Song of Glass

Everyone has their own ghosts, and everyone knows this.

Jiao Wangyu sat across from Ying Zong, listening to the other party's words, he felt guilty and didn't know how to respond.

Facing the corresponding sect, he has many questions, superficial and explicit, which have troubled him in countless days and nights. For the first time, he meets someone who may be able to answer him.

Although, this person does not seem to be the ideal one.

Jiao Wangyu was a little hesitant, and also a little apprehensive. He was very firm and couldn't reveal himself, but he couldn't suppress his desire to see the truth of the mysterious world. What's more, he was also a person from that world.

at a loss.

Ever since he realized his sexual orientation, Jiao Wangyu has always been at a loss.

What he can and can do seems to be negative from beginning to end, denying his sexual orientation, denying his desires, and often even denying himself uncontrollably. This feeling is too sad, like putting people in hot water. Frying over and over again on the pan, the skin was scorched and the meat was rotten, and the pain was so painful that I couldn't even utter a voice for help.

Ying Zong is indeed not a good candidate for chatting, but Jiao Wangyu doesn't know who else he can hear what he wants to hear from.

"What are you thinking?" Ying Zong asked casually, and opened the menu at the same time.

Jiao Wangyu hesitated, but still hadn't figured out how to start his speech.

"It's rare." Ying Zong said this without thinking, and then called the waiter to come and order.

He didn't ask Jiao Wangyu's opinion at all, he ordered in one go, and returned the menu to the waiter.

Jiao Wangyu looked at him without saying a word, since he didn't know how to speak, he just listened.

Ying Zong said: "It's rare that someone is willing to eat with me."

When he spoke, he smiled and took a drink from the cup.

"Your roommate..." Jiao Wangyu suddenly remembered those rumors.

But he felt very strange, because when he first came to school, he had dinner with Ying Zong and Ying Zong's roommates. Although that party did not bring him any relaxed and happy feeling, he did not notice it either. Nothing out of the ordinary.

Yingzong seems to get along well with those people.

"My roommate?" Ying Zong laughed, "I had a complete falling out a while ago."

Jiao Wangyu frowned.

"But we should have done this long ago," Yingzong said. "Anyone who pimps will die a good death."

Jiao Wangyu had just picked up the water glass, when he heard his words, he was glad that he hadn't drank any water, otherwise he would have sprayed it out.

"pimp?"

Ying Zong laughed jokingly: "That's right, don't tell me you haven't heard my gossip."

He tapped the table lightly with his finger: "Your roommate knows it all."

roommate?

Jiao Wangyu's first reaction was: "You mean Song Qiu?"

Ying Zong was stunned, and smiled: "It's so kind."

He rubbed his finger against the rim of the water glass: "It's not him, he didn't talk to me about this."

What did you talk about?

Jiao Wangyu looked down at the water glass in his hand, the slightly swaying surface of the water made it impossible to see his face reflected on it.

He doesn't like this feeling.

Jiao Wangyu is actually very clear that he has a possessive desire for Pu Songqiu, and that desire has surpassed the state that can exist between friends. He also understands why this is, but he just doesn't want to think about it.

I don't want to think about it, but at many moments, I am forced to face it helplessly.

Just like at this moment, no matter how much he tried to escape, he couldn't escape the jealousy welling up from the bottom of his heart. The person in front of him had talked with Pu Songqiu about something he didn't know. What were they talking about?Chatting about Yingzong's extraordinary desire for Pu Songqiu or something else?

Has Ying Zong ever confessed?How did Pu Songqiu answer?

Did Ying Zong try to have a relationship with Pu Songqiu?Jiao Wangyu was sure that Pu Songqiu would definitely refuse.

It must be rejected, because Pu Songqiu is different from them.

"I'm quite strange," Ying Zong said, "You come here and don't talk much, don't tell me it's just to mess with me for a meal."

Jiao Wangyu licked his lips in embarrassment, he found that he was a little afraid of Yingzong.

Maybe it's because I have ghosts in my heart, so I feel that other people's eyes are particularly sharp, and they can see through everything and see through the secrets he hides.

Among the gazes he met, Ying Zong seemed to be the most venomous, Jiao Wangyu wasn't sure if it was because he knew that the other party was also gay.

"Senior," Jiao Wangyu took a sip of water and calmed himself down, "We don't believe those rumors."

Ying Zong was taken aback, he didn't expect him to say that.

"Whatever, believe it or not is your business, I can't control it." Ying Zong said, "Anyway, this is how the world is. As long as you are not willing to follow the crowd, there will always be someone who will point the finger at you."

Jiao Wangyu felt that there was something in his words.

"You mean..."

"Yes, that's what you think." Ying Zong looked at him with a smile, "It's a matter of choice."

The waiter brought out the complimentary vegetable platter, and Ying Zong picked up a leaf of lettuce and took a bite.

"Those who don't have the guts to be poked into pieces, it's better to hide." He laughed.

Jiao Wangyu listened, always feeling a little uncomfortable.

===============

In the dormitory, Jian Shao who received the reply said, "Let's eat by ourselves, the school's popular student Jiao Wangyu said he will be back later."

Pu Songqiu just came back from washing, when he heard what Jian Shao said, he asked casually, "Isn't he going to school soon?"

"Ah?" Jian Shao was a little surprised, "When did he say that?"

not long ago.

Before Jiao Wangyu came back, he had contacted Pu Songqiu, got off the train, and had been texting Pu Songqiu since the moment he got on the bus.

The two didn't talk about anything specific, but they just passed by a restaurant they used to have near their high school, where two cars on the elevated highway collided and got stuck in traffic for a long time, just now Jiao Wangyu said that he was going to school soon, Seeing the sky so cloudy, I always feel that it is going to snow.

He clearly said that he was going to school, but now he suddenly told Jian Shao that he would come back later.

Pu Songqiu frowned subconsciously, before he had time to dry his clothes, he went to the stairwell with his mobile phone.

He called Jiao Wangyu not because of anything else, but because he was worried that the other party had encountered some trouble suddenly.

Jiao Wangyu was sitting in a barbecue shop with few customers, watching Ying Zong open a can of beer.

Ying Zong asked him if he wanted a can too, but Jiao Wangyu refused.

Jiao Wangyu is not against drinking, but he will carefully choose who to drink with.

The phone rang, and the caller was Pu Songqiu.

Jiao Wangyu glanced at the caller ID, and immediately blocked it with his hands.

Ying Zong glanced at it, and he didn't need to look at the notes on his phone, he could guess who was calling just by looking at Jiao Wangyu's movements and reactions.

He pretended not to know, drinking as if nothing had happened.

"I'm going out to answer a call." Jiao Wangyu stood up holding the phone.

He pushed the door open almost at a trot, and the snow outside had already fallen heavily.

"Are you okay?" Pu Songqiu asked worriedly, "Jian Shao said that you will come back later."

"Ah..." Jiao Wangyu suddenly remembered Pu Songqiu's text message just now, before he had time to reply, he hurriedly sent a text message to Jian Shao after meeting Ying Zong at the gate, and then followed him away.

He suddenly found that he really didn't want Pu Songqiu to have any contact with Ying Zong, and he didn't even want to mention the name Ying Zong to Pu Songqiu.

"Meet someone I know at the gate of the school, let's have dinner together." Jiao Wangyu said lightly, "It's nothing, I forgot to tell you just now, you go to eat, don't wait for me."

Hearing that he said nothing happened, Pu Songqiu breathed a sigh of relief, and really wanted to ask who this "acquaintance" was.

But when the words came to his lips, Pu Songqiu swallowed them back.

It can't be like this, he has no right to interfere with Jiao Wangyu's communication.

"Okay." Pu Songqiu tried not to ask, but said, "Did you bring the flashlight? It should be dark when you come back."

"Well, take it." Jiao Wangyu smiled, "You care about me more than my father."

After finishing speaking, he felt that something was wrong, as if he was complaining about others' concern.

"Don't worry," Jiao Wangyu said quickly, "When I came back from home, you specially reminded me to take it with me."

Pu Songqiu was indeed embarrassed by his words, and also reflected on himself, feeling that it was indeed a little too much.

"That's good." Pu Songqiu looked at the snow outside the window, "Then we're going to eat, and you should be careful when you come back."

After finishing speaking, he waited for Jiao Wangyu to say "see you tonight", and then hung up the phone.

Pu Songqiu stood there and listened to the busy tone of the mobile phone for a long time, then said softly to the empty other side: "Honey, see you tonight."

After finishing speaking, his heart beat so fast that he quickly put away his phone and rubbed his face vigorously.

This "baby", he only dared to say it to Kongkong by himself in a place where no one was around, he dared not let anyone hear it, even when he said it, he felt an uncontrollable shame.

When liking turns into guilt, when desire turns into shame, every minute begins to be full of contradictions.

Pu Songqiu opened the window in the stairwell, blowing the cold wind, looking at the snow, he hoped that the cold air would wake him up.

Someone hurried past downstairs, wearing the same style of coat as Jiao Wangyu, but that person was not Jiao Wangyu, his Jiao Wangyu was having dinner with someone at the moment, and had a good conversation.

No, who said that Jiao Wangyu belonged to him?

Pu Songqiu scolded himself in his heart.

"Brother Pu, are you going to eat?" Jian Shao came to look for Pu Songqiu, seeing the man in sweater standing there blowing the cold wind, he could probably guess what he was thinking.

Jian Shao, who has no practical experience in relationships, is not a relationship idiot, and he can learn a thing or two after reading too many novels.

He walked over, patted Pu Songqiu on the back, and then closed the window.

"I want to give you a suggestion."

Pu Songqiu looked at him suspiciously.

"But it depends on how you choose."

"You said."

Jian Shao hesitated for a moment, but decided to speak out: "Tell me first, do you want to forget him, stop liking him, or just keep going like this?"

Although it was bad, Jian Shao still said to Pu Songqiu: "Actually, I suggest you choose the former, you know the reason."

I know, Pu Songqiu knows it all too well.

"If I choose the former, what can you do?"

"Divert your attention." Jian Shao said, "To like others, maybe for you, liking another... boy is better than liking him, right?"

Pu Songqiu laughed.

He laughed not because of anything else, but because Jian Shao was right.

"But as a friendly reminder, it is not recommended to choose Yingzong." Jian Shao said, "You two are not from the same world."

"Don't worry." Pu Songqiu said, "I won't choose him."

Pu Songqiu was silent for a few seconds, then sighed, and said with a helpless smile: "Actually, I can't choose this matter."

If you can choose, you won't have to suffer as much as you do now.

"I can't love someone else."

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-07-1407:25:27~2020-07-1506:35:55期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw the landmines: Xiang Bei, Qingming Yushang, and my lord;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: xxx-xc, 5 bottles of the screaming cow meow; 3 bottles of Chayu; 1 bottle of Yuanlouxi (Jiang Lin);

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!