old love still

Kong Daixue hadn't eaten such a home-cooked dish for a long, long time. She savored it slowly, eating with relish, and the little scruples she had just now were gone.

Lin Zhongyue watched her secretly while drinking soup and beef with a spoon, and saw that she was slowly relaxing and eating, so she picked up the chopsticks with her right hand with confidence.

The two of them didn't speak, and the sound of chewing could be heard quietly, but the atmosphere at the moment was not embarrassing and bewildering, all the movements were so natural, as if they had been repeated many times; secondly, there was no greeting and teasing when meeting for the first time Such a meaningless conversation seems to overflow with a little harmony and tacit understanding in this silence, coupled with the lingering smell of food, it is even more warm.

When Kong Daixue was chewing on the shiitake mushrooms, she suddenly missed the grandmother who raised her. Since she went west... no one has made this dish for herself.She considers herself not an emotional person, but she couldn't bear the longing, her nose and eyes became sour, she quickly drank two mouthfuls of soup and suppressed it, glanced at Lin Zhongyue, and found that the other party didn't respond, so she was relieved Come.

"Click", the slight sound on the table interrupted Kong Daixue's thoughts, she stared at the cashew nut that fell on the table, looked at the trembling chopstick tip, her heart trembled and she looked at Lin Zhongyue's face...

And Lin Zhongyue felt her cautious gaze, the feeling like maggots exposed to the broad daylight came again without warning.She tried her best to maintain her calm, and tried to pick it up again, but the other pair of chopsticks got ahead of her.

She stared at Kong Daixue in surprise, chewing the cashew nuts she dropped on the table naturally, bit her lips and said, "This... fell on the table..."

"Oh, it's okay." Kong Daixue pretended not to care, put the cashew nuts in Lin Zhongyue's bowl and said, "Return you, don't dislike me." At the end, she smiled embarrassedly.

Lin Zhongyue pulled the corner of her mouth and forced a thankful smile, "How come..." She changed her left hand and picked up the chopsticks to eat before saying in a muffled voice, "Thank you."

Kong Daixue's movements froze, her mouth flattened and she didn't speak.That bitter smile was fleeting, and at that moment, she felt a pain like a needle prick in her chest... It hurt so much that she just felt that the delicious meal was tasteless at this moment.

It was in this mood that she couldn't understand herself that she settled her most formal dinner recently.In the end, Kong Daixue struggled to wash the dishes, and Lin Zhongyue acquiesced without any further excuses.

The faucet in the kitchen squeaked, and Lin Zhongyue could hear it clearly when she was sitting on the sofa in the living room, even the slight sound of the collision between the porcelain was very clear.She slumped her back that was always straight, and leaned against the back of the sofa like a deflated ball, unable to muster any strength.

The right hand clenched tightly and then let go, clenched again and then let go... There was only a slight crescent-shaped mark left by the nails in the empty palm.How many times has she thought that when she opened her hand, it would be a deep dent embedded in the palm of her hand, and there would be red blood permeating it, but every time it felt like this, neither painful nor itchy.The so-called persistence and exercise...is nothing more than a cover!

"It's finished brushing. Put it on the drainer." Kong Daixue walked straight out of the kitchen and sat down next to Lin Zhongyue.

Lin Zhongyue was taken aback, straightened up and said "Thank you..."

"Hehe..." Kong Daixue turned her head to look at her and laughed, "Why do I think this is what I should say?"

"……You're welcome."

"..." Kong Daixue folded her arms, looking at Lin Zhongyue's serious face, not knowing whether to laugh or cry.Why didn't she realize that this guy didn't know how to chat to the point where both humans and gods were angry!

before?

Before... what was this guy like?Kong Daixue couldn't help but toss up memories of the past; quiet, without too many words, eyes... not as deep as now and always with a green smile, most of the time they were together without arguing or arguing There is no sense of existence.

How is the memory so clear.Kong Daixue turned her head, not knowing what to say.However, the memory is not obedient and does not want to stop... Once she made an appointment with her to watch a movie together after work, but it was delayed for a full three hours because of something, and she waited for three hours on the sofa at the reception downstairs of the company ... She remembered that when she came out of the elevator, she was looking down at the book, with peace on her brow.There is no anxiety or complaint, as if she is sure that she will come, and the moment she sees herself again, she smiles like a blooming flower...

What now…

"Crippled"..."Lame girl"...

These words came out all at once, and the jumping dialog box seemed to be right in front of my eyes.

"Listen, I heard from my friend...you've been looking for me before?" Kong Daixue tried her best to smile but didn't dare to look at Lin Zhongyue. In order to make herself look more natural, she stared straight at the dark TV in front of her.

Lin Zhongyue's whole body stiffened immediately, and she nodded her head in response.

"That…"

"It's nothing important." Lin Zhongyue seemed to understand what she wanted to say and interrupted her. She shook her head and continued, "It's just... I haven't seen you for a long time... So... I'm sorry..."

Kong Daixue felt a little uncomfortable. Thinking of her dragging her legs to find herself, she pursed her lips and said, "I am the one who should say sorry." She smiled and said, "Actually, I should... wait until you meet to say goodbye."

Lin Zhongyue raised her eyes and looked at Kong Daixue's slashed side face, she slid her throat back and forth twice, and said lightly, "This is very good."

"Huh?" Kong Daixue looked back at her, not understanding what she meant.

"It's nothing." Lin Zhongyue smiled and said, "You...recently...you should take a good rest and eat some nutritious supplements. Overwork always hurts the body."

Kong Daixue smiled guiltyly and said, "Yes. I can catch my breath these two days, and I can rest. You are young, and you can recover after a night of sleep!"

"Don't harm your body just because you are young, sooner or later you will have to suffer, and then you will regret it."

Lin Zhongyue spoke earnestly, and moved her right hand subconsciously. This small movement did not escape Kong Daixue's eyes. For some reason, Kong Daixue's heavy feeling came over again. The difference was that it was mixed with a lot of warmth. Looking directly at her with the corner of his mouth, he smiled and said, "Okay, I will pay attention."

Just after Kong Daixue finished speaking, she suddenly found that Lin Zhongyue's eyes were looking directly at her... Both of them fell into silence, staring at each other's eyes, and the moment their eyes met calmly, they seemed to be attracted by themselves in the other's pupils , like two eddies entangled with each other, making two people sink into it unconsciously.

"Ding ding ding..."

Both of them were interrupted by the sudden and deafening ringtone, they both retracted their eyes tacitly, and both played with their hair helplessly.

Lin Zhongyue picked up a black mobile phone on the coffee table, glanced at Kong Daixue with a blushing face, and said, "Sorry, answer the call." She stood up, walked to the balcony and whispered something.

Kong Daixue calmed down and touched her hot face, feeling a little funny and unbelievable. She glanced at Lin Zhongyue standing on the balcony... The elderly phone attached to her ear almost made Kong Daixue burst out laughing.

This woman...is really interesting!How can I use an old machine as a backup machine.Kong Daixue didn't care to listen to her chat, she just turned her head and propped her cheeks to look at Lin Zhongyue's figure. She wasn't tall, but she was so thin that the butterfly bones propped up her white clothes like the wings of a butterfly.She didn't know what kind of demon she was possessed, and gradually the hissing and talking in her ears disappeared, leaving only the back...

Lin Zhongyue hung up the phone, sighed deeply, frowned deeply, and stopped when she turned around, and met the unexplained gaze of that person, she lowered her head and tucked the broken hair by her ear, and noticed from the corner of her eye After being embarrassed, the other party heard a fake cough and said, "Well... I should go too. Thank you for what happened today."

Kong Daixue stood up and raised her legs to walk towards the door.

"and many more!"

"What's wrong?" Kong Daixue turned her head to look at Lin Duoyue who was hesitant to speak.

"It's nothing...just, good night, have a good rest."

"Well... thank you. You too, good night." Kong Daixue waved her hand and left Lin Zhongyue's house as if fleeing, heading straight for her bed.

The moon in the night sky seems to be brighter and brighter than before, and the silver light spreads on the two adjacent balconies and overlaps with their indoor lights.

Trees and street lamps stood quietly, casting dim yellow lights against the swaying leaves, the streets gradually became empty, the eastern sky gradually darkened and deep, everything was quiet, everything was waiting for the dawn, waiting for the old city to be bustling again …

"So...you let her go home after serving her well?" An Xuelu sat on the deck and questioned Lin Zhongyue opposite.

"Well, what else?"

"You treat her like an uncle!" An Xuelu rolled her eyes and said, "And I warned you a long time ago, if this continues, you can just wait for her body to be collected!"

Lin Zhongyue frowned after hearing this, and said thoughtfully, "Yesterday, my little uncle called me, and he told me to give me another three months, if I can't have a clear and clear result with her , let me completely stay away from her..."

Seeing Lin Zhongyue's sad face, An Xuelu's silver teeth were about to be crushed, she pushed her hair back and said bitterly, "Three months?! I think it's too long. Dear, you clearly Clearly, it was not because of you that she broke up with you back then... You broke the appointment, what are you still struggling with? She is a person who is looking for flowers and flowers, and will not remember you who lay in one of her beds. You still expect her to remember you Is it okay? I paid you wrongly, so what if I give you another 30 years?"

Lin Zhongyue bowed her head in silence, her face expressionless, and after a while she raised her head and said to An Xuelu, "Wait another three months."

An Xuelu stirred the coffee, gave up struggling and said, "I think you are not only 'waiting', but also 'active'. Although you don't like it. Don't get me wrong, I just hope you hit the south wall as soon as possible, okay Reincarnate." After finishing speaking, she smiled helplessly.

Lin Zhongyue followed her and smiled, "Your mouth is really unforgiving."

"Hehe, who will the heavens spare? Those who come out to mess around will be stabbed sooner or later."

"So, the streets are full of people who pay to 'get knifed'."

"One can't expect a thing to live, whether it's a person or a joke." An Xuelu reacted for a while, glared at her and asked, "Are you mocking me for cutting my eyelids?!"

"...No." Lin Zhongyue shook her head innocently.

An Xuelu narrowed her eyes, and said with a sneer, "Lin Zhongyue! Your lying skills are the lowest I've ever seen! Worse than your chatting skills!"

"Am I really bad at chatting?"

"Yes, you've talked to death." An Xuelu looked at Lin Zhongyue who was about to ask another question, and hurriedly waved her hands and said, "There is no cure for this disease! Unless you meet a lover!"

Lin Zhongyue smiled wryly, "Can't you run on me with a gun and a stick?"

"No! My dear, you need my compass to pierce you all the time. Of course, if you acquiesce in my existence, isn't that the meaning?" An Xuelu said the righteous words, elegantly He picked up the coffee and sipped it with his little finger up.

"It's unreasonable and cunning, it's you." Lin Zhongyue said so, which made the woman on the other side even more proud.

"Thank you for the compliment."

Lin Zhongyue didn't continue to chat with her, "By the way, the newly made pastry should be ready, I'll bring it for you to try."

"Okay! It's delicious again."

"You can spare me at this time." Lin Zhongyue shook her head helplessly and went to get her pastries.

However, she didn't see how much An Xuelu's sharp eyes cherished at this moment.An Xuelu also understands that no matter how much she fights against an injustice, no matter how unworthy it is for her, there is no need for a second person to point fingers in her life.

People are always obsessed.Persistence can be ridiculed; faith can collapse; only hope cannot be annihilated.Even the light of a bright candle may bring people lost in the darkness back to the world.

"What a fool..." An Xuelu muttered to herself.

It was already one o'clock in the afternoon when Kong Daixue got out of bed.With disheveled hair, thick dark circles under the eyes, coupled with a listless appearance, he looks like he has been ruined. He dragged his feet and swept the discarded paper balls on the ground, brushed his teeth, washed his face, opened the curtains, put on makeup, and put on sexy clothes. The dress and heels…

It seems like everything is back to normal.

"Hey~ You dance so well!"

The woman attached to Kong Daixue breathed hot air into Kong Daixue's ear, and spoke in a low hoarse voice in her ear.

"I'm not as good as you." Kong Daixue said in her ear ambiguously.

They were clinging to each other on this noisy dance floor, twisting their bodies, and Kong Daixue became more and more wild, as if desperately venting something, but it seemed that the more she wanted to forget something, the more clearly she could remember it.

After she calmed down, that inexplicable throbbing surged up again. Since last night, she had a vague feeling that she had lost something, and her heart became more and more empty.

Kong Daixue was sitting on the bar counter, holding the wine glass in her hand, turning it around, the liquid in the glass swayed but could not flow out of the glass.

"Do you have a heart?"

"Does your heart... hurt?"

Kong Daixue held the glass, suddenly laughed at herself, and drank the wine straight down.

"Another drink? I invite you."

Kong Daixue looked to the side, it was the girl dancing just now.Looking closely under this light, with fiery red hair and exquisite makeup, one can tell at a glance that they are almost the same kind of person.

"No. Thank you." Kong Daixue refused uncharacteristically.

"You would refuse!"

Kong Daixue raised her eyebrows, "What's wrong? Is it abnormal to reject strangers?"

After hearing this, the woman leaned over and whispered provocatively in her ear, "I think we can... get to know each other very quickly."

Kong Daixue hooked her mouth, pinched her chin, looked straight into her eyes coldly and said, "But, I don't want to play 419."

The woman turned her head and escaped from Kong Daixue's bondage, her cheeks flushed slightly, and she sneered bitterly and said, "OK, you made it very clear."

Kong Daixue shrugged, "Sorry."

When the woman turned around, Kong Daixue heard her say, "You're a vixen, so why pretend to be serious."

yes!How can a person who pretends to be serious and has no heart still be confused and hurt?

When she got out of the bar, she realized that even though it was dusk, the sky was darker than before, and the air pressure was so low that it made her chest tight.She was walking on the street and was going to walk home. There were groups of people on the street, or a single person in a hurry. Walking on this open and straight street, Kong Daixue suddenly felt lonely, but she did not regret rejecting that woman.Seduction and ambiguity are things that she is more comfortable with than that woman, and love between clouds and rain is easier to deal with, but just now there was disgust and rejection for no reason...

The crowd on the street suddenly got up in a hurry, only then did Kong Daixue know...

It's raining.

She hurriedly hid in the eaves not far away, she patted off the water droplets on her body, and after a while, she saw white smoke rising from the ground outside.There was heavy rain, lightning and thunder, and it seemed that the rain would not stop for a while.

When Kong Daixue was secretly worried, someone patted her shoulder lightly.She looked back...it was the woman who disturbed her all night.

"Come in and hide."

Kong Daixue followed her into the store, and the lights were turned off everywhere, only the light at the bar was still on. It seemed that it was about to close and was left here by the rain.

"Can I make you a cup of milk tea?" Lin Zhongyue asked while busy at the bar.

"Thank you." Kong Daixue sat on the chair opposite Lin Zhongyue.

"You...drinking again?" Lin Zhongyue secretly glanced at her.

"This..." Kong Daixue felt guilty as if she had made a mistake, "Well... I just had a drink. Why is it so alcoholic?"

Lin Zhongyue looked at her constantly sniffing her body, like a child, why didn't she find out that she had such a cute side before, she smiled and said, "No. I also guessed."

Kong Daixue also smiled, "The guess is really accurate."

"Here." Lin Zhongyue handed over a cup of milk tea and said, "It's not hot, you can drink it now."

"Thank you." Kong Daixue took it and took a sip, the sweet taste gradually spread in her mouth, "It's delicious."

"Really?" Lin Zhongyue lowered her head and fiddled with her phone, then raised her head and said, "Thank you for the compliment."

"It's really good. I'm not complimenting you." Kong Daixue took another sip at the end and said, "It's much better than wine."

Lin Zhongyue fiddled with her mobile phone secretly, and only said when she heard this sentence, "Small wine is good for you, but big wine hurts your body and mind."

"Get used to it! But I suddenly found that I don't seem to like it that much."

Lin Zhongyue frowned lightly, moved her lips and asked, "What's wrong?"

"Nothing." Kong Daixue shook her head.

It was still raining outside, the wind was blowing, and the roaring gloom and the dim light here at this moment formed the result. Kong Daixue, who was sitting on the bar, felt extremely comfortable and at ease, and involuntarily wanted to relax without pretending.

"Are you ok?"

Lin Zhongyue didn't expect her to ask such a question, she was surprised and said, "Very good."

"I thought... after such a big blow, you would..."

"Depressed?"

"Yes." Kong Daixue nodded.

"I couldn't accept it before." Lin Zhongyue smiled, "But...it's over."

"You are really...remarkable." Kong Daixue said sincerely.

"Where is..."

The two chatted like old friends who have known each other for many years until the rain stopped.

"The rain has stopped. Let's go home." Kong Daixue looked outside Ken's door, turned her head and noticed that Lin Zhongyue was playing with her phone again, and asked hesitantly, "Are you worried about your girlfriend getting caught in the rain?"

Lin Zhongyue blushed and replied, "No! Just friends. Let's go home..."

Kong Daixue felt a little strange, and helped Lin Zhongyue lock the door, pull down the safety door, and walked side by side with her on the wet street.

"Xuelu, will there be a different result if you take the initiative?"

"Of course. But it's hard to say whether it's good or bad."

"Am I still eligible to take the initiative?"

"Why not? The aftermath of that little disaster won't be your passport to happiness."

"thanks."

"Don't thank me! I hope you die early! I hope you get dumped by her again."

"It's enough to be friends with someone you cherish."