Song of Glass

The most lacking thing in this world is people with courage. Jiao Wangyu and Pu Songqiu are very clear that they, at least in terms of feelings, are not brave enough.

Jiao Wangyu dare not recognize himself.

Pu Songqiu dare not be honest with himself.

They are all afraid, afraid that they will encounter difficult distress, and they are also afraid that they will cause trouble for the other party.

So I hide it and look for trouble.

After that day, Ying Zong never came to see Pu Songqiu again. About Ying Zong's rumors, Jian Shao suddenly became interested, and asked many people around the bush. The final result was that no one had evidence that Ying Zong did that kind of thing, and in the end It was Yingzong's roommate who started to spread the news. The reason for saying this was because Yingzong had a quarrel with his mother on the phone, saying that even if he sold his ass, he would not ask his family for money again.

Originally, Yingzong's sexual orientation would always be made a joke by others. When he said this, his roommate listened and didn't take it seriously, but some things changed when they were passed on.

One day when they were having dinner, they saw Ying Zong in the cafeteria. He was walking by alone in a casual manner. When they met them, the human rights seemed to be strangers. Jian Shao glanced at him, and then explained the matter to others. .

Pu Songqiu didn't care, he didn't even talk to him, the matter about Ying Zong couldn't cause any disturbance to him.

But Jiao Wangyu can't do it, Jiao Wangyu will hear it in his heart, and then he can think about it for a long time.

Just because of a sexual orientation, he quarreled with his family, was laughed at by his classmates, and false rumors were still spreading, which made Jiao Wangyu even more afraid.

He knew that he had always been a timid person, and if this happened to him, he would definitely not be able to live as chicly as Ying Zong.

However, that person really doesn't care, is he really happy and happy from the bottom of his heart?

I'm afraid it may not be.

Jiao Wangyu thought wildly all day long, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that he had to hide it.

One semester passed quickly, and it went from autumn to winter in a blink of an eye.

At the end of the year, everyone discussed how to spend New Year's Day.

There are four people in a dormitory, except for Pu Songqiu, everyone else goes home.

Jiao Wangyu asked Pu Songqiu: "Brother Qiu, you won't go back on New Year's Day?"

"Yeah." Pu Songqiu looked down at the book, "Anyway, the winter vacation is coming soon."

That's what I said, but it's New Year's Day after all.

"Wouldn't my New Year's Eve be particularly boring?" Jiao Wangyu couldn't imagine how he would feel if one day he celebrated the New Year alone and watched others reunite but he was left alone.

"It's okay." Pu Songqiu is insensitive to all kinds of festivals, "It's good to study hard while there is no one in school."

Jiao Wangyu nodded thoughtfully, but couldn't say anything else, and left with his schoolbag on his back.

Pu Songqiu was left alone in the dormitory. He took a sip of water from the cup that Jiao Wangyu had given him before, and continued to review with his head bowed.

On New Year's Eve, Pu Songqiu went downstairs to the cafeteria to pack a portion of noodles, and when he went downstairs, he found a red lantern hanging on the door.

While walking, he called his mother. She was fine, but the employer's child was sick and hospitalized recently, and the whole family was busy with work, so she was very nervous.

Pu Songqiu asked her to pay more attention to her body and not to worry about him.

At around nine o'clock in the evening, Pu Songqiu finished his meal, read a book, tidied up a little and was ready to go to bed.

Before going to bed, I received a message from Jiao Wangyu.

Jiao Wangyu asked: What are you doing?

Pu Songqiu smiled, sat on the iron steps between the two beds, and lowered his head to reply to his message.

review.

Originally there were only these two words, but before clicking send, Pu Songqiu deleted them and re-entered them.

I'm reviewing, how about you?

Jiao Wangyu was eating snacks and watching anime, waiting for the New Year's Eve with his parents at twelve o'clock.

The two of them just chatted through text messages, and Pu Songqiu, who originally planned to go to bed early, also sat there without going to bed.

Chatting with the person you like, time always flies by, it seems like hours have passed before you even say a few words.

At twelve o'clock, fireworks started to be set off somewhere outside the window of Jiao Wangyu's house. The booming sound of fireworks and the beautiful fireworks exploding in the sky made him a little excited.

On the TV, the host of the New Year's Eve party was shouting "Happy 2010", Jiao Wangyu also called Pu Songqiu, and the moment the other party picked it up, he smiled and said, "Songqiu, happy 2010!"

There is a lively world on the other side of the phone, but it is extremely quiet here.

Pu Songqiu looked out of the window, walked over to the balcony.

He smiled and chatted with Jiao Wangyu, then lit a cigarette.

He didn't care at first.

He didn't care what day he was left behind, he didn't care that he was standing in the corner when others were celebrating, he was never afraid of loneliness, and he never felt lonely, but when he was on the phone with Jiao Wangyu at such a moment, he suddenly felt very I want to walk into that world and stand with each other.

He wanted to worry about the rain.

It was also the first time I realized what loneliness is.

It was almost 12:30 when I hung up the phone, and Pu Songqiu had finished smoking three cigarettes.

He packed up the cigarette butts and ash, turned and went back into the house.

In the empty dormitory, he was alone.

He walked to Jiao Wangyu's bed and looked at it carefully.

The other party's closed wardrobe, the neatly tidied tabletop, the unpacked coat on the back of the chair, and the quilt that he forgot to make before he left.

Pu Songqiu looked up at Jiao Wangyu's bed, raised his hand, and finally just stroked the edge of the bed.

He stood there with his eyes closed, and rubbed his fingers lightly on the place where the name tag was pasted when he came to report. Touching it, it seems that the outline of Jiao Wangyu's name can be felt.

I still like it very much.

like it more and more.

This kind of close relationship day and night made him unable to let go of his longing for Jiao Wangyu.

He stood there taking a deep breath, the dormitory only had a warm desk lamp on, and he left his back to the light, his forehead resting on the edge of the anxiously looking rainy bed.

He wanted to worry about the rain.

Not only wanting, but also longing.

It's the kind of longing that both body and mind want to possess.

His desire has entered 2009 from 2010, and he does not know in which year he will die willingly.

Pu Songqiu tried his best to restrain himself, he tried his best to suppress his desire, but at the moment when the charging lamp ran out of power, his reason collapsed.

On the first day of the new year, the first dark night, the first night when no one was around, Pu Songqiu stood beside Jiao Wangyu's bed, and put his hand into his pajama pants.

When will this love end?

Pu Songqiu sighed helplessly, and finally thought as if giving up on himself, forget it, don't force it.

Do not force.

Jiao Wangyu stood by the window of his bedroom, looking at the sky where the fireworks had already ended.

He was still fiddling with the sneaker keychain that Pu Songqiu gave him on his birthday, thinking in his heart: Don't force it.

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Jiao Wangyu went back to school on the night of New Year's Day. As soon as he got out of the car, he saw Yingzong standing in the cold wind.

Ying Zong was wearing a black down jacket and a scarf. The whole body was tightly wrapped, but because he was too thin, he looked miserable when the winter wind blew.

Although the relationship seems to have become somewhat delicate for no reason, Jiao Wangyu doesn't like this feeling, especially when he knows that Ying Zong is indeed gay, he knows he shouldn't but wants to talk to him about something.

Jiao Wangyu got out of the car and crossed the road.

Ying Zong glanced at him and ignored him.

This made Jiao Wangyu very embarrassed, and when he passed by the other party, he still said obediently: "Hello, senior."

Ying Zong glanced at him and smiled: "Okay."

Jiao Wangyu looked at the other party, there was nothing else to say, he squeezed out a smile and prepared to enter the school gate.

"Hey."

Jiao Wangyu walked a few steps, Ying Zong suddenly turned around and called him.

"I'm going out to eat," Ying Zong said, "Do you want to come together?"

Jiao Wangyu remembered the previous party, he really didn't like it.

"Just myself," Ying Zong said, "you don't have to be nervous."

Ying Zong could see Jiao Wangyu's thoughts, and he could see the thoughts of many people.

He smiled: "Just find a store nearby, let's chat?"

"Talk... what are you talking about?" Jiao Wangyu's heart was beating fast, he didn't know why Ying Zong wanted to chat with him suddenly.

Although he is ashamed to admit it, he really wants to know about the world of homosexuality. He wants to know whether there are other homosexuals in this school or around here besides Yingzong, what kind of life they are living, and what kind of life they are living. What are you experiencing and facing.

Jiao Wangyu didn't dare to ask, but it would be great if Yingzong himself was willing to speak up.

"Just chat."

Light snow floated in the sky, and the fine and dense snowflakes fell leisurely.

Jiao Wangyu was a little moved, but also a little hesitant.

"Are you always like this?" Ying Zong asked him with a smile, "When encountering things, you are always hesitant, and you don't even dare to fight for what you want?"

Jiao Wangyu frowned.

"It's fine if you don't come." Ying Zong turned and walked on the sidewalk on the left, "I don't want to talk to you."

Ying Zong left, wearing a thin layer of light snow, looking very lonely from his back.

When Jiao Wangyu thought of this person pestering Pu Songqiu, he felt uncomfortable in his heart, but his heart softened and he finally followed.

Ying Zong walked in front, and he glanced at the person diagonally behind him from the corner of his eye, and smiled.

He didn't look back, didn't stop, and continued to walk forward with his hands in his pockets.

Jiao Wangyu's phone vibrated, and Jian Shao sent a message asking him when he would go back and if he wanted to have dinner together tonight.

Jiao Wangyu replied that he had something to do and would go back later so that they didn't have to wait for him.

After replying, he thought of Pu Songqiu again, and sent a message to the other party.

Ying Zong stopped in front of a barbecue restaurant, turned around and asked Jiao Wangyu, "Can you do barbecue?"

Jiao Wangyu was taken aback for a moment, then nodded.

Ying Zong smiled: "Let's go, I'll treat you."

Two people entered the store, but there were not many people.

They sat in the corner, Jiao Wangyu took off the schoolbag on his shoulder and put it aside.

Ying Zong said: "Actually, you really want to find me, right?"

He smiled and poured himself a glass of warm water, took a sip and said, "You people, why are you so interesting?"

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-07-1307:54:53~2020-07-1407:25:27期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: 1 peach sparkling water;

Thanks to the little angels who threw the mines: Ruyu, Huohuoyu, Xiang Bei, Gufan Yunwaishu 1;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 5 bottles of Ye Jiubai; 2 bottles of Shan Ruyi;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!