revolving light

Before Gu Nan had time to speak, he found that the person in his chest was breathing evenly. Cheng Xuan fell asleep very quickly. The moment he hugged Gu Nan, he seemed to have returned to a safe place ravaged by war, and fell asleep almost instantly. past.

Gu Nan was a little dazed, his worries, anxiety, anger, and uneasiness all turned into distress. He wrapped his arms around Cheng Xuan's back, and unexpectedly found that Cheng Xuan was actually thinner than he imagined.

He tried to make Cheng Xuan lie on the bed, but the arm around his waist was like an iron hoop, and he couldn't shake it at all. He was afraid of waking Cheng Xuan up, so he hugged Cheng Xuan into his arms in this position, and lay on the bed with him .

When Cheng Xuan woke up, Gu Nan was sleeping peacefully in his arms, his long eyelashes reflected on his fair skin, looking very cute.He just looked at Gu Nan's sleeping face, feeling satisfied and bitter in his heart. He hoped that time would stay in this moment for a long time.

"Brother?" Gu Nan moved and found that he was tightly hugged by Cheng Xuan. Cheng Xuan had a gentle smile on his face, but his hands did not relax at all, as if he was afraid that Gu Nan would disappear if he let go .

Cheng Xuan pressed Gu Nan's head in his arms, not letting him see his expression, and closed his eyes, as if he had made up his mind.

"Nannan, do you want to know what happened?"

Gu Nan's ears moved, "I want to, but if you don't want to say it, I won't ask."

"Nannan, Lin Xuan is my mother."

"Cheng Hao raped her when she was 17 years old."

"She was forced to separate from me after giving birth to me."

"She thought about getting me back, but she was threatened and intimidated by Li Lu."

"And then she killed herself."

"My father is a beast, and my mother is not my mother. My life of more than 20 years is based on the pain of my own mother."

"I'm someone who shouldn't exist, too dirty, Nannan, I'm too dirty."

"Nannan, I have no home."

Cheng Xuan said these words in the calmest tone, and Gu Nan felt pain in his heart. He didn't know how Cheng Xuan had been through this week. It's no wonder that Cheng Xuan disappeared for such a long time in his previous life. He came back soon, is it because of himself?

Gu Nan suddenly felt very angry, he wanted to look at Cheng Xuan, he struggled a bit, Cheng Xuan's confinement broke free this time, Gu Nan sat up, before he could speak, he heard something coming from outside the door The crisp sound of landing.

Gu Nan got out of bed, opened the door, and saw Wang Xue standing at the door with a hint of astonishment on his expression.

"Mom?" Gu Nan's expression was serious, "What is this?"

"I just want to send you some food..." What Xu Shi heard just now was too shocking. Wang Xue didn't know how to go on, so she just sighed and whispered in his ear: "That's not him!" No mistake, just stay with him."

Gu Nan said softly, "I know."

Back in the room, Cheng Xuan had already sat up, his eyes had lost the light, his fingers were tightly clutching the sheets, his whole body looked extremely fragile, even his lips were pale.

A bleak smile appeared on the corner of his lips, Cheng Xuan looked at Gu Nan like a sinner begging for redemption, and said, "Nan Nan, can you stop hating me?"

Gu Nan narrowed his eyes, walked to the bed, turned on the bed, directly pushed Cheng Xuan down on the soft bed, straddled him, and bit down on the pale lips.

The smell of blood permeated between the lips and teeth of the two, and the pain in the lips ignited the light in Cheng Xuan's eyes. He wanted to raise his arms to hug Gu Nan, but his wrist was pressed against the top of his head.

Gu Nan looked at Cheng Xuan condescendingly, with a look of evil in his handsome eyes, "Cheng Xuan, what do those disgusting things have to do with you? No matter what happened, it wasn't your fault. In the past 20 years, I Cheng Xuan also grew up clean, treating others with gentleness and courtesy, you can't forcibly take other people's faults onto yourself."

"You have no home, and I am your home. Unless you don't want me, I will never hate you, understand?"

Cheng Xuan's eyes were slightly red, his Nan Nan was so good, he hated himself, Nan Nan also said he was clean.

Gu Nan looked at him and asked, "Where have you been recently?"

Cheng Xuan let him control himself, with a hoarse voice, "I thought about it in the hotel for a few days, and when I figured it out, I came back."

Gu Nan asked: "What if you don't understand? Are you not planning to come back? Are you planning to leave me behind?"

Cheng Xuan said: "I will come back. I want to come back and tell you the matter. I just want to hug you at the end and sleep with you in my arms."

Gu Nan used some strength and asked viciously: "Do you think I will hate you after hearing this? You are ready to leave me this time when you come back this time, right? Why do you think so!"

Cheng Xuan's tears drowned into the pillow, and a smile appeared on the corner of his lips, like a holy angel in torture, "I hate myself so much, how dare I expect you to love me."

"The education I have received since I was a child is to always maintain a gentlemanly demeanor, to keep a sense of distance from others, to be absolutely rational, and to obtain absolute benefits in doing things. Absolute gentleness is absolute indifference. They are not close to me, and they are by my side. Do you know how ironic and absurd it is when you know this kind of thing?"

"When Li Tiangang told me, I didn't believe it at all. I asked someone to investigate and found more things than he told me. Li Lu, she has no fertility at all, so she allowed me to be carried back to Cheng's house by Cheng Hao. Hao has a lot of lovers outside, and it's disgusting to play an upright strict father when he returns home."

"Li Tian said that Cheng Hao gave her a sum of money, but she didn't want it at all, she only wanted me, but after being intimidated and threatened, Li Lu planned a car accident against her brother, although no casualties were caused, but It was a warning, so she compromised, gave Li Tian the money, and committed suicide."

"Li Tian hates me very much, hates everyone in the Cheng family. She said that I will grow up well and have good enough living conditions in the Cheng family. Let me think that Cheng Hao and Li Lu are the ones who gave birth to me and raised me, Li Tian asked. Why should I, yes, why. Why did she encounter that kind of thing at the age of 17, but I can live a good life for more than 20 years. "

"Li Tian took the money, fearing that the Cheng family would cause trouble, and let the two old people go back to their hometown. He kept his name incognito, and it has been like this for more than ten years. Why doesn't he hate that the once proud son of heaven has been reduced to such a state. "

"Nannan, do you still remember the note in her room? It means that no matter whether the child in her womb is male or female, the surname must not be Cheng."

"Nannan, my surname is Cheng."

A piece of the pillow was soaked, but Cheng Xuan was still smiling, as if what he said had nothing to do with him, a tear fell on his face and gathered on the pillow along his cheek, Cheng Xuan moved his wrist and loosened his grip .

He stroked Gu Nan's face and asked, "Silly Nannan, why are you crying?"

Gu Nan's tears fell down big and big, as if it was not Cheng Xuan who was suffering but himself, he only felt a special pain in his heart, pain for Cheng Xuan.

Cheng Xuan sat up, let Gu Nan nestle into his arms, wiped away his tears with his fingers, and said helplessly: "Good boy, stop crying, it's my fault, I shouldn't have told you so much to make you sad."

Gu Nan hugged his waist, "Brother, don't be sad, okay, they're not worth it."

Cheng Xuan rubbed his hair, "Okay, I'm not sad, let's stop talking, okay?"

Gu Nan wrapped his hands and feet around Cheng Xuan's body like a koala, and the two hugged tightly like this, enjoying the time after their reunion.

When the two went downstairs, it was Gu Nan's stomach that started to resist, and Wang Xue was still sitting in the living room, which surprised the two of them, but it made sense.

Seeing the two of them coming down, Aunt Xu brought out the food, and said with a smile: "Madam has kept the food warm, young master, Mr. Cheng, come and eat."

Wang Xue turned her head, her expression was expressionless, and she said softly, "Let's eat first."

Gu Nan pulled Cheng Xuan to sit down, squeezed his fingers, and said: "Eat first, my stomach is going to be very hungry."

After eating, Aunt Xu cleared the table and left by herself. In the entire Gu family, there were only three of them left. Wang Xue sat on the sofa, looked at the two children in front of her, and broke the silence.

"Xiaoxuan, Auntie first wants to apologize to you for overhearing your conversation without permission."

Cheng Xuan said: "Auntie, you don't need to apologize. As Nan Nan's mother, you have the right to know about these things."

Wang Xue's face became serious, "I feel sorry for what happened to you, but as a mother, I don't agree with you continuing to be with Nan Nan."

"Mom?!" Gu Nan yelled out loud, and was fixed by Wang Xue's eyes again, Cheng Xuan's fingers were placed on his legs and he suddenly grasped them tightly.

Wang Xuedao: "It's not because of your life experience, but because, as a mother, when I saw you disappear for a few days, my son was depressed and in great pain. This made my heart ache. Can you understand?"

Cheng Xuan stood up, bowed to Wang Xue, and said: "Auntie, I'm sorry about this matter, my emotions were not well controlled, and I was immersed in my emotions, which made Nan Nan sad I assure you that this will never happen in the future, and I will tell Nannan in advance wherever I go, so as not to worry him, please give me a chance."

Wang Xuedao: "What guarantee do you have? If something like this happens, you probably won't go home and live without a fixed place. If one day he disappears again, what will my son do? How long can you love him? "

Cheng Xuan said: "For Nannan, I will get Dingfeng, I will never disappear again, I will face all this, and I will love him forever."

Wang Xuedao: "I want you to promise one thing."

Cheng Xuan said seriously: "You tell me."

Wang Xuedao: "If you are sure and sure that you want to be with Nannan in this life, just call me mom."

Gu Nan raised his head and looked at his mother in surprise, what is this unfolding, why did he suddenly come up here, and looked at Cheng Xuan again, and found that he was also a little surprised, but his reaction was obviously faster than Gu Nan's, and he restrained himself. expression, and solemnly called out "Mom."

Wang Xue nodded, got up and said, "Okay, I have received your guarantee, and after calling this mother, you are a member of the Gu family, so go and do what you should do."

After Wang Xue turned around, Cheng Xuan asked suddenly: "Aren't you going to ask me how to solve this matter?"

Wang Xue said lightly: "I believe you can solve it by yourself, but you can't go to extremes, don't forget there is Nan Nan."

Cheng Xuan smiled and said, "Mom, thank you."