."

"Senior year, no time." Qi Yixuan poker-faced, sat down on the bench next to him, picked up the unopened mineral water next to him, unscrewed it, and handed it to the person walking from the basketball court with a slight smile.

Zhou Ting threw her hands into the air, and looked up at the boy who took the water.

The boy was sweating from playing ball, and the fine beads of sweat stuck to the hair on the top of his head and hung on his forehead. When he raised his head to drink water, his neck raised a beautiful line, and the accidentally dripped water rolled down his Adam's apple and flashed in the evening sun. with light.

He is a handsome and bright boy.

Zhou Ting sat down next to Qi Yixuan and teased. "Brother, who is this little brother? Why don't you introduce him?"

"My friend Shen Chen, your brother also knows him."

"You are Shen Chen! My brother often mentions you and says you are cute."

It was the first time in Shen Chen's life that a girl called him cute, and he was a little shy. He had never heard Zhou Xingyang call him cute, so he didn't know how to respond, so he nodded with a smile.

Zhou Ting's eyes disappeared when she smiled.Qi Yixuan rolled his eyes, Zhou Ting caught him straight and pushed him.Shen Chen couldn't help looking at the distance between them. Zhou Ting sat next to him with familiar and natural movements. It was nothing to a familiar friend. Obviously it was just ordinary contact. In Shen Chen's eyes, it was Another interpretation, the more you look at it, the more dazzling it becomes.

Shen Chen simply stood up and walked away.

"Hey, where are you going?" Qi Yixuan followed suit and stood up.

"I'm packing up and getting ready to go home, it's getting dark."

Qi Yixuan was stunned.Following Shen Chen and looking up, usually Shen Chen didn't wait until it was dark to go back with him on the same road, just call home and explain.Chen Chen didn't look very happy today, Qi Yixuan had an inexplicable premonition that Chen Chen was angry.

And it's about yourself.

"I'll go with you." Qi Yixuan picked up the backpack on his back and turned to Zhou Ting. "I'll call your brother and ask him to pick you up. I'll go first."

"Huh?" Zhou Ting looked puzzled, watching the two of them one after the other, Qi Yixuan followed Shen Chen's footsteps and walked to the parking lot.

Zhou Ting crossed her hands in front of her chest, looking suspicious. "has a problem."

Shen Chen didn't talk to Qi Yixuan all the way.I didn't even ride the bicycle, and the two of them just led the way.Qi Yixuan had sensed that he was unhappy, let alone dared to speak.

Shen Chen was really angry.Half jealous, half angry with myself.Angry at being insatiably greedy, she clearly wanted to understand from the very beginning, to hide her thoughts that she shouldn't have, and to be Qi Yixuan's good friend forever.But I can't help but feel the emotions that have always been attached to my mind.

Once you hide people in your heart, you will have expectations and fantasies.

There is no room for sand in the eyes.Shen Chen felt his heart was tangled up in a mess, which made his heart ache.

"How long have you known Zhou Ting?"

Qi Yixuan breathed a sigh of relief suddenly, Shen Chen was willing to talk to him, indicating that he was not angry with him, even if he was, it was almost gone.

Qi Yixuan understood him, and now his cold face and slightly puckered mouth looked exactly like the equation he couldn't solve in math class, but this angry look came and went quickly.After a while, there was a smile, and the eyes were shining.

"We've known each other since we were young. She is Xingyang's younger sister and also my younger sister."

"I've known each other since I was a child..." Shen Chen twisted the handlebar and repeated in a low voice.

Sure enough, what he saw with his own eyes was different from what he heard, Shen Chen only felt panicked.

"what happened to you?"

Shen Chen shook his head.Qi Yixuan thought for a while, he didn't know anything about the recent school rumors.Occasionally, a few words are passed to the ears and listened as a joke.But in order not to spread more and more outrageously, Qi Yixuan has deliberately kept a distance from Zhou Ting at school.

But he didn't mention it to Shen Chen, maybe Shen Chen also heard the rumors, now that he saw Zhou Ting with his own eyes, he was angry and didn't say anything about the situation.Qi Yixuan thought it over in his mind, and he probably understood it on his own.

"I have nothing to do with Zhou Ting, I only regard her as my sister."

"Huh?" Shen Chen was a little flustered by the sudden explanation, and his mind was in a mess. He felt that Qi Yixuan knew everything and was explaining to him, but then he thought about it, what reason should he explain? If he knew his feelings, Would you still stand in front of him and talk to him calmly?

Shen Chen felt that he was a bit ridiculous, and there was a hint of helplessness on his lips.

Qi Yixuan didn't know the twists and turns in his heart.Thinking that his explanation made Shen Chen finally calm down, he smiled a little.

"You also know, lately there are always rumors in the class that you are with the little junior sister from the first year of high school." Shen Chen came back to his senses and went down the slope, teasing with a smile.

"I'm with you every day, do you believe that?"

"Yes..." Shen Chen's eyes dimmed.I trust you. "

It was only recently that Qi Yixuan began to realize that the two people beside him were a little worried.The studies in the third year of high school were heavy, Qi Yixuan didn't think too much about it, he just thought it was too much pressure, and he couldn't say any soft words to comfort him, so he had some free time to suggest going out for a walk.

Shen Chen would be by his side, but Zhou Xingyang, who was always clamoring not to take orders before, was always absent.Shen Chen cherishes the time alone with Qi Yixuan very much. From the beginning of his secret love to the current third year of high school, Shen Chen began to realize that the time between him and Qi Yixuan was passing by every minute.

Qi Yixuan is going to study abroad after graduation.In the past, there were only pure yearning and longing before he didn't think about it, but now, the sorrow of parting soon after the college entrance examination came earlier and deeper than anyone else, Shen Chen didn't dare to reveal it, but whenever he looked at Qi Yixuan, it was It is difficult for others to understand the obsession and nostalgia that can be seen through.

But Zhou Xingyang noticed it.

However, it is not that he is sensitive.

Qi Yixuan was called by Qi's father to go to the company for a meeting, and he asked for leave for the last self-study class.

Everyone in the class was immersed in the test paper in front of them, entangled in endless calculation formulas.

The bird outside the window is free, the sky is vast, it soars in the vast world, carefree, without heavy studies, and has no worries more difficult to solve than calculation equations.

No, the thoughts of teenagers will never be solved.

Zhou Xing raised his brows with worry, Shen Chen looked at him and felt that he could see himself alone, like looking in a mirror.

"What's wrong with you?" Shen Chen put down his pen, waved it in front of Zhou Xingyang's eyes, and Zhou Xingyang turned his eyes away from the little bird on the big tree outside the window.

Zhou Xingyang shook his head. "It's fine, I didn't sleep well last night." Zhou Xingyang glanced down at Shen Chen's test paper, and he had already reached the last question, but his test paper was still stuck at the first question of the big question, and he could write a " Solution" word.

Zhou Xingyang became more and more uninterested.Looking up from the test paper to Shen Chen's face.

Shen Chen was born with fair skin, but he likes to play basketball, but he often plays at three or four in the afternoon without getting a tan. For some reason, Zhou Xingyang reminded Zhou Xingyang of Chu Lin in the class next door.

Thinking about it makes me a little irritable, but what I can't ignore is that Zhou Xingyang loves him a little bit.Because of this heartache for no reason, his heart seemed to be grabbed by someone, and it was sore, and the hands that were holding him belonged to Chu Lin. Pointing to a man in the distance, the tone was full of pride, and told him. "I like that guy, I'm here because of him, how? Are you scared by me? You'll never understand..."

He really didn't understand.

In fact, Zhou Xingyang and Shen Chen hadn't seen each other for several days. Just after the May Day holiday, Zhou Xingyang was delayed for two days because of Zhou Ting's illness in the hospital.These few days Shen Chen was with Qi Yixuan, thinking of this, Zhou Xingyang felt a little weird in his heart.

The relationship between Qi Yixuan and Shen Chen is too good.

Zhou Xingyang naturally met Shen Chen through Qi Yixuan's relationship. Later, the three got along well, and he and Shen Chen had a good relationship, but Shen Chen and Qi Yixuan seemed to have gone far beyond him, so far that Zhou Xingyang recovered. Found something wrong.

Besides, the way Shen Chen looked at Qi Yixuan recently, the things in his eyes were not as pure as before. Zhou Xingyang didn't understand at first, until he met Chu Lin and that man that day.

It was the same way when Chu Lin looked at the man, he was infatuated and sad.And when Zhou Xingyang felt inexplicably irritable eyes also appeared in Shen Chen's eyes, Zhou Xingyang became scared.

So he spoke. "Xiaochen, tell me, is there love between boys and boys?"

Shen Chen almost choked himself to death with a mouthful of saliva.He suddenly raised his head and looked at Zhou Xingyang with a look of disbelief.But Zhou Xingyang got the answer from such panic eyes, Zhou Xingyang's heart sank instantly.

Shen Chen was guilty and scared.It wasn't for nothing that Zhou Xingyang had been his friend for three years.

"Why do you suddenly ask such a question?" Shen Chen stopped coughing and smiled.

Zhou Xingyang thought, it's better not to smile, it's not good to be fake.

"Suddenly thought of it, what do you think?"

"I..." Shen Chen lowered his head unconsciously, Zhou Xingyang couldn't see his expression, only saw his eyelashes trembling slightly, and he hid his fluttering uneasy emotions when he raised his eyes.

"Isn't there a lot now? This kind of love is just not understood by the world, not favored and not blessed, but it exists. If you can meet someone who understands and loves each other, they will also protect it in their own world. There's nothing wrong with their feelings."

"But Qi Yixuan is not."

Zhou Xingyang watched Shen Chen's determined face helplessly. After hearing this sentence, his expression lost control, and he looked at him in shock.

"Xiaochen, you don't know how to hide things." Zhou Xingyang seemed a little helpless, and sighed. "It's Daxuan who doesn't understand at all, that's why he can't read your thoughts."

Zhou Xingyang laughed at himself.Did he understand it himself?If it wasn't for meeting Chu Lin, he still had some emotions that he shouldn't have, otherwise he wouldn't have noticed Shen Chen's changes at all.

I'm afraid he's about to lose himself too.But Zhou Xingyang is not afraid of bending, he just doesn't dare to be sure, dare not think.If one day he really bends, just accept it frankly, and then pull Chu Lin away from that man, wanting him to look at him like that, at least he won't let Chu Lin There was a trace of sadness in his eyes.Whether he is willing or not, he will never let go and never go back.But Qi Yixuan is different, his family is not as relaxed and open as Zhou Xingyang, he has a conservative father and a mother who comes from a scholarly family, he has been imperceptible, it is impossible to accept such a special relationship easily.

That's why he was even more worried that Shen Chen would be hurt. Before Qi Yixuan found out, Shen Chen should have killed his thoughts early.

"You found out..."