old love still

This life is a dream, and no one knows what will happen.Drunkenness, life, and death before waking up from a big dream, Chumeng fell into a dream after the cloud and rain, and the things that were daydreamed and nightdreamed suddenly became Nanke Yimeng...

"I'm here." Lin Zhongyue stood still at a door and said softly.

Kong Daixue's thoughts were suddenly pulled back, she looked up, and there was a wall between this building and her home!

"You live here?" Kong Daixue asked.

Lin Zhongyue rummaged through her bag, and replied without raising her head, "Yeah, what's wrong?"

"No, I'm in the building next door to you." Kong Daixue hated today's meeting, and she lost her composure so many times.

"Yeah." I knew, Lin Zhongyue didn't say the second half of the sentence, but nodded with that gentle look.

"Which floor do you... live in?" Kong Daixue asked, looking up at the residents with the lights on.

"Fifteenth floor." Lin Zhongyue followed her and looked up.

"That's right, me too. But... It seems that no one from your family has come back." Kong Daixue just said casually, after all, she didn't want to make the ending of the encounter too rigid.

Lin Zhongyue kept raising her head, staring at the pitch-black glass and murmured, "If someone...it must be a thief."

"Huh?" Kong Daixue didn't realize what the words meant at first, but when she was about to speak, Lin Zhongyue took two steps forward and turned around.He shook the key ring with the cute cat in his hand and said, "Then... good night?"

"Oh, good night then." Kong Daixue waved her hand, watching the man turn around and enter the door before she walked back to her downstairs.

Back home, she lay flat on the bed after setting everything up. She kept recalling everything that happened just now. She felt that life was full of twists and turns. She never knew who and what she would meet at the next turn, so ah...or Think about how you can rest and work these days.

Kong Daixue's consciousness gradually became fuzzy. However, in a dream, she dreamed of the night when she and Lin Zhongyue proposed to break up. She waited for so long in the seat alone, and finally refused to answer the phone impatiently, and finally sent a text message. Just five words...

[let's break up. ]

The scene in the dream seems to be rewinding. From the waist-length hair of Lin Zhongyue I saw tonight, it gradually shortened, and then changed from the indifferent appearance of that person to a young smiling face tonight. Dancing in the noisy place... Finally, among the crazy swinging crowd, Lin Zhongyue's face was frozen...

Kong Daixue suddenly woke up, but when she opened her eyes, they were filled with darkness.

How to do such a chaotic dream?She sat up, turned on the light, and took a sip from the water glass on the bedside table.

This chaotic dream made her sleepless, so she simply lifted the quilt, turned on the lights in the living room, sat on the sofa and flipped through boring night shows for a while, and finally she didn't even watch the night soap opera that was scheduled, her mind was disobedient The repeated thinking of Lin Zhongyue and Lin Zhongyue's encounter...

In the end, she satirized herself with a smile on her lips. Could it be that she would turn her head back?Looks like it's time to start the beauty hunt.

After all, the new lover just wants to have fun.

She let the TV play noisily, opened the balcony door, and walked to the balcony to get some air alone, but just as soon as she took a step, she flashed back. She didn't expect that the haunted person in the dream was also talking on the balcony. Damn, Kong Daixue felt that God was tricking people.She poked her head out slightly to look at that person, her back was a little thin, and the crescent moon on her head matched her temperament, which made people feel a little melancholy...

Is she... sad?

In fact, Lin Zhongyue was also tossing and turning, with that nostalgic face repeatedly appearing in her mind.The helplessness and pain she felt when she was broken up, seemed to have reappeared, making her heart ache and... itchy.

She knew that Kong Daixue hated her dull and reticent temperament, and also knew that her love history was so long that it might take years to read it all.With that face alone, others would definitely think that Kong Daixue is a butterfly, and several friends have warned her that she can't play with this veteran in love, and even Kong Daixue's drunken friends have come to ridicule her as a moth to the flame, but... That is the woman I have admired for so many years!

Everyone knows that they hugged her for a while in the most beautiful time, but they don't know that they have been secretly in love with her since high school!So how could she not understand Kong Daixue?

Looking at her with eyes, she is indeed playful and sentimental... But it is such a person who handed her a tissue and hugged herself when she was most helpless and depressed.

"Hey..." Lin Zhongyue sighed, raised her right hand, and looked at her watch. It was almost morning, when she was about to put down her hand, her eyes suddenly touched a terrible scar...

The person she had been thinking about for so long finally arrived.And the most ironic thing is that he overestimated himself... this half-crippled cripple.I thought I had accepted this fact, but when I met that woman again, I was suddenly beaten back to my original shape by reality.After walking on the incomplete road for so long, those forcibly suppressed emotions suddenly surged up, and those deliberate neglects all turned into sadness when their eyes met.

So I still care about it!At that moment, I was like a clown who had nowhere to hide, exposing my ugliness to the broad daylight, like a poor man in distress waiting for disdain and ridicule, even if the other party did nothing.No matter how good she is at hiding her emotions, she can't hide the truth... The screaming and mania at the time of the accident seemed to be seen again. Once the negative emotions stuffed into the closed box were broken, they rushed to her face, vowing to grind herself to pieces.

Lin Zhongyue had a sore nose, liquid seemed to flow out of her eyes, and the soreness in her throat was waiting to erupt, as long as she opened her mouth, everything would come out.However, she immediately raised her head to look at the dark night above her head, blinked her eyes, and saw that there were only two meteor-like planes flying past her sight. She wiped her face twice with one hand, increasing the curvature of her lips.

Take a deep breath, spit out the haze, and suck back the indifference.Lin Zhongyue took two deep breaths on the balcony, feeling better. When she turned her head to turn back, she was surprised to find that the light next door was on, but there was a familiar figure on the ground...

"Kong, Kong... Daixue?" Lin Zhongyue tilted her body and poked her head.

Kong Daixue's body froze, being called back by her was neither advancing nor advancing.Seeing his own shadow on the ground, he gritted his teeth and stepped out without hesitation.

"I haven't been back for a long time. Maybe I'm not used to it, so I can't sleep. I just want to get some air." Kong Daixue is wearing a black suspender dress, so short that she can reveal the scenery below when she raises her hand. It should be very convincing to say that she can't sleep.

Lin Zhongyue bit her lip, did she see her look just now?Forget it, it's already the end of the road, so why run away...

She secretly sighed, and then pretended to smile lightly and said, "Have a glass of milk, you can sleep peacefully."

"Well, I'll have another drink later." Although Kong Daixue has long practiced the ability to show off tricks, besides, she has no intention of prying into other people's privacy, but she is generous.

Lin Zhongyue lowered her head and said softly, "Mosquitoes are very powerful in summer, you...be careful." She turned her head and looked at the side face of that person, and the emotions that had been suppressed so easily emerged again...

"Fortunately, I'm not very attractive to mosquitoes." Kong Daixue said casually, and looked down at her little nightdress, which seemed a little revealing.

Lin Zhongyue shook her head and said with a smile, "Really? If you need toilet water, you can come to me to get it." She knew that this guy would be perfunctory if he was afraid of trouble.

"Okay, thank you." Kong Daixue smiled slightly.

Lin Zhongyue didn't speak any more, she looked up at the moon, and the figure of that person appeared out of the corner of her eyes.The moonlight is misty, covered with a few strands of tulle, quiet and unique in the beauty of the night.

once having seen the best, the rest is not worthwhile looking.

I am afraid that the night will be like the sea and Wushan clouds in the future.

"Hey..." Lin Zhongyue sighed subconsciously.

After hearing this, Kong Daixue gently raised her eyes to look at the woman not far away. The light behind her hit her outline, as if she had painted a layer of golden light with a paintbrush. In addition, her expression was soft and comfortable, which made people feel Feeling a sense of sacredness and distance, such a person...what a sigh.I don't know what happened, but I suddenly thought of teasing her.Perhaps, just like a little girl always disassembles a Barbie doll to see the structure inside, the more beautiful and sacred the more she wants to find out.

"Sighing makes you grow old." Kong Daixue leaned her arms on the balcony and rested her head on her palms, watching Lin Zhongyue blinking her big eyes.

Lin Zhongyue's neck stiffened, she turned her head to meet Kong Daixue's eyes and lowered her head in panic.Kong Daixue has a pair of slender and perfect phoenix eyes, which makes her whole face appear alluring, especially her half-smile expression... This is also her common trick on people, and it has been tried repeatedly.

She admitted that she was a coward.

"I didn't expect to stay young forever. What's more..." Lin Zhongyue hesitated to speak, closed her mouth, clenched her right hand into a fist, no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't feel the pain in her palm.

Kong Daixue's smile froze, she caught a glimpse of her weak right fist, she suddenly hated her inferiority, she played flirting for a long time, but ignored the object!She scratched her head, thinking about how to ease the embarrassment.

Lin Zhongyue realized her gaffe in the silence, she clearly knew it was a joke and took it seriously, no wonder Kong Daixue hated herself, she hurriedly stammered and explained, "I mean... not always, she has become a fairy. "

The moment she said it, Lin Zhongyue's face turned red and then pale again, embarrassingly trying to find a place to turn in.What are these words!What are you talking about!She wanted to cry but couldn't explain any more, so she could only swallow it all into her stomach. She thought it's better to let Kong Daixue breathe alone after a while, so that she wouldn't spoil the scenery here.

With a sound of "噗嗤", Kong Daixue laughed out loud, and finally laughed while clutching her belly, the tears from her laughter swirled her eyes, only to find that the man was looking at her pitifully and incomprehensibly, like the eyes of a pet.

"What's wrong...I..." Lin Zhongyue bit her lip and looked at Kong Daixue.

"It's nothing." Kong Daixue wiped away the tears of laughter with her fingertips. She had never seen such a stupid woman, who made the stiff situation abruptly develop into capitalized embarrassment.Most of the women she meets are very good at chatting and flirting, funny and coquettish, charming or glamorous... I haven't met anyone who can chat to death!

"You... rest early. Good night..." Lin Zhongyue smiled, turned around, took two steps back to the house and immediately closed the balcony door.

Kong Daixue didn't react to Lin Zhongyue's escape speed, she looked blankly at the empty balcony, she glanced thoughtfully at the light on the balcony and lowered her eyes, smiled, then turned her head and looked at the balcony above her head. night sky.Arms propped on the balcony, cheeks supported, enjoying the unique coolness and tranquility at night, my heart gradually brightened, and the boredom just now was swept away.

She opened her arms, closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths. When she opened her eyes, the arc of her mouth matched the crescent moon on her head. She turned her head and whispered "good night" to the balcony next door. She turned and entered the room.

Lin Zhongyue didn't listen to Dao'an in a quiet voice, her ears were itchy, but she just vaguely knew it was these two words, but she didn't want to hear it again.Her forehead was pressed against the glass, and the cold touch made her thoughts extra clear.Her long hair covered her side face, her hands were hanging limply by her sides, and her eyes were only the tips of her toes and the edge of her skirt.

Suddenly, something fell from the eyes, and it fell soundlessly to the feet, falling to pieces.

Lin Zhongyue raised her head, she saw a pair of bright red eyes on the bright glass, she reached out and touched her face, she did it, it must have been an illusion just now.

It's an illusion.

She blinked her sour eyes and stared at her expressionless face, which became more and more unfamiliar, as if she was completely different from herself in her imagination.

Time will always give you feelings unknowingly, and subtly smuggle you to other countries. The turbulence and ecstasy during this period will make you feel like a world away in an instant.

Lin Zhongyue turned around numbly, dragged her body back to the bedroom, threw her head on the bed, her long hair was sticking to her cheeks indiscriminately, she was destined to toss and turn hard to sleep tonight.

On the other side of the wall is a person who sleeps peacefully in the dark. She sleeps soundly, and the depths of her dream are no longer the clouds and smoke of the past, but nothingness, absurdity, and no boundaries.

The next day, Kong Daixue slept until ten o'clock. She got up in a daze, washed up and put on makeup, which lasted for more than an hour. WeChat, talking on the phone, the standard for having fun is drinking and meat friends, which is also the criterion for Kong Daixue to find fun and relax.Kong Daixue also responded to everyone in the circle of friends. After all, she is good-looking and straightforward, so she is naturally popular.

She put down her hot mobile phone, picked up the charger to charge it after checking the battery level, and went to choose clothes in the closet by herself, thinking about what kind of high-heeled shoes to match.Finally, after thinking for a long time, she picked out a red suspender dress and a pair of black high-heeled shoes. She unplugged the phone that was charging, stepped on the high-heeled shoes and went out.

While waiting for the bus, she felt a lot of gazes cast on her. She calmly took out her sunglasses from her bag and put them on, and suddenly felt that the world was calmer.She glanced inadvertently, and saw a coffee shop called "Xiao Wang Shu". She remembered the coffee shop nearby that Lin Zhongyue had mentioned yesterday...it couldn't be this one.the name...

It's my favorite song.

She opened her bag and took out her mobile phone and earphones, turned on the player and listened.Listening to Faye Wong's ethereal singing, she was stunned.Everything outside the sunglasses looks gloomy and desolate, and gradually it seems that the world is only left with itself, standing among the ruins, not knowing where to go...

After waiting for an unknown amount of time, the bus came, and a group of people swarmed onto it. Only then did Kong Daixue regain consciousness, she took off her earphones, and was the last one to get on the bus.

When she got off at the nearest subway station, she took another four stops to reach her destination. She walked for 10 minutes to the Xiaolongbao where she used to eat, and another 10 minutes to the bar she often went to. You have to fill your stomach before drinking!Otherwise, you will definitely get drunk by those people!

When she entered the door, the boss warmly entertained her. Since Kong Daixue often ate it, the boss was impressed by her, so he exchanged a few simple greetings. As a result, Kong Daixue asked for two drawers of steamed buns, and the boss insisted on giving away one.

Kong Daixue looked at the three drawers stacked on the table and said wryly, "You are afraid that I am too thin!"

"Let me see, you are really thin!" The boss said with an accent of half dialect and half Mandarin.

"...I'm not suffering." Kong Daixue stared at each of the steaming ones, and her stomach was rumbling.

"Look, you're so hungry, eat it while it's hot! There's no need for anyone to come at this time, so I'll give you a drawer! Otherwise, I'd be out of luck if someone sees me..." The boss is a man in his 50s, with two His temples are gray and fat, and he has been wiping his sweat with a towel around his neck because of the heat. It is not a serious meal time and there are not many people, so he sits on a chair not far from Kong Daixue to rest, and keeps talking. Talking incessantly.

While eating, Kong Daixue figured out what kind of woman she was going to hunt for tonight, she didn't listen to much Mandarin in this dialect, she just nodded her head occasionally.

"If you want me to say, I think it's a pity that your friend is a good girl, why is her leg crippled! Why... hey! Fortunately, she didn't disfigure her face! Otherwise, she will be swollen for the rest of her life! I remember She came here once. She ate and cried! It's so pitiful..."

Slap!Kong Daixue's chopsticks fell on the table, she took out a new pair from the chopstick bucket next to her, and asked without raising her eyes, "Who is she?"

"That friend of yours! That's... that pretty quiet little girl."

"When did you come?"

"Ah... It was a long time ago! You used to come here often then!" the boss said regretfully.

"Oh." Kong Daixue stuffed the last bun into her mouth and wiped her mouth with a tissue.

"She cried so sad that day, but she still ate two trays. I wanted to ask her what happened, but I understood it at a glance. This girl...it's not easy."

"I'm done eating. Goodbye." Kong Daixue left money on the table and left without looking back.

"Hey! You paid too much! I agreed, I'll treat you to a meal!" The boss looked at the change in his hand, then looked at the back of the far away, and murmured, "They're all good girls, why don't they have different fates?" Woolen cloth?"